In the dim classroom, the one who was chatting with Kuroto Kiriya was Ryougi Ori.
"This is the first time I've heard that... you hate humans?"
"Well, Shiki has hated humans since he was a child... You think everyone should be ignorant when they are children, right? We think that everyone we meet, the whole world, loves us unconditionally. Because we like them, of course they will like us too. Isn't this common sense?"
"That's right. When I was a child, I didn't doubt anything. I took it for granted that as long as I liked everyone unconditionally, everyone would like me too. I was probably only afraid when talking about ghosts, right? However, it seems that humans nowadays are scarier than ghosts..."
"Yes, but that is a very important thing, Kurogiri. Ignorance is necessary. When you are a child, you can only see yourself and will not pay attention to other people's ill will towards you, even if it is an illusion. As long as you actually experience being loved, it seems that you can be gentle to anyone - because humans only show emotions that they have experienced."
“… … .”
"But I'm different. I knew there were other people after I was born, because there was Zhi in Shiki's body, so she could think about all kinds of things, knew the existence of others and that there were other humans in the world besides herself, and knew that she couldn't be loved unconditionally. Shiki knew how ugly people were from a young age, so she couldn't love them, and I don't know when she became indifferent to other people. The only emotion she had was rejection."
Ask for leave
I'm sorry, I'm stuck, and it can be said that it's a very serious writer's block. I can't write a single word. My hands are on the keyboard but my mind is blank. I force myself to type every word on the keyboard... ...
Now I have no idea what kind of story I will write in the next chapter. It's as if this story has already left my mind and I don't have any idea at all. Also, because this is the first time I have written a book of this type, I wrote it with a rush of energy and now I don't even have a routine to follow. It's a terrible experience, like being poisoned.
However, I dare not let myself take a break and relax, because as an experienced author, I know very well that once I collapse, it is impossible to get back to the state... ...
In the past, I never thought that there would be a day when I would not be able to continue writing when a book is very popular. After all, after struggling for a long time, I really want to try my best to hold on to any little achievement. I also used to think that those people who casually abandoned their books were disgusting. They had such good achievements, but they stopped writing. This made me, who didn't even have any achievements, very envious and jealous.
When I saw them, I thought that I would never do that. As long as my grades were good, I could force myself to write something.
But as expected, I just can’t write a good story no matter how hard I try. I’m really not good at this style of book. It’s okay to write it for a short period of time, but it has become torture over a long period of time. Even the worst thing is that I can’t write anything even if it’s torture.
It's like asking a liberal arts student to take a calculus exam. I'm a writer of infinite flow novels, and now I'm really dizzy when I suddenly write this kind of plagiarism. I was able to write by saving drafts and thinking back before, but now I really feel like I've run out of ideas...
It can be said that it was a very wrong decision to write cross-field plagiarism without any preparation in order to prove that I was not just a failure in writing infinite flow. But now I can't beat up my past self, so I can only find a way to adjust my state and read books of the same type to find inspiration.
At the same time, I have to write this leave request even though I can say it is reluctant. After all, if I continue like this, this book will be really finished. While I am trying to adjust, at least this most basic explanation should be left for everyone, otherwise it would be too sorry to let everyone wait in vain... ... .
I also know that some people will scold me. To be honest, I will be very happy if someone really scolds me, because I want to scold myself. Before, when I wanted to get grades, I couldn’t write any results. Now that I finally got the grades, I can’t write anything.
Yes, in the past when I took TJ, either the grades of the books were too bad or there were irreparable gaps. Only this time, I couldn’t write a single word even though I had the grades and the condition of the books was okay. It can be said that it was the worst experience I have ever had.
I know that readers who can’t see the follow-up must be more upset than I am, but the feeling of sitting on the keyboard for hours without being able to type a single word really makes me feel like I’m going to collapse.
Finally, I don’t even know how to write the subsequent chapters, so I can only try my best. But after all, this book is already on the shelves, and I can’t just write some garbage to fool the readers. Now I really feel like I’m in a dilemma.
If I don't write well, it's a complete waste of everyone's money. If I don't write, I'll be halfway through writing it, and it's even a key plot, which is too much no matter how you think about it...
Alas, looking back, before this book was put on the shelves, I never asked other authors for py, nor did I ask the editor for recommendations. I didn't think it was a big deal at the time, but now I think about it, maybe at that time, I subconsciously already knew that this book would drain me dry sooner or later.
Humans have their limits... ... Even though it sounds a little childish, I now completely agree with this statement.
Finally, I'm really sorry for not being able to write a good story for you all... ... .
Chapter 134: The Release of "Kara no Kyoukai" (Part 8)
Chapter 134
Seeing the scenes in the movie, people felt sympathy for Shiji while being confused.
“Childhood is the most ignorant time, but it is also the happiest and most innocent time. If one understands the ugliness of human nature during that period, then such a life would be too terrible.”
"No wonder Ryougi Shiki acted so cold from beginning to end. After accepting the evil of mankind, it is already remarkable that she can still maintain a rational attitude towards life."
"In that case, Ori is even more strange. I feel that Ori's personality seems too lively. Ori's personality seems cheerful, but in fact, she is probably crazier than Shiki."
"The Yin-Yang family is a terrifying existence. It reminds me of some mages from the dark school."
"… "
Of course, those who can make such remarks are already top students in the magic academy.
In fact, most ordinary people are still confused at this moment.
However, even if some people find it hard to accept the complex concepts in the film, ordinary people can still enjoy watching it. At most, others will smell it and comment that it is awesome.
…
Compared to ordinary students, the great sages at the top of the Alchemy Tower were all shocked by what Zhi said in the picture.
"When a person has another soul accompanying him since birth and knows the other soul's thoughts, will he develop such a mentality?"
“The changes that zero distance or even negative distance between people will bring are almost like creating something inhuman.”
“The most important concept that symbolizes human beings is the soul. Once the soul is alienated, the concept of human beings itself may no longer exist.”
"… "
The great sages discussed enthusiastically, and their perspectives on the film were indeed very unique.
Especially for Rosa Sage, when she was filming the film, she was genuinely surprised by the concepts described in the film itself, and now she has a new experience after watching the film again.
However, Hohenheim, the dean, had a thoughtful look on his face, with a furrowed brow, as if he was thinking about something.
…
The plot of the movie continues.
"Why do you want to talk to me?"
On the balcony, Ryougi Shiki said to Kuroto Mikiya in an almost indifferent tone:
"Why is Kurogiri-san so brainless?"
"That's too much. Although some people say I'm too honest, I've never heard anyone say I'm stupid."
Facing Kuroto Mikiya's gentle words, Ryougi Shiki indifferently opened a bag of food and said:
"Everyone must be embarrassed to tell the truth."
"Shiki, you're a little angry, aren't you?"
"… a little?"
Ryougi Shiki glared at Kuroto Mikiya, then said in a somewhat bewildered manner:
"I don't understand it myself, but seeing you makes me unhappy. Why do you keep pestering me? Zhi has said that, why is your attitude the same as yesterday? I really don't understand."
"I don't know why. I enjoy being with you, but I can't tell why... I'm still like this after hearing what you said yesterday. Maybe I'm just too optimistic."
"Kurogiri-san, are you really aware that I'm an abnormal person?"
"Well, it's really unusual."
"Right? Then you should face the fact that I'm not someone that most people can get along with."
"To be friends, normality and abnormality are not the key."
Hearing what Kuroto Mikiya said, Ryougi Shiki suddenly got angry and spoke forcefully:
"But I can't be like you."
As she spoke, she smoothed her hair.
Ryougi Shiki's sleeves flickered, revealing her slender bandaged arms. The bandage near her right elbow was very new.
"Shiki, your injury is——"
Facing the suddenly horrified expression of Kuroto Kiriya, Ryougi Shiki simply said coldly:
"Since you won't listen to what Zhi says, let me speak instead. If you continue like this, I will definitely kill you."
Seeing Ryougi Shiki leaving, Kuroto Kiriya took a deep breath and said helplessly:
“… Really, the scholar was right. I might have gone crazy a long time ago.”
…
Seeing the plot in the movie, a heated discussion broke out in Edward's tavern.
"Oh my god, is Ryougi Shiki really a murderer?!"
Helena was the first to speak, raising her hand high, afraid that no one could hear what she said.
Wen Li, who was standing by, was more concerned about Kuroto Mikiya and said slowly:
"I always feel that this Kuroto Mikiya really likes Ryougi Shiki, but I always feel that this feeling came very suddenly, and there is no sense of natural development."
As she spoke, she glanced at Edward secretly, then quickly lowered her head when she noticed that he was looking at her.
Right now, most of the people present are divided into two groups. One side is more concerned about whether Ryougi Shiki is the real murderer, while the other side is more concerned about Kuroto Mikiya's emotional investment.
In response to this, Du Lin adhered to the principle of not spoiling the plot and said calmly:
"Look back, look back and you will know."
…
At the same time, in the hall of the Imperial Magic Academy, students were also having a heated discussion.
"What do you think, is Ryougi Shiki the murderer? Honestly, with so many clues given, it's almost obvious that she is a murderer."
"But, the same question remains. Would you really let a murderer who killed innocent people be the heroine? Although it can be whitewashed, it still feels weird."
"Indeed, it's not that I don't support whitewashing. I also like the character of Ryougi Shiki, but I always feel that her personality is not enough to do such a thing. Otherwise, she wouldn't have behaved like that when she was looking down at the scenery."
"So either Ryougi Shiki is not the murderer, or there must be some kind of whitewashing plot arranged later. I personally tend to lean towards the former. After all, the current clues always feel a little too misleading. It's almost as if they are deliberately telling us to believe this answer."
"It seems that this "Kara no Kyoukai" is still worth looking forward to. I originally thought that this movie might be the worst movie made by Senior Du Lin."
“In terms of the sense of excitement, it is indeed not as good as the previous films, but in terms of depth, it far exceeds any of the previous ones. Perhaps this is also the transformation of Senior Du Lin himself, no longer committed to making low-threshold special effects movies, but instead hoping to create some films with more connotations.”
"You all really know more than the other. Unlike me, I just want to see Ryougi Shiki and Kuroto Mikiya together!"
“Second!”
"Second the motion +1!"
"You guys are so flirty, unlike me, I just want Ryougi Shiki to be my wife!"
“Get lost!”
All of a sudden, amidst the laughter and jokes of the students in the academy, the content before the murder investigation in "Kara no Kyoukai" continued to play.
Chapter 135: The Release of "Kara no Kyoukai" (Part 9)
Chapter 135
In the movie.
Because of the information about the murderer learned by Kuroto Kiryu from his uncle, he felt more and more that it was his classmate Ryougi Shiki, but he was unwilling to accept this fact.
So, he decided to take the initiative to go to Ryougi Shiki's house.
I met a senior student on the way and we parted ways after talking to him.
Passing through the dark forest, under the cover of night, Kurotogi Kan carefully crossed the mountain road.
However, just as he was about to reach Ryougi Shiki's house, he suddenly stopped unexpectedly.
The blood oozing out of nowhere on the ground and the pungent air made the hairs all over his body stand on end.
He continued to move forward unconsciously, and the familiar figure finally appeared in his eyes.
There was a corpse lying in front of the girl named Ryougi Shiki, and bright red blood was gushing out of the corpse like a fountain.
“————!”
Kuroto Kiriya suddenly fell to his knees, his whole body trembling with unknown emotions.
In the distance, Ryougi Shiki, who had been staring at the corpse motionlessly, slowly looked over, and a strange smile slowly rose on her ghostly face.
“————!”
Witnessing this scene, Kuroto Kirei began to vomit violently, vomiting out the contents of his stomach and gastric juice, until tears welled up in his eyes.
For this reason, the smile on Ryougi Shiki's face was not at all inconvenient, and even became more stable.
At the same time, Kuroto Kirei's consciousness was instantly interrupted.
The last words I heard seemed to be a sentence that I couldn’t tell whether it was reality or a memory.
"You have to be careful, Kurogiri-san. An ominous premonition will bring about an ominous reality."
…
Seeing the content on the screen, the audiences who were watching the movie anywhere were all excited.