City of Sin

Chapter 106: Old dreams are fragile

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I don't want to arouse Zhou Miao's suspicion. After all, we are still too young to fight against Sister Feng, but I know Zhou Miao too well. If she knows that I was plotted by Sister Feng last night, she will definitely avenge me. of.

But now, we can't turn against Sister Feng.

Thinking about this, I bought some fruit on the side of the road and dispelled Zhou Miao's doubts in the name of Zhou Ting.

Zhou Ting was unscathed, and when she saw me, she still smiled brightly at me and babbled non-stop.

"Fortunately, it was a false alarm last night. Tingting is fine, otherwise I really don't know what to do." Zhou Miao's tone was like that of a survivor after a catastrophe. She was so nice to Zhou Ting that she had nothing to say.

I don't want to think about what happened last night at all. Sister Feng deliberately arranged this scene to catch me and make me dare not easily resist her. What she wants is a good pawn, not a pawn. A fierce horse that might kick at any time.

I said a few words to Zhou Miao and said I was tired. I fell asleep at Zhou Miao’s place. Zhou Ting kept giggling in my ear, but for some reason, I just felt at ease. In the evening, when he woke up, Han Yu didn't know when he came.

Han Yu's face was not quite right, as if something important had happened, I was actually quite guilty, afraid that he would know what happened last night.

Even though I'm a bitch who can do my best, I still have some residual self-esteem in front of Han Yu, and I want to hide these disgraceful things from him in my heart.

But how long can I hide it

I have never dared to forget that Han Yu is the son of Han Shan, the son of the master Shan who calls the wind and rain in Ningcheng.

"Han Yu, why do you look so ugly?" I finally couldn't help asking him.

After asking, I waited nervously for Han Yu's answer. In fact, I was very conflicted. I was afraid that he would know, but I hoped that he would know. I really couldn't open my mouth to say those cruel words to him.

"Maybe it's because I've been too busy recently, and something happened at home, so stop thinking about it." Han Yu comforted me, with an expression that didn't tell if he knew what happened last night.

I don't mind being raped by Qi Zhenjiang, I just don't know how to tell Han Yu, even if one day you are exposed about this matter, I am not afraid of being accused by others, I am not afraid of them poking my spine, but I am afraid Han Yu knows.

He is my last thought.

Han Yu left in a hurry after not staying for a while, and it was only then that I believed that his sad face was not because of me. Thinking of this, I felt better, so I cheered up and sent him to the car.

Watching the headlights disappear into the darkness, my heart also became a little empty.

I love Han Yu, but my life is not just about simple love, because I know that even if I am ruthless enough to ignore Sister Weiwei and Zhou Miao and the others, I am willing to stay with Han Yu regardless of everything. But I'm still that foot-washing girl Dou Sprout from the countryside. Even if I marry Han Yu, in the eyes of others, I'm just shamelessly attached to Han Yu, a rich second generation.

I don't want to be labeled as a foot-washing girl and a prostitute and a criminal. I have lived my whole life in the world Han Yu built for me, and I have gone through so much. I really can't believe that there is still a man in this world who is willing to fight for me A woman guards for a lifetime.

Even if it is Han Yu, I have left a way for myself to retreat.

I know it's unfair to Han Yu, but what can I do

At that time, we were still too young, and we erected hard thorns all over our bodies, thinking that we could hurt our enemies, but in fact, from the beginning to the end, what we hurt were those who loved us.

In fact, in the final analysis, everyone is selfish, and I am no exception. Sometimes I think, if the first person to stand up for me in Emgrand is not He Hao, but Han Yu, will my life be the same as it is now? totally different

I don't know the answer, because there are never ifs in life.

That night, I really wanted to drink. Zhou Miao and I were sitting in a narrow room, drinking bottle after bottle. I didn’t drink very well, but I don’t know why, the more I drank that night, the more I became sober. , Until Zhou Miao was drunk, I was still sober.

Zhou Miao was drunk, and she kept calling out a name when she was in a daze. She called out very softly, with pain in her tone. I think she must have someone she wants to love but dare not love, so she only dared to drink. Only after he was drunk did he have the courage to call out the person's name.

Not long after, when I met the person Zhou Miao was calling out, I realized that many things may have been predestined, some people were destined to meet, and they were also destined to be tortured.

What about me

I sat in the cold wind and missed my Han Woo.

But at daybreak, I will forget him in the old dream.

Many times, I even think that if he is like He Hao and the others, just playing around with me and treating me as a plaything, I will feel better. After all, I don't owe him anything, but if it is really like this, what should I do? How to survive

It's a freaking contradiction, but I can't find the answer.

There is still the last day before the opening of the store in the red light district. On this day, Zhou Miao and I took Zhou Ting out for a day. It was near Ningcheng. Wu Changlin gave me 100,000 cash to open the store. I was angry with the money, so I brought Zhou Miao and the others to squander some of it.

Zhou Miao didn't ask me where the money came from. She knows how to measure and is very smart. She knows what to say and what not to say. After all, some words make everyone feel embarrassed.

We played until late at night, and then went to live in the best hotel in Ningcheng, and experienced the life of a rich man. In the dead of night, I stood at the highest position, overlooking the whole city.

This city is radiant and colorful, full of temptations and desires, everyone wants to climb up and get ahead, so there are competitions, jungles, and bloody storms.

I have never regretted stepping into this dark world where people cannibalize people, but when I stood at the top of the pyramid and enjoyed everything I ever dreamed of, I realized that the heights are extremely cold.

I lost a lot of things, I know they won't come back, we fought hard, achieved one desire, and then the next desire, we dare not stop for a moment, because the more we have, the more we have, The more afraid of losing.

If I were given another chance, I would still take this path. Some people have wind in their blood. Even if they are suppressed to the last breath, as long as they are not dead, they will still stand up.