"Because we are all desperate people, Bean Sprout, this world is far dirtier and uglier than you imagined, who do you think you can fight against? And I can make you a master and become stronger, You are so strong that no one dares to bully you again." When Sister Feng spoke, she had a smile on her face, just like when she brought me back to the red light district.
I know that Sister Feng is not reconciled, she has nothing now, and if she wants to regain everything she lost, she must have enough chips, and I have become her fancy chip.
"Why me?" I asked her, but I already knew the answer in my heart.
"You are beautiful enough and ambitious enough, because it is not enough to have a face, you also need to have enough endurance. If you want to climb up, you have to step on others. I have met many people , They don’t have your stamina, and, Bean Sprouts,” Sister Feng looked at me, the smile on her face gradually deepened, and then she reached out and pinched my chin, and continued, “I see hatred in your eyes, just like this One point, you're better than any of them."
hate.
It was the first time I heard such words from someone else, and I never thought that this person would be Sister Feng. Sometimes, I have to admire Sister Feng's ability to read people.
When Sister Weiwei was raped, I had hatred in my heart; when He Hao abandoned me, I had hatred in my heart; when Xiao Hua was killed by Tan Xinsheng, I also had hatred in my heart, but I thought I hid it well. No one would know, but Sister Feng still saw through.
I pulled Sister Feng's hand away, and said, "So what? I have already avenged Xiaohua. I don't want to live in hatred for the rest of my life. One year will pass soon. After I go out, I will You can live a whole new life.”
I want revenge, I want to become a master, Sister Feng is a good helper, but I must take the initiative, I can no longer become a fish at the mercy of Sister Feng.
When Sister Feng saw what I said, she just smiled, and she was not angry. This made me more convinced that Sister Feng was unfathomable. I have no idea.
After I was arrested, Rende Middle School directly expelled my student status. At first, I was able to enter Rende because of He Hao's relationship. Now that I am expelled, I don't have the slightest complaint. With a deep heart, I stepped into the campus, thinking that I could use this to change my life, but that kind of place does not belong to people like me.
Light and darkness are often only in one thought.
I was bullied by Wang Yaxin and the others when I was in school, and no one came to save me. To be fair, you are only qualified to talk to others if you have enough strength.
And all of that is like a dream in Nanke.
"Bean sprouts, we are actually the same kind of people, you will come to me sooner or later." Sister Feng said, and went back to sleep on her bed.
Not long after Sister Feng fell asleep, the third child and the others came back. Seeing that Sister Feng had fallen asleep, the third child didn't ask me anything. She is a very sensitive person.
That night, I suffered from insomnia completely. With my eyes open, I could only see a piece of bleak blackness in front of my eyes, not even a single ray of light. This door, it separated the two worlds, and people like us shrank in Behind this door, like a ghost, lives forever in the dark world.
I'm not reconciled, and neither is Sister Feng, so we all want to find a way out, but people like Sister Feng are jackals themselves, and if they keep company with wolves, who knows what will happen in the end
But like Sister Feng, I have no choice.
At the beginning, I believed that He Hao was everything to me, and I could go through fire and water for him, but as soon as I turned around, he pushed me into the abyss of eternal doom, so I dare not trust men easily, even if it is Han Yu, I also like him , but I am already afraid, I am afraid that one day he will leave me.
So after experiencing so much, I understand one thing, everything else in this world will change, the only thing that will not change is myself, so the only person I can rely on is myself.
How dare you fall down? There was no one behind me.
When I get out, what am I going to survive on? Go back to Emgrand to wash people's feet? What will the people of Emgrand say about me behind my back? Am I willing to wash people's feet for the rest of my life, and be called a foot-washing girl by people
But what Sister Feng does, I also know very well in my heart that Sister Feng only likes me because I have a pretty face, otherwise, no matter how ambitious I am, she will not use me.
But that is a road that is destined to be full of wolves, tigers and leopards who cannibalize people without spitting out their bones. I will either be swallowed by people, or I will be swallowed by people. If I have the slightest mercy, I will become meat on someone else's cutting board.
In this long night, I can't see the future.
The next morning, Sister Feng left. When Guard Li took her away, she didn't turn her head back. For her, she really didn't have the slightest nostalgia for this place. The outside world belonged to her.
After Sister Feng left, a few more prisoners came to our cell. I was silent every day, and read my books when I had nothing to do. Treat her as the boss of the cell, and she will come forward to solve any problems.
In a blink of an eye, winter turned to spring, and I spent 7 months and 13 days in prison, plus the days spent in the detention center, which added up to exactly one year, and I was released from prison.
On the day I was released from prison, the weather was bad, it was raining lightly outside, and the sky was completely dark.
After completing the handover procedures, I walked out of the heavy black iron gate of the prison without any luggage. When I arrived at the gate, I could still see the slogan posted on the wall: Rehabilitate and be a new man.
As soon as I walked out of the gate, I saw Han Yu standing in the rain with a big black umbrella. He was still wearing the same light white hoodie. His light brown hair obliquely covered half of his eyes. In his eyes, there was finally no longer a thick fog that could not be melted away.
Zhou Miao and Zhou Ting stood behind him, as soon as Zhou Ting saw me, she babbled and wanted to rush over to hug me, but Zhou Miao firmly stopped her.
At that moment, I finally felt that there was still some warmth in this world.
Han Yu walked towards me, his thin body was raised a lot, every time he took a step, he stepped on the water and played beautiful notes, and the defense line in my heart collapsed at this moment.
"Bean Sprouts, I'll take you home." Han Yu took my hand, and his voice as soft as jade sounded above my head.