Xiaohua's child is gone.
The doctor said a lot of complicated technical terms, but I didn't understand any of them. The final conclusion was that the child was gone, and because of this extremely destructive violence, Xiaohua would never be able to conceive a child in her life.
After listening to what the doctor said, I felt as if I had fallen into an ice cave. No matter how much I begged, the doctor just shook his head, but my little flower, she is only 16 years old, and her life has just begun, but with this Fall in a cruel way.
I dare not tell Xiao Hua the news, I am afraid that she will not be able to bear the bad news. When I saw Xiao Hua lying lifeless on the hospital bed, her pair of empty and dull eyes were like a boned steel blade. The knife scraped across my body inch by inch, breaking my heart and intestines.
Xiaohua didn't cry all the time, as if she had shed all her tears in that tyranny, she didn't speak or cooperate with the treatment, she was begging to die.
Life has lost its meaning to her.
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She was born again, but what that man brought her was a disillusionment that was more terrifying than death.
I also went to Tan Xinsheng, he caused Xiaohua to become like this, he owed Xiaohua an explanation, but this man seemed to be missing, I couldn’t find him no matter what, finally Han Yu asked someone to find out about him Whereabouts, when Xiao Peanut would rather die than live, he brought his new love to spend time and wine in the outer world.
But my little flower, her life has nothing but darkness from now on.
I can't remember what day it was, or rather, I don't want to think about everything on that day. I just remember that the snow fell heavily that day, covering the whole world, no matter how ugly and beautiful the world is. dirty.
Xiao Hua, who hasn’t gotten out of bed for a long time, woke up very early that day, and packed up the baby clothes and toys we gave her before. She sat among those baby clothes and toys, her eyes were very gentle, just like her The child is still there, as if the tyranny never happened.
I stayed by her side, and I couldn't do anything except hold her cold hand. The pain and sadness in my heart were like endless waves, coming layer after layer, beating my bones, inch by inch. .
How cruel is fate!
Xiaohua talked a lot that day, about how she used to take care of her younger brother in the countryside to support the precarious home, about how she went to the city with others to learn how to wash people's feet, and about how she saved food and money so that her younger brother could study …
"I knew life was hard since I was a child. I started cooking before the stove was high. I didn't have the money to watch it after digging my feet with a hoe. I didn't cut a finger without cutting hogweed. My father was drunk. They would also vent their anger on me and beat me... But at that time, I didn't think it was difficult, because I still had hope for tomorrow. You can survive... But why is it always so difficult?"
As Xiaohua said, there was a death-like silence in her eyes. In her eyes, I couldn't see any hope of life.
Those of us who come from lowly backgrounds, live like ants, even though life ruthlessly oppresses us, and the hands of fate cruelly crush our bones one by one, but we are still lingering on, struggling to get what we want Find the hope of life in the ruthless cracks of fate.
You thought life could be anything but in the end, everything returned to its original form!
Life is always so hard.
I comforted Xiao Hua, I said that everything will be fine, the situation has chosen us, the more difficult the situation in front of us, the more we cannot be defeated, we have come to this day with great difficulty, even if the head is broken and bloody, we must not admit defeat .
Xiao Hua suddenly laughed, her hand was as cold as crushed snow, holding me tightly, as if she wanted to grab something, I didn't know what she was going to do, but I felt infinite sadness suddenly surged in my heart.
If I wasn't a humble bean sprout, if I was as rich as Song Yaqi and Wang Yaxin, if my bean sprout wasn't a simple girl from a poor country, none of these things would have happened to us.
Suddenly realized.
The sorrow of the little people lies in the fact that they have no power to fight back in the face of a strong fate, so I must become strong enough, even if it means anything!
"Bean sprouts, have you ever regretted it? Regretted liking He Hao?" Xiaohua asked me suddenly, her tone was so calm that it couldn't make any waves.
Do you regret it
I have asked myself this question countless times, but I will not regret it. We will always meet some people, experience some things, and then be reborn from the cocoon.
Xiao Hua said that she regretted, she regretted stepping into a scam full of loopholes at the most ignorant and ignorant age. Later, when she recalled the past, she realized that the man had never promised her anything. Sometimes, we Caught in a relationship, always self-righteously deceiving yourself.
Xiaohua kept talking, but at the end, she suddenly hugged me with such force, as if she wanted to melt me into her body, I let her hold me, and tears fell silently.
After that hug, Xiao Hua suddenly said that she wanted to eat a hamburger, because most of the money she earned at Emgrand had to be sent home. She has always been very frugal, and she was reluctant to buy it. Many times, we passed by not far from Emgrand That hamburger restaurant, I couldn't help but take a look inside, and then imagining the taste of the hamburger, I swallowed saliva outside the glass door.
I asked Xiaohua to wait for me at home, and I went out to buy for her. This was the worst decision I ever made in my life.
When I bought the hamburger and went back, Xiao Hua had disappeared, and there was a very old passbook on the table, which was something Xiao Hua valued more than her life.
I panicked all of a sudden, the hamburger in my hand fell to the ground, and all the strength in my body was drained at that moment. I had an intuition that something must have happened to Xiaohua. Why am I so stupid, knowing that she is in a bad mood and leaving her alone? Why am I so stupid at home.
I immediately asked Han Yu and Zhou Miao and they all came out to help find someone. The county is so big, and it’s snowing outside, it’s hard to see a person on the street. We searched all over the county, but we still didn’t see Xiaohua. .
My little flower, where did she go
That night was infinitely elongated, as if it had come to the end of life. The snow kept falling, wrapped in the cold wind like icicles, cutting my face like a knife.
I dare not let myself stop, I can only keep walking and looking, otherwise I will really go crazy.