Adults are probably full of worries one second, and wipe away their tears and devote themselves to work the next second. Xu Sui received a call from the hospital in the bathroom, saying that her patient had a sudden onset of symptoms. .
Xu Sui turned off the tap, took out a tissue, wiped his face and hurried back to the hospital.
As soon as I walked out, the winter scenery was completely desolate, only ice crystals formed on the leaves.
It was not until early morning that Xu Sui returned home and fell asleep.
The temperature is not as the weather forecast said. After a week of warming, the warmth lasted for two days. The cold air turned sharply and invaded wantonly. On the third day, a blizzard fell in northern Beijing. December officially arrived, indicating that 2020 is coming to an end .
Xu Sui has been on night shift recently, and because of the heavy snow, there was a bus rollover accident on Chengzhan Road in the middle of the night.
At 5:32 in the morning, it was snowing heavily outside, and occasionally pine branches were bent by the snow and fell to the ground with a "snap" sound. The operating room was quiet and silent, only the slow beeping sound of the instruments.
In the operating room, Xu Sui was wearing a blue sterile suit and received a patient whose abdominal aorta ruptured due to a car accident. Even after staying up all night, a pair of eyes remained awake and quiet.
"Sew up the incision on the abdominal wall." Xu Sui said wearing a mask.
After the operation, Xu Sui took a look and found that the patient's feet had normal blood supply. He finally let out a sigh of relief and said in a warm voice, "Transfer to the ICU for monitoring and treatment."
"Everyone has worked hard." Xu Sui breathed a sigh of relief, and a smile finally appeared on his face that had been tense all night.
"Doctor Xu, you have worked hard too."
Xu Sui walked off the operating table, took off the disposable medical mask and protective gloves and threw them into the trash can, stepped on the sensor door of the operating room, turned left, entered the bathroom, washed his hands, put on a white coat, and walked out.
Once a person's nerves are relaxed, the body feels sore after a while. Xu Sui felt that his arms were too tired to lift up, and his shoulders and neck were also in pain.
Xu Sui raised his hand and rubbed his neck, and was walking forward absent-mindedly. Suddenly, a strong man in old clothes with frayed sleeves jumped out in front of him. He had a stubble beard and a bald head. Staring at Xu Sui:
"Is Dr. Shen Linqing from the surgery room here?"
Xu Sui raised his eyes and looked at the man in front of him. He was holding a card in his hand, on which was enlarged with red paint and said - Devil doctor, kill for life.
Like a cry of blood.
The expression on his face is sad, but more of it is the anger of losing a loved one, and there is a paranoid and gloomy feeling all over his body.
The doctor-patient relationship is the most common and most difficult relationship in hospitals.
"It's not time for work yet." Xu Sui replied.
After finishing speaking, Xu Sui put his pockets in his pocket and was about to pass by the middle-aged man, but the other man stopped Xu Sui's arm, obviously irritated by her cold attitude: "What the hell do you mean?"
"Just two days ago, in your hospital, my old lady told me she was gone! My mother squatted during the day and at night, but I didn't see anyone. The one surnamed Shen won't be hiding. You must Give me an explanation."
The middle-aged man pulled her forward, Xu Sui staggered and was knocked against the wall, frowning in pain, he clenched harder and harder, and said in an agitated tone, "You all have to pay for my life!"
"Doctors save lives, don't you? Do you understand that this is dereliction of duty? A bunch of trash!"
"Headed by Shen Linqing, he is a murderous maniac!"
"I don't have a mother!"
The passing nurse screamed in fright, and immediately called security and colleagues to separate the two. Xu Sui was shaken by the middle-aged man for about ten minutes, and felt nauseated, almost throwing up.
Xu Sui was pulled behind the security guards. When the middle-aged man insulted the medical staff and greeted their ancestral family, she was so angry that she finally spoke:
"Your mother was admitted to Puren Hospital half a month ago. Because the family members concealed the patient's medical history, the doctor made a wrong diagnosis. After making the mistake, the doctor re-planned and tried his best to treat the patient. However, the patient's condition was too serious, and the rescue failed two days ago. died."
Xu Sui's voice was always calm, as if explaining something: "Doctors have the responsibility and obligation to do their best to save people, but there is no such thing as paying for their lives."
"Sorry." Xu Sui withdrew his gaze from him, and left the hospital corridor with his pockets in his pockets.
Xu Sui was exhausted, so he went straight back to the office to catch up on sleep, fell asleep on the desk, and had a dream, in which the face of the patient's family member overlapped with several faces in the archived memory.
The family looked at her and Xu's mother aloofly, with reproachful and resentful tone:
"Your father is called dereliction of duty, understand?"
Xu Sui suddenly woke up from the dream, his back covered in cold sweat. It wasn't until she heard the small chatter of colleagues around her that her thoughts gradually returned. It turned out that it was eight o'clock in the morning and a new day had already arrived.
After Xu Sui hurriedly ate breakfast, he went out to fill in the class form, but he didn't expect to meet the teacher who had been accompanying him, Director Zhang, in the corridor.
"Xiao Xu, you just finished the night shift?" the other party asked her.
"Yes," Xu Sui nodded, and seeing that the director seemed to have something to say, he asked, "Teacher, what can you do?"
"Your remarks this morning have already reached me, so why are you arguing directly with the patient's family?" The director hesitated for a while, then changed his tone, "Don't irritate him, especially now that doctors and patients When the relationship is so tense."
"Okay, I see, thank you teacher." Xu Sui said.
After the director left, Xu Sui put his hands in his pockets, thinking as he walked forward, probably the teacher hadn't spoken the last part of the sentence, so he wanted to mention that she didn't have the compassion of a doctor.
But Xu Sui doesn't regret telling the real truth to the patient's family last night, nor is he afraid of the other party's deliberate revenge.
Because they did not neglect their duties, they did their best as doctors.
In the afternoon of the next day, Xu Sui was in the outpatient department of surgery. She sat in front of the computer and used the mouse to pull the patient appointment page and time.
Zhou Jingze, 28 years old, makes an appointment from 4:30 to 5:00.
Why is he here
Xu Suizheng was thinking to himself, when there was a sound at the door, Nurse He held a stack of case books, withdrew her hand knocking on the door, and said, "Doctor Xu, it's time to start."
"Okay." Xu Sui said softly.
Xu Sui sat at his desk, patiently and responsibly received one patient after another. She lowered her head, her broken hair fell to her forehead, and she stretched out her hand to hook it. At this moment, there was a rhythmic knock on the door.
"Come in." Xu Sui said.
After she finished speaking, she raised her head and saw Zhou Jingze appearing in front of her eyes, with a loose coat hanging in the crook of her arms, her eyelids drooping slightly, and those dark and narrow eyes seemed to have lost a little light, but he still rushed to Xu Sui Picked the corner of his lips.
Xu Suixin shrank, she looked away and asked, "What's uncomfortable?"
"I was repairing an airplane at the base a few days ago, and my back was hit by a part." Zhou Jingze said lightly.
Xu Sui nodded, expressing understanding. She checked the injury for Zhou Jingze. Fortunately, it was a skin trauma. She prescribed him a medicine list and handed it over:
"Go to the window to queue up to get the medicine, come back, and tell you about the usage."
"Well, thank you doctor." Zhou Jingze's voice was polite and orderly.
After the person left, the aggressive, biting breath also disappeared into the air. Xu Sui breathed out, leaned his head on the back of the chair, felt his chest was suffocated, and couldn't breathe.
Xu Sui lowered her head and continued to write the case report. When she made a mistake and was about to cross out a word, a shadow fell over the table. She thought it was Zhou Jingze who had returned, and without raising her head, she asked:
"Come back so soon?"
No one answered, Xu Sui faintly felt that something was wrong, and when he was about to open the drawer to get the mobile phone inside, the other party quickly slapped her palm, Xu Sui frowned in pain.
Before the person could react, the other party pulled Xu Suiteng up from the stool, restrained her with his whole body, and took out a fruit knife with his right hand to press her throat.
"What are you doing?" Xu Sui said calmly, without any panic on his face.
But in fact, only she knew that her palms were already sweating.
The man snorted coldly, and spoke word by word, with a stern tone: "Of course I want you to be buried with my old lady."
The man had a bald head, wearing a worn blue down jacket, with a strong body, Xu Sui was restrained by him and could not move at all.
"Lock the door for me."
The man pressed the sharp blade against Xu Sui's throat, and moved forward an inch in a demonstrative manner, and the white skin immediately oozes blood.
Xu Sui had no choice but to nod, and the two walked towards the door one after the other, with bald heads and serious expressions, looking at the door vigilantly, for fear that someone would knock on the door next second.
Xu Sui took advantage of the other person's nerves being too tense and was concentrating on the door, he slammed his elbow back hard, hitting the vital part of his heart, and let go with a bald grunt.
She squatted down and ran away in a hurry, her heart was about to jump into her throat.
"Fuck your mother, bitch!" The bald man spat viciously on the ground.
Seeing that Xu Sui's hand had just touched the doorknob, her scalp tingled. The man grabbed her hair and pulled it back fiercely, holding a knife in his right hand as if to cut her. Xu Sui struggled hard.
While the two were arguing, there was a sudden "hiss" sound, the clothes were cut sharply, and the blade cut her abdomen, Xu Sui frowned, and slowly squatted down, feeling the blood gushing out of the abdomen, the pain was so painful that she couldn't say no Say a word.
In the middle of the night two days ago, she had just performed an abdominal operation on a patient, and today she was cut on the abdomen by the patient's family.
The man's eyes turned red, and he grabbed Xu Sui by the collar again and lifted him up. The sunlight came over and folded on the blade, giving off an extreme cold light.
When the bald man was about to hold the knife to Xu Sui's throat, a burst of force struck him. Someone kicked his hands and feet from behind, and with a "snap", the fruit knife was kicked away.
Xu Sui clutched his abdomen and looked up with difficulty. Zhou Jingze didn't know when he appeared in front of his eyes, and his heart trembled. He was fighting with the bald man bare-handed with a calm face.
Zhou Jingze swung his fist, and blood oozed from the corner of the bald man's mouth. Just as he was about to step forward, he punched him again. Zhou Jingze subdued his bald head on the ground, stepped on his chest, grabbed his collar, and beat him to death.
He had a cold face, with thick gloom under his eyes, like an Asura in hell, beating the murderer to death, until the back of his hand was red, swollen and bleeding, and he didn't even notice it.
Xu Sui didn't doubt at all that he would beat that man to death.
Xu Sui struggled to move to the desk, panted and pressed the emergency button with difficulty.
The bald man was still laughing loudly after being beaten until his nosebleed and his face was swollen. He stared straight at Zhou Jingze, looking weird like a pervert. Suddenly, he threw out a folding knife from his sleeve, and the sharp blade pointed straight at Zhou Jingze struck with his hand, and dark red blood gushed out immediately.
Xu Sui's pupils shrank violently, his whole body was stimulated, and he passed out.
Twenty minutes later, Xu Sui woke up lying on the hospital bed, opened his eyes, and found that his colleagues were all around her, with concerned faces, and asked one after another:
"Doctor Xu, are you okay? Is there any discomfort?"
"Doctor Xu, although the wound on your abdomen is long, it is very shallow and nothing serious. Fortunately, it wasn't your operating hand that was injured."
"But it really chills the hearts of us doctors. The suspect has been arrested."
Sensitively capturing the word "hand", Xu Sui's eyelids trembled, she struggled to get up from the hospital bed, the wound nerve was affected, and she frowned.
Xu Sui asked with a pale face, "What about him?"
The colleague was stunned for a moment before he realized: "Is that the handsome guy who did what he did just now? He's bandaging the wound next door."
"I'll go and see him." Xu Sui coughed, lifted the quilt and walked down.
Zhou Jingze was sitting on the edge of the hospital bed. The dusk had completely disappeared at this moment, and there was darkness behind him, endless darkness. He was biting the gauze on the back of his hand, trying to tie a knot.
Zhou Jingze was staring down at the blood oozing from the gauze, when suddenly, a pair of slender hands gently tore off the gauze he was biting his teeth on. He let go, raised his thin eyelids and looked at Xu Sui in front of him.
Xu Sui lowered his eyes and was bandaging him.
"You go to rest," Zhou Jingze said, seeing her silent and strange expression, he smiled casually, "I don't have anything to do with this hand, even if there is something to do, it doesn't matter, I won't be able to fly a plane in the future."
unimportant.
"Fart." Xu Sui said.
Xu Sui looked gentle and well-behaved, and suddenly he uttered a dirty word, but he really didn't react, and immediately laughed out loud, and the laughter became louder and louder, even his chest trembled with joy.
Tsk, how could someone be so cute when they swear, without any lethality.
Zhou Jingze was still smiling, but Xu Sui's eyes gradually became wet. He lowered his neck and saw a pair of red almond eyes. He stopped laughing and looked at her:
"Why are you like a faucet, huh?"
"I'm really fine, I was teasing you just now," Zhou Jingze rolled his eyes and said helplessly, "I really... have nothing to do with you."
After Xu Sui got off work, Zhou Jingze said he would take her home, saying that he was worried about her being alone. Xu Sui nodded and agreed.
Along the way, the two sat in the back of the taxi, and the gap between them showed their sense of distance, relatively silent. The scenery outside the car window passed by backwards, the warm yellow street lamps and the dark red neon lights intersected past each other. Several times, Xu Sui wanted to open his mouth to speak, but his mind was in his throat, but he couldn't say anything.
When she arrived downstairs at Xu Sui's house, she opened the car door and got out of the car. She knocked on the window again when she remembered something, and said, "I have an ointment at home, which can lighten the scars. Come up."
"Okay." Zhou Jingze nodded.
The two came to the door of Xu Sui's house one after the other. Xu Sui opened the door and walked in. He pressed the switch on the wall, and with a "snap", the warm lights poured down like seawater at high tide.
"You sit here first, I'll look for it." Xu Sui took off his coat.
Zhou Jingze nodded and sat on the sofa. Xu Sui was wearing a white sweater and pulling on green rabbit fur slippers, looking for ointment back and forth in the living room and bedroom.
After searching for about ten minutes, Xu Sui broke down and said, "It's strange, I obviously let it go."
"You sit," Zhou Jingze stood up, put his hands on the edge of his trouser pockets, and raised his chin at her, "tell me some obvious places, and I'll find them for you."
Xu Sui mentioned a few places where he usually put his things, sat down and poured himself a glass of water. She took two sips, and after a while, Zhou Jingze walked towards her slowly with his finger on a medicine box.
"Have you found it?" Xu Sui raised his eyes.
Zhou Jingze didn't speak, squatted down on one knee, opened the medicine box, took out the gauze and medicine inside, and said slowly, "Bandage it up."
It was only then that Xu Sui realized that she had been tossing back and forth just now, which touched the wound on her abdomen, and the white sweater had faint blood oozing out.
It turned out that he was going to get gauze for her.
Xu Sui nodded, and pinched a corner of the knitted sweater with his fingers and rolled it up, revealing a white waist and abdomen, wrapped with white gauze, and further up, he could faintly see something black that resembled a tattoo.
Xu Sui felt like he had just woken up from a dream, and immediately pulled his shirt down when he realized it.
But it was too late.
A stronger brute force grabbed her, and a palm with clear bones and blue blood vessels on the back of the hand covered the back of Xu Sui's hand, preventing her from pulling down the clothes.
Xu Sui lowered his eyes, persistently wanting to pull down.
Zhou Jingze refused.
Back and forth, like a silent confrontation.
The wind outside the window was strong, and the night was so quiet that it seemed that the end of the world was coming. They were sitting on an inseparable boat. Obviously sitting opposite, just looking around.
The nostalgia and obsession hidden deep in my heart were hooked out like a net.
Instantly burns.
Zhou Jingze grimaced, squeezed her hand tightly, and pulled her up forcefully. With a "hiss", the clothes were completely lifted, and his hand was just on her chest.
The fair skin was exposed, with fine bumps. On the lower side of her chest, where her ribs are, she has a tattoo. A string of Greek words is added with a letter Z, and the outside is composed of a string of snakes wrapped around lotus patterns.
This is Zhou Jingze's tattoo on the back of his hand when he was young and frivolous, with a clear sign of personal arrogance.
Xu Sui actually engraved it onto himself.
Obviously she is a girl who is afraid of pain.
Zhou Jingze remembered the night when the two were just together in college, playing a confession game in the snow mountain.
"It's me," Xu Sui waved his five fingers in front of his eyes, trying to bring Zhou Jingze back to his senses, "What do you think is a pity?"
"I washed off the tattoo on the back of my hand." Zhou Jingze said casually.
She silently wrote down Zhou Jingze's words, and finally nodded without saying anything.
The tattoo that regrettably disappeared on the back of the boy's hand at the beginning reappeared in front of his eyes.
Z& Heliotrope means bright and born facing the sun. He hopes to live a bright and upright life.
The tattoo on Xu Sui's ribs is Heliotrope&ZJZ, which means in Greek it is always facing the sun, born toward Zhou Jingze.
I hope that the boy in love will always be warm.
Still love the boy passionately forever.
Tattooing a person's name on the most painful rib is a devout heart sutra for a girl.
Zhou Jingze couldn't tell the difference, he stared at it for a full minute, looked again and again, his eyes turned red, and said in a hoarse voice:
"When did you get the tattoo?"
"Three days before we broke up." Xu Sui thought for a while.
Zhou Jingze thought for a while, isn't it his birthday three days before the breakup
It turned out that this was the birthday present she said she would give him.
As if lost and found again, joy, regret, and guilt woke up together.
How many years did they miss
As for Xu Sui, what kind of mood and expectation did he have when he got this tattoo, but in the end it all came to nothing.
So after the reunion, she hid her thoughts and retreated to a corner where no one could see.
Zhou Jingze looked at her with scorching eyes, which made her heart shrink. He spoke slowly, stating a fact:
"You like me."
"That was before." Xu Sui lowered his head and hurriedly pulled off his clothes.
Zhou Jingze stood up, moved an inch closer, and forced her onto the sofa. The breath that came out hit her ears, itching and numb. He pinched her chin and picked it up. He locked her dark eyes tightly and asked:
"Yes, then why didn't you wash it?"
The familiar Zhou Jingze is back.
Xu Sui knocked off his hand, got up to avoid it, and said, "I find it troublesome."
As soon as the person stood up, Zhou Jingze stretched out his hand and dragged him back. Xu Sui bumped into a pair of pitch-black eyes.
He raised his hand to press her forehead with his thumb, looked at her, and met his eyes.
The rough fingertips pressed her forehead side by side, and Xu trembled with his breathing.
Zhou Jingze stared at her with deep eyes, raging and hot like a raging fire.
Xu Sui's cheeks became hot when he saw him, and he turned his face away and looked away.
The man wanted to force her to look at him again, turned her face back, and bit her back molars:
"I don't believe you don't feel it."
Without hesitation, he tilted his head and kissed it. The attack was fierce, and his tongue directly stirred in.
Xu Sui was pushed against the wall behind the sofa, and her neck was leaning against the wall, feeling cold for a while. He leaned over, breath warm, forehead against forehead, lips lightly touched its lips, as if charged through.
Xu Suixin flinched suddenly, wanted to retreat but couldn't, a kiss brought him back to the past.
A drop of sweat dripped to the corner of the eye, the lacrimal gland was stimulated, and the last tear slipped from the corner of the eye.
very familiar,
It's as if they've never been apart.
In the end, she surrendered to what she wanted deep in her heart.
His fingers gently caressed his temples, it was a gentle touch.
As if giving a response.
Tree shadows swayed past outside the window, leaves fell to the ground, one car after another drove past, the tires of the cars ran over, and finally fell to the ground. Looks like it's going to be windy.
Inside it was as warm as ever.
Zhou Jingze paused, eyes as black as hawks locked on her tightly, his rough palms and the roughness of the gauze rubbed her fair cheeks.
Xu Sui shuddered in his heart.
The man leaned over her, tied her hands, and leaned over to stare at her in a gesture of absolute control.
He did nothing but looked at her. Xu Sui felt a thin layer of sweat on his forehead.
The heating in the room was circulating, it was warm at first, and gradually became hot, but also very dry. In this weather, she seemed to have returned to the summer when they watched the football game together in Amber Lane.
It was also a hot, but affectionate moment.
At that time it was the sound of cicadas, but now it is the sound of a whistle from the road opposite downstairs passing by, one short and two long.
Zhou Jingze looked at Xu Sui, his eyes only reflected her.
As if he belonged to her.
Xu Sui raised her eyelashes, the warm-colored chandelier on the ceiling was a bit dazzling, she raised her hand to cover her eyes, but the man took it away again.
Zhou Jingze stretched out the tip of his tongue to lick the tears from the corners of her eyes, swallowed slowly, then leaned over and gently pressed the tattoo on her ribs with his thumb.
The girl's frank thoughts were displayed in front of his eyes.
He leaned over and touched the small red mole next to her ear with his lips, and then slowly gnawed on it. Xu Sui only felt a numbness in her ear, and he couldn't push it away.
Gradually, she gave in.
Still, as soon as you get close, your heart will beat.
Zhou Jingze still refused to let Xu Sui turn on the light, and looked into her eyes with a possessive attitude.
Xu Sui's long hair was disheveled, and she had a girlish and holy beauty. Her eyelashes were tightly closed and trembling, and her cheeks were flushed.
Silent temptation.
Zhou Jingze's Adam's apple rolled slowly, lowered his head, bit her lip, and said viciously:
"Bai Yushi, choose him or me?" Zhou Jingze stared at her and asked in a deep voice.
He was still concerned and jealous, seeing the intimate behavior of two people that day.
Xu Suizhi didn't answer, otherwise she would suffer.
"Who do you say I am?" Zhou Jingze reached out and hooked the broken hair on her forehead behind her ears, and pressed her forehead with his thumb again.
Xu Sui didn't answer, but he continued to force her to look at him, this terrible possessiveness, she slapped his hand away, and said unwillingly:
"Zhou Jingze."
She still chose him in the end.
In the end, Xu Sui was exhausted. After all, he had experienced high-intensity work during the day and was injured again, so he fell asleep in a daze. After Zhou Jingze finished smoking a cigarette, he carried her to the bathroom to scrub. Even with the padding, he was careful, but the gauze on her wound still needed to be changed.
The hot water was very hot, Xu Sui squinted his eyes, didn't want to move, just felt comfortable.
Because Xu Suigang was injured, the water could not touch the wound, so Zhou Jingze was very careful and gentle when scrubbing.
But he wasn't idle either, he got benefits from doing this, and even reasoned with her.
He just helped to treat a wound, but also asked for benefits, Xu Sui opened his eyes wide in disbelief, and then flatly refused.
Zhou Jingze licked her ears with the tip of his tongue, and grinned lazily:
"I haven't had meat for a long time."
The wind outside the window was loud, whistling, the tall building was dark, only a small light was lit on their side.
A world belonging to the two of them.
The night is ups and downs, the wind is also intoxicating, half of the hidden moon comes out.
It seems to clear the clouds and see the fog.
Zhou Jingze called her over and over again, word by word, as if determined and serious, with a very hoarse voice:
"One by one, my one by one."