Xu Sui caught a glimpse of the tall figure disappearing from the corner of his eye, as if suddenly awakened from a dream, he took a step back and said to Bai Yushi, "Thank you, I'm sorry."
Thanks for your help, and sorry for taking advantage of you.
Bai Yushi withdrew his hand and said with a smile, "I offended you."
"Professor Bai, I have something else to do. I'll go back first, thank you." Xu Sui lowered his head, said a word in a hurry, and left.
When she got home, Xu Sui was relieved and lay on the bed. She took her mobile phone and deleted all the text messages she had sent with Zhou Jingze during this period, including the call records between the two.
She was clearing everything about Zhou Jingze.
In the pub, Zhou Jingze was sitting at the bar, drinking one cup after another, and the red and green lights on the dance floor came alternately one after another, making his profile face even tougher and deeper.
Maybe it was a little hot from drinking, so Zhou Jingze took off his coat and put it aside, wearing only a wide-necked sweater, his forearm was tight and smooth, and the wrist bone holding the square wine glass was clearly prominent, showing a sense of abstinence.
It made people in the pub want to come forward to strike up a conversation, and Zhou Jing was very annoyed. In addition, he drank a little too much, ordered a row of the strongest wine, and directly served a glass to the girl who was nearby who wanted to hook him up.
Zhou Jingze reached out and tugged at the neckline at the collarbone, with a lazy posture, and raised his eyebrows: "I'll give you a chance after drinking me."
The girl looked shocked. There is no man who provokes drinking as soon as they meet. When she was about to swear, a man appeared, grabbed the wine glass in his hand, and smiled apologetically at her: "He's drunk too much, he's messed up!" Yes, sorry sorry."
The girl snorted coldly and walked away on her high heels.
Zhou Jingze took a glass of wine from the table and drank it down with his head up. Sheng Nanzhou stood aside, knowing that too many bad things had happened to him during this period, so he sat down to drink with his brother.
Halfway through the drink, Sheng Nanzhou patted him on the shoulder and said, "Li Haoning, that bitch in the gutter, thanks to you for treating him as a brother. Don't worry, you're not done with this matter. Old Zhang said that he will continue to investigate for you in private. I'll check here too."
"Whatever." Zhou Jingze raised his head and took another sip of his wine.
Anyway, Xu Sui won't come back. He doesn't care anymore.
Things are already like this, how can it go bad.
Sheng Nanzhou sighed and could only continue drinking with him. He thought that Zhou Jingze was just drinking to vent his feelings. He knew the seriousness, but he didn't intend to stop after drinking. Call Xu Sui."
Sure enough, Zhou Jingze no longer dared to take the wine glass.
Sheng Nanzhou thought, indeed, Xu Sui was his lifeline, and he hit every pinch.
He called Xu Sui in front of Zhou Jingze and turned on the speakerphone.
It took a long time for the call to be connected, Sheng Nanzhou only said "I", and hung up the phone conveniently.
Sheng Nanzhou looked embarrassed, while Zhou Jingze's expression was quite calm. He raised his hand and casually turned the ball on the table, his thin lips opened and closed, not knowing what to say.
"What?" The electronic sound on the dance floor pierced through the eardrums, almost making people's ears ring. Sheng Nanzhou went to listen to what Zhou Jingze had to say, he glanced casually and was stunned.
Zhou Jingze pressed down his dark eyebrows, pulled the corners of his lips, and said slowly, "It's over."
After finishing speaking, Zhou Jingze slowly took off the silver ring on his finger. When it was taken off, there were white marks on the knuckles because of wearing it for a long time.
He took it off and held it in his hand to examine it carefully for a while, when the light flickered over, the expression on his face could not be seen clearly.
With a sound of "dong", the ring was thrown into the wine glass, and the wine glass immediately boiled, bubbling, and water overflowed.
The silver ring sank quickly, then fell.
Zhou Jingze glanced at it, and left the bar without looking back.
Sheng Nanzhou didn't know Zhou Jingze well yet, he knew he would regret it, so he quickly fished out the ring from the wine glass and chased him out.
"Your uncle, every time I'm either your slave or your nanny—" Sheng Nanzhou complained and chased him out.
After the first snow fell, the temperature in northern Beijing took a sharp turn for the worse.
It was so cold that people lay in bed in the morning and didn't want to get up at all.
Xu Sui's teaching at the base was officially over, she didn't have to go to that dusty place, and she didn't have to see Zhou Jingze again.
Ever since he bumped into her with Bai Yushi that time, Zhou Jingze never looked for her again.
Xu Sui thought that his life was fairly peaceful. Until at home on the weekend, Sheng Nanzhou came to visit.
As soon as Xu Sui saw Sheng Nanzhou, he wanted to close the door, but he put his hands there and said "it hurts", and he slipped in.
"What do you want from me?" Xu Sui's voice was flat.
Sheng Nanzhou took a glass of water from her, took a sip, and said, "Go and see him, he's in the hospital."
Xu Sui was pouring water for himself, paused, and said:
"He should be taken care of, it doesn't matter if I look at it or not."
"Of course it's different. It's not because of you that he made himself like this. Sister Xu, you don't know how miserable Zhou Jingze is. He went to the hospital with stomach bleeding because of you drinking, and he didn't go to work at the base. He Grandpa has already called me."
"I really seldom see him so depressed. I guess only you can solve his knot, so you should go and see him." Sheng Nanzhou moved with emotion and reason.
Sheng Nanzhou took another sip of water, moistened his throat, and continued: "I don't know what happened to you? But we have known each other for so many years, the relationship is still there, he is lying there half dead, you just go and see him, Just when I beg you."
"I put the address here, let's go first, I have something to do, girl."
Sheng Nanzhou put the business card there, got up and walked into the living room, only Xu Sui was left, she picked up the business card on the coffee table and took a look, it was the address of the hospital.
At three o'clock in the afternoon, Xu Sui packed up, bought a bunch of fruit baskets from the fruit shop, and went to Xihe Hospital.
After Xu Sui arrived at the inpatient department, he asked nurse Zhou Jingze where the ward was.
After taking the elevator upstairs, Xu Sui came to Ward 702, hesitantly knocked on the door, and a hoarse voice came from inside.
"Enter."
Xu Sui opened the door and walked in, raised his eyes, and met the eyes of the man on the hospital bed.
The nurse is changing Zhou Jingze's dressing. Zhou Jingze was lying there, also looking at her. The broken hair in front of his forehead hangs in front of his eyebrows, his eyes are dark and faint, and his lips are pale.
After changing the medicine for him, the nurse blushed and said, "Pay attention to rest. The staple food these days is porridge."
After finishing speaking, the nurse passed by Xu Sui with a tray. She caught a glimpse of a familiar medicine and picked up the medicine box to have a look.
It is an anti-inflammatory drug to be used after appendicitis surgery.
"Did the patient undergo appendectomy?" Xu Sui asked.
The nurse nodded: "Yes."
Xu Sui put the medicine back in the tray and immediately realized that she was tricked by Sheng Nanzhou to come here.
Anything that is depressed, depressed, or hit hard because of her is all a lie.
Xu Sui put the fruit basket on the low cabinet beside his bed. Zhou Jingze's eyes were sharp. He closed his eyelids and looked at Xu Sui, with a deep tone:
"How did you come here?"
It turned out that he didn't know, and his tone was cold, as if she shouldn't come here.
After Xu Sui put down the fruit basket, his tone was flat: "Sheng Nanzhou asked me to come, as long as you are fine, I will go first."
This was a meeting that shouldn't have happened.
As soon as Xu Sui walked out of the ward, Zhou Jingze's face darkened, he pulled out the needle, and with a stride of his long legs, he chased after him.
As soon as Xu Suigang walked to the window of the corridor, a tall figure swayed over. Zhou Jingze pushed her whole body against the wall, pushed her legs apart with his knees, shackled her, and tightly circled her in his arms.
The man stared at her heavily: "What does the text message mean?"
"It means it's inappropriate." Xu Sui turned his face away and said.
Unexpectedly, her face was turned away by the man, Zhou Jingze looked at her, and sweared directly: "Why the hell is it inappropriate? How did we stay together for so long before?"
"Then we still broke up?" Xu Sui said softly.
Although Xu Sui's tone was gentle, the words he said hit the nail on the head, and one sentence silenced the two of them.
The back of Zhou Jingze's hand was bruised from hanging in the water for two days, and blood was gushing out at this moment.
Zhou Jingze's chest heaved violently. He held Xu Sui's chin with one hand, looked at her, and said seriously:
"As long as you say you don't like me anymore, I'll let you go."
His tone was neither serious nor angry. He's like this, he admits his mistakes, it's good to like someone, but if the other person doesn't like you anymore, it's boring to keep pestering you.
Xu Sui lowered his eyes, his eyes fell on the second button of his collar shirt, and said softly:
"I do not like you anymore."
As soon as a sentence fell to the ground, the surroundings were so quiet that even the sound of the wind beating against the windows could be heard.
There is no sun today, the weather is dark, and it is difficult to breathe.
Fine dust floats in the air, gets chopped up and falls to the ground.
Xu Sui felt that Zhou Jingze slowly let go of her, and the people also evacuated, and the pleasant smell of basil on his body also disappeared.
Zhou Jingze stood there without saying anything. After being free, Xu Sui hurried down the stairs with his bag.
After Zhou Jingze returned to the ward, he picked up his mobile phone and watched the football game, as if he was not the one who experienced these terrible things.
He watched Neymar straddle half of the court, and when he was about to make a big spin kick, the screen of his phone suddenly switched to Da Liu's call.
Zhou Jingze clicked to answer, and Big Liu said in a howling voice: "Brother, where is your ward? It's too big, so it's hard to find."
"Don't come." Zhou Jingze said.
"Huh?" Da Liu was puzzled.
He glanced at the sky outside, there was a gust of wind, and thick dark clouds pressed down, as if it was going to rain.
"Xu Suigang left, you can take her back," Zhou Jingze paused, and continued, "If she refuses, you can call a car for her."
After finishing speaking, Zhou Jingze ignored Liu's yelling and hung up the phone.
A week later, Zhou Jingze was discharged from the hospital. After resting at home for a few days, he began to go to work as usual. When he returned home, Demu went out for a stroll.
Fortunately, he has cats and dogs.
On Friday, Zhou Jingze took Mr. Kui for a walk in the park, but for some reason, he came upstairs to Xu Sui's house casually.
Zhou Jingze raised his eyelids and looked at the floor of her house. It was pitch black, there were no lights on, and she didn't come back.
He led Mr. Kui into Vidley, and took a pack of Yellow Crane Tower and a lighter.
Pushing open the door of the convenience store, Zhou Jingze caught sight of Liang Shuang who was about to enter.
Liang Shuang paused, obviously seeing him too.
Xu Sui had a temporary operation today and had to live in the hospital. Liang Shuang rushed over to help her get some things.
"Why are you?" Liang Shuang said in a bad tone.
Zhou Jingze bit the wrapping paper of the cigarette box, and when he pulled it, the transparent paper film was torn off, and he shook out a cigarette from inside.
"I said I was passing by, do you believe me?" Zhou Jingze twitched the butt of his cigarette with his fingertips, and smiled lightly.
Liang Shuang let out a "huh", walked up to him, and said, "Since we met, I have something to tell you."
"Well, tell me." Zhou Jingze stuffed the cigarette into his mouth.
Liang Shuang stood in front of Zhou Jingze and talked for a long time, but he didn't say a word, finally nodded and said in a hoarse voice, "Okay, I understand."
Then, Zhou Jingze took Mr. Kui and left downstairs.
That night, Zhou Jingze had a dream. In the dream he went back to university.
That was the most frivolous and reckless time in his life. He got all A or full marks in everything, and the teacher valued him. There seemed to be no obstacles in the road ahead, and the road was smooth.
At that time, he was full of incomparable arrogance. He spoke on the stage of thousands of people, folded his speech into a plane and flew to the audience, laughed wantonly, and said, "God is silent, everything is up to me."
The camera turned and the summer was hot. Zhou Jingze was playing basketball on the playground. Xu Sui was standing in the shadows in a white skirt, with a ball on his head, holding a bottle of water, waiting for him quietly and obediently.
Zhou Jingze threw the ball away, wiped the sweat from the corners of his eyes with a corner of his t-shirt, walked up to Xu Sui, with a cynical smile on his face: "Missing your boyfriend so soon?"
"No, I just dropped by." Xu Sui's eyelashes trembled, and he denied it with a blushing face.
When he wanted to continue talking, the scene in front of him became blurred.
Summer, girls, ice water, airplanes, everything is far away from him.
Zhou Jingze woke up from the dream, sweating all over his back after waking up.
He opened his eyes and looked at the dark ceiling, got up, and picked up the cigarette and lighter on the table.
Zhou Jingze sat on the bed, only wearing a pair of trousers, and smoked a cigarette.
With a cigarette in his mouth, the receiver made a "snap" sound, and he stretched out his hand to hold the fire, his eyebrows and eyes were cold and tired.
Zhou Jingze exhaled a mouthful of gray smoke, reviewed the dream just now, and smiled self-deprecatingly.
What did the book say
"In the dream, I have a deep love with you. In the dream, the throne is there. When I wake up, everything is empty."
About dreams, fleeting, about love, no longer the past.
He has nothing left.