Li Wei locked herself in the study alone. She was trapped in the bureau and could not get out. If she hadn't had the experience of more than ten years, it might be fine, but after experiencing that kind of life, it would be difficult for her to return to her original state of mind.
Her thoughts are independent and she yearns for that kind of life.
There was a portrait of her eldest cousin from back then in the study. Li Wei took it out and unfolded it slowly. She clasped her hands in front of the portrait and prayed silently: Sister, when the situation here stabilizes, please bless me in heaven and let me go back there. Bar. I really don't like it here.
The day after Mrs. Fu entered the palace, Li Wei felt a little unwell. She spared the concubines from having to take care of themselves in the morning and dusk, and strictly restrained the servants, hoping that no more troublemakers would occur.
After two days of busy work, her body felt more and more uncomfortable, so she had to call the imperial doctor to come in for treatment.
Doctor Lu took her pulse through the curtain, and it didn't take long for him to come to the conclusion: Queen Mother, you have hurt your liver qi by thinking too much. Weichen will prescribe you two doses of medicine to soothe the liver and relieve depression. Take the medicine while recuperating. , it should be fine within a while. Please rest assured, Her Majesty. "
Li Wei was already lying on the bed. If there was anything she was worried about, she said, "Thank you, doctor."
Dr. Lu then went to write a prescription and consider adding or subtracting medicines.
Li Wei felt his head hurt, the buzzing was uncomfortable, and he felt depressed. After she lay down, she left the palace affairs to Concubine Jing to take care of temporarily.
Concubine Jing promised Li Wei's bedside: "Your Majesty, you can rest peacefully when you are sick, and everything will be done by me. I am a few years older than you, and have gone through many things, so don't worry."
What's wrong with her at this time? She's not someone who clings to power. She nodded and said, "Okay, then there's Mrs. Lao."
Concubine Jing takes care of the affairs in the palace, and she only needs to recover from her illness.
After Princess Jing left, Li Wei looked at the dim light for a long time and then fell asleep. In her sleep, she seemed to see Li Minghua and his wife, and her eldest brother, and everyone was crying. Li Wei thought to herself, am I dead? Then she saw another version of herself lying on the bed. Her soul could no longer return to that body. She tried hard to walk to her family, wanting to tell them that she didn't really die, but just returned to her previous place.
She couldn't see her second brother anywhere, and after looking around for a long time, she saw him playing the violin by the window, looking extremely focused. But she couldn't hear the sound. "Second brother, I didn't go far. You don't have to be too sad." Li Wei walked over and wanted to talk to Li Jianbo, but Li Jianbo couldn't seem to see her.
"I'm still alive, still alive..." Li Wei muttered, feeling like there was someone sitting next to her, but she couldn't wake up.
Li Wei desperately wanted to shout loudly, but found that she couldn't even make a sound. She seemed to have fallen into an endless abyss, and her body kept falling. The moment she fell hard, someone caught her.
She heard the source of the voice: "Awei, Awei!"
Li Wei fluttered her eyelashes and finally opened her eyelids. The firelight from the candlestick illuminated the room brightly. There was a person sitting in front of her bed. The person was wearing a blue satin robe with sunflower patterns embroidered on the satin, and a black round hat on his head.
It's a chamberlain! But which chambermaid would have the guts to sit in front of her bed and hold her hand.
His face was in the shadows and he couldn't see clearly, but Li Wei already understood. He shrank towards the bed in fear, then sat up and said angrily: "If you want to die, don't pull me in." What are you doing here at my bedside at night? I'm afraid I'll die seven or eight times if someone sees you."
However, Zhao Qian didn't seem to care at all. He could change into the eunuch's clothes and go to Li Wei's dormitory to cover up others' eyes, so he naturally had a way to get out. He still said calmly: "I heard that you were sick, so I came to see you. No one knows, don't worry."
Don't worry, don't worry, only ghosts can rest assured. What are the identities of the two of them now? ! The people in the former harem were all staring at them, and the people of Daqi were all staring at them. If something happened, there would be no room for them here.
"Don't be nervous, don't be afraid, I'll leave after saying a few words to you, don't worry."
"If you have something you can't say during the day, you have to come to my bed at night."
Naturally, some things are not convenient to say in broad daylight. When Zhao Qian saw Li Wei's attitude of rejecting others, he understood that they were back to the past. No amount of tender words he said at this time would help. Zhao Qian thought for a while and then said: "Awei, why don't we go back? This place is not suitable for us. I am still an actor, and you are still your host. Although I don't have any power, I live a comfortable life at least. We are all aboveboard. Together, no one else will say anything.”
"You can go back just like that, but it's not that easy."
Zhao Qian asked Li Wei to stretch out his hand, and Li Wei extended his right hand as he asked.
Zhao Qian could clearly see that when Li Wei was unconscious, the ring he put on was still there. He tried to take off the ring, but it seemed to grow on her finger. I couldn't take it off at all. I used too much force and worried about hurting Li Wei.
Li Wei retracted his hand, shook his head and said: "It's useless, it can't be taken off. Is this the ring that brought us back?"
"Yes, this is a ring full of divine power. But now it seems that it may not be effective." Zhao Qian's last hope was shattered.
Li Wei accepted the fact faster than Zhao Qian. She said calmly: "Forget it if I can't go back. I must be dead in that world. I saw them in my dream just now, but they couldn't see me at all. "You can't hear me." Li Wei looked up at Zhao Qian and said, "Since I can't go back, why not just live well here?"
"No, I don't want it."
Why is this person so stubborn? Li Wei said angrily: "If you don't want it, what do you want? Do you think it's so easy to go back? You can't see the reality clearly. What else can we do except accept it now? "
Zhao Qian looked at her with deep eyes and a hint of unwillingness: "Awei, I want to be with you." His tone was so firm, without any hesitation.
Under his intense gaze, Li Wei did not dare to look directly into his eyes anymore and turned his head to look elsewhere.
"Remember, you are the regent now and I am the queen mother. This is a fact that cannot be changed. Let us recognize each other's identities. I am a timid and cowardly person who cannot do anything extraordinary. I also have something to protect. Please, please accept this arrangement."
Zhao Qian stood up, got off the bed and turned around. The night outside is dark.
It would be nice if he didn't reveal his feelings to her. In this case, maybe she would never know how much he loved her. It would be enough for him to bear these tortures silently.
"Prince Regent, please kneel down."
Zhao Qian stood with his back to her. After a long time, he turned his head slightly and said, "Please take care of yourself and don't worry about anything. I will guard this country for you and the emperor."
"Good work."
There was a slight cough under the window, and it seemed that it was time to leave. Zhao Qian finally faced her again, bowed deeply to her, and then turned and left.
The curtain shook slightly, and his figure was no longer visible. There was no trace of him in the room anymore. Li Wei lay down again, as if she was just in a dream, she closed her eyes again.
Since they can no longer go back, they should recognize the reality and return to their original identities. For them this is the best outcome. She should have thrown away those emotions she shouldn't have long ago.
(End of chapter)