In the midsummer, Yesening finished filming one of the four major female magazines in China during the day, and had to attend a brand dinner at night.
The people in the dressing room were so busy that they were rubbing their shoulders. More than a dozen staff members were all around her, a big star. Mijia tilted her head and answered the call with her mobile phone between her shoulders, while holding a new Valentino black dress and asked Yesenin in a low voice if she liked it
The make-up artist accidentally pulled one of her hairs, feeling the pain, Yesenin frowned, like a crack in an oil painting beauty.
The makeup artist kept saying "sorry baby, I didn't hurt you".
Yesenin ignored, just glanced at the backless black dress in Mijia's hand, retracted his gaze, and pointed a finger at her.
Mijia understood immediately, and immediately went to get her clothes again.
A dozen sets were changed in a row.
Yesenin finally set his sights on a dark red velvet deep V dress.
After changing clothes and styling, Yesenin held up the hem of the skirt to attend the dinner party.
The banquet coats are fragrant and the temples are shining, and the diamond chandelier is cast on the goblet, shining brightly. Everyone put on fancy clothes, with condescending smiles on their faces, like ghosts walking at night.
Yesenin suddenly felt very tired for a moment.
So she willfully skipped the brand's speaking session and slipped out.
In the caravan, Yesenin kicked off her ten-centimeter crystal high-heeled shoes, exposing her slender ankles, leaned her head on the back seat, closed her eyes, her crow-feather-like eyelashes drooped, and the light from the car window swept over half of her red lips.
It's breathtakingly beautiful.
The mobile phone made a crisp ding-dong sound in the endless silent night.
Kou Danse's fingernails touched the phone, turned off the screen, and a friend sent a message with a short sentence:
filone, he is married.
At that moment, his heart was strangled, and Yesenin felt his whole body being pushed into the water, only the sound of bubbling bubbles was around him, his breathing was taken away inch by inch, he wanted to struggle, but he couldn't.
"Stop." Yesenin said.
"You go first, I'll go shopping." Yesenin said.
Before the male assistant could start talking, Yesenin quickly got out of the car, the door slammed shut with a bang, and she even pointed her middle finger backwards.
The swaying dark red skirt with suede disappeared into the night.
Yesenin was walking aimlessly on the street, and as she walked, she actually wandered in front of an aquarium.
It's a pity that the lights have been turned off, and the owner has already closed.
Yesenin held up the hem of his skirt, walked up, and knocked on the rolling gate stubbornly.
The blue rolling shutter made a bang sound, and the dust fell and brushed her delicate face.
Like pearls dusted.
Yesenin simply sat on the steps in front of the aquarium, regardless of the rain on the ground in the evening.
The seven-figure dress was ruined like this, and she didn't even bat an eye.
Yesenin took out a cigarette from the cigarette case, held it between her red lips, and lit the receiver with a "click", and the orange-red fireworks illuminated her side face.
Gray smoke slowly exhaled.
Pretty and lazy.
I don't know if it was because the night was too quiet, or because she was sitting in front of the aquarium at the moment and received the news of his marriage within a quarter of an hour.
Yesenin suddenly remembered many past events.
Who would have thought that the hot female star was wearing a big red dress, without any regard for her image, and she was sitting on the dusty steps in front of the alley, thinking of someone.
Yesenin knew that he was good-looking since he was a child, and he knew what he wanted.
She was born rot down, and while she doesn't draw cards well, she knows she can choose how to play them loudly.
Beauty can be realized, but it is not a long-term solution.
So Yesening has been working as a waiter and selling wine at Fengyue Place. She wants to save money to study abroad, escape from her father who drinks and gambles, and escape from her original family that she can't escape no matter what.
She wanders between the damp and cold attic and the neon bar all day long, and her hope has always been slim.
Until she met Zhou Jingze.
Yesenin would help him not because of some whim or kindness in his bones.
The reason why she was able to stay in the bar for so long was because of her character that the other party spattered blood on her face in public, but she just chose to wipe the blood off and continue working.
It has always been her survival rule to have nothing to do with herself.
Yesen would rather help Zhou Jingze because of another matter.
The place Yesenin rented was in a poor area. After get off work, he had to walk sideways into the alley. The clothesline poles above his head were like shark teeth, dripping water continuously, and his back was wet.
At any time, someone is drunk and sitting by the corner looking at you, whistling.
On weekends when Yesenin was off late shift, her drunken neighbor kept banging on her door in the middle of the night, saying obscenities.
The water pipe suddenly couldn't come out with hot water. After taking a cold shower, Yesenin shivered from the cold, and even his smoking hand was shaking.
The knocking on the door and cursing continued. This kind of harassment has not happened once or twice.
The wooden door couldn't last long, the door was pulled open a huge gap, the night wind poured in, and the devil could enter the room at any time.
Yesenin was still afraid that it was a girl. She got up and took out a bottle of Wusu from the refrigerator, and blew half of it boldly.
With a "bang", the window was pushed open with a bang, and a white hand stretched out, and the orange light was cast on the hand, which was sticky.
Yesenin stretched out an index finger and ticked it up.
Silent temptation.
The drunk man swallowed hard, and staggered over while leaning on the wall.
As soon as my hand touched the tender fingertips, I lowered my head and sniffed vigorously, and the fragrance of a girl wafted over.
Before I had time to recollect, a green wine bottle fell down.
With a "bang", the wine bottle shattered, and blood dripped from his forehead.
Finally, the drunk man ran away with his head in his hands and screaming.
After they left, Yesenin slowly slid down against the wall and sat on the ground.
There was a cold sweat on the back.
This place could not stay any longer, Yesenin decided to move.
After moving away, Yesenin still felt restless and asked people to inquire, but there was no definite news.
Some people said that he had a few stitches in his head, and some people said that he had become a fool.
Ye Saining believed in karma, but she didn't regret it. In order to offset a little guilt in her heart, she rescued Zhou Jingze.
Yesenin only wanted to do good deeds to offset the bad deeds he had done in saving people.
But she didn't expect Zhou Jingze to come to apologize.
After all, Zhou Jingze is a frequent customer in the bar. He is very handsome, the type who caters to both men and women. He is a super rich second generation. I heard that his family has a background.
But people are also muddy.
Mixing with people like Peng Zi is not a good product.
Obviously the night before, Yesening accidentally ran into Zhou Jingze leading a group of people to fight in the back street of the bar.
At that time, Zhou Jingze was wearing a black sweater, with sharp facial features and blood on his tall eyebrows. He stepped on the throat of the person lying on the ground, and the person kept rolling his eyes and screaming hoarsely.
When the voice of the other party reached the maximum level of pain, Zhou Jingze would lift his foot and loosen his strength. When he thought he could be saved, he kicked his foot hard again.
Repeated torture.
He didn't blink his eyes at the wailing he heard, and lit a cigarette slowly.
There was a "snap" sound from the receiver, and a cluster of orange-red flames shot out from the tiger's mouth. He lowered his head to ignite, and at the same time as the gray smoke was exhaled, he inadvertently rolled his eyelids and swept towards the intersection.
Yesenin just looked over.
Zhou Jingze was wearing a black hooded sweater, and he happened to be wearing a hat. His stern face was half sunk in the shadows, cut in half by the light from the dim street lamp. Only a pair of deep, dark eyes were exposed, cold and broken.
like an abyss.
She saw a ruthless, self-struggling, desperate beast.
She didn't expect such a person to apologize.
Yesenin didn't take it to heart, and she was resigned later, and she didn't have any objections. After all, she was the one who broke the rules first.
But I didn't expect Peng Zi to find someone to beat her.
When Zhou Jingze approached her again, she was serving dishes at the barbecue stand, and he apologized again and said something to make up.
Yesenin was a little annoyed at that time, and the wound was still painful, so she said directly, "If you want to apologize so much, why don't you send me to study in England."
Zhou Jingze was taken aback for a moment, then said yes.
Yesening never dreamed that she would climb up to such a proud man as Zhou Jingze.
He rescued her from the mud.
It took a while to prepare to go abroad. Yesening spent the whole summer vacation hanging out with Zhou Jingze. He took her to ski, race cars, gamble, and hang out in all kinds of sensual places.
Staying with him, Yesenin's eyes widened.
It turns out that life is more than endless cleaning glasses and endless jobs.
It was only after getting along for a long time that Yesenin got to know this person, his appearance was sloppy and out of shape, he looked like a dude, but he was still different.
He leaned over the billiard table, his eyes were as sharp as an eagle, and he scored a goal with a "boom", the warm-colored chandelier lingered on his eyelashes, and sometimes he had a lazy and stubborn smile on his face.
Or in the middle of the night in the racing car on Gongshan, he won the first place, and when thousands of people congratulated, Zhou Jingze arrogantly gave the loser the middle finger, his eyebrows were flying and open.
Or maybe Zhou Jingze picked up a stray cat and brought it home in rainy days, fearing that it would get wet, so he took off his coat and put it on the little animal, his narrow eyes overflowing with fleeting tenderness.
At that moment, she felt that this boy was really handsome, handsome in his bones.
But only limited to favoritism.
Zhou Jingze is proud, and she is also proud, so Yesening will never surrender first and say that she likes her.
She was always waiting for someone to chase her.
That summer vacation was so happy and free that Yesenin forgot that there was still a father who was eyeing him.
Father Ye went around saying that Yesening had joined the Zhou family, and that he would live a life of luxury and wealth from now on, and would buy him a luxury car and a big house.
Yesenin replied indifferently with two words: dreaming.
But she didn't expect that Father Ye would find Zhou Jingze to blackmail him.
Father Ye showed an ugly face: "Her mother came from a brothel? Hehe, you can also—"
"besides… "
Yesenin didn't know what Father Ye said, and by the time she found out, it was already too late.
When she went to find Zhou Jingze, he was in the billiards room, playing billiards with a group of people.
Yesenin's father had just left.
There are too many friends, Zhou Jingze was afraid that their remarks would hurt Yesening, so he put down his club and came out.
Yesenin watched the fish in the aquarium next door. On both sides are square blue glass tanks, many butterfly fish, hedgehog fish, fairy fish, swimming around freely.
Until a shadow fell beside him.
"I'm sorry for letting you see me in such an embarrassing way—" Yesenin's upturned eyelashes trembled, and he smiled self-deprecatingly.
Father Ye's sudden appearance pulled Yesenin out of his dream. It reminds her of her low-level and dirty background, a deformed family that she can't get rid of, and her life is doomed to be gloomy.
He couldn't get along with someone like Zhou Jingze.
Zhou Jingze interrupted her, took the cigarette out of his mouth, and asked her, "Will you be influenced by your father unconsciously when you do things or make decisions?"
"No." Yesenin was stunned for a moment, but still answered.
Children who grew up in a bad environment have been getting rid of their original families all their lives, but they have become like them subtly, such as having a bad temper, interrupting others loudly, showing ugly faces, and being mean.
As soon as Yesenin found out that she behaved like her parents, she would take out her notebook and write it down, secretly reminding and correcting herself.
Don't be like them.
"That's fine. You and him are next to each other except for the name on the household registration book. In other respects, it can neither affect nor hinder you." Zhou Jingze's tone was slow and logical.
"You are you, he is him." Zhou Jingze looked at her and said.
These two sentences were like someone pushing away the dark clouds, and the light came in at once. Yesenin suddenly became enlightened. She raised her head, smiled, and said, "Thank you—"
Before he could say a complete thank you, Zhou Jingze suddenly raised his hand to support her head, and pushed her into the aquarium. At first she struggled hard, but he also buried her head in the aquarium.
Both of them know each other's water nature.
"Close your eyes for ten seconds," Zhou Jingze said.
On this day, Yesenin and Zhou Jingze buried their heads in the aquarium. The water kept pouring in, holding her breath, her brain couldn't think, and fish kept coming to kiss her cheek.
It's like entering another world.
There was only the sound of fish spitting bubbles around, and those sad, suffocating, and painful things disappeared at that moment.
So that she has been holding back in the water, imagining a butterfly fish, staying in the aquarium all the time
In the end, Zhou Jingze took her out of the aquarium, let go of his mouth, and breathed in oxygen. Yesening couldn't stand still and fell to the ground.
Zhou Jingze bent down, trying to stretch out his hand to pull her up, the two of them met their eyes, were stunned for a moment, and smiled at each other. Because the two of them were wet and smelled of water, strands of hair stuck to their foreheads, as embarrassing as they could be.
The boy laughed loudly, lowered his head, and laughed so hard that his shoulders trembled and he couldn't hold his breath.
At this time, the owner of the aquarium played an English song, the female voice was tired and hoarse, Ye Senin stared blankly at the handsome and laughing boy in front of him, and his heart beat fast. The song says:
Can't you hear my call
Can you hear me calling
Are you coming to get me now
Are you here to save me
I\'ve been waiting for
I've been waiting for
You to come rescue me
come and rescue me
I need you to hold
i need your hug
Every line of lyrics and beat is accurately stepped on her heart.
After Zhou Jingze finished laughing, he sat next to her with his back against the wall, took out a new cigarette from the cigarette case, held it in his mouth, and lit it with a "snap".
The gray smoke gradually dissipated, and his face gradually became clear. Zhou Jingze looked at her with dark eyes: "Have you enjoyed it?"
He was actually asking if she was happy.
Yesenin looked up at him, at that moment, she wanted to die with him.
She was moved.
She throws in the towel.
Once you like it, the emotion of possession begins to grow wildly. I want to be his cat, I want to kiss him in the rain, I want to have sex with him naked on the empty railway tracks, I want to get couple tattoos with him.
want to be with him.
On Yesenin's birthday, he wore a new dress and dressed up like a red rose blooming only for him. That night, Zhou Jingze jokingly asked her if she had made a wish.
"Yes, I want you to be my boyfriend." Yesenin's eyes were naked and straightforward.
Zhou Jingze suppressed his smile and was silent for a long time. Finally he said, "I don't want to lose you as a friend."
These are Zhou Jingze's original words.
There have been good feelings between men and women, but after getting along for a long time, it is more of sympathy. Because the two are so much alike.
Yesenin smiled in relief, and said with a smile, "I won't give up."
But Yesening did not expect that within a week, Zhou Jingze brought a girlfriend to appear in front of her. The girl sat on the back of his motorcycle, waiting for him at the finish line of the race car, and accompanied him to various places.
Zhou Jingze was telling her in another way that they were useless.
Yesening thought that under the guise of a friend, he could slowly catch up with Zhou Jingze. At least she is different to him, isn't she
She always thought so.
So the two became friends again.
Until she went to study in the UK, one day Zhou Jingze suddenly transferred a sum of money to her, asking her to buy a new mobile phone so that he could save the number for notes.
Yesenin felt something was wrong and asked him what was wrong.
Zhou Jingze's tone was understated: [A text message oolongs, and even made a little girl angry, thinking she is you, if we continue talking, she will know that I almost attracted fans.]
This is to cherish it.
Yesenin felt a sense of crisis for the first time.
Until the end of the new semester, Yesenin knew that he was in love.
Zhou Jingze's love affair with Yesening never took it seriously, because he was always lonely and wanted to be accompanied by someone, but he was never sincere.
But this time is different, for the first time, Zhou Jingze changed his social network avatar to a girl. Yesenin opened it up and looked at it. There was only the side face of the girl, with the bud head tied up, and fine hair falling down on the forehead. The side face was well curved, and she was writing the test paper with her head down.
It seems to be in a library.
This photo is obviously a snap shot.
So Yesening hurried back before Zhou Jingze's birthday. The first thing Yesening did when he came back was to find out about this girl, but Zhou Jingze seemed to want to protect her, so he refused to reveal a word.
It doesn't matter, she finds it by herself.
Yesening boarded the post bar forum of Beihang University, and it took only half an hour to get to know this girl clearly. She saw in the post that Xu Sui would be in the library every afternoon, and Yesenin wanted to meet her.
I want to see how gorgeous a girl is to make Zhou Jingze spoil her blatantly and unconditionally.
Yesenin had just stepped onto the first-floor steps of the library when several freshman girls hurried past her with books in their arms, and the sound of discussion came over.
The girl wearing glasses asked: Don't you always come to the library very often? How come today.
The girl's tone was excited: I'll come to see sister Xu Sui.
Someone ran on her: I don't know you yet, I want to see his boyfriend, right? Believe it or not, at 5:30, the setting sun outside the window appeared on the senior sister's table, and Zhou Jingze—no, the senior sister's boyfriend would appear in front of her on time with a white peach oolong milk tea and pineapple bun.
The girl looked in disbelief: Not bad at all
The other party replied: Not bad at all.
Yesenin went up to the third floor and found the girl in the innermost library. She was wearing a white T-shirt and blue high-waisted jeans. Because she was doing her homework with her head down, the butterfly bone on her back was obvious, her skin was very fair and thin.
He looks quiet and well-behaved, like a good student.
Unexpectedly, Zhou Jingze liked this taste.
She walked in and sat down at a hidden table. Not long after, there were small discussions around her, and she said in a subdued excited tone, "He's here, he's here!"
Yesenin looked over, the boy was wearing a black T-shirt, with a slender figure, a peaked cap, a protruding Adam's apple, and one hand in his pocket, appearing lazily at the door, holding a cup of white peach oolong milk tea in his right hand and two pineapple buns.
A large swath of sunlight fell on his shoulders, and his demeanor was cold and resolute.
"Look, it's these two things! Senior sister likes to eat the most."
Yesenin watched the boy she liked walk towards another girl step by step. He put the food aside, leaned against the table, and bent over to take off one of her earphones.
The girl raised her eyes in a daze, then smiled.
Then.
He pinched the girl's chin, across a desk, in the dusk, lazily leaned over to kiss her as if no one else was there, his thumb slid her skin, intimate and passionate.
The setting sun fell on the desk in a thick bee-brewing color, and the girl's fingers gradually climbed onto his shoulders, and the shadows of the two overlapped.
Yesenin raised his hand and glanced at the time. It was exactly 5:30.
This scene was very dazzling, as if every inch of his breath was taken away, Yesenin didn't know how long he watched it before he left.
The environment in which he grew up taught Yesenin a truth: to grasp what you want in time and hold it firmly in your hands.
So she started organizing a game on the grounds of returning to China, and called Zhou Jingze and some former friends. Partying, drinking, playing truth or dare, all of which she made a vlog.
Oh, by the way, Zhou Jingze lost the game and was called to pay. She happened to be sitting next to him and saw his payment password.
He was half drunk, Yesenin caught a glimpse of a bear pendant on his cell phone, and just wanted to reach out to touch it.
Zhou Jingze moved the phone away, and looked at her with raised eyelids, warning eyes.
Yesenin had no choice but to pretend to be angry, holding his chin and smiling: "You don't have to be so stingy, don't look at it, you can always tell me what brand your watch is, it's very nice, I want to buy one too."·
He didn't care about the watch, so Zhou Jingze whispered a brand name.
Yesening met Xu Sui, and he saw at a glance that a girl like her was insecure and sensitive. So she uploaded the video on social media, and she knew that Xu Sui would definitely watch it.
There is bound to be a rift between the two of them.
She was also the one who came to the convenience store on purpose that time. Yesenin didn't think it would be so vicious. It was at a convenience store. When she passed by Xu Sui, she caught a glimpse of the bear pendant on her mobile phone that she was paying for.
It turned out to be a couple.
No wonder Zhou Jingze wouldn't let her touch him.
The screen of Xu Sui's phone lit up at the right time, she glanced at it, and noted it as "boyfriend".
Her psychology began to twist, and jealousy grew like a weed, so Yesening began to lie, deliberately changing Zhou Jingze's "I don't want to lose you as a friend" into I don't want to lose you.
In the end, she succeeded.
Yesening did not expect that this move would push her further away from Zhou Jingze, and she would fall into a situation where she could never love again.
Later, when I saw her again at the hospital where Xu Sui worked, Yesenin finally explained to her, apologized, and finally breathed a sigh of relief. After Xu Sui walked out of the ward, Yesening lay on the bed and sent a message to Zhou Jingze.
She's not asking for credit, she really wants to confess to him.
Not long after, Zhou Jingze responded to the message with a brief sentence:
You made a mistake, don't send me any more messages in the future.
The words are indifferent and unfeeling.
The last time I saw Zhou Jingze was on a bustling street. There was a large crowd, and he held Xu Sui's hand unhurriedly all the time. She held a bouquet of flowers in her arms, and the two looked at each other and smiled from time to time.
Yesening saw Zhou Jingze's expression twitching, like yawning. She knew that he had a hay fever allergy, but he was enduring it all the time.
Halfway through, Xu Sui untied her shoelaces, and Zhou Jingze naturally squatted down to tie her shoelaces among the bustling crowd, as if he was doing something very ordinary.
Still showing a reckless and unrestrained look, but willing to bend down for one person.
Yesenin withdrew his gaze from the two, turned around, and strode forward.
So far, unrequited love is over.