Confession (Ying Cheng)

Chapter 90: Confess that I miss you very much

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"Well, we won't break up." Xu Sui looked at him with a smile, his voice choked up.

Zhou Jingze gently pinched her nose and said, "Anyway, leave this to me."

After Zhou Jingze pressed the phone, the phone never rang again.

It was just dawn, and the morning market hadn't started yet, only a few breakfast shops at the intersection opened.

Zhou Jingze led Xu Sui out and took her to breakfast. He ordered two bowls of wonton stew, and put a bag of milk in front of Xu Sui.

After the food arrived, Zhou Jingze didn't bother to eat. He looked down at the phone, pressed his thumb on the screen of the phone, and went out to make a phone call.

Xu Sui casually stirred the wontons in the bowl with a spoon in her hand. She only ate two and couldn't eat any more.

After Zhou Jingze returned from the phone call, he sent Xu Sui back to the hospital and packed a breakfast for Xu's mother.

At the entrance of the hospital, Zhou Jingze handed her the porridge. He has always been considerate and said:

"I just hired a nurse for my aunt, take care of yourself, and call me if you need anything."

The phone in Zhou Jingze's hand rang. He glanced at it and said:

"I have to go, baby."

Xu Sui looked up at him and said nothing, Zhou Jingze seemed to see through what she was thinking at a glance, and spoke slowly, his voice was as clear and clean as when he was a teenager:

"This job is really hard and a bit dangerous, but this is true in this world, and someone has to do it."

"You know what I think about every time I prepare for a dangerous rescue on the plane?"

"What?" Xu Sui was puzzled.

Zhou Jingze bowed his head to her, and gently rubbed her cheek with his thumb:

"Because you are there, the sky has meaning."

Because he thought that someone was waiting for him, behind every effort to rescue was to live well and come back to see her safely.

Xu Sui's heart shrank. She looked at Zhou Jingze, but she couldn't say the words "don't go" no matter what.

"Okay, come back safely." Xu Sui finally said.

Xu Sui took out her mobile phone and glanced at the schedule. She was supposed to return tomorrow, but because of Xu's mother's illness, she asked her work unit for two days off and changed her high-speed rail ticket.

Finally, she walked into the ward with breakfast.

Mother Xu woke up not long after she opened her eyes, lying on the bed with a pale face.

Xu Sui lowered his eyelashes and said, "Mom, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said such serious things to you."

"Silly boy, I can't blame you for this, it's an old problem." Xu's mother squeezed out a smile.

Mother and daughter are like this, because of the connection that blood is thicker than water, the emotions can never be parted.

Xu Sui has been taking care of Xu's mother in the hospital for the past few days, and she is so busy that she is dizzy. Fortunately, the nurse aunt hired by Zhou Jingze helped her a lot.

Xu's mother was afraid of delaying Xu Sui's work, so she kept urging her to go back.

Sitting in front of the hospital bed, Xu Sui peeled an apple for Xu's mother, and replied with a smile: "I have already asked for leave, and I haven't been at home for two days, so you must let me finish my leave."

The nurse was changing Xu's mother's dressing at the moment. Hearing the conversation between the mother and daughter, she smiled and said:

"You are so lucky. You had a son-in-law transfusing blood for you before, and you hired a nurse to take care of you. Later, you have your own daughter to take care of you."

"He came before?" Mother Xu asked her lightly after hearing this.

Xu Sui nodded, wanting to speak well of Zhou Jingze in front of Xu's mother: "Yes, he took care of you when you were unconscious."

"Thank him for me," Xu's mother said, and turned to the nurse who was helping her slow down the infusion speed, "He is not my son-in-law, but my daughter's friend."

Xu Sui was peeling an apple, when she paused, a string of long green apples suddenly broke and fell to the ground with a "snap". She lowered her eyelashes, leaned over to pick it up, and threw it into the trash can. Did not say.

Xu's mother still didn't let go of this matter.

The night before returning to Beijing, Xu Sui took care of Xu's mother in the hospital ward. What is reassuring is that her physical condition has gradually improved, and most of her mental health has recovered.

At nine o'clock in the evening, Xu Sui was pouring hot water for Xu's mother, and the hot air quickly floated on top of the paper cup. At this moment, the phone in her trouser pocket buzzed and vibrated. She put down the hot water bottle, took out the phone, and paused for a moment.

It was Zhou Jingze calling.

Holding the phone, Xu Sui walked out of the door of the ward and was about to answer it when Xu's mother's voice came from behind abruptly, full of disappointment:

"Yiyi, do you want to piss mom off?"

Xu Sui didn't answer the call in the end.

After returning to Beijing, Xu Sui went to work as usual, kept in touch with Zhou Jingze every day, and occasionally went out to eat and shop with friends after get off work. It seemed that nothing happened to her, but there was always a stone in her heart.

Xu's mother's obstruction more or less made Xu Sui slightly shaken in this relationship.

Ever since Zhou Jingze joined the rescue team, every time he saw their news on the news, Xu Sui's heart began to feel anxious.

It is true that people are more selfish when they have a significant other, and they just want him to be safe.

After getting off work on Friday, Xu Sui had nothing to do. She walked aimlessly on the street alone. She took a random bus and sat in the last row, leaning against the window, staring out the window. All the way back to the scenery in a daze.

After the bus drove for an hour, Xu Sui randomly chose to get off at a platform, walked forward for more than ten minutes, and casually saw that she had wandered to her alma mater, the Medical University.

Diagonally opposite is the school's famous snack street, which just separates the two universities of Beijing North Aerospace University and Beijing North Medical University. Xu Sui was just hungry, put his hands in his pockets, and walked towards the opposite side.

People stepping into the bustling streets, young female students are holding hands, their faces are covered with collagen, and they are picking fruits in front of the fruit stand, with a youthful look in every frown and smile.

A sweaty boy in a basketball uniform just finished playing basketball, and his girlfriend is bringing him water to drink.

Familiar and strange.

Xu Sui saw Yunji Noodle Restaurant not far away and walked in.

The business of this noodle shop is still so good, the boss has a festive smile on his face, and he is too busy.

Xu Sui found a seat in the corner and sat down, took out a tissue and was wiping the table when the boss came over and asked her what she wanted.

"A bowl of fresh shrimp noodles," Xu Sui pressed the menu with his elbow, glanced casually, raised his head, and said, "By the way, boss, don't—"

"Hey, it's you," the boss pinched a ballpoint pen with his finger, and held a small notebook for recording dishes in his palm, "A student of the medical university, right? You often came to my house to eat when you were taking the postgraduate entrance examination."

"Yes, it's me." Xu Sui replied with a smile.

The boss took the menu she handed over with a hearty voice: "It's still the old rule, add more green onions and coriander, and don't use vinegar, right?"

"Yes, you still remember." Xu Sui smiled.

After the noodles came, Xu Sui picked up the chopsticks and took a bite into his mouth. The noodles were very chewy, but the soup was still so delicious.

Xu Sui ate very slowly, and in the end he was sweating all over his body, which was very comfortable.

After graduation, she has never eaten such delicious noodles.

After eating, Xu Sui got up and went to the cash register to pay.

The boss is counting the bills for the goods there.

Xu Sui held the phone, tapped the table lightly, and said, "Boss, pay the bill."

The boss raised his head upon hearing the sound, stopped what he was doing, and greeted:

"You came here by yourself today. Where's your boyfriend? That handsome and tall guy with an inch cut."

Xu Sui was taken aback for a moment, she and Zhou Jingze had only eaten at the noodle restaurant a few times, unexpectedly the boss still remembered.

She raised her hand and hooked the broken hair beside her ear, and replied: "He... ah, he is working and has no time to come over."

"Boss, how much is it?" Xu Sui took out his mobile phone and pointed at the QR code on the cash register, preparing to pay.

The boss waved his hand, wiped the glass with a white rag, and smiled:

"No need, I still have a lot of money left by your boyfriend."

Xu Suizheng looked down at the phone, stared for a moment, and said in disbelief, "What money?"

"Oh, don't you know? Didn't you take the postgraduate entrance examination at that time? You often studied until late, and he was afraid that you would not have food when you came out, so he gave me a sum of money to keep the store open for a longer time, and asked me to take care of you. you."

With a "boom", a city wall in Xu Sui's heart collapsed.

When Xu Sui was preparing for the postgraduate entrance examination, she remembered that the two had broken up for a long time.

Xu Sui is like this, once he devotes himself to something, he will become very selfless. This is the case when liking someone, and the same is true for studying.

She still remembers that at that time, for the postgraduate entrance examination, she stayed in the self-study room every day, until all the people in the classroom had left, and Xu Sui was still studying there.

As a result, when she came out, the cafeteria had already closed, and when she ran outside the campus, the shops at the door were also closed one after another, either they were closing their stalls, or they had sold out all the ingredients for the day.

Only this Yun Kee noodle restaurant has lights on no matter how late it is.

Sometimes, when Xu Sui was sitting there eating noodles, when it rained heavily, the boss would kindly hand her an umbrella.

The winter in northern Beijing is very cold. Every time Xu Sui ran out, holding a book, his fingers were red from the cold. The proprietress would give her a hand warmer or a cup of hot water when she saw it.

During the difficult days of the postgraduate entrance examination, Xu Sui was firm and lonely. When it was hard to bear, seeing the light of the noodle shop was still on, she felt as if it was accompanying her.

But what Xu Sui didn't expect was me

The person who is always with her is Zhou Jingze.

Xu Sui thought of something and was about to leave, and at the end he didn't forget to thank his boss.

The boss joked: "You're welcome, remember to invite me when you get married, I'm also a witness of your relationship along the way."

Xu Sui was stunned for a moment, then nodded heavily and smiled: "Yes."

we will get married.

Xu Sui ran out of the store and hurriedly took a taxi back home, and hurriedly pressed the elevator from the first floor to the eighth floor.

She walked into the house and started looking for things in the study. In a box of old things, Xu Sui found a blue bear cap.

Xu Sui sat on the thick carpet and patted the dust with her hand. She reached out and took out the label inside. When she saw it, there was a letter Z inside.

For some reason, Xu Sui suddenly wanted to cry.

Xu Sui still remembers the night of the graduation dinner.

Xu Sui breathed a sigh of relief when his studies were completed, but he was also immersed in the sentimental atmosphere that everyone who graduated was about to be separated.

On the day of the dinner, Xu Sui specially put on makeup and wore a beautiful dress to attend the event that night.

Dozens of students sat around a warm brown rectangular table, eating barbecue while drinking, talking about life.

A girl sitting next to Xu Sui suddenly showed two red books while everyone was laughing and chatting.

The girl leaned on the shoulder of the boy beside her, and shook her marriage certificate at everyone:

"Dear students, we have ended our ten-year long-distance love race, and we have received our certificate today."

The atmosphere was heated up all of a sudden, with applause and cheers one after another.

"Fuck, keep silent and do big things!"

"Come on, drink! You two must give me a drink tonight."

The girl and the boy looked at each other and smiled, their eyes melted with love for each other, and they generously took the wine glasses they handed over.

Xu Sui supported his head, silently sighing in his heart how good it is, he was turning over the pork belly on the stove with tongs in his hand, making a sizzling sound.

The girl came over and said, "Sui Sui, why are you in a daze, come on, we both respect you."

Xu Sui regained his senses, picked up the wine glass on the table, and drank it down: "Congratulations, you have been together for a hundred years."

"Hahaha, thank you, when do you plan to get married?" the classmate asked.

Xu Sui twitched the corner of his mouth and put down his wine glass: "I'm still early, and I don't even have a date."

"I'll introduce you in two days!"

"Okay." Xu Sui smiled and replied casually.

Classmates and friends are about to part, and they are scattered all over the world, and they are in pairs or breaking up.

After a party, the atmosphere is always lingering with a kind of sentimentality.

No matter what, Xu Sui found that she seemed to be alone along the way.

On the way, Xu Sui went out to use the toilet, and accidentally bumped into a girl at the corner of the corridor.

The strong smell of perfume wafted over, Xu Sui lowered his head and quickly apologized: "I'm sorry."

"It's you, Xu Sui."

A familiar voice came, Xu Sui raised his head, it was Bai Yuyue.

But after being surprised, I don't think it's strange anymore. After all, the two of them are from the same major and are still in the next class. It's not unusual for them to choose the place for graduation dinner here.

"Well, long time no see." Xu accompanied her to greet her.

Bai Yuyue was wearing a red skirt, showing a slender ankle. She looked down at Xu Sui, raised her eyebrows, and said domineeringly:

"I'm not wrong at the beginning, you can't hold him back."

Both of them knew who this "he" was, and the expression on Xu Sui's face didn't change much. She even twitched her lips in a self-deprecating way:

"Indeed."

Bai Yuyue lowered her head and flicked the sequins on her nails, seemingly carelessly but deliberately striking:

"Have you been in touch with him recently? I heard he has a new girlfriend."

Xu Sui put her hands in her pockets, her nails sank into her palms, and tightened them as if she was abused. There was a burst of pain, and she forced a smile:

"It's not normal to fall in love again after breaking up. Everyone has to look forward."

In the second half of the sentence, Xu Sui didn't know who he was speaking to.

"I still have something to do, let's go first."

Xu Sui withdrew his gaze from her, lowered his head and left.

Looking at the back of Xu Sui leaving in a hurry, Bai Yuyue thought that the lie was worth it.

After returning to the private room, Xu Sui listened to his classmates chatting while grilling meat.

The tongs pressed against the thin slice of meat, and oil overflowed. Xu Sui sprinkled a handful of cumin and seasoning powder, and turned the meat a few times on the surface of the pot. After a while, the aroma wafted out.

Xu Sui took a piece of lettuce, wrapped it around the meat, and mechanically put it in his mouth, chewing it.

I don't know if it's because the oily smoke is too choking, the lacrimal glands are stimulated, and there is a layer of water in the eyes.

Later, Xu Sui drank a lot of wine, his head became dizzy, and his consciousness began to lose consciousness.

What's worse, after drinking, she started to have a toothache.

In fact, Xu Sui's toothache has been going on for some time. Naihe was too busy during her graduation period, and she never had time to watch it.

Toothache is not a disease, it hurts like hell.

Xu Sui was half-drunk, and at this time she was feeling very uncomfortable, and the toothache was affecting her nerves, so she didn't dare to move half of her face.

She put down her wine glass and ran to the balcony to enjoy the air.

The summer is sweltering, the sky is bright, but there is not a single star.

Xu Sui was so drunk that she didn't realize it. At this moment, she really wanted to talk to someone. In a trance, she took out her mobile phone and called Hu Qianxi.

The call was answered quickly, but strangely, there was silence for a while, only the wind was loud, as if it was on an empty flat ground.

Xu Sui didn't notice anything unusual, she covered half of her face that was in excruciating pain, and the sound of sobbing came from the receiver.

She just cries.

There was no question on the phone.

Xu Sui cried to the back, the sobs gradually became louder, and the eyelashes were stained with tears:

"Sissy, I miss him so much."

"It's useless for you to laugh at me, but I just miss him."

Not long after, the tone on the other end of the phone paused, as if asking where she was.

"Party, woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

The person on the other end of the phone seemed to tell her to wait where she was and not to run around, Xu Sui obediently replied "Yes".

While waiting, Xu Sui pressed her cheek against the railing, a burst of cold came, the pain was relieved, and she squinted her eyes comfortably.

Xu Sui couldn't remember what happened next, but he vaguely remembered that someone carried her home.

When he woke up the next day, Xu Sui had a cup of hangover tea and painkillers in front of his desk, and a blue bear cap fell beside him.

Xu Sui always thought that Hu Qianxi called other boys to take her home that night.

From the looks of it now, it was Zhou Jingze who was the person that night.

Only now did I realize that whether Xu Sui needed him or not, he was always there.

Xu Sui was squatting in front of the box with the little bear hat, and now she really wanted to call Zhou Jingze.

Xu Sui took out his mobile phone and dialed a number, it rang a few times, and the connection was quickly connected.

Zhou Jingze seemed to have just gotten off the plane, and his voice was as pleasant and grainy as ever:

"Yiyi, what's the matter?"

"nothing-"

Xu Sui's heart trembled, she held the blue bear cap, and her voice was soft and tired:

"I just miss you."

Miss you very much.