First of all, I'm sorry, I was going to finish writing the ending of the casino plot yesterday and today
But I can't write it out according to the status.
In addition to the factors of opening this volume, my state this month is really bad.
So much so that I'm even a little bit self-defeating
For book lovers who are chasing updates, it really means that you can rest assured to chase,
You can spend more than three yuan a month to count me as a loser
Sounds like a meme (wry smile and sigh)
It's annoying, I can't write it, it annoys me,
There are fewer and fewer updates in a month, and the mentality has collapsed
Why can't I write it out
I didn't think about the plot in the future, I didn't expect the plot to be so exciting that I couldn't wait to write it, there was no goal, no expectation
As a result, I resisted codewords every day, procrastinated in the morning, and finally had to write until midnight, feeling very tired. The next day, because I stayed up late the night before, I procrastinated in the morning, an endless loop
In a nutshell, it's Calvin.
why calvin
After writing the latest chapter, I kept asking myself why I didn’t want to write it
After much deliberation, it is still the emptiness in life that is often talked about
Zhengtian was staying at home, and didn't meet and communicate with anyone except his parents
There is nothing to play to make myself happy, of course, there is no girlfriend,
I only have code words in my life
boring boring empty lonely dying
Feeling boring is really a devastating blow to salty fish like me
Use interest as the driving force, when you are not interested enough, there will always be various problems
When writing for the sake of royalties, it is estimated that I will not be far from writing collapse
As of the update of this volume so far, I can clearly feel that some chapters are rushed out because I don’t want to break the update
Give me a very uneasy, very uneasy feeling
I always want to turn it over and change it, but when I open it, I don’t know what else to change
No, it's not just this volume, I had this feeling at the end of the last volume
Not satisfied enough, not confident enough, not exciting enough
The plot of the casino feels a bit bloated. I feel that my subconscious mind has too many words in order to complete the update.
And in order to reflect the breathless atmosphere, I deliberately did not write the relaxed interaction with Adeline
The mental process seems to be written too much
Alas, whenever this happens, I just think if my writing could be better
It would be nice to express those thoughts in shorter words
I may have to dove in the next few days on May 1st. In order to let you notice at a glance, I marked it in brackets.
I'm on the train right now, I'm going out for a walk
This is the second trip in my life, I hope it doesn't fail like the previous year
And I really don't want to be home anymore
I'd love to change, change my situation, rekindle my passion
but don't know what to do
I want to leave home, but I don’t know where to go, I have a city I want to go to, but I don’t want to go alone,
Renting a house alone in a strange city without friends and writing novels at home all day is really even worse
Feels like after college,
life is stagnant
I don't know what to do, I feel like I'm just wasting my youth
ha... ..
Finally, I am really sorry for all the book friends who support the genuine version,
I'm really sorry for catching up with a failed pigeon like me
(apology)