"I always feel like I'm still dreaming," he said, touching Xia Liuyi's hand, "you really came. I've been dreaming of you these past few days."
Xia Liuyi rubbed his hair on the side of his ear again. Contrary to He Chusan, he has not dreamed of He Chusan these past two days, because he never fell asleep at all. Whenever and wherever, in his mind, He Chusan was lying in his arms and bathed in blood. .
He smelled a fresh smell on He Chusan's temples, which had just been cleaned and taken care of. He Chusan's face and body were also refreshed, unlike some people who were bedridden and lacked care, sweaty and rancid. He asked softly, "Who is taking care of you these days?"
"Kevin."
"Is it the kid who stopped me in the ancestral hall?" Xia Liuyi still remembered the young man who said to himself, "Mr. He was stabbed twice, not because you ruined his plan at this time!"
"Um."
"He washed your hair and body for you? He also bought the nightgown?"
"Um."
Xia Liuyi didn't speak for a while. He Chusan turned his head to kiss him, and asked with a smile, "Jealous?"
"No," Xia Liuyi said gloomily, "I'm very grateful to him." He was in a panic, not because of jealousy, but because of guilt, "He is better than me, I can stay by your side at this time and take good care of you. You. I can't take care of people, I have a bad temper, nothing is good, I will only hurt you, I... "
He Chusan covered his mouth, "Don't be silly, except for my father, you are the one who loves me the most, and you have never hurt me. I regretted seeing you cry that day, even if this trick can win Joe I shouldn't use your Lord's trust, I shouldn't make you feel so sad. I'm too selfish, too cunning, I'm hurting you. "
Xia Liuyi shook his head slightly, his trembling lips touching his palm. He wanted to talk, but He Chusan wouldn't let him say it, because he looked like he was about to cry again, like a crybaby - he even made fun of He Chusan as a crybaby - the reddish eyes made people feel distressed, Heartwarming again.
He Chusan couldn't help kissing him, because he had no physical strength, so he could only kiss him gently and delicately, like carefully kissing a curled up and shivering cat.
-I really want to press this cat under my body right now, lick its teary eyes, stroke its soft belly, enter it, let it narrow its eyes, make a soft and enchanting sound, and slowly spread its paws It slowly closed again, it was so comfortable that I forgot to cry.
He rationally resisted his fatal impulse, and kissed very sparingly. Xia Liuyi was worried about his injury, so he didn't dare to respond too violently. The warm and soft cat's tongue only slid slightly on his lips, then retreated for a while, and then reached out to touch He Chusan's lips like an invitation.
—He Chusan felt that his blood pressure was a little too high.
He didn't dare to kiss any more, he rested on Xia Liuyi's firm and flexible chest for a while, and then he recovered. Greasy crooked and contentedly rubbed his face on the big guy's chest muscles, he said stickily, "Brother Liuyi..."
When Xia Liuyi was called by him, his heart softened into a puddle of syrup, "Yeah."
"Don't worry, I won't do this stupid self-harm again. I'll tell you everything I know and what I'm going to do next."
"Well," Xia Liuyi kissed him again on the top of his hair, "I'll tell you all too."
The two were glued to this small hospital bed, keeping their voices low and talking for a long time. Xia Liuyi told He Chusan about the old shopkeeper. He Chusan also frankly told him everything he had investigated, all of his next plans, and even his cooperation with Lu Guangming - it was Lu Guangming who received and rescued Cui Dongdong and Xiaoluo in the villa's secret passage that day.
Xia Liuyi didn't mind his cooperation with the ICAC officers, but was worried about his plan, "No, it's too dangerous for you."
"You believe me, it's not dangerous, I have the ability to do it." He Chusan said firmly and gently.
"..." Xia Liuyi stroked his forehead, feeling sour in his heart. He Chusan is protecting him. This scholar boy, who used to be young and thin, with no strength to tie the chicken, and far away from the wind and rain, grew up in shock as if he had broken a cocoon into a butterfly, and became a man who was willing to give everything to shield him from the wind and rain. Does he believe that He Chusan is capable? Of course he believed it. He was just guilty, just reluctant.
He Chusan turned his face away, kissed him again soothingly on the lips, and changed the subject and coaxed, "I went to see my dad before."
Xia Liuyi woke up from the guilt, "Ah? You... he... did he hit you again?"
He Chusan smiled and said, "No. Dad said that I was kidnapped by you, and I told Dad that I pursued you first. Dad asked me: 'Why do you like such a ghost? What do you like about him? '"
"..." Xia Liuyi was speechless—isn't it! He is such a savage, ignorant, dirty-handed young man, compared to He Abba's innocent and excellent family wife and son, isn't he a ghost!
He couldn't help but hug He Chusan tightly in fear and reluctance - he knew that he was not worthy of He Chusan, and he was not worthy of He Chusan's dedication and desperate efforts.
"How did you answer him?"
"I told him that there is no answer to this question. In mathematics, every question has an answer, every phenomenon has traces, and everything can be calculated perfectly one day. I have been like this since I was a child. I think. It was not until I met you that I understood that feelings cannot be measured or explained. They have no source and rules, and are involuntary. I suddenly fell in love with you at a certain moment and for a certain reason. I don't think so, it's all the moments and all of you that make my heart flutter. You're in my heart, everything is fine, even your bad temper, I like it very much."
"Well," Xia Liuyi said softly, "I like you too. I like everything about you."
"… "
"What are you laughing at?"
"I'm not used to you being so nauseous all of a sudden..."
"Hey, you are allowed to be numb but not me? You even told this nasty talk to Dad!"
"Don't touch, don't touch, itchy, hahaha..."
The two laughed for a while, Xia Liuyi didn't dare to toss He Chusan, and after pinching his earlobe for a while, he stopped and put his arms around him and nibbled lightly on the back of his neck. "What about Dad? What did he say after hearing that?"
"Cough, he said: 'Did I go so hard to send you to study just to make the stupid thing of fancying a ghost so nice?'"
"… "
"Don't mind, he's joking," He Chusan said with a smile, "Daddy has never hated you, he has always cared about you, he calls you 'tooth boy' behind your back, and occasionally asks me 'tooth boy' What's up', he's just... just sorry for you being a gangster."
Xia Liuyi buried his head in the back of his neck shamelessly. In fact, every time he met, he could feel Abba He's caring and beating to his elders - even though it often made him run away with sour teeth.
"And then?" he said sullenly.
"Then Dad asked me: Are you really happy with him? What kind of life can he give you?"
Xia Liuyi didn't even have the face to raise his head. If he was present at the time, he could only apologize to Abba He with his face on the ground. What kind of life did he give He Chusan? He is willful and irritable. He is obviously older than He Chusan, but he has been cared for and tolerated by He Chusan. From time to time, he will take risks, get hurt, and make He Chusan fear for him. He Chusan has been harmed to the point where it is now. He's sorry Abba He, he's a bastard among bastards.
He Chusan noticed his guilt and self-blame, took his hand, gently stroked his slender fingers, crossed his fingers, and said, "I told my dad: he really doesn't know how to live. When he cooks noodles, he burns the kitchen, smokes and drinks when he is sick, and has a stubborn temper. No matter what he argues at first, he will lose his temper at me. He only knows the morality of the rivers and lakes, but he does not know what is right and wrong, so he does not know how to take the right path and be good. people… "
Xia Liuyi was so embarrassed that his face was flushed, and he silently wanted to pull his hand away, but he was grabbed by He Chusan, and He Chusan said in his ears, "However, if he receives a little kindness from others, he will be treated tenfold. Go back and get help and care, even at the cost of his entire life in return. He takes good care of his brothers and sisters, and has no selfishness at all. Everyone admires and likes him. He will fall without thinking. Rescue me under the roof beam, he would block me behind him when someone pointed a gun at him, he would pick up the blade for me, and even lose one of his own hands. He indulged me to like him, approach him, bit by bit To accept my courtship. In order to kiss me, he brushes his teeth well every day, for me to quit smoking and drinking, and also to quit his bad temper, he takes me to the movies, eat a big meal, go to the beach, go to the mountains, obviously a little I don't understand romance, but I still set off fireworks for me...'"
He Chusan said, putting his warm palm on his cold face, "He doesn't know how to cherish himself, but he has always cherished me very much. He is willing to change himself for me, learn to be loved, Learn to love someone. I am very happy with him."
"Okay, okay," Xia Liuyi raised his head and said, his face and ears were so hot that they seemed to be burning, "I, how can I be like what you said, so..." He was too embarrassed to speak, and ostrich again Generally, he buried his face and whispered, "I, I really love you, and I will make you happy in the future."
He Chusan pursed his lips and smiled, "I am very happy now."
"Then, what did Dad say after hearing that?"
"He agreed, and let the two of us see it after a while."
Xia Liuyi's eyes widened in disbelief - can he agree with a jerk like me and the nasty words of He Yingdi's eight o'clock soap opera? His old man's brain was caught by the door
He knew that Abba He would not agree so easily, that He Chusan might have hidden some fierce and cruel arguments, and he also knew that he owed Abba He a personal explanation and apology. He buried his face in joy and guilt, and after a while, he made a low voice, "San."
"Um?"
"Next time you go to see Dad, take me with you."
He Chusan smiled, "Okay."