"Zhuo Zhuo, you should know that what I care about is not the fame and gain. Although I am useless, I want to do my best to keep you safe and sound. Scientific examination is my only specialty. As long as I get the title of Jinshi , no one can despise us, even if I am really not suitable for life in the officialdom, I can still find a leisurely position in Beijing, which is better than staying at home like a useless person all day long."
Facing Gong Zhuoliang's impatience, Qiao Yingze's reaction was extraordinarily calm, but it can be seen from his pale face that he is actually not feeling well... Although he knows that Gong Zhuoliang has no intention of looking down on him, but as a husband, But even his lover doesn't have any expectations of him, doesn't it just show his incompetence
"Yingze, I didn't mean that. I was worried about your body. Isn't it good that we are like this now? Why bother to worry about those things..."
Turning around to face Qiao Yingze, Gong Zhuoliang saw that his face changed, and the anger in his heart was half extinguished. He hurriedly sat back beside Qiao Yingze, and put his hand on his lap.
Gong Zhuoliang admits that he does not have the political consciousness to be a public servant, and he is really indifferent to the great cause of being loyal to the emperor, loving the people and ruling the country and the world, especially in such a feudal dynasty. high risk.
If they are mediocre officials, they don't lack money and connections, there is really no need to take freedom into it, it would be nice to live a happy life. And if he worked hard and worked hard for the people, Qiao Yingze's body would not be able to last long. If Gong Zhuoliang watched Qiao Yingze squander his health, how could he agree
"..."
Qiao Yingze knew that he would never be able to speak up to Gong Zhuoliang when it came to eloquence, and he would have ten sentences waiting for him, so Qiao Yingze simply kept silent, and only looked at him with a pair of slightly hurt and sad eyes... The most important thing was to attack the heart.
"Yingze, don't keep silent. If you have any thoughts, let's open up and say it clearly. Don't be stuffy in your heart."
Qiao Yingze's appearance made her heart ache, and Gong Zhuoliang couldn't help lowering her posture.
He has always been not afraid of arguing with others, and he can argue three-point attributes even if he is really unreasonable, but when he meets Qiao Yingze, a stubborn and stubborn gourd, Gong Zhuoliang has nowhere to go... I don't know why they haven't been together for nearly three years. How did you quarrel? Because it's really hard to quarrel, Gong Zhuoliang's voice is louder and Qiao Yingze stops talking, and then he doesn't know how to coax you, he just cares about this place, is considerate and considerate there, and wears out Gong Zhuoliang's temper. If he really made Qiao Yingze unhappy, he would just throw himself on the ground and play tricks for a while, and Qiao Yingze would not really care about him.
But today's matter is different from the past minor stumbling blocks, because the two people's opinions are completely at odds, and Gong Zhuoliang cannot easily compromise.
"It's not urgent at this moment, we have to get up early tomorrow, let's arrange it first."
Qiao Yingze felt that he had already expressed his thoughts. Gong Zhuoliang was in a hurry at this moment. If he continued, it would be nothing more than an argument. It would take a long time, so let the little daughter-in-law think more about it. Anyway, he was already mentally prepared for a protracted war.
"Yingze, listen to me..."
Gong Zhuoliang wanted to persuade him again, but Qiao Yingze had already got up and walked to the bed while holding his hand instead. Gong Zhuoliang reluctantly followed him to the bed, and Qiao Yingze lay down flat and closed his eyes, but the hand he held was not Not letting go, clearly showed the attitude of 'I'm not angry with you, let's discuss this matter in the long term'.
"Ying Ze! Hmm..."
The feeling of hitting the cotton with his fist was too aggrieved, Gong Zhuoliang turned over and pressed Qiao Yingze's body to ask him to face up to the problem, but Qiao Yingze put his free hand around his neck, and then greeted Gong Zhuoliang with a deep kiss. Zhuo Liang's words were all blocked in his mouth, and Gong Zhuoliang just reached into Qiao Yingze's coat and touched his chest, but Qiao Yingze let go of him at this moment and held his hand that lit the fire.
"Be good, it's rare that Xian'er didn't come to trouble you, go to bed early."
Breathing calmly with his forehead pressed against his forehead, Qiao Yingze stroked Gong Zhuoliang's back comfortingly, then let go of him, turned sideways and closed his eyes, leaving Gong Zhuoliang aside.
"..."
Gong Zhuoliang pressed his chest against Qiao Yingze's back, rubbing... no response, top... still no response, simply got up and went down to the ground... still no response!
Gong Zhuoliang took a deep breath, then took the candles in the room and started venting. After they were all blown out, he smeared himself into bed and lay on Qiao Yingze's back, wrapping his arms and legs around him, and then... sleep!
The next morning, they still woke up to Gong Jinxian's crying, because they were rushing to worship Gong Zhuoyan, Gong Zhuoliang didn't mention the imperial examination, and Qiao Yingze also acted as if there was no such thing Similarly, after that, they spent a hundred days for Gong Jinxian, and saw off Qiao Yingxuan and Lu Zijian who had returned to Beijing, so for a few days, they didn't talk about the imperial examination again, and they didn't do anything they loved...
When everything was over and Qiao Yingze wanted to go back to his small house, Gong Zhuoliang couldn't bear it anymore and blocked Qiao Yingze in the bedroom, intending to explain the matter clearly.
"Master Xianggong, don't you have anything to say to me? I haven't agreed yet."
Feeling powerless for Qiao Yingze's always tepid attitude, Gong Zhuoliang tied his hands behind his back and hugged him, and asked while facing each other through gritted teeth.
"Zhuo Zhuo, I promise I won't hurt my body because of the scientific examination, even if it's for you, I will take good care of myself, you believe me."
Compared to Gong Zhuoliang's reaction, Qiao Yingze's attitude was very calm. He brought up the matter of the imperial examination only because he had confidence in himself. The problem was that Gong Zhuoliang was not mentally prepared at that time, and when he heard his own thoughts, he only wanted to dispel his thoughts, and he would definitely not think about this matter rationally. Now that he has been talking for a few days, he is prepared in his heart, and he will be much more rational when talking again.
"This is not just a matter of a scientific examination, Ying Ze, your character is really not suitable for the officialdom, if you do it reluctantly, you will only be the one who has worked hard."
It was hard to get such a relatively free life now, Gong Zhuoliang really didn't want to turn from a free citizen into a slave of the emperor, but he couldn't speak out such 'rebellious' words directly in front of Qiao Yingze, otherwise he would be subjected to the idea of loyalty to the emperor and patriotism for a lifetime I'm afraid I can't accept the education of my little husband!
"Even if I really don't adapt to official life, but at least I have worked hard, then I have no regrets. If I give up without even trying, I will regret it for the rest of my life."
Looking at Gong Zhuoliang without any hesitation, Qiao Yingze hoped that he could see his seriousness and determination. Over the past three years, Qiao Yingze had seen with his own eyes how much Gong Zhuoliang had endured and how much wronged he had suffered to achieve today's achievements. Since Gong Zhuoliang could do it, why couldn't he, who was five years older than him, be able to do it
"...Have you ever thought about it, once you really become an official, what kind of eyes will others look at our relationship? The majestic court ordered the official to be married to a man, and the immorality alone is enough for the imperial censor to overthrow you." Now, what career is there to talk about?"
In the end, he couldn't match Qiao Yingze's magnanimity, Gong Zhuoliang turned his head to avoid his gaze, then let him go and took two steps back, sighing a little tiredly.
If Qiao Yingze is just an idler with a reputation for raising people, then no one will care about his private life, but if he is really named on the gold list, then the relationship between the husband and wife will be revealed to the world, and many people will definitely be criticized Zhisheng, this kind of "limelight" is not something ordinary people can afford... To put it bluntly, they have already tried their best to be together in a fair and honest manner. If Qiao Yingze really has a high school day, then he will face such a Social pressure, can they still live happily like they are now
Gong Zhuoliang is not an aesthetic romanticist, on the contrary, he is very realistic, he may not care about other people's eyes, but can Qiao Yingze, who has read sage books for more than ten years, hold on
"Let's live our lives well, so why do we need to mind other people's eyes? Our marriage was before my scientific examination. The law did not stipulate that people cannot marry male wives. If I divorced my wife and married another after I passed the examination, that would be wrong." If my official career is really affected by this, then I will resign from office and go back to seclusion. Anyway, I have learned what I have learned, and it is finally not in vain. I have spent more than ten years studying hard. .”
Although Qiao Yingze is far inferior to Gong Zhuoliang in debate, Qiao Yingze is much more professional than Gong Zhuoliang when it comes to convincing people with reasoning, and what he says now is from the heart, he hopes that Gong Zhuoliang can treat him well confidence.
"Why bother to make such a fuss, isn't it good for us to live freely?"
All conceivable reasons were resolved by Qiao Yingze one by one, Gong Zhuoliang complained a little irritably, he could understand Qiao Yingze's desire to make contributions as a man, but he really didn't want to lose his hard-won freedom.
"Is my effort just tossing in your opinion?"
Qiao Yingze thought he was used to being treated as useless and superfluous from birth, but when his lover regarded his hard work as trouble, he still felt... very uncomfortable.
"Ying Ze, that's not what I meant."
Seeing the disappointed look on Qiao Yingze's face, Gong Zhuoliang's heart tightened, and he quickly reached out to help him by the shoulder, but Qiao Yingze backed away a few steps, and he raised his hands to his chest separately, representing the posture is to refuse.
"Zhuo Zhuo, I always support what you want to do... I'll go back first, you don't have to send me off."
With a forced smile, Qiao Yingze stepped back and walked to the door, but he was still reluctant to say a serious word, and stopped Gong Zhuoliang from catching up with him. Qiao Yingze took a deep look at him, then turned and left.
"Ying Ze!"
It was just a sentence that wasn't even an accusation, but Gong Zhuoliang felt as if his heart was being squeezed tightly, excruciatingly painful, and seeing Qiao Yingze's leaving back, he felt ashamed for the first time.
Gong Zhuoliang knew that Qiao Yingze had no reservations about his kindness, but he always thought that he had paid enough for him, but now that he thought about it, how selfish and self-righteous was his contribution compared to Qiao Yingze's
He thought that it was for his own good to have food and drink, and thought that letting him help him revise manuscripts and draw illustrations would satisfy his spiritual needs, but he always deliberately ignored it. Except for the four books and five classics, poems and songs on his bookshelf In addition to Fu, those thick law books, unique commentaries on current affairs and government orders, biographies of people's livelihood, customs and geographical environment in various places...
In her previous life, Gong Zhuoliang believed in the belief that 'life is precious, but love is more expensive. If it is for freedom, both can be thrown away. 'Because he was born in a peaceful age, he didn't need to worry about his own safety, and he never met a sapling that made him give up the entire forest, so since he became financially independent, he didn't have to deal with those irresponsible parents anymore. After having a relationship, his life is really very free and unrestrained...
But after coming to this world, he gave up his freedom in order to save his life. Fortunately, he met Qiao Yingze, so he finally regained his freedom without worrying about his life. Now, what was in conflict turned into freedom and his love.
"What kind of multiple-choice question is this?"
Throwing his body heavily on the couch, Gong Zhuoliang's heart was filled with seaweed tears, he decided to get drunk tonight, in order to commemorate his dying...