"What else can you do if you can't let go of me? Zhao Qian, this is Daqi. It's not that era. We are destined not to be together." Li Wei said to Zhao Qian fiercely.
Zhao Qian grabbed Li Wei's wrist and said with a little force: "Have you received all the letters I wrote to you?"
"Got it, so what?"
"I have made it clear in the letter, as long as you stand behind me. I will create the future." Zhao Qian said sonorously and firmly. He just needs to confirm Li Wei's intentions. In Zhao Qian's opinion, as long as the two of them have the same mind, no matter how big the difficulties they encounter, they will be solved.
As Zhao Qian spoke, he lowered his head and pressed Li Wei's trembling lips together. Li Wei wanted to get out of the way, but Zhao Qian's power was much greater than hers. Coupled with his strength, Li Wei couldn't stand it in the small carriage. There is nowhere to hide.
After being forcefully kissed by him, Li Wei's eyes became moist. She knew in her heart what she wanted, or what she could want. To survive in this era, you must abide by the rules of this era. The shackles of identity forever bound them, and they also pushed her to the bottom early. Love has long become something unattainable for her.
Li Wei also thinks that it is a useless emotion. Since it is useless, it is better to throw it away as soon as possible.
Facing Zhao Qian's enthusiasm again, Li Wei hesitated. She turned her face away, not wanting him to see the vulnerability in her eyes.
"Zhao Qian, it's over between us a long time ago. Don't you know?"
"It's over... What does this mean?" Zhao Qian asked.
"From the day we came back, it was destined to be impossible between us. You may say that I am a coward, but I don't have the courage to respond to you this time. I'm sorry."
"Then I am... what they call lovelorn?"
Li Wei didn't give an answer, and the car fell into silence.
The two of them were obviously sitting next to each other, but at this moment they seemed like strangers who happened to get into the same car in a hurry. Each holds his own thoughts.
I don’t know how long it took, but it seemed that the car had entered the Zhuque Gate, and Zhao Qian suddenly said to Li Wei: "Awei, I love you very much, and it has never changed from the past to the present. What about you? Have you ever loved me?" "
There was a dull pain in her chest, but no matter how painful it was, she had to tell him her thoughts clearly, and she would cruelly cut off all his thoughts.
"Sorry, no."
As these words passed by, the car became unusually quiet again. The sound of wheels moving across the road became clearer. After walking for a while, the car stopped. Zhao Qian was about to open the door and get out of the car. Before getting out, he suddenly turned around and said to Li Wei: "Thank you for telling me. No matter what happens in the future, I will always remember the heavy snow in Scotland."
Li Wei looked a little flustered, but she quickly calmed down. She is a person of this era and the mother of this dynasty. Even as the mother of the country, there are some things that she cannot imagine. In this way, it can be cut cleanly and very well.
She got off the car and happened to be at Longqing Gate. Li Wei entered the door, but Zhao Qian turned away and no longer watched her go away.
Li Wei lowered her head and walked quickly. As she walked, her eyes always felt sore. She kept using her sleeves to wipe the moisture that kept pouring out of her face.
She is a clumsy fool in love. Just like Jiang Yunfeng said, she has never opened her heart to accept anyone. In terms of love between men and women, she has never loved anyone, and she doesn't know how to love someone. Whether it was the boy she could no longer name who was chasing after her in college, or when she faced Li Jianbo's confession later, or even when she was with Zhao Qian, even if the two of them were completely different, Without the barrier, she didn't know how to love him. Maybe she has never loved anyone, including Zhao Qian.
Li Wei came to such a conclusion privately.
When she came to her senses, she was already standing in the courtyard of Chongqing Palace. Later, Lan Hui came out and pulled her into the house quickly to change clothes with her.
"Your Majesty, the Concubine came once after you left. The slave said that you felt a little unhappy last night and wanted to sleep longer in the afternoon, so she asked her to go back first. Later, Concubine Dun came over, and the slave replied with the same words. She. Everything is very thorough and no one knows that you have left the palace quietly."
Li Wei felt a buzzing in her ears, but she didn't hear a word of what Lan Hui said. No matter whether Lan Hui changed her clothes or combed her hair, she cooperated with her, just like a puppet on strings.
After getting dressed again, Lan Hui was still waiting in front of her. From the moment Li Wei came back, Li Wei didn't say a word. The look on her face was extremely indifferent, the kind of indifference that would repel people thousands of miles away. .
Li Wei went to the study room and sat there for a while. She was alone in there, and took out the painting of the White Deer Cave to look at it. She spent the whole afternoon looking at it.
Until Shujia and Li Xing came back from Wenhua Pavilion.
The two of them came to Li Wei to say hello, and Li Wei seemed to have regained his composure.
"Is school over?"
Shujia misheard Li Wei's words, tilted her head and asked her: "Mother, will it really snow today? It's already windy outside and it's really cold. The sun has hidden behind the clouds, is it going to snow?" Where’s the snow?”
It’s already the fourteenth day of winter here, but the first snow has not yet arrived. This is a warm winter.
Li Wei listened to the princess's charming words and then calmed down and said to her: "Maybe it will rain at night."
Li Xing said at the side: "It snowed very heavily in the past few days last year. I don't know if it will snow this year."
It also snowed heavily on the day the late emperor passed away last year, which was about the same size as the snow in Scotland.
After dinner, Shujia pestered Li Wei and said she wanted to sleep together with her. The little guy will become more clingy in cold weather. Li Wei did not push Shujia away and agreed to her request.
Shujia looked very happy. Her maids were busy bringing Shujia's pillows and bedding and laying them out. Shujia smelled the sweet smell of the quilt Li Wei was covering and asked Li Wei: "Mother, what kind of fragrance do you smoke? My son also likes this smell."
"They made a lot of spices. Go back and get a few boxes and smoke them slowly." Li Wei said and stretched out his right hand. The ring with seven treasures on his index finger was still on it.
"This ring is weird, Queen Mother."
"Doesn't it look good?"
Shujia said truthfully: "It doesn't look very good, but why does the queen still wear it every day?"
Li Wei said helplessly: "I want to take it off too, but I can't."
Shujia didn't believe it, so she went to help pick it off, but no matter how Shujia turned the ring, it seemed as if it had grown on her hand, there was nothing she could do.
Li Wei looked at the ring on her hand quietly, thinking that this ring sent her to that era and brought her back. Can she still go to that era? Maybe she can't go back. It's been almost a year, and she has to die. Just quietly accept your fate.
The heroine is not pretentious, she is just a love-struck person who has been escaping from her true inner self.
(End of chapter)