Love is everything that is beautiful.
But marriage is not. In the face of reality, feelings are the fastest consumables.
"After giving birth to my younger brother, my mother was in a state of depression for a long time. They divorced not long afterward. When I went through the formalities, my father wanted to leave me and said that he planned to stay in school to take students with him. , I will reduce the time I spend outside in the future. I remember my mother was very calm at the time, and she said something: 'I quarreled with you so much, I just hope you will spend more time with me and my children, why wait for divorce, this condition is become so easy to achieve.'"
Jiang Ying didn't know what to say to comfort him, so she could only hold his hand and rub the back of his hand with the pulp of her fingers.
"I don't blame my dad, he has his dreams and ambitions. He has been to many places, and every time he brings back various souvenirs, he tells my brother and me what he saw along the way. But he is indeed not a qualified father. I have never been to one of my parent-teacher meetings, and I don't even know which class I am in."
Yun Xian put a fried bun on Jiang Ying's plate and said to Jiang Ying, "You should have a good relationship with my dad. You both like to run around the world."
Jiang Ying chewed the crispy dough and said, "It's so boring to stay in your own circle all the time, not to mention that there are so many interesting places in this world."
Yun Xian nodded in approval: "That's right."
"What about your mother, how is she now?"
"Very good, still teaching at school."
"Then is she a very strict kind of teacher? My high school Chinese teacher was very fierce. I still remember how she taught people."
Yun Xian raised her eyebrows: "Anyway, as far as I know, her students are quite afraid of her."
Jiang Ying snorted and said, "That's over, it's over."
Yun Xian didn't know what to say for a while, so she raised her hand and tapped her forehead: "Are you worried about the relationship between mother-in-law and daughter-in-law now?"
Jiang Ying clutched her forehead and denied: "How can there be!"
"You really don't have to worry about it. If she knew that I was in a relationship, she would have to pay for you."
Jiang Ying glared at him as if he was joking.
But after thinking about it, she and Yun Xian just started dating, and it's still a long time before they meet their parents, so there's really no need to worry now.
The brief worry ended quickly, Jiang Ying took a sip of the red bean porridge, and the sweetness spread on the tip of the tongue - it is more important to enjoy the moment.
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When Li Zhicheng said that she could finally leave work, Jiang Ying felt as if she was seventeen years old in an instant. The first math class in the morning was long and boring.
When the bell rang, the whole world lit up.
"Go back to wash and wash up, have a good night's sleep, it's hard work everyone." Li Zhicheng yawned while lazily condoling to the employees, "Please eat well when we arrive in Shanghai."
In order to tie in with the summer mid-year promotion and the June Comic-Con event, a total of two chapters have been updated this time. The time is tight and the tasks are heavy. In addition, there are many places that need to be modified and adjusted according to player feedback. By the time everything was finalized on this day, the entire office had already been squeezed to the bone.
Zhou Qingqing couldn't hold it anymore and fell asleep directly on the table. Jiang Ying covered her with a blanket and packed her things to get off work.
It's only ten o'clock in the morning now, and after a long night, she was sleepy. Although the fatigue couldn't be relieved, she was still awake.
When she walked to the edge of the cloud, Su Cheng was squatting at the door smoking a cigarette.
"Why are you here?" Jiang Ying asked him.
"Sister, why are you here?" Su Cheng saw her, got up immediately, took off the cigarette from his mouth, and looked like he had seen a ghost.
Jiang Yingchao looked around the store: "I just finished my work and wanted to come to your store to find something to eat."
Su Cheng: "Oh, that's it."
Jiang Ying looked at him standing blankly at the door, and found it funny: "What's wrong? You won't let me in?"
"Eh, no, that, sister..." Su Cheng didn't know how to explain it, so he could only feel his hair stubble in a hurry.
Seeing his strange appearance, Jiang Ying sensed something sensitively. She smiled and asked him, "Where's your boss?"
"It's inside, fighting..."
Halfway through Su Cheng's words, an angry reprimand came from the room.
"Did you treat me like a human being? Did you treat me like a human being? Do you know that you told me and Yun Qian that it would be fine if you hadn't given birth to the two of you since you were a child. How do we both feel?"
"In the past 20 years, you are not happy, you are not happy, have I been happy?"
"You're right, giving birth to me was the worst decision you've ever made. I feel the same way."
"I hope more than you, than you and your ex-husband, that I don't exist."
Across the door and the hall, Jiang Ying couldn't hear what the people in the room actually said.
But just based on the few words she caught, she seemed to have been struck by lightning, and she was stunned and didn't know whether to advance or retreat.
The person who was bursting out at this very moment, screaming in despair like a trapped beast, was the most gentle existence she had ever met in more than 20 years.
And she never dared to imagine that Yun Xian would say things like "I hope I don't exist".
Su Cheng pulled Jiang Ying out, closed the door, and said in a soft voice, "The boss just answered a phone call, it seems that it was from his house, I guess something happened, and there was a quarrel without saying a word. But he's not in a good mood every time he answers the phone from home."
"I'll go see him." Jiang Ying was about to go in.
"Hey, sister." Su Cheng stopped her, "You'd better not go in first, he's worried, let him stay by himself for a while."
Jiang Ying opened his mouth but was speechless. She sighed heavily and leaned against the door with her arms in her arms, and spread her palms towards Su Cheng: "Smoke, give me one."
Su Cheng was stunned, took out a cigarette and a lighter from his pocket and handed them over.
Jiang Ying was about to light a cigarette with a cigarette in her mouth. She remembered that she had said in front of Yun Xian that she wanted to quit smoking. She snapped the lid of the lighter and rubbed her hair irritably: "Forget it."
It didn't take long for Yun Xian to come out and call Su Cheng from the room: "Su Cheng, I'm going back to Beijing these two days, call me if you have anything."
Su Cheng hurriedly responded: "Well, good."
Yun Xian hurried to the door, only to see Jiang Ying who had been standing there. After the momentary accident passed, he eased his displeased expression, barely squeezed a smile from the corner of his mouth, and asked her, "Why are you here?"
Jiang Ying didn't answer his question and asked directly, "Are you going back to Beijing, what happened?"
Su Cheng entered the store consciously, leaving the two of them alone to talk.
It's hard to explain, Yun Xian only said: "Something happened at home, I'll tell you later, I have to rush to the airport now and wait for me to come back."
"Yun Xian." Jiang Ying took his arm, "I'll go with you."
Seeing that he didn't respond for a while, Jiang Ying took his hand and said, "I don't want to interfere with your family affairs, I just want to accompany you. Maybe there is something I can help you with. Let's go together, okay?"
The gloom that enveloped the whole body seemed to be thinning all of a sudden, Yun Xian raised his hand and touched Jiang Ying's cheek, his heart was sour.
"it is good."
It took 40 minutes all the way to the airport. In Jiang Ying's car, Yun Xian had been talking to different people, and the first question was always "Is Yun Xian with you?"
After searching all the people she could find in her address book, Yun Xian finally put down her phone and leaned back in the chair tiredly.
Jiang Ying glanced at him and asked, "Did my brother run away from home?"
Yun Xian let out a weak hum: "I haven't been in a good state of study recently, and I quarreled with my mother. The teacher called today to say that I didn't go to class. I don't know where this kid went."
Jiang Ying comforted him: "He is so old, he knows what to do, maybe he is tired and wants to run away for a while."
Yun Xian rubbed his temples: "I understand."
Yun Xian was in a bad mood, so Jiang Ying didn't say anything more. They hurriedly bought the latest flight, and it was past two o'clock in the afternoon when they landed.
After investigating the surveillance at the gate of the community, Yun Qian was walking in the opposite direction of the school in the morning, but it was very difficult to find out where he went.
This morning, Xia Zhi had two public classes in a row, and she had no time to look at her mobile phone. Mr. Tao, the head teacher of Yunxi, thought that he was sick and did not come to school. After all, he was a good student with good grades, and he never thought he was truant.
Xia Zhi's first reaction when she knew that her younger son was not in class was to call the eldest son who was also worried.
In her opinion, half of Yun Qian's sudden rebellion was learned from Yun Xian, and Yun Xian's inexplicable rebellion was inherited from Yun Chengfan. If you can't bear it, you escape from reality. It's cowardly and shameful. The father and son are the same.
After the mother and son said a few words, they quarreled. Until now, they are sitting in the police station, and they are on one side, and no one pays any attention to the other.
Jiang Ying stood next to Yun Xian. She was shy when she first met her parents, but now the atmosphere is awkward, and she is even more uncomfortable.
As soon as the policeman couldn't hear it was a boy in the third year of high school, he was half-hearted, and asked them, "Where does this kid usually go? If he doesn't want to go to class, he probably goes to an Internet cafe."
Xia Zhi shook her head: "It's impossible for him to go to an Internet cafe. His ID card is at home, and he doesn't have a mobile phone. Where can he go, this kid."
Yun Xian calmly explained the situation to the police: "He usually stays at home and at school. I contacted relatives and friends I know, and they all said that I hadn't seen him. There are very few places he can go alone, and the cash on him is only a few hundred yuan. , can you check the surrounding surveillance?"
The policeman was smoking a cigarette while taking notes: "It also takes time to investigate. Maybe he will come back by himself after a while."
Jiang Ying tugged Yunxian's sleeve and asked in a low voice, "Does he have any hobbies? For example, if he likes astronomy, he will probably go to museums, or he likes to play basketball?"
Yun Xian lowered his head and said nothing.
Jiang Ying thought he didn't understand, and continued: "When he's in a bad mood, he'll probably do what he likes. Maybe he just wants to find a place to vent."
"Jiang Ying." Yun Xian finally raised his head, and light hit his side face and shoulders, clearly outlining his lack of sleep and the tiredness on his brows, "Yun Xian, he doesn't seem to have any hobbies."
Or rather, there can't be.
Anything that has nothing to do with study is a waste of time, and whatever you like will be blocked by the sentence "wait after the college entrance examination, your main task now is to study". Over time, those hobbies, interests, things that can bring pleasure will lose their original effect.
In the long silence, the light shifted, and Yun Xian's whole body was in shadow. He finally remembered that his younger brother used to like flying machines.
When did Yun Qian stop talking to him about spaceflight, space probes, and those terms that were far away and full of infinite charm in his eyes
It seems that on a weekend, Xia Zhi took the brothers to the bookstore, and Yun Qian happily picked up a copy of "The Vast Universe".
The book is very thick, and the knowledge involved is professional and obscure for a seven- or eight-year-old child, but just the pictures make Yun Qian excited to read it. He doesn't know what is required behind a manned spaceflight. He just couldn't resist the attraction from the depths of the universe.
But the book that he couldn't put down still could not be brought home, no matter how he insisted, how he described how interesting the book was, he was finally blocked by Xia Zhi's sentence "Can you pass the test?" rebuttal.
Yun Qian didn't make trouble that day, and obediently put the book back on the shelf. Xia Zhi touched his head with satisfaction and said with a smile, "Would you like to take you and your brother to eat pizza at night?"
As for whether the younger brother became happy later, Yun Xian can't remember.
Maybe soon forget about it, after all, is a child.
"Isn't it pitiful?" Yun Xian asked Jiang Ying in a hoarse voice, "I don't even have anything I like."
He seems to be talking about Yunxian, but also seems to be talking about himself.