If life is just like the first time
My name is Qiyan Agula. I am the first child of Sukhbaru, the Khan King of the Dali Department of Beijing Kingdom. My mother is from Wei Kingdom. My father was taken in by the grandfather of the wandering prince, and he met my mother. On the eve of his marriage with his mother, his father and his mother were retrieved by the warriors of the grasslands. He took over the precarious Zhanli tribe from his dying grandfather, and led the warriors of the Zhanli tribe to sweep out the sky. Before his death, his grandfather entrusted the important affairs of the family to Liu. The co-assistance of the patriarchs also led to the confinement of my father Khan after he succeeded the Khan. It was even difficult to register the pregnant mother as Ketun. The six old ministers made an agreement with my father Khan. If they can give birth to a prince, they will no longer object.
The village where the mother lives was closed, and the father left suddenly on the eve of their marriage, causing the two elderly people to suffer from gossip and die of depression.
A few years later, my father complied with the agreement to welcome my mother back. They were a husband and wife in adversity. Naturally, my father could not have wronged my mother, so on the day I was born, my father announced the identity of my prince and stabbed me in the chest. The wolf king totem that only royal men can have...
As long as I can remember, I often feel that there is always an emotion in my mother's eyes that I can't understand, and the mother's whisper that I hear most is: "This child must be a son..."
When I was young and ignorant, I just wanted my mother to be happy, and I also looked forward to the arrival of my younger brother. It was not until I looked back after many years that I realized... The mother's eyes were filled with love and guilt, and what she was looking forward to was not only a real My son, but I can restore my identity as a daughter's family as soon as possible.
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Qi Yan's voice was very soft, speaking in the very standard Wei State official dialect, with a pearly and jade-like voice, calmly recounting the saddest past events.
She thought that she would never have the opportunity to talk about her past with others in detail in her life. These past events rot in the bottom of her heart a little bit over time, they cannot heal, they will not disappear, and they will bleed when touched.
But today, Qi Yan sat opposite the enemy's daughter and opened these wounds without reservation, but she was relieved from the dull pain in her heart like never before.
Nangong Jingnu's tears stopped, and there were still two wet tear stains on her cheeks. Her eyes were a little sloppy, and the focal length of her pupils did not know where to stop. Except for the ups and downs of breathing, there was no movement, and she was stiff like a statue. statue.
Qi Yan exhaled the turbid air in her chest and continued: "When I was three years old, the second child of the Zhanli royal family was born with much anticipation, although it was not as my mother wished, but my joy continued until eighth. The age has never been broken. When I was a child, every time I went out to play with Anda and other children of the same age, my mother would pull me aside and tell me: 'Don't take off your clothes, don't have physical contact with boys, don't go into the river to bathe, and more It's not allowed to piss off outside the king's tent... 'So even though I have an Ada who is better than a real brother, I am not happy. The boys of the same family don't like me either. My alienation makes them feel that I hold the status of a prince, For this reason, Anda accompanied me and suffered a lot of grievances. The birth of my sister made all the difference. I looked at my little sister who was like a small dumpling. She was like a gift from the gods... I swear to protect her for the rest of my life. As I thought, the first person my sister can call is 'brother'. She has been sticking to my back all day since she can walk. Even if she falls down... she doesn't cry. Every day I hang out with the boys of my family. When I returned to the camp, the first person to greet me was also my sister. When I was eight years old, I had a conflict with a certain auxiliary elder who was seven years older than me because of the ownership of a wolf. Punch, other boys are watching the fun, only my five-year-old sister picked up a stone and smashed the boy's head..."
Qi Yan's expression was wistful and soft, and she whispered, "It's obviously up to me to protect my sister..."
Qi Yan: "When I was eight years old, my father Khan was already recognized as the king of Khan by all the tribes in the grasslands. The Tuba tribe, the former nemesis of the plough tribe, was driven to the Luochuan River by my father Khan. At the grand ceremony, Nagus Erihe, the king of the Khan of the Tuba tribe, brought Princess Jiya, the pearl of the grassland, to the Dianli Department. In order to ease the relationship between the two ethnic groups, Erihe begged his father Khan to marry the Tuba tribe. The rest of the Khan kings in all the different ways, except my father, look down on the southerners. Although I belong to half of the Nanwei blood, I still have a bit of prestige on the grasslands because I was born to communicate with horses. Erihe hopes to make her youngest My daughter stayed in the plow department as a hostage, and she was raised to marry me when she was thirteen years old. Just because I was a woman... Father Khan refused Narihe's request, and the warriors of the two tribes almost started on the spot. Later, during the years when I was in exile , the warrior uncle who escorted me told me that my father Khan publicly refused the offer of a daughter from the Tuba Khan to ask for peace, which was equivalent to declaring war. Erihe knew that the Tuba was not an opponent of the plough, so they colluded with the Wei Kingdom. In winter... the plows are dead."
Qi Yan supported the table, pressed her temples with her palms, inserted her fingers into the meticulously combed hair, and said painfully, "If I were a real prince... Erihe wouldn't lead the southern soldiers to enter the country and support the plow department. , Wei Ke Bu... The whole grassland will not perish! I failed to persuade Anda to return, and I failed to protect my sister. Our team was scattered, and we only wandered in the grassland for half a year under the escort of a dozen people. Later... I met Ding Yi! The warriors were tired, and so were the horses... I knew we couldn't escape. I asked the warriors to take my sister to flee north, and the rest of me and I fled south, with Ding Yi leading the army They chased me all the way to the banks of Luochuan. During the flood season of Luochuan, the river was turbulent, and all the warriors who escorted me died in battle. Liuhuo and I vowed not to become slaves, so I jumped off Luochuan. Liuhuo carried me to the shore. I was exhausted and died, and I also fell into a large amount of river water, and my life and death were on the line. Fortunately, I was rescued by an expert. It took me half a year to raise my life in an unnamed valley. This expert... is the former dynasty. Emperor's biological sister, she accepted me as a closed disciple, taught me to read and write, chess, music theory, medical strategy... She wears a black robe and a black iron mask all day long, and I have been around her for many years and have never seen her true face Every thunderstorm night, she would go mad and torture me, forcing me to review the past in the grasslands over and over again, and making me shout out the tragic death of my parents, sister and Anda. At that time, I was willing to do anything for revenge , even if I fall into a nightmare because of this, even if I drink the strange poison she developed for me... As long as I can take revenge, I will do anything, even if it tortures me to death!"
Nangong Jingnu's eyes regained a little focus, she looked at Qi Yan expressionlessly, and tears flowed out again.
Qi Yan's heart seemed to be pierced by a needle, except for the tears that burst out from time to time, Nangong Jingnu was calm and terrifying.
Qi Yan's lips trembled, she didn't know if she should go on, how cruel the truth was? The liberation of his conscience was obtained by transferring the pain to Nangong Jingnu!
Why? Just one sentence: I am the princess of the Plough Department who came from the Wei Kingdom for revenge, isn't that enough
Bullying the monarch, conspiring against the monarch, murdering the monarch, maiming the emperor's heir, framing courtiers, driving up market prices, short-selling taxes... Which one is not a capital crime
Qi Yan hesitated for a moment, feeling that at least she had to finish what she had to say.
At the moment when he decided to confess, his life was handed over to Nangong Jingnv, but his plan to find the masked man failed. If he could let Nangong Jingnv understand the horror of the masked man, it would be considered the last for her. Do something more.
After thinking about this, Qi Yan took a heart and continued: "In the four years of Jingjia, the princess of the previous dynasty found a new identity for me. I took the pseudonym Jinzhou Qiyan and went to Yunzhou official school to take the Tongsheng test. Every year, the princess of the dynasty will give me a new identity. I have a dossier, which contains detailed information from the top to the middle book to the long history. There are also records of several princes and concubines in the court. It includes their portraits, life, origin, preferences, factions, and places of origin. Even the character has been analyzed. I have long been familiar with this information. Although I have never stepped out of the unknown valley, I know most of the affairs of the court like the back of my hand. So I got acquainted with Gongyanghuai, since he reported his family. I found out the details of his identity. I pretended to make friends with him just because I took a fancy to the identity of his Shiqing family. Zongzheng Temple is in charge of the important affairs of the royal family. The information that the Princess Chao gave me, I tried to figure out the thoughts of the examiners of the Qiuqi Township Exam and the Spring Palace Exam, and I did what I liked in writing and won the second exam Yuanjia all the way. The former Princess knew the emperor very well, and she concluded that one of the top three in the Palace Exam must come from a poor family. , I practiced calligraphy hard in order to make the late emperor take a look at my papers. The princess of the previous dynasty also said: I must try my best to avoid being named as a third flower. According to the conventions of the inner court: a second flower or being recruited as a son-in-law by a courtier will be difficult to get ahead. It’s a pity. … I didn’t get my wish. Although I tried my best to make a fool of myself during the parade, I still couldn’t escape the ending of being accused of getting married…”
Qi Yan's throat choked, and it was difficult to make a sound.
Do you really want this ending? The answer is obviously no. Qi Yan is afraid that if he goes on, he will say something against his heart, but as a woman, how could he have the face to tell Nangong Jingnv: being able to get married is the most beautiful thing in Wei Kingdom.
Are these enough
Should I confess the rest of my sins
Want to say
Qi Yan is not afraid of death, but she is afraid that she will die, but she will leave Nangong Jingnv with endless nightmares...
But you lied to her for so long, shouldn't you tell her all about it
Well, if she asks, she will answer truthfully.
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It is not intentional to conceal, these are already capital crimes.
And... Qi Yan still has a little selfishness in her heart, she doesn't want to smother the last possible line between her and Nangong Jingnu, even if she does... it's despicable and shameless.
Qi Yan let out a sigh and was silent for a long time: "Is there anything else you want to ask, Your Majesty?" Qi Yan forced her tears back, ready to accept the final judgment.
Nangong Jingnu's eyes gradually returned to focus. She looked at Qi Yan, weeping, trying to pull the corners of her mouth as if trying to smile, but her expression was a little stiff.
After several unsuccessful attempts, Nangong Jingnu pleaded in a trembling voice, "Don't make trouble, okay? I... I won't ask you about feeding me and taking medicine. Can you... can you stop making up stories?"
Qi Yan burst into tears. She had deduced it many times in her mind that day, and even imagined that Nangong Jingnu would kill herself on the spot, but she never expected it to be like this.
In the nineteen years since Beijing was destroyed, Qi Yan felt remorse for revenge for the first time.
It wasn't until this moment that Qi Yan understood that she underestimated this love and misunderstood Nangong Jingnu.
Qi Yan thought that there was no real marriage between them after all, maybe... Nangong Jingnu still has a way out.
Qi Yan originally thought that after so many experiences, Nangong Jingnu was able to take charge of herself and gradually became a "feeling" emperor.
However, he was wrong, and wrong.
Qi Yan, who has considered herself to be unshakable over the years, is thinking in her heart at this moment, if it is, if it is not... it would be great... .
Qi Yan clenched her fists tightly, biting her cheeks to keep herself from crying, and Nangong Jingnu lost consciousness in front of her eyes.
Qi Yan: "Your Majesty!"
Nangong Jingnu's face was bloodless, her eyes were tightly closed, but tears kept overflowing, her brows were deeply locked, her lips pursed into a line, and Qi Yan held her in her arms, unable to wake up.
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Nangong Jingnu had a long dream, in which she returned to Jingjia for seven years, when she was only thirteen years old.
The second sister went to the Poetry Club in disguise again, and she was obviously going out of the palace to accompany me, but she always ran out "for excuses".
Nangong Jing woman thought in a dignified manner: This time I will play tricks on the second sister...
I came to the back door where the second sister usually returned to the house, and waited for the rabbit!
After the second sister came in, I suddenly patted it from behind, and a folding fan fell out of the second sister's cuff. I picked up the folding fan and shook it away. The ink color dazzled...
Being favored by the royal father, my palace has never been short of rare and precious treasures. I have seen many masterpieces from famous calligraphy and painting, and I asked myself, but I am still amazed by the unique style of writing on the fan.
So involuntarily read: "Sisi willows, willows, Sisi rain, spring is in Mingmeng. Lou Erte is small and does not hide her worries. She went with Yunfei several times to find a return boat. Sorrow. Begonia red is almost green and dry, and the red curtain was rolled up, but it was cold in the evening."
It's a pity that I don't read too much on weekdays, so I can't understand the mood in this little decree, but it must be very good to draw a melancholy and deep boy in my mind.
But can't imagine what kind of eyes the other party has? To match such a good handwriting.
I didn't miss the soft shyness in the eyes of the second sister, and made fun of the second sister for a while.
Later, I often recited this little decree in front of my second sister. Finally, after a few days, my second sister couldn’t stand it and promised to take me out for a walk.
That day... I was very happy. It was my first time to travel among the people. It turns out that people's lives are so colorful and interesting.
It was almost time, and the second sister suggested to go to the study and go back.
When I came to the door of the study, I saw a young man dressed as a scholar rushing out, knocking down the second sister and wanting to leave without even saying a word of apology.
Growing up, this is the first time I've seen such a courageous person, colliding with the royal relatives and wanting to abscond in fear of crime
snort!
I grabbed the scholar's cuff and angrily said, "Why are you so rude? I bumped into Ben, why didn't my second brother help him?"
After I was done, I felt a little guilty again: I came out without a bodyguard this time, and I wonder if I could beat the person in front of me
He turned around and I saw his face.
The fear and unease in my heart have disappeared for the most part. Maybe this person's outline is not as tough as an adult man, or maybe he has a scholar's weak temperament and seems to be easy to handle...
I suddenly remembered what my father had taught me in the past, and I glared at him with all the aura of the princess.
Why doesn't the scholar seem to be afraid? There was a trace of surprise in his eyes, and his eyes were a little searching but calm and clear.
"Hey..." Although the voice was very soft, I still heard it!
Nangong Jingnu: "Do you know how sinful it is to collide with the royal family?! How dare you pretend to be "delaying my good deeds"
The more I thought about it, the more angry I became, and when I lifted my leg, I was kicked. I was very happy when I saw the slumped appearance of the scholar!
The next moment, I read a trace in the scholar's eyes... Disgust
Wow, this princess is dignified and proud, how dare you, a douchebag...
Nangong Shunv: "Jing'er, come and help me."
Hearing the second sister's words, the scholar also followed, and extended his hand to the second sister: "I'm sorry, where did the son get hurt?"
I clapped his hand without hesitation, how can you touch the daughter of the heavenly family
Nangong Jingnu: "Take off your dirty hands!"
Nangong Shunv: "Jing'er, don't be rude."
Nangong Jingnu: "Second brother, I will help you."
Nangong Jingnu: "Second brother! Your hand is bleeding!"
"I bumped into the son while I was in a hurry, I wonder if I want to go to the hospital to have a look?"
Nangong Shunv: "It's okay, I can deal with this minor injury when I return to the house."
"If that's the case, don't let it go."
I watched helplessly as the scholar fled like oil on the soles of his feet, and said angrily, "Second...Second brother! You just let him go?"
Nangong Shunv: "It's not intentional, maybe it's an emergency."
not on purpose? can you…
Nangong Shunv: "The person who heard the accent is not from the capital. If you look at him in plain clothes and carry a box on his back, it is very likely that he is a scholar who came to Beijing to take the exam. The medical clinic in the capital is expensive, so why should we embarrass him?"
After listening to the second sister's words, I thought about it carefully: that person's clothes were indeed different from what I had seen before, and the touch of the hand was extremely rough.
Nangong Jingnu: "Is this what my father said about 'folk suffering'?"
Nangong Shunv: "Jing'er is really smart."
I felt a lot better after receiving the second sister's compliment. I turned my head to look at the direction where the scholar was leaving, and he was nowhere to be seen. Forget it... Those who don't know are innocent, I'll spare him this time!
In the future, we should never see you again! I thought generously.
Although this trip has a little episode, but the capital is really fun~.
"Second brother, can you take me out to see more in the future?"
Nangong Shunv: "Okay."
But I never thought that the scholar and I would meet again soon, although I didn't recognize him immediately that time...
Later... He also became my concubine.
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I married you at the age of fourteen, married for nine years, you have spoiled me along the way, and accompanied me through the most difficult and dark years, you have sacrificed your life to save me, and even at a critical juncture, regardless of life and death, faced the imperial family alone. Lin rebels, turning the tide.
If it wasn't for your insight, how could I sit on the throne of the goddess
You know, even when the dust settles, my heart palpitates every time I think about it
You know: I would like to share a white head with you, and I want to give you the best in the world. When I am forty years old, I will let go of this heavy weight, and I will travel the landscape with you...
However, you said to me: everything is nothing but a mirror, "Jun" is not a monarch, and even the name is fake.
how can that be possible? How can we... be mortal enemies
You obviously... treat me sincerely.
Qi Yan... how can you
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Nangong Jingnv didn't fall into a coma for too long, but the silver needle of Royal Doctor Wang woke her up.
Everyone saw that His Majesty looked at the "Imperial Husband" in awe, and retired. Qi Yan's eyes were red as she sat beside the bed and looked at Nangong Jingnu.
Nangong Jingnu twitched the corners of her mouth: "I just... had a dream."
Qi Yan did not start, and said softly: "Your Majesty..."
Nangong Jingnv: "Are you tired? Go back first, you go back first..."
Qi Yan: "Your Majesty..."
Nangong Jingnu's tone became more and more urgent: "Go back, I told you to go back and go back to the Chengchao Palace!"
Qi Yan got up: "Yes."
After Qi Yan left, Nangong Jingnu lay motionless on the bed, not wanting to think about anything, as if as long as she didn't think about it, she would just lie there motionless, what happened just now was just her own dream.
After an unknown amount of time, Gongyanghuai personally came to report: "Many courtiers have been waiting outside the court hall, asking to see His Majesty."
Only then did Nangong Jingnv get up and shouted "Qiu Ju", but a new face walked in and gave Nangong Jingnv a timid salute: "Slave Fanxing."
Nangong Jingnu wanted to ask: Where is Qiu Ju? When the words came to his mouth, his heart twitched, and tears flowed out again.
Fan Xing knelt on the ground and said in a panic, "Slave should die."
Nangong Jingnu raised her hand to wipe away the tears, and said lightly, "It's okay, but I've slept for a long time, and my eyes are a little dry."
Fanxing: "Yes, thank you, Your Majesty."
Except for Qi Yan, Nangong Jingnu will not reveal her vulnerability in front of anyone, even if her heart is so painful that she can't breathe, there is no clue except for the momentary gaffe.
Nangong Jingnu: "Shower and change clothes."
Fanxing: "Yes."
Nangong Jingnu came to the court in a chariot, where the civil and military officials of the Man Dynasty were already kneeling and waiting.
Nangong Jingnv: "Every Qing family is free from courtesy."
Everyone: "Thank you, Your Majesty!"
Nangong Jingnv: "I... I've been frightened by the Qing family for the past few days."
Everyone agreed with some nice words, and fell silent again. After a few breaths, Zhongshu Sheng Zuo Pushe broke the deadlock.
Lu Boyan said: "Your Majesty, the minister impeached Taiwei Gong Yanghuai, there are three crimes: it is one crime to stay in the forbidden palace at night without a decree and no edict, and it is a second crime to privately transfer the army to block the capital, and to replace the palace gate with soldiers from the family's house. Guards, these are three crimes. Taiwei Gong Yanghuai is suspected of conspiracy, abuses his power, and disturbs the inner court of the capital. According to the law, he should be dismissed and demoted to common people. The crime is true, and the crime can kill the nine clans!"
Gongyanghuai came out of the queue and knelt before the hall: "Your Majesty, there is a reason for this.
One of the two people in the hall was the direct son of the former Taiwei's mansion, and the other was the current Taiwei. The civil service group also took a wait-and-see attitude. Although the Lu residence is on the decline, its foundation is still unshakable. The Gongyang family has a weaker foundation, but anyone with a discerning eye can see that Gongyanghuai is now a hottest figure in the court. Wonderful, let's see how Your Majesty decides.
Nangong Jingnu was silent for a long time, she remembered every word Qi Yan said, and knew that Gongyanghuai was under Qi Yan's order.
Nangong Jingnu raised her hand and pressed her chest, and there was a real pain inside, but her face did not reveal the slightest.
Nangong Jingnv: "This matter is at my instigation, and the reason is inconvenient to elaborate. The Lu Qing family is loyal, but the charges of impeachment are not true, Gongyanghuai, get up."
Gongyanghuai: "Thank you, Your Majesty!"
Gongyanghuai returned to the team, but cold sweat broke out on his back... So it seems that His Majesty and Yuanjun have no grudges, and his head and the life of the whole family have been saved.
Lu Boyan's face changed a few times, and before he could speak, he was interrupted by Xing Jingfu: "Since Your Majesty Kang Taichen is waiting, you can rest assured, but the capital has been blocked for a few days. , please make an early decision, Your Majesty."
Nangong Jingnv: "I... I'm very tired today. I'll discuss everything in the courtroom tomorrow. If you don't have anything to do with it, then retreat."
After going down to court, Gongyanghuai asked Nangong Jingnv Ding Yi and his son how to arrange them. Nangong Jingnv said, "I know what they said, let them go back to the palace first, and discuss it later."
Gong Yanghuai took the decree and took the opportunity to beat the Ding family father and son: "Master Ding, Qi Yuanjun is the imperial husband of the dynasty, your majesty is no more than a man, the imperial husband is also the country's capital, your father and son... Well, there is no regret medicine in this world."
Ding Yi's face turned red and white, and she left with Ding Fengshan.
Qi Yan returned to the Chengchao Palace and entered the study. There was not much left in "On the Ten Disadvantages of the Old Politics". When he confessed his identity, he also lost his goal and retreat. Qi Yan didn't know what to do and waited for the president. It's hard work, it's better to do what you can.
Nangong Jingnv returned to Ganquan Palace, ordered someone to lock the gate of the palace, and ordered no one to disturb her. She went back to the bedroom alone, plunged her head into the bed and cried silently.
When he woke up, the sky collapsed, and the shocks came one after another. Nangong Jingnu didn't know which one to face first.
Should we be saddened by the deaths of Qiu Ju, Chen Chuansi and Xia He, or should we be shocked that there is such a huge force of the former dynasty in the Wei Kingdom? Or to meet Qiyan... the identity of the aliens and women of Agula
Nangong Jingnu didn't dare to face Qiyan or Agula, she didn't know what to say, how to face... her.
How can someone who has loved for many years be a woman
She said that she was here for revenge, and had worked hard for so many years... How much has been accomplished? Nangong Jingnu didn't dare to think deeply.
Just these two things... are unforgivable.
To punish her for her sins
Then she... there is only one way to go.
Nangong Jingnu completely closed herself, and did not hear the report from the palace servant: Princess Zhuohua entered Ganquan Palace with a royal gift token in hand.
Nangong Shunv saw that there was no answer in the hall, so she pushed the door and walked in.
Fanxing: "His Royal Highness Zhuohua!"
Nangong Shunv: "You all step back. Your Majesty is here to explain it to me, and I won't blame you."
Fanxing: "Yes..."