Clear and Muddy Loss of Love

Chapter 117

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The out of control heart is getting farther away

On the occasion of the Spring Festival in the eleventh year of Jingjia, a decree was promulgated by the Inner Court Division.

Princess Zhen Zhen's concubine, Qi Yan, Jingjia's eighth year tanhualang, officially bestowed the word: Yuanjun.

Since Qi Yan was a student of Jinzhou, Gaotang died young, so he never received a letter. Today, he has been officially worshipped as the servant of the Ministry of Industry of the third grade, and he has been given the word: Yuanjun.

The imperial decree fell on the jade seal, which seemed to be given by the emperor who was sick in bed, but anyone with a discerning eye could see who the word must have come from.

It is not difficult to guess who can work His Majesty to decree on his behalf.

In order to make Qi Yan less criticized, Nangong Jingnu made a special trip to the palace.

After all, from ancient times to the present, the words were given to the younger generation by the elders. Although she was a princess, the words for her concubine were somewhat demeaning.

The father emperor probably wanted to make himself feel less wronged at the beginning, and used the words to wake up Qi Yan. But in Nangong Jingnv's view: it is completely unnecessary.

Nangong Rang's eyes flashed with relief when he heard her proposal, he patted the back of her hand and motioned for the forty-nine generation to draft the imperial decree, and fetched the jade seal and dropped it.

Nangong Rang looked at his beloved daughter who was growing up, and felt a sense of emotion: Back then, he chose this "absurd" marriage, just to avoid the means of his beloved daughter marrying into the Taiwei's mansion, but he didn't want to achieve it. Good marriage.

He is a past person, looking at his daughter's demeanor and savoring the meaning of the words, he knows that her daughter is happy.

Although his physical condition is now stable, he has also deeply realized the impermanence of God's will. I don't know how much time I have left for myself, I feel more and more embarrassed when I look at my beloved daughter, for fear that something will be too late.

After recovering for more than half a year, Nangong Rang can still only speak some simple words. Half of his body is also good and bad. When it is good, he can walk around with the help of 49. When it is bad, he can't even feel it. Unloading the heavy work, there is more time to think.

In his fifty years of life, he has pursued too many things.

From the very beginning, I wanted to fight for a corner in the court, and later became the prime minister of one person and more than ten thousand people. Rather more...

At this point, Nangong made his last wish...

He stared at Nangong Jingnu with turbid old eyes, his originally hazy thoughts were firm and clear.

Qi Yan and Lu Zhongxing fought fiercely on the imperial road, and they were also witnessed by the officials. Even if Nangong Da wanted to make things smaller, they couldn't do too much, so they were each fined three years' salary and suspended for three months.

The day before New Year's Eve, the front door of the Concubine's Mansion was crowded, but there was still someone who came with a New Year's gift.

Gong Yanghuai, the servant of the Ministry of Rites, stopped outside the consort's house with two servants who were carrying the New Year's gift. The concierge of Jiuhantian thought that no one would come, and the cat went to the ear room to keep warm.

Gongyanghuai knocked on the door knocker, and someone behind him agreed after a while. The concierge stuck his head out of the small door. He recognized Gongyanghuai, and this adult was a frequent visitor to the Consort's Mansion.

He hurriedly knelt in front of Gongyanghuai: "The villain sees Lord Shilang!"

Gongyanghuai smiled and helped him up: "Is your master there?"

"It's inside, the villain is going to pass the news."

Gongyanghuai: "No need, this cold day, Yuan-jun is not in good health, you go in with me and let me know, don't work on him."

The concierge hurriedly agreed, and walked back to the house in three steps to open the gate, and made a "please" gesture to Gongyanghuai: "Please, sir."

Gongyanghuai took out the gift list from his arms and handed it to the concierge, his own family member stepped forward to receive the New Year's gift from the servants of Gongyangfu, Gongyanghuai ordered: "You two go back first, I will stay in Yuanjun's residence today. dinner."

Jia Ding answered, saluted and left the Concubine's Mansion.

Gongyanghuai seemed to be in a good mood today, and he had a few conversations with the concierge on the way.

Outside the study, the concierge asked Gongyanghuai to wait for him to come to the door, and bowed down and said respectfully, "My concubine, Lord Gongyang is here."

Immediately, Qi Yan's voice came from the study: "Quickly invite him in." Qi Yan came out from behind the desk: "Why is Baishi here in such a cold day?"

Gongyanghuai turned around and closed the door of the study, then turned around and suddenly revealed a teasing smile: "I haven't congratulated Yuan-jun for being happy, but I will be a host in the future."

Qi Yan smiled brightly and replied, "I'll just let you joke around, how dare you make fun of the name given by the royal family?"

Gongyanghuai Dale: "You don't come here, do you really think I haven't read books? Don't forget that you and I entered the university in the same year, I am still the second place!" How can the words be given by His Majesty? I think it is 80% that His Highness Zhen Zhen is full of affection for you and is ashamed to open his mouth, so he made a special detour."

Qi Yan smiled without saying a word, she knew what Gongyanghuai said was true. Feeling the blessing and relief in the eyes of the other party, Qi Yan's heart became heavier.

Gongyanghuai: "His Royal Highness Zhen Zhen is in harmony with you, and those who are friends are happy for you. You have been married for three years, why haven't you seen any children?"

He does not mean that. A word of concern strikes Qi Yan's sadness again...

Xiaodie's matter is a matter of course, and what worries her even more is that the Wei Kingdom believes in Confucianism, and the upper and lower courts of the imperial court all follow the parents who take care of the body. Officials generally seldom shave their beards, and at most simply trim them to make themselves look neat. Qi Yan was a concubine before and was young, so no one cared about this.

After this year, in the eyes of others, she is a young person who has passed the weak crown, and if she has no beard, she is afraid that she will be criticized...

But as a woman, she used banned drugs to suppress her female characteristics, which is already against the sky, how can she really be the same as a man

It turns out that everything is self-deception...

Last month, she asked Ding You to ask her master for a recipe for skin washing, intending to wash off the tattoos on Xiaodie and herself. It has been a month, but there has been no letter from there, which made Qi Yan quite uneasy. .

Although Xiaodie doesn't get sick frequently recently, but once she gets sick, she behaves frequently. What if the tattoo on her waist is seen by others

One after another, the troubles pressed firmly on Qi Yan's heart, making her unable to laugh.

Gongyanghuai saw his friend in a daze, thinking that his words had offended the other party abruptly, patted Qi Yan's arm, and said softly, "Yuanjun?"

Qi Yan regained her senses, read the search in Gongyanghuai's eyes, and replied with a smile: "Ah... I just thought about how the princess moved back to the Weiming Palace so well, and I was fascinated and hoped that Baishi would not mind."

In one sentence, he explained the problem of the heir, Gongyanghuai sighed in relief and said, "You know, His Highness Zhen Zhen is very noble and has been favored by His Majesty for so many years. Now that His Majesty's health is not good, it is natural that he wants to enjoy his children. The joy of family and family around the knee is also a normal human feeling..."

Qi Yan nodded and didn't answer.

Gongyanghuai said to himself again: "Fortunately, you have received many blessings from Yuanjun and generously donated money... Not only did he wake me up, but also saved my Gongyang Mansion from danger. Originally, my father was going to personally come to give the New Year's gift, but Considering that Yuan-jun's current situation is not easy to be too public, he asked the elder brother to come. I am hanging on you! I volunteered to come..." Gong Yanghuai took out a bunch of things from his arms and put it on the small table, pushing In front of Qi Yan.

Qi Yan: "This is?"

Gongyanghuai: "This is the 10,000 taels of silver note from Tongyuan Bank. Yuanjun lent it to me to move around in the past, and now I return it in full."

Qi Yan looked at the stack of banknotes with a denomination of one thousand taels in front of her, each of which was enough for a family of four to live in peace for a lifetime...

Gongyanghuai's salary is comparable to his own, plus the other two in Gongyang's mansion, even if he saves money for a year, he will not be able to save so much cash.

The source of the money was about to come out. Qi Yan hooked the corner of her mouth and put away the banknotes. She couldn't help but flash back the appearance of Gongyanghuai during the Tongsheng test: scolding Ding Fengshan for being a common man, and saying indignantly that the examination institute The questions are all nonsense, and they want to contribute to the people with a passion.

It's only been a few years... and he has become a member of the people who search for people's fat and people's cream.

Although the country of Wei is not riddled with holes, it has also seen defeat.

But which of the DPRK and Chinese officials is not full of oil and rich money

Qi Yan was a little embarrassed, and at the same time she felt a sense of happiness in her heart, and then she pulled away from the emotions of the authorities and examined her own thoughts with the mentality of an outsider.

She secretly delighted in the corruption of the Wei Kingdom's court, and at the same time she felt a little shy about the changes in Gongyanghuai. It must be said that human nature is so complicated. Staying in one place for a long time, even with a purpose that has never been shaken, will inevitably...

Well, the rabbit is dead and the fox is sad.

Qi Yan thought about it.

Although these thoughts were complicated, they only took a moment to sort out, so Gong Yanghuai did not see the clues.

Gongyanghuai was very happy to see Qi Yan calmly accepting the bank note, and the two talked about trivial matters in the court and China, and Qi Yan stayed with Gongyanghuai for dinner...

In the evening, Qi Yan returned to her private house. Why did the concubine who "can't see at night" repeatedly leave the house late at night

Qi Yan has no more scruples. She looked for Ding You and said straight to the point, "Where's the recipe for skin washing?"

Ding You's eyes were obviously dodged, and he hesitated: "You know, master she... Shenlong sees the beginning but not the end, and there are some who can't get in touch for a while."

"I'll urge you again! Don't worry..."

Qi Yan was silent for a while, then asked, "How did you ask for the recipe?"

Ding You hurriedly said: "Don't worry, I haven't mentioned anything about Xiaodie!"

Qi Yan: "It's so convenient, can't you be worthy of a recipe for washing your skin with your medical skills?"

Ding You smiled wryly and said helplessly: "You look down on me too much. I was taught by the master, and what should be learned and what should not be learned has been prescribed early in the morning. The recipe for skin washing is a miracle medicine. It takes trial and error... There are no tattoo artisans among the Wei people, and those who understand this are all working in the yamen, where do you want me to find the test items?"

Qi Yan: "Forget it, you can give Xiaodie a pulse to see how her body will be raised. If possible, I still want to remove this child."

Ding You: "I know."

After sending Ding You and Qi Yan away and returning to Xiaodie's room, the morning sickness lasted for a month and finally disappeared. But Xiaodie, who was already thin, was even more haggard, and the result of the diagnosis was disappointing: Xiaodie's body was not suitable for taking abortion pills, and Ding You also told Qi Yan another unfortunate news: Xiaodie's body is more than he imagined. To be weak, unable to make up for the deficiency, the recovery is not satisfactory, and there is still a great risk for Xiaodie to give birth in the future.

Qi Yan's gaze swept across Xiaodie's flat belly, her lost and found sister who was fast asleep in front of her.

She can't take more blows... The danger can come one day later, even if the child is born and becomes a villain by herself.

The good news is still there. A few days ago, Qian Yuan found two orphaned girls for Qi Yan. Both of them were deaf and mute. Qian Yuan drew up a life and death contract for them. .

Xiaodie doesn't seem to dislike them either, and Qi Yan is also relieved, after all, her identity cannot accompany Xiaodie all the time. But at the same time, a dark idea arose.

Qi Yan admires the ability and loyalty of the housekeeper Qian Yuan, but... Does the other party know too much

It's just that I didn't find Xiaodie before, I always used him in a measured way, but now that I found Xiaodie and looked at Qian Yuan again, I felt uncomfortable.

Qi Yan was silent again, and her mentality changed drastically during this time. Even she couldn't hold back herself, and the dark thoughts came one after another, which greatly went against her original intention.

Her purpose is clear - revenge. I won't misplace an enemy and a stumbling block on the road to revenge, but try not to involve innocent people, but now...

Qi Yan spread out her palm and buried her face in it.

Today is the New Year's Eve of the 11th year of Jingjia. According to the ancient etiquette, the concubine should spend the night at the Princess Mansion.

Nangong Jingnv got up early and finished washing, put on Ying Jinger's palace clothes and waited for Qi Yan.

Today there is still a palace banquet that needs to go together, and then go back to the palace together.

Qi Yan stayed up all night last night, and this morning Xiaodie made a fuss for a while. She looked at the sky and hurriedly changed into a set of clothes. She stared at the red eyes and set foot on the carriage to the Princess Mansion.

Nangong Jingnv heard that Qi Yan was coming, she put down the scroll in her hand and greeted her with joy. Qi Yan stopped in front of Nangong Jingnv and the maids in the mansion watched as she lifted her robe and was about to hem, but Nangong Jingnv took the first step. He supported Qi Yan and carefully examined her face, frowning at first, and then said, "The concubine is now a third-rank official of the imperial court, and there is no need to kneel when you see this palace."

"Your Highness, the ceremony cannot be abandoned..."

Nangong Jingnu replied indifferently: "The rules are dead, and people are alive. This palace is the rules in this princess mansion. From now on, you don't have to bow down to this palace."

Nangong Jingnu's voice was not loud, but the maids around her could hear it clearly. She said this not only to Qiyan, but also to the people in the house.

After speaking, Nangong Jingnu naturally took Qi Yan's hand and walked towards the main hall. The two stepped over the thin layer of snow on the ground side by side and entered the main hall.

Nangong Jingnu asked Qi Yan to sit down, and she sat opposite Qi Yan herself. At this time, Fang let go of his dignity and solemnity, looked at Qi Yan distressedly, and said softly, "It's only been a few days since I didn't see you, why are you so thin? And why are the eyes so red, did you not sleep well last night? Or are you sick?" Thinking of this, Nangong Jingnu was a little dissatisfied, and planned to change Qi Yan to another doctor...

Qi Yan was silent for a moment, her tensed face also showed a hint of fatigue, and said in a negotiating tone: "Your Highness... Can I let this minister sleep here for a while?"

Nangong Jingnu was very distressed. In her impression: Qi Yan was silent and stubborn in her bones. She was obedient to the point of dogma. In a few hours, the palace banquet would start. There is absolutely no such request.

Nangong Jingnu guessed right, Qi Yan had not slept well for several nights in a row, Xiaodie had exhausted her last bit of energy in the morning, Qi Yan's brain was in chaos at this time, she didn't even know herself What can I say, I desperately want to get a good night's sleep.

Seeing that Nangong Jingnu was silent, Qi Yan softened her tone and added, "It's only an hour before the palace banquet..."

Nangong Jingnu interrupted Qi Yan with a smile: "Just right, last night, a wild cat from nowhere broke into the inner courtyard and barked all night, and this palace is exhausted~!"

Qi Yan didn't have the energy to distinguish the true from the false, and her amber eyes flashed: "Then...?"

Nangong Jingnu: "Could the concubine wish to sleep with this palace for a while?"

Qi Yan: "Okay."

The two returned to the bedroom hand in hand, and Nangong Jingnu took the initiative to say, "Drag your jacket and shoes and socks and sleep inside, I will call you when the time comes."

Qi Yan: "How does this work?"

In Wei Kingdom, even a simple bed is very particular. Generally, the husband sleeps on the inside and the wife sleeps on the outside, so that the husband can get out of bed at any time to do it. , Qi Yan was sleeping on the outside.

Nangong Jingnu glanced at Qi Yan angrily, this man's eyes were all red and he was still holding on, she didn't say anything, but took the initiative to take off Qi Yan's shirt, and pushed her onto the step-by-step bed: "Shoes and socks Do you want this palace to take it off for you?"

Qi Yan supported Nangong Jingnu who was about to squat down: "I don't dare, I... I will come by myself."

Nangong Jingnu smiled and sat beside Qi Yan. She didn't care about serving Qi Yan, but she didn't force her because she was afraid that her movements would scare the person away from sleepiness.

Qi Yan took off her shoes and socks, turned over and slept inside, pulled the quilt over her body, and Nangong Jingnu also took off her jacket and shoes and socks and lay outside.

Qi Yan's eyelids were fighting, and he said, "His Royal Highness, this minister is asleep."

Nangong Jingnu moved inward, turned her body and put her hand on Qi Yan's waist naturally: "Well."

After a while, Qi Yan's brows stretched out and breathed evenly...

Nangong Jingnu looked at the sleeping face of the other party and sighed silently. Qi Yan was dark and thin, and the palace clothes she used to wear were loose and baggy.

She couldn't help raising her hand but stopped in mid-air, outlining Qi Yan's long eyebrows and soft outline.

When she was quiet, Nangong Jingnv thought it was amazing herself: if Qi Yan didn't stop her just now, she would really willingly take off his shoes and socks for him, and now looking back on it, she doesn't feel anything.

Today is the fifth day of the cessation of the dynasty, and also the fifth day of her return to the house. Qi Yan has not appeared for the first five days... Although Nangong Jingnu has lost her mind, she is not as scratchy and cranky as before.

At this time, seeing Qi Yan's thin appearance, there is only distress left.

Nangong Jingnu looked at the hourglass on the table. There were still three hours before the palace banquet started.

She didn't sleep. When Qi Yan fell asleep, she leaned on the bedside, tucked the quilt for her, and then took the book on the bedside table and read it. Two hours later, Nangong Jingnu closed the book. Lying back to Qi Yan's side again, she sighed and felt a little unbearable in her heart.

Qi Yan was really tired, and she hummed from time to time after she fell asleep.

Nangong Jingnu closed her eyes, but propped up her knees and gently bumped into Qi Yan's waist. The latter hummed softly and slowly opened her eyes.

Qi Yan opened her misty eyes, and there was a tingling pain in her temples.

Nangong Jingnu seemed to be fast asleep. She looked at the sky outside and it was almost time, but Qi Yan opened her mouth but did not "wake up" the other party for the first time.

It seems that I haven't seen this girl well for a long time... Her facial features are open, her appearance is more dignified and moving, and the childishness between her brows has faded a lot.

Qi Yan's mood was a bit complicated, she couldn't help but straightened the broken hair between her forehead for Nangong Jingnv, and caressed her cheek along the peak of her eyebrows. Nangong Jingnv's heart throbbed. But the sweetness in her heart couldn't be restrained. She almost wanted to throw herself into Qi Yan's arms and tell her how she missed him...

"Your Highness? Wake up..."

Qi Yan retracted her hand and rubbed her fingertips, where the temperature of Nangong Jingnu remained.

"Hmm~."

"His Royal Highness? It's almost time, we should enter the palace."

Nangong Jingnu opened her eyes and burst into a big smile.