Confession (Ying Cheng)

Chapter 65: Confess that he has tasted being left behind. …

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Xu Suishe really didn't expect that Zhou Jingze would chase her. When she went back to sleep that night, she suffered from insomnia, tossing and turning, dreaming the same dream over and over again.

In the dream, Xu Sui was always trapped by the thick fog, unable to get out no matter what. The most terrible thing is that she walked in the dream all night, so that when she woke up the next day, her eyes were swollen.

After Xu Sui washed, he opened the refrigerator, took some ice cubes, wrapped them in a dry towel and applied them to his eyes. After the swelling subsided, he simply put on his makeup. When he was about to go out, Zhou Jingze sent a message:

[It may rain today, bring an umbrella.]

So far, Zhou Jingze has reminded her to wear more clothes every day, just like the weather forecast, and don't forget to bring something when going out. Xu Sui occasionally responded, and sometimes politely added a sentence:

[The same to you.]

Zhou Jingze would contact her every day, take the initiative to send messages, share his daily training at the base from time to time, or ask her what she was doing.

Xu Sui's answer was relatively short, but Zhou Jingze had the ability to pick up the conversation that was about to end, making people chat with him for half an hour unconsciously.

On Friday, after Xu Sui got off work, he dragged his exhausted body back home. He hadn’t eaten yet, so he wanted to take a bath to relax. It may be because he was too tired after spinning around for a week, and the hot water relaxed his nerves. In the end, she fell asleep on the edge of the bathtub.

At 11 o'clock in the evening, the mobile phone on the side rang quickly. She glanced at the caller ID, it was from the hospital, rubbed her face, and the voice of answering the phone was still a little dazed. Xu Sui got up immediately, changed his clothes, and hurriedly washed his face with a handful of cold water to keep himself awake before leaving.

This is the consciousness of being a doctor on call 24 hours a day.

The hospital called to say that there was a drunk driving accident on Changdong Road, and there were too many casualties. Xu Sui ran out without even putting on his bags and shoes.

After returning to the hospital, Xu Sui and several colleagues stayed up in the operating room until midnight. Xu Sui stepped on the sensor door of the operating room and walked out. She walked to the disinfection room, pressed down the white hand sanitizer, and turned on the faucet. The water rushed out to the white foam.

I don't feel it when I'm busy, but after I'm done, the feeling of hunger hits my whole body, and my stomach growls at this moment.

The colleague was washing his hands and heard it. He turned off the faucet and said, "I'm also very hungry. I'll go to the 24-hour convenience store outside to see if there is any oden?"

Xu Sui glanced at the time and smiled wryly: "I even forgot to eat dinner tonight, and this oden should be sold out."

"Go and have a look, it's good to buy a sandwich to cushion your stomach." The colleague took out a tissue to wipe his hands, and said as he walked out, "Xu Sui, let's go together later, you wait for me for a while, I will Go and see how my patient is doing."

"Okay." Xu Sui nodded.

Xu Sui walked out, glanced out inadvertently as he passed the hospital corridor, and stopped after seeing it.

So she walked to the window and poked her head out.

The whole city was shrouded in a layer of milky white mist, and it was silent, except for a few cars whizzing by occasionally. The sky was bright blue, the kind of fuzzy blue with window paper. At this moment, the tall magnolia tree downstairs was hung with the moon and the sun at the same time, emitting soft light.

There is a quiet beauty.

Xu Sui raised his hand to take a photo, and then shared it on Moments, saying: Strange.

Soon, Hu Qianxi, who was far away in a foreign country, came to comment and asked: [Suibao, it must be midnight over there, why are you still awake.]

Xu Suihui: I worked overtime, and added a crying emoji.

After replying, Xu Sui put the phone back in her pocket and walked towards the ward. She planned to observe the patient's vital signs before going out.

Fifteen minutes later, Xu Sui returned to the office, took a sip of water, took off the coat from the hanger, and planned to go out for something to eat with a few colleagues.

A group of people walked out of the hospital building, and when the revolving glass door was pushed open, a gust of biting cold wind blew, and Xu Sui subconsciously hugged his coat tightly.

"It's too cold." The colleague shrank his shoulders.

Just as Xu Sui was taking two steps towards the hospital building, the cell phone in his pocket rang, and it was an unfamiliar number.

"Hello." Xu Sui clicked to answer.

"Hello, Ms. Xu, the takeaway you ordered has been delivered. I don't know where you are? I'm here in the outpatient department."

takeout? She didn't order, Xu Suixin asked suspiciously, holding the phone to his ear: "I've come to the inpatient department, you turn right, it's very close."

In less than five minutes, a person in a delivery uniform walked over with a large incubator in his right hand.

"Ms. Xu, please sign for the instant delivery you ordered."

Xu Sui took it with a puzzled face, and glanced at the label on it with his fingers. It was too much, and it was clearly the amount of several people.

She turned her head and said to her colleague, "It seems that someone ordered takeaway for me. There are quite a lot of them. Let's eat together. You don't need to go out."

"We still have a share!" The colleague laughed.

"Both."

The group returned to the waiting room of the hospital department.

With a "pop", Xu Sui turned on the light on the wall, making the room warm.

Xu Sui took off his coat, and his colleagues were unpacking the takeaway. The kraft paper bag was pasted with the logo of Nanyuan Restaurant. When he opened it, he found that there were exquisite private dishes inside, and the fragrance was still wafting.

"Xu Sui, your friend is really generous, and Nanyuan Restaurant doesn't offer delivery?"

"My God, it's so sweet, and there's hot cocoa." The colleague took it out from another paper bag.

"Thank you, Dr. Xu, I ate delicious food with you!" Nurse He said with a smile.

"That saves me pouring water." Xu Sui walked over with a smile on his hands in the pockets of his white coat.

She sat on the sofa, took the chopsticks from her colleague, her dark eyelashes drooped, thinking about who ordered her takeaway.

At first Xu Sui thought of Hu Qianxi, but when she was still abroad, how could I give her some

Then there is only one person left.

Xu Sui took out his mobile phone and sent Zhou Jingze a WeChat message: [Did you order the takeaway?]

Not long after, the phone screen lit up, and Zhou Jingze replied: [Yes.]

[Why are you still awake at this point? By the way, how do you know I'm in the hospital?]Xu Sui asked.

Every time Zhou Jingze's just right suspicion and concern made Xu Sui wonder if he had secretly installed an invisible positioning detector on himself.

Otherwise, why is her every move under his control.

After a while, Zhou Jingze replied to the message, with his usual succinct tone, and said: [Woke up by 1017 in the middle of the night, circle of friends.]

You can feel his sleepy eyes between the lines.

Zhou Jingze was really thoughtful, he handled things properly and carefully, not only ordered takeaway for her in the middle of the night, but also paid for her colleagues.

Xu Sui was holding chopsticks and holding the phone in his right hand, and was about to edit the word "thank you", when the man sent another message:

[There is also a small item in the kraft paper bag, I asked the store to give it to me.]

Xu Sui put down his chopsticks, turned around and went to the small table on the right to get a kraft paper bag.

The paper bag is so big that you can't see the bottom.

It looks like there is nothing.

Xu Sui shook the paper bag carelessly, and with a "pop", two strawberry candies fell down and landed in the palm of his hand.

The phone screen on the table happened to light up at this time, and it was a message from Zhou Jingze:

[Only for you.]

The four words "only for you" are like a catalyst, making the bubbles that have been rising in the bottom of my heart gradually grow bigger, full, and float around in the air.

There is a feeling of dizziness, and there seems to be a hint of sweetness in the air.

Is he trying to make her happy

It's just a new week in November, the weather has dropped too much, Xu follower changed from two clothes to three clothes, scarves, gloves fully armed and ready to go to work.

During the lunch break, Xu Sui walked into the lunch break room with a cup in his hand, and was about to get the instant coffee on the shelf.

A shadow swayed over, and someone held a cup of coffee full of aroma and handed it to her.

Xu Sui raised his eyes, it was his colleague Zhao Shu'er.

"Doctor Xu, drink my cup! It's just brewed." Zhao Shu'er looked at her with a smile on her face.

Xu Sui took the coffee she made dubiously, and asked, "What do you want from me?"

"Hee hee, I remember that you don't have to be on duty tonight, why don't you go on a blind date with me tonight."

Xu Sui was drinking coffee, choked on hearing the words, and then coughed non-stop, his eyes were coughing up moisture. Seeing this, Zhao Shu'er immediately patted her on the back, and hurriedly asked, "What's wrong?"

Blind date... She has shadows on these two words.

I don't know if it's a matter of luck, Xu Sui's blind date met all strange men, which made her very repulsed by the blind date.

"I don't really want to go." Xu Sui handed her the coffee.

"I didn't ask you to go!" Zhao Shu'er took her arm and said in a reproachful tone, "I asked you to accompany me."

Zhao Shuer, who is two years older than Xu Sui, is 30 years old and single. She is very keen on blind dates, but she is very picky, and matchmakers are afraid of her.

This blind date, because the other party's conditions are quite good, and he also said that he would bring a friend over, Zheng Shu'er paid more attention to it, and was afraid of embarrassing himself, so he simply wanted to bring someone to accompany him.

After much deliberation, Xu Sui came to mind.

Xu Sui has a good temper and is gentle, so it's best to be a quiet foil by the side.

"You just go with me, you just go to have a cup of coffee, I just need someone to accompany me." Zhao Shu'er put his chin on her shoulder and kept acting like a baby.

After Zhao Shu'er's hard work, Xu Sui finally couldn't help her and agreed to her begging.

"To be honest, if the atmosphere of the chat between you two is right, I will withdraw." Xu Sui emphasized.

"Okay! Woohoo, Dr. Xu, I'm about to fall in love with you. How can there be such a considerate girl like you!" Zhao Shu'er was moved.

Xu Sui patted her arm with a smile: "Okay, I'm going to take a lunch break first, and I have to go to work in the afternoon."

At six o'clock in the evening, Xu Sui packed up after get off work and got into Zhao Shu'er's car. Xu Sui was sitting in the co-pilot and received a message from Liang Shuang asking her to come out for dinner and shopping.

Xu Sui edited and sent in the dialog box: [No, I want to accompany my colleague on a blind date.]

[Okay, woo woo woo, there are men in the whole world, but I don't.] Liang Shuang cried.

Xu Sui: [Next time, I will pay more attention to the handsome and good-natured doctors in our hospital.]

[No, no, no peers. ] Liang Shuang sent a crossed emoji.

The car arrived at a restaurant about forty minutes later. Zhao Shu'er asked Xu Sui to get off the car first, and drove to the underground garage to park first.

The roadside was crowded with people, Xu Sui stood by the roadside, and after waiting for a while, Zhao Shu'er walked over, and the two walked into the restaurant together.

The other party had already arrived first, and Zhao Shu'er waved enthusiastically.

The man stood up and smiled: "Hello, my name is Yuan. Who is Miss Zhao?"

"Of course it's me." Zhao Shu'er answered playfully.

"Okay, please sit down." The other party made a gesture of invitation and smiled.

Xu Sui looked at the man sitting across from him, Zhao Shuer's blind date, Mr. Yuan, who looked upright and worked in an investment bank, his gestures revealed the noble atmosphere of capital.

"My friend didn't come because of something," Mr. Yuan explained. He waved to the waiter for two menus and asked, "What do you want to eat?"

Xu Sui only ordered a lemonade and sat there quietly.

Zhao Shu'er was obviously very satisfied with this blind date partner, but she was afraid that her carefree personality would scare the other party away, so she just kept chatting awkwardly there.

Zhao Shu'er is the protagonist, and Xu Sui sat on the side trying to weaken her presence. She originally wanted to play with her mobile phone, but felt that it was impolite, so she had to watch the fountain square outside and count the pigeons flopping around to pass the time.

I don't know if it was Xu Sui's illusion, but she always felt that the sight of Mr. Yuan opposite fell on her from time to time.

He still kept talking to Xu Suina, asking: "Does Miss Xu like desserts?"

Xu Sui came back to his senses, tapped the cup noodles with his fingers, and said with a smile: "Generally, I remember that Shushu likes desserts very much, and it's Lao Fang Kee's. Mr. Yuan can buy it for her."

"See, my sister copied notes for you." Zhao Shu'er said.

Mr. Yuan quickly replied "Definitely", and a look of embarrassment flashed across his smiling face.

Zhou Jingze had just driven back from the outskirts of the base, and had a day of classes, with a hint of weariness on his sharp face. The most terrible thing was that Sheng Nanzhou dozed off while sitting in the co-pilot.

Today, as a shareholder of the airline company, he came to the suburban base, calling it an inspection, but in fact he came to visit Zhou Jingze.

As a result, Sheng Nanzhou was sent to work in the training ground by Zhou Jingze in a daze. It may be that he has been crushed by him too many times since he was a child, and Sheng Nanzhou subconsciously followed Zhou Jingze's instructions.

It feels wrong to do it halfway.

Fuck, a slave for life, a slave for life.

In the end, Sheng Nanzhou exhausted himself to death.

The car stereo is also slowly playing Nocturne in C minor played by Chopin, the sound is gurgling and moving. Holding the steering wheel with one hand, Zhou Jingze reached for the mint candy on the center console with his slender fingers, took off the wrapper, and threw it into his mouth.

He didn't expect to meet Liang Shuang on the way. She stood by the side of the road with a troubled look on her face.

Zhou Jingze squinted and looked over, as if the car had broken down.

He raised his hand to turn off the stereo, and when he passed Liang Shuang's red car, he slammed on the brakes, and the car stopped with a sharp braking sound.

Sheng Nanzhou's head knocked forward uncontrollably and then bounced back, the whole person woke up from the dream with panic on his face: "An earthquake?"

Zhou Jingze gave a look of "I'm an idiot who knows it by himself", unlocked it with a "click" and lifted his foot to get out of the car.

Liang Shuang was getting angry when a faint voice interjected: "The car broke down?"

Turning around, it turned out to be Zhou Jingze. Liang Shuang nodded and said, "I'm convinced, the towing company is still busy and can't get through."

Zhou Jingze chewed mints, walked over, opened the hood of the car, and said casually, "Let me see."

He raised his hand to break off the things inside the hood of the car, picked up a thread in his hand, and asked while checking, "Why are you alone, where is Xu Sui?"

"I wanted to find her for dinner, so I went on a blind date." Liang Shuang answered the words deliberately.

Zhou Jingze's fingertips holding the thread paused for half a second, the tip of his tongue pressed against the mint candy and turned to the back molars, biting it loudly, his eyelashes drooped, casting a faint shadow.

"Where is it?" Zhou Jingze's voice was deep, suppressing a surge of emotion.

"Like 1987."

At this time, Sheng Nanzhou jumped out of the car and came over, asking, "What's the matter with this car?"

Zhou Jingze grabbed Sheng Nanzhou and patted him on the shoulder: "Brother, help me deal with it."

"I have something to do, let's go first."

Before Sheng Nanzhou could react, Zhou Jingze roared past him in a big black G, shaking his face with exhaust gas.

"Zhou Jingze, you fucking threw me halfway????" Sheng Nanzhou was furious.

Zhao Shu'er chatted happily with her blind date, and went to the toilet halfway. Only Mr. Yuan and Xu Sui were left sitting face to face.

Mr. Yuan took the initiative to talk: "How old is Miss Xu?"

"Do you have any hobbies?" Xu Sui frowned, she was just a foil, why did she suddenly ask her.

Just as she was about to speak, a lazy voice cut in.

"Xu Sui, two months away from the 28th, and his birthday is December 24th."

"Height 165cm."

"I am not picky eater, I will eat anything, like a cat, easy to feed, but I am allergic to mangoes."

"Hobbies, watching horror movies, playing games."

Xu Suixin flinched, and both of them turned their heads to look in the direction of the source of the voice.

Zhou Jingze was wearing a black parka jacket, with broad shoulders and a neat curve of his forehead. With one hand in his pocket, he walked slowly towards them.

A bitter mint smell approached, Zhou Jingze pulled up a stool next to him and sat down, the lighter was placed on the table and made a "snap" sound, and stared at him with closed eyelids.

Mr. Yuan was taken aback.

Zhou Jingze raised his eyebrows, and said in a slow and intimidating tone, "I won't report the underwear size to you."

A sentence fell to the ground, which not only showed the intimate relationship between the two, but also declared their sovereignty domineeringly.

This is indeed Zhou Jingze's style.

"Zhou Jingze!" Xu Sui's face turned red with a bang, and his voice became exasperated.

She pushed Zhou Jingze's arm to stand up, picked up the bag on the table, and apologized to Mr. Yuan who was opposite him: "Sorry, Mr. Yuan, I have to leave beforehand."

Xu Sui pushed Zhou Jingze out of the room, and the two walked out and stood at the intersection on the left.

"Are you crazy?" Xu Sui frowned.

Zhou Jingze grabbed her arm, his dark pupils suppressed his hostility, and his voice was deep: "What about you, you want to find another man, just dreaming!"

A gust of cold wind blew, although Zhou Jingze was angry, he subconsciously blocked the wind for her.

"I didn't. I didn't want to go on a blind date. Every time I go on a blind date, I meet strange people. This time, I came with my colleague." Xu Sui said helplessly.

Who knew that Zhou Jingze would kill him halfway, he was such a stinky ruffian, he would say such embarrassing things in public, it made him feel hot when he thought about it.

Zhou Jingze relaxed a little, nodded, and pretended nothing happened, he held her wrist calmly and walked towards the car.

"Where are you going?" Xu Sui asked.

"Anyway, you're dishonest," Zhou Jingze snorted coldly, arched his cheeks with the tip of his tongue, and said in a sloppy tone, "I intercepted him, just in time for a date."

Xu Sui looked at the hand clutching her wrist and raised his eyelashes: "Do I agree?"

Zhou Jingze's footsteps stopped and his tone was slow. "If you don't agree, I'll go in and beat him up." Zhou Jingze said slowly.

Xu Sui: "..."

Zhou Jingze brought Xu Sui to the cinema, looked at the screen, turned his head and asked Xu Sui what movie he was watching: "Romance movies or action movies?"

The last three words he said were meaningful and provocative.

Xu Suihui: "Horror movies."

All right, when Zhou Jingze bought two tickets and was about to enter the venue with Xu Sui, he caught a glimpse of the couples who were seeing each other. The boyfriend gave popcorn and Coke, and the girlfriend smiled happily.

Zhou Jingze paused, handed her the ticket, and said, "Here, I'll go buy something to eat."

In the end, Zhou Jingze walked into Cinema C with a huge portion of popcorn and two cups of Coke.

The timing of this event was not very good, and the market for horror movies was not big, so the two of them actually reserved the show tonight.

As soon as the two of them sat down, Xu Sui's cell phone rang. When she took it out, Zhou Jingze glanced at Li Yang.

"Hello." Xu Sui said softly.

"Sweetheart, I'm feeling so bad right now, are you in the hospital..."

Li Yang's voice came intermittently through the earpiece, Zhou Jingze couldn't hear it coherently, but it seemed that something was up and he wanted Xu Sui to come over.

"Okay, I'll be right over." Xu Sui said worriedly.

After hanging up the phone, Xu Sui put the Coke by the armrest, got up and was about to leave, his tone anxious: "Li Yang has acute appendicitis, he needs someone to take care of him now, I have to rush over there, let's watch the movie next time."

When she was about to leave, Zhou Jingze raised his hand and grabbed Xu Sui's wrist, gripped the slender arm tightly, and asked, "The movie is about to start, don't you want to leave after watching it?"

Seeing her worried expression, Zhou Jingze had clear logic and said word by word: "Li Yang has so many friends, you must not be the only one looking for him. If you are really worried, I will accompany you there after reading it."

Xu Sui shook his head and broke his hand: "Sorry, I really have to go."

After speaking, Xu Sui left.

The light floated, and Zhou Jingze was left alone in the entire cinema. Time flows slowly, so quiet that there is only the boring dialogue of the protagonist on the movie screen.

Zhou Jingze leaned back on the red seat and looked up at the blue Coke standing on the right side.

The blue Coke stood there quietly, with tiny drops of water on the side of the cup, and the straw was pinned beside it.

It was dropped before Xu Sui could plug in the straw.

Zhou Jingze sat there, his thoughts dazed, even though Li Yang was a friend, the feeling in his heart was still uncomfortable, like a thin thread strangling his heart, making him unable to breathe.

Suddenly, he finally understood what Xu Sui was feeling back then.

When she was abandoned back then, he rushed to find Yesenin, probably the same feeling now.

It is really disappointing to be the first choice of people who are not liked.

Suddenly, a parent came in with a child at the front door. It should be a late vlogger. Their seats were also in Zhou Jingze's row, at the innermost row.

The adult cat led the child into the arena, and when he passed Zhou Jingze's seat, he looked at the big bucket full of popcorn in his hand with longing and envy.

"I'll see you off." Zhou Jingze lowered his pitch-black eyelashes and handed him the popcorn.

After speaking, he got up, walked sideways to the seat, stepped down the steps step by step, and left the cinema.

No one would eat it anyway.