I didn't expect that when I saw Xiaohua again, it would be in such a heavy and suffocating way.
When I went to the morgue of the police station to identify the dead body, I felt like the sky was falling, and my whole body seemed to be soaked in ice water, so cold that my limbs were shaking.
I didn't hear a word of what the policeman said. I stood next to Xiaohua's body, as if someone was holding a knife and cutting my heart one by one. I couldn't bear the pain.
The police said that Xiaohua committed suicide. There was no obvious trauma on her body. The surveillance camera installed by the river clearly captured how she walked into the icy river step by step. He didn't even look back.
The icy river water submerged her body little by little, and she never opened her eyes again, just like this, she fell into an eternal sleep.
After Xiaohua died, her crippled father brought her younger brother to the city to collect her body. That was the first time I met Xiaohua’s family. Her father was only in his early 40s, but his head was full of white hair, and his clothes were dirty and dirty. Broken, obviously ill-fitting shoes on the feet, not even a pair of socks.
That night, he seemed to be ten years older. He asked Xiao Hua's younger brother to kowtow to Xiao Hua, one after another, hitting the ground with bang bang after bang, and his head was bleeding.
"Xiao Hua, you have lived such a miserable life all your life, and you have never enjoyed any blessings. You are well now. Dad is here to pick you up." Uncle said, tears could not stop falling from his cloudy eyes.
I handed over to my uncle the passbook that Xiaohua had left before her death. There was nearly 5,000 yuan in the passbook, which was saved by Xiaohua herself. Now that she is gone, these things should be returned to uncle.
Xiaohua’s family lives in a very remote mountain village. Han Yu, Zhou Miao and I, the four of us went back to that small mountain village with my uncle and the others. I want to see Xiaohua’s burial with my own eyes, and I want to send her off to the end. a ride.
A pitch-black coffin, a small mound half a person's height, this is Xiaohua's final destination in this life.
I stood in front of her grave and remembered that when I first went to Emgrand, it was Sister Weiwei and Xiaohua who helped me all the time, but now, in just a few months, Sister Weiwei entered the cell for me, and Xiaohua , she will never come back to life again.
Xiaohua, you can leave at ease, I will definitely avenge your revenge for you, there is only such an obsession in my heart, I must avenge Xiaohua, otherwise, I am not worthy of living in this world!
I swear at her grave that from now on, her family will be my family, and I will go on for her as she has not finished her journey.
After taking care of Xiaohua's funeral, Han Yu and I returned to the county seat. On the day we came back, the snow and fog had just started to rise, and the sun was rare in the sky. I suddenly thought of a sentence: When it is warm and cold, it is the most difficult to breathe.
Xiaohua has lived a very hard and tiring life, and now she can finally sleep in the ground. Death is just another beginning of eternity.
After returning to the county seat, when I went to see Sister Weiwei, I still told her the news. Sister Weiwei didn’t cry. She sat on the handcuffed chair, pinching her hands desperately, her fingertips embedded in the flesh, and blood flowed. .
"Bean sprouts, promise me that you must live well and wait for me to come out to avenge her." Sister Weiwei's voice was hoarse when she spoke, rattling like a leaky bellows.
Through the thick glass of the cell, I looked at Sister Weiwei, and I smiled and said to Sister Weiwei, "Sister Weiwei, you have always taught me to live dignifiedly and like a human being. I was always timid before. I'm afraid of getting into trouble, but this time, I won't hide, I will definitely avenge Xiaohua's revenge."
In the past, Sister Weiwei always said that I lived a worthless life without a trace of blood. After going through so much, I am no longer the cowardly and incompetent bean sprouts I used to be.
When sister Weiwei went to seek revenge from sister Ying, she knew that she would go to jail, but she still had no hesitation, even if it was the price of blood and freedom as a bargaining chip, she wanted to regain the dignity that was annihilated in that cold night.
I also finally understood that the world is difficult and dangerous, even if you are cowardly and cowardly and let others trample on you, they will not have the slightest sympathy for you, they will only trample on your backbone, and treat you as a lowly ant, rather than being trampled under their feet, It is better to live than to die, to stand up and resist like Sister Weiwei, even if the final outcome is death, you have to stand and die.
I'd rather live standing up than die kneeling down!
When I finished this sentence, sister Weiwei looked at me with complicated eyes, she said that you have finally grown up, bean sprouts, but I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing for you.
The sky is big and the earth is big, who else can we rely on besides ourselves
The visiting time was very short, I came out of the prison, and Han Yu stood by the car door waiting for me.
A flamboyant young man with handsome features, he is still wearing the light white hoodie, and his light brown bangs cover half of his eyes. Those eyes, which are always out of focus, are full of indelible tenderness at this moment.
I walked to Han Yu's side. When he was around, my heart was always very peaceful.
Seeing me coming out, Han Yu stubbed out the cigarette in his hand, he walked towards me, I looked at him quietly, I asked him, I said Han Yu, do you like me
I'm not stupid, I remember Han Yu's kindness to me in my heart, but I dare not bring it up easily, I'm afraid it's just his play, I'm afraid it's a one-time Ling Chi for me.
But things have come to this, what else do I have to be afraid of losing
Han Yu was stunned for a long time, those beautiful glazed eyes were filled with many complicated things, I couldn't understand, and I didn't want to understand, and finally he said, "From the first time I saw you, I I just fell in love with you."
For no reason, I thought of a sentence: Once you see a gentleman, you will always be wrong.
On that cold and windy night, I accidentally rescued him, and he fell in love with me. From then on, he was willing to go through fire and water for me in his whole life.
I have fantasized many times if, if I could see his sincerity earlier, if there were not so many misses between us, my Han Yu, my lover, would he not leave me.
That night, I completely handed myself over to Han Yu and let him gallop in my body. He was like a beast locked in a cage. He finally broke through the shackles and frantically demanded from me. .
Let him take what he wants.
I kissed his lips over and over again, traced his outline with my fingers again and again, and listened to him saying that he loves me sentence by sentence. Although the world is full of difficulties and dangers, and my life is worthless, in the end There is one person who cares about me.
I want nothing more.