Last time she left in too much of a hurry and couldn't say goodbye to her mother properly, but this time she finally caught up.
"Mom, you don't have to be too sad for me. Life can be long or short, it's all God's will. Although I have just passed twenty-one years, my life has been hasty, but I grew up in your care since I was a child, and I have enjoyed all the glory and wealth. All my motherly love is just an unfilial act as a daughter, and I cannot repay you properly."
Mrs. Fu felt even more uncomfortable after hearing these heart-wrenching words. Tears fell from her eyes, and she had to comfort Li Wei again.
"Stop talking, stop talking." Mrs. Fu burst into tears.
Lan Hui and Qingxiang were guarding outside. When they heard the commotion inside, they came in to persuade.
It took a while for the two of them to calm down.
Li Wei then said to Mrs. Fu: "Mom, I'm afraid I can't do much about my sister, but I will ask the eldest princess to help take care of her. For my sake, the eldest princess will not let my sister suffer. I think the eldest son of their family is pretty good. Although he looks a bit ordinary, he is not a shady person. I heard that he is also very fond of reading and is very enterprising. He is also very good at business. If he gets a title in the future and relies on his own efforts, I think he is a very good person. "
Fu married Zhao Qian and wanted to marry her concubine to Zhao Qian. But now that her daughter said this, she could no longer insist on her opinion. She nodded and said, "Okay, I will listen to you. As long as your sister is happy in the future, it will be fine." ”
Li smiled slightly and said: "It's good if mother can be open-minded." Then she asked about the eldest brother's wife, her eldest uncle and aunt's mother, her brothers, sisters-in-law, and those who were already married. The second sister, the fourth sister, and those lovely nephews, nieces, etc. all asked whatever they thought of. Mrs. Fu patiently spoke to Li Wei while holding back her sadness.
After hearing the end, Li Wei smiled with satisfaction: "They are all fine, and I have nothing to worry about. I still owe them a word of apology to my aunt and brother, and I hope I can have the opportunity to say it to them in person."
"There's nothing to be sorry for. That's their fault. Don't take it too seriously."
The mother and daughter talked for a long time. Seeing that it was getting late, Li Wei specially allowed his mother to stay in Zhaoyang Palace.
Mrs. Fu still slept in the same bed with her daughter at night. For Li Wei, sleeping with this mother was only a very young child.
"If I hadn't sent you to the palace, maybe you would have had a different fate in this life, and you wouldn't have ended up like this. But at that time, I only listened to your aunt's words, thinking that you could make some sacrifices for that family, right? The responsibility of the daughter of the Li family, so I nodded and agreed. At that time, I didn’t think further about you. Did you think about whether you were willing? My dear, you were too docile before. If you were really unwilling, you and I would. Just say it, I will definitely help you, no matter how difficult it is, I will find a way for you. "
Li Wei listened quietly to her mother's somewhat guilty words. It was useless to talk about it now. None of them can go back to the eleventh year of Xi Kang's reign. At that time, my mother followed the eldest uncle's advice. Every word she said was an imperial edict to her. Could such a cowardly mother really resist the eldest uncle's wishes for her? Li Wei didn't think about it in detail. She cuddled tightly with her mother. The smell of her mother was the same as in her memory.
I vaguely remember that when she was very young, she made so many noises at night that the two wet nurses couldn't do anything about her. Later, her mother came over and held her around the house, singing soft nursery rhymes to her. She grabbed the tassel on her mother's clothes, looked at her mother's face, and smelled the good smell of her mother before she could sleep peacefully.
In her mother's arms, she slept very peacefully that night, and was no longer troubled by those noisy nightmares.
When she woke up the next day, she felt somewhat refreshed. Shujia and Li Xing met to greet Li Wei. Li Wei smiled and said to Shujia: "You must study seriously. Later I will ask Mr. Zhan how you have performed recently. If you perform poorly, you will be punished." ”
Shujia also cooperated: "My son, I will obey my mother's instructions and I will definitely work harder and not let my mother down."
When Mrs. Fu saw this, she couldn't help but persuade her: "The princess doesn't need to take the imperial examination. Why are you being so strict? Don't scare the princess."
Li Wei said: "I really want her to learn something, and I'm not forcing her to do it. I just hope that she will achieve something in her studies, instead of wasting her time under the guise."
In the eyes of others, Li Wei treated the princesses in the royal family too harshly.
Mrs. Fu went back to her house in the afternoon. When leaving, Li Wei smiled at her mother and told her to take care of herself. She knew in her heart that this separation would probably mean eternal life.
At night, Li Wei asked Li Xing to keep her company. Seeing that Li Wei was in good spirits and in good spirits, Li Xing told her some things about his childhood home, and Li Wei also fell into memories. The carefree time at that time was so beautiful, it would be great if time could stay in that moment forever.
"Sister, why didn't you and the regent make an agreement earlier, before the eleventh year of Xikang?"
"Why do we have to settle? I hated him at that time. I never thought about spending my whole life with this person. I don't even know what love is?"
Li Xing was stunned for a moment, and then sighed: "What a pity, you are destined to be destined to miss each other in this life."
"Fifth sister, when you grow older, you will understand that no matter where you are, there are some things that you will never get. In the face of these things that you can't get, if you want to be free, you have to come out first. I have come out. What about you?"
Li Xing said: "Although the things I can't get are good, I am not a selfish person. Sister, I know very well that he is discriminatory and has not even looked at me. It is because of you that he can say a few words to me. I I don’t want him to hate me, so I still want him to be happy.”
It was rare for Li Xing to see clearly. It seemed that this sister was far more powerful than he thought.
"It doesn't matter what happened to eldest brother or brother six, do you still blame me?"
Li Xing said truthfully: "I was resentful before, but later I gradually understood. You are the Queen Mother, so your perspective on the problem is naturally different from mine. In fact, you see the future of the Li family rather than the present."
No matter now or in the future, Li Wei felt that she couldn't wait for that day.
"Ying Niang." Li Wei called Li Xing by his nickname, and then said, "Have you met the eldest son of the eldest princess's family? What's your impression of that person?"
However, Li Xing could not outline the image of this person in her mind. She said with a blank look on her face: "I don't remember this person."
"It doesn't matter if you don't remember. We will get to know each other again when we have a chance. Just pay attention to it next time we meet. This person should be pretty good and a person who lives a good life. The eldest princess is also kind and easy to get along with. Ying Niang, earlier I I promised my mother that I would make a good arrangement for you throughout your life. The service here is not full yet, so I can’t arrange it. I am afraid that I won’t be able to wait for that day, but I want to tell you that my sister has always hoped that you will be well and find a satisfactory person in the future. People, live a peaceful life and don’t repeat my tragedy.”
"Sister, aren't you happy in this palace?"
Li Wei said: "There are many definitions of happiness, and the answer will be different for each person. For some people, having good food and clothing is happiness, being powerful and making decisions is happiness, and some people think that being able to find a good person is happiness. People, growing old together are happy. But for me, these are not true happiness. The most rare thing in life is freedom."
(End of chapter)