Confession (Ying Cheng)

Chapter 56: Confess that we have broken up

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After Xu Sui pushed the business card to Li Yang, he quickly deleted Zhou Jingze.

You can be stupid for love in your youth, but you can't now. How desperately she loved at the beginning, she fell so badly.

It is best not to be entangled, which is very good.

After returning home, Xu Sui received a message from Li Yang.

Li Yang has always been sloppy in handling affairs, so he sent her a screenshot: [On-site movie press conference, after the event, the staff will take you to the backstage to shake hands with the actor you like and take pictures, how about it, brother is reliable.]

Xu Suihui: [Brother is reliable.]

After a while Li Yang said: [But the press conference is two months later, you have to wait. No, I said when did you become so literary and artistic, watching this kind of Italian movies, this is the first time I saw you chasing stars, I like it so much.]

Xu Sui smiled and didn't reply.

If there is no reason, it is probably because of one person.

As the weekend passed by, Xu Sui soon forgot about this episode, and became a tireless screw again in the surgical room. On Tuesday, there was a meeting in the hospital, and one part of it was how doctors treat patients' dependence.

The director of the hospital released a series of short videos, in which there were examples of doctors in the hospital working hard to save patients from illnesses, and there were also examples of patients who fought against cancer but died unfortunately.

The doctors in the field were all moved, and some even had moist eyes.

Director Zhang sat across from Xu Sui, watching her quietly. Xu Sui sat on the side next to the meeting, looking at the ppt on the projector calmly, without much expression, but she was listening carefully, occasionally lowering her head to take notes carefully, and the ponytail tied to the side of her head was slightly shaking.

After the meeting, Xu Sui closed the cap of his pen, tidied up the minutes of the meeting on the table, and walked out with it in his arms. Halfway through, he heard someone calling her.

Xu Sui stopped and looked back. It was her teacher, Director Zhang.

Director Zhang walked up to her with his hands behind his back, and asked with a smile, "Xiao Xu, what are the main points of this meeting?"

Xu Sui thought for a while, and then spoke clearly.

"That's right," Director Zhang praised with a nod, before changing the subject, "Have you found the answer to the question I told you before?"

Director Zhang, as the teacher who has been taking her with him, even had a private conversation with her some time ago. He said that Xu Sui is diligent and conscientious, his medical skills have been improving, and he is also responsible and patient with patients.

Everything is fine, except for the lack of compassion as a doctor.

In other words, in this profession, Xu Sui is too rational.

Xu Sui shook his head and said, "I'm sorry, teacher, I—"

Director Zhang sighed, patted her on the shoulder, and said before leaving: "Someone will tell you the answer."

When Xu Sui returned home after a busy day, the room was completely silent, and when he pressed the switch, it was as bright as day. Xu Sui stood at the entrance to change his shoes and put his bag away, and even ordered a takeaway.

After taking a shower and washing my hair, the takeaway just arrived.

Xu Sui took the takeaway, turned on a variety show on the TV, and watched it while eating. Halfway through, Xu Sui's cell phone beside the table made a "ding dong" sound.

She put down her chopsticks, picked them up and saw that it was a message from Li Yang: Sweetheart, I'm so tired.

Xu Sui was too familiar with Li Yang's pattern at the beginning of this sentence, which meant that he had a lot of things to complain about, so she turned back and Li Yang immediately complained:

[Suibao, that friend of yours is too cruel. Ask him five sentences and answer me with one word. Do I have to live with him being a jerk just because he's good-looking?]

cold? Xu Sui thought about it carefully, and it seemed to be okay.

Xu Sui didn't know what to reply, so he replied: [You have worked hard.]

Li Yang returned a series of ellipses.

Two hours later, Xu Sui cleaned up the room, lit a stick of citrus-scented incense, and patted the pillow to prepare for sleep. Li Yang sent a message:

[I decided to give up on this man.]

Xu Suigang lay down, turned his body on his side, resting his head on his arms, and asked: [Huh?]

Li Yang replied with a lot of words: [People are good-looking, but a boring personality is useless. He is not fun at all, saying that he has no hobbies. When he clicks into his circle of friends, there is not a single post, and his signature is still a dash.]

Soon, Li Yang attached a screenshot.

Xu Sui clicked on it, and his dark eyelashes trembled. His WeChat avatar had never changed. It was always Mr. Kui, but now it was Mr. Kui and 1017.

Xu Sui had a sore nose looking at their group photo.

Over the years, they have become old cats and old dogs.

Zhou Jingze's circle of friends is empty and clean, and his personal signature is still the dash.

Xu Sui recalled when they were in college, not long after they got together, they played games at his house. The summer is long, the sun outside the alley is very strong, and the cicadas sing one after another.

Xu Sui and Zhou Jingze were watching the football game at home, they were sitting on the sofa, the orange sunlight fell on a corner, Zhou Jingze hugged her, they were lying on the sofa, he was in good spirits, and opened a can of cold beer.

The pull ring was torn apart, and countless bubbles rushed up.

Xu Sui was so envious that he wanted to drink, but Zhou Jingze refused to let her taste the froth in the end. Zhou Jingze took back the beer, put it aside, and asked casually:

"Yiyi, who do you bet on?"

Xu Sui looked at him and asked back, "Who do you think will win?"

"Neymar."

"Then I'll bet on number 16, the one in the red jersey." Xu Sui said.

Zhou Jingze became interested, raised his eyebrows and asked, "Oh? Why, do you know him?"

"No, I just want to play against you." Xu Sui smiled.

After she finished speaking, she forked a piece of iced watermelon into her mouth, fled away from Zhou Jingze, and sat on the other side of the sofa, afraid that Zhou Jingze would punish her.

On that extremely sweltering afternoon, the two watched a ball game together. Unexpectedly, Xu Sui's words came true, and the player in the red jersey on the 16th actually kicked a century-long spin goal.

Neymar lost.

Xu Sui smiled brightly: "Where there is a will, there is a way."

Zhou Jingze took a sip of cold beer and smiled: "What do you want?"

They had previously agreed that the loser could do one thing for the other.

Xu Sui thought for a while, took his arm, and said with some embarrassment: "You just... post a message about my circle of friends? Or should I draw a turtle on your face?"

Zhou Jingze chose the former. He picked up his mobile phone on the coffee table and directly sent a message to Moments, and changed his signature along the way. The circle of friends he posted was quickly seen by Da Liu.

Da Liu: [What kind of weird thing is this, do you like dashes? "]

Zhou Jingze: [Yeah.]

[? Don't be like this, you suddenly become a mother.]

Xu Sui took his phone and looked at it, frowning slightly: "Dash?"

Zhou Jingze rubbed her head like he was petting his dog, deliberately teasing her, his tone was not serious: "Well, isn't Yiyi not like a dash?"

"They look alike too."

Xu Sui reacted and was out of breath. He stretched out his hand to hit him, and his voice was soft when he lost his temper: "You are like a dash."

Zhou Jingze's chest trembled with joy. He was drinking beer when Xu Sui rushed over and accidentally bumped into his elbow, and the beer in his hand swayed onto Xu Sui.

She was wearing a white dress, her chest was wet, and the air bubbles were evaporating. Zhou Jingze's eyes changed when she saw her, and the indoor temperature rose.

He leaned forward and kissed her, and pressed her down on the sofa.

The black trousers pressed against the white skirt, and there was a touch of forbidden color in the panting. Xu Sui tasted the beer he fed, it was cold, and he swallowed his body fluid, as if feeling dizzy.

The legs were intertwined and tense, and the sunlight coming in was very strong. With a "click", the beer can fell to the ground, and the remaining half of the can of beer fell on the ground, making a "sizzling" sound, and then slowly melted.

The sweet words at the beginning seemed to be in his ears, Xu Sui looked at the screenshot and wondered what he meant, and he hasn't changed his signature until now.

This is not like Zhou Jingze's style at all, after all, he is not a long-term lover.

Over the years, what Xu Sui has learned after joining the work is to bypass the things she can't figure out. After thinking about it for a while, she couldn't find the answer. It should be that Zhou Jingze was simply too lazy to change it.

Xu Sui didn't return to Li Yang in the end, but fell into a deep sleep.

On Friday, Xu Sui got up a little late, took a bag of bread and a carton of milk, and hurried to work. Hospitals are overcrowded as usual.

Xu Sui sat in the office and ran all morning, so busy that his back ached. Just after taking a break and taking a sip of water, the deputy director came in with a stack of documents.

"Director," Xu Sui hurriedly stood up, wanting to pour water for him.

"Hey, sit down, don't be too busy," the director pointed to the seat with the folder, motioning for her to sit back.

Xu Sui had no choice but to sit back again, and the director handed her a document: "Xiao Xu, it's like this. Our hospital has a medical cooperation project with Zhongzheng Airlines. They asked us to send medical staff to give lectures. Teaching the pilots emergency medical knowledge, and cooperating with filming a joint promotional video by the way, it’s a win-win situation.”

As soon as Xu Sui heard the word aviation, Xu Sui instinctively rejected it, but if he refused, the director would definitely be suspicious. She had no choice but to follow his words and ask:

"Where?"

"In the western suburbs of Beijing, the aviation flight training base of one of their subsidiaries, you and your colleagues in the obstetrics and gynecology department, pack up and go there, there will be a car to pick you up."

Xu Sui flipped through the document symbolically, with a hesitant expression: "Director, I have a lot of work here, so..."

"Don't worry, the organization will give you a vacation, if not, I'll ask them to transfer you." Director You said.

Xu Sui wanted to say something more, but the director interrupted her: "Xiao Xu, you are the face of our department, and your medical skills are improving all the time, why don't you send someone else? Besides, you have to do my work as an old man. Let's support it."

After he finished speaking, the director took advantage of the opportunity to put her in such a high position, so Xu Sui could only nod: "Okay."

At 2 o'clock in the afternoon, Xu Sui and his colleagues set off to the flight training base. They went to four people, two men and two women. Xu Sui sat in the back row and brought out a laptop. She wanted to read the information, but the road to the western suburbs was too shaky, so she turned off the computer after a while and sat quietly in the back.

Colleagues complained: "This is too far away."

After driving for an hour and a half, Xu Suiyue felt more sick when he sat in the back, and his face turned pale. She couldn't take it anymore, she felt sick to her stomach, she pushed down the car window and lay down on the window.

The colleague handed her a bottle of water, and said in a worried tone, "Are you okay? Why is motion sickness so serious?"

Xu Sui took a sip, felt a little better, and said, "It's an old problem."

The car drove farther and farther away from the city, Xu Sui was lying on the window of the car, the scenery outside was receding all the way, the sun was burning like fire, and the fragrance of green grass mixed with the humidity of the wind poured in.

In the distance, Xu Sui saw the base not far away, surrounded by mountains, the turquoise playground, and the gray floor engraved with the direction signs for aircraft take-off and landing, lined up side by side. The roar of the plane overhead became more and more distinct.

The stone tablet standing on the left is engraved with eight big characters in red: AVIC Flight Training Base.

The car drove to the front and stopped. The guard at the door took the ID and opened the brakes. The driver drove in and couldn't find a parking space, so Xu Sui signaled to get off the car.

After the car stopped, Xu Sui rushed out of the car door, feeling dizzy and nauseated. In a hurry, she asked a passerby:

"Hello, where is the toilet?"

The other party pointed to her: "Go straight and turn left."

Xu Sui trotted all the way, and the sun seemed to be chasing her shadow. When he reached the first intersection, a clear and powerful familiar voice came:

"What's our slogan, huh?"

A group of sonorous and forceful voices answered him: "Do your best and go to the sky!"

Xu Sui raised his eyes and looked over. Zhou Jingze was wearing a pine branch green training uniform standing in front of a group of blue oceans, which was particularly conspicuous. Zhou Jingze led them to run in the front. Whistling, sweat streaming down the sideburns.

Ruffian and uninhibited.

The blue phalanx passed in front of him, Xu Sui squinted his eyes, and seemed to see his young appearance in a trance, doing training vigorously, and at the same time shouted "Report to the instructor, my girlfriend!"

As if yesterday.

After watching for two seconds, Xu Sui covered his mouth, frowning and ran towards the bathroom.

Zhou Jingze led the team to train on the track. When he passed by the east, he seemed to see a familiar figure. He stopped and fell behind the team. Panting slightly, the whistle stopped abruptly, staring at a certain direction. Thoughtful.

Xu Sui rushed into the bathroom, vomited with a pale face, and finally lay down on the sink, turned on the faucet, and simply washed his face with cold water.

Xu Sui walked out after a while, walked to the right, raised his eyes inadvertently, and found a man lazily leaning against the wall, a tall and slender figure came down, with his hand in his trouser pocket, and a dog's tail in his mouth Grass, and the arc of the Adam's apple on the side is smooth, revealing a sense of abstinence.

Xu Sui withdrew his gaze expressionlessly, and was about to leave when Zhou Jingze called to her, with a low voice: "Motion sickness?"

She nodded, Zhou Jingze stood up straight, walked up to her, holding a green mint candy in his hand, and looked at her pale face: "Eat a candy."

"No, thank you." Xu Sui refused lightly.

After speaking, Xu Sui was about to leave, but his arm was grabbed by someone, and the warmth of his palm covered her. The man's palm was rough, with a thin layer of calluses, rubbing against her white and tender skin. This feeling was familiar and long-lasting, she only felt that her arm was very hot, scorching like fire, and subconsciously broke free.

No matter what you earn, Zhou Jingze will not move.

Xu Sui looked directly at him, spoke softly, and paused every word: "Do I need to remind you? We have already broken up."

Zhou Jingze was stunned, and when he let go of his arms, Xu Sui was able to break free, and happened to call her not far away. Xu Sui responded, "Here we are", passed by him, and inadvertently bumped Zhou Jingze's elbow.

The person has gone away, but the faint scent of camellia on her body still remains in the air.

Ruoyuruowu, just like human beings, indifferent, but with a strong sense of presence.

The mint in the palm of the hand fell on the concrete floor, and it was immediately covered with dust. Zhou Jingze leaned over to pick up the abandoned candy, walked to the faucet not far away, turned on the switch, and rinsed it with water.

Zhou Jingze unwrapped the candy wrapper, threw the candy into his mouth, put his hands in his pockets, raised his eyes to look at the woman in the distance, his skin was so white that it glowed, he talked to his male colleague and smiled, dimples appeared.

He chewed the mints slowly, as if there was snow between his lips and teeth, it was extremely cold, and suddenly there was a "crack", the powder shattered into four pieces, and he tasted it with the tip of his tongue, it was a bit bitter.