Su Hui had been recuperating at home for a few days, and finally felt better.
On Wednesday afternoon, Lu Junchi took him to the clinic opened by Yang Yuqing.
Lu Junchi has also been to that clinic several times. At the end of each year, the psychological clinic conducts psychological evaluations on front-line police officers.
Those who work on the front line have always been fast-paced, working overtime, and approaching the darkest part of human nature. Mental health is particularly important.
Over the years, there have been many police officers with psychological problems. People are no longer so taboo and avoid doctors. Many people also take seeing a psychiatrist as a way to relieve pressure, and they have become accustomed to it.
Entering the triage area, Lu Jun checked the time late, they arrived ten minutes earlier than the scheduled time.
The little nurse Jin Qiu had known them for a long time and led them in: "By the way, Mr. Su, Dr. Yang's family is away today, so I assigned your diagnosis and treatment to Dr. An. Did you receive a text message?"
When Su Hui heard about this, he was stunned for a moment. Then he took out his mobile phone and looked at it. He didn't hear the reminder: "I may have missed the information, but it doesn't matter, other doctors can too."
Jin Qiu smiled and said, "Don't worry, this Doctor An is Doctor Yang's junior and junior. He was specially recruited by Doctor Yang from the Psychology Department of the First Affiliated Hospital. He is also a very good doctor. Recently, many patients have taken the initiative to Ask him. And don't worry, Dr. Yang has made arrangements. Mr. Su, you are no longer in the intensive treatment period, but only in the later stage of diagnosis and treatment. She has explained your file and situation to Dr. An. "
Su Hui was taken all the way and walked into a psychotherapy room with soothing music. The nurse said, "Mr. Su, wait here for a while, Dr. An will be here soon."
Su responded, and familiarly put the scepter next to the sand table and sat on the medical chair.
The chair in the consultation room allows people to lay their legs flat, and it is very comfortable to lie on them halfway.
When Su Hui looked up, he could see that there were some starry sky patterns on the ceiling. These arrangements were helpful for making the patient feel happy and calming down.
After sending Su Hui in, Lu Junchi sat in the waiting area outside.
The content of the conversation during the psychotherapy is the patient's privacy, and family members and relatives and friends are not allowed to enter.
The height of the clinic is very high, and the waiting area inside is comfortable and warm. There are colorful cushions on the soft sofa chairs, which makes people feel happy when they are in it.
Lu Junchi brought his laptop, and as soon as he sat down and opened it, he saw a tall and thin man in a white coat walking in from outside.
A nurse at the front desk got up and called him, "Doctor An."
The man came over and pressed his fingerprints on the punch card machine, then turned around. He wore gold-rimmed glasses and looked calm, gentle, and gentle.
Lu Junchi had never seen this person here. Knowing that this Doctor An should be the doctor who was about to see Su Hui, he raised his head to look at him for a while.
The man in front of him is about thirty years old. He is well maintained and makes him look very young, but he has an aura on his body. Precipitated scent.
Seeing that Lu Junchi was looking at him, the doctor An asked the nurse at the front desk with a smile, "Is this the patient who made an appointment?"
Lu Jun said hurriedly: "No, I came with a friend."
"This is Captain Lu of the serious crime team of the General Administration." The little nurse quickly introduced, "The patient who made the appointment is Mr. Su. He came a while ago and is already waiting for you inside."
Dr. An nodded apologetically to Lu Junchi and smiled, and then said to the little nurse, "Okay, then I'll go first."
Lu Jun watched that Doctor An entered, he stood up and chatted with Jin Qiu casually: "What's this Doctor An's name?"
"An Yu's remarks." The little nurse pointed his name on the form, "It's Dr. Yang's junior brother, we are more free than the First Affiliated Hospital, and we are not so busy. We have time to do some academic research, so Dr. An just come."
When she said this, she sighed: "It's too difficult to be a psychologist now. Graduated from the research institute, thousands of hours of case experience, and need to participate in various supervision and training. She's worried, but fortunately Doctor An is willing to come and help her."
Jin Qiu blinked when he said this, with stars shining in his eyes, "By the way, Dr. An is very handsome, right? Many of our patients here like to ask him for consultation. He is very enthusiastic, warm, kind, and considerate. If anyone To be his girlfriend, it is estimated that he will die happily."
Lu Jun hummed a little lately. From the meeting just now, it could be seen that Dr. An was polite and polite, which left a good impression on him.
Jin Qiu leaned down and joked: "But you are still a little worse than you, Shuai Du and Captain Lu."
After hearing this reply, Lu Jun didn't know how to answer for a while.
"It's also a little worse than Teacher Su." Jin Qiu took the initiative to change the subject, she just saw the handsome guy, and she was a little crazy, "It's you who accompanied Teacher Su today, I'm really relieved, he used to be himself Coming alone, he doesn't look like a friend or relative. His eyes are not good, and his body is not very good. Every time I see him, I am very worried. But how should he describe this person? Oh, yes Now, as cold as ice, I always dare not talk to him more."
"That person, sometimes he doesn't look away because he can't see clearly. It's good to know him..." Lu Junchi remembered something and asked her, "How long has Mr. Su been here to see a doctor?" He thought about asking for a time. It's not always privacy.
The little nurse thought back and said, "It's been two years. Recently, it has been about once every one to two months on average."
Lu Jun did a bit of calculation. It was almost two years ago when the behavior analysis team was disbanded, and a series of rectifications and changes began in the police station. He was also the major crime team that he took over from that time.
Lu Junchi pulled himself out of his memory, and then he noticed a poster behind the little nurse: "Are you doing psychological research on adolescents recently?"
"Yeah." The little nurse looked back and saw that the new poster on the wall was about teenage counseling.
"Actually, this is a project in cooperation with some schools. I hope parents and teachers can pay attention to the psychological conditions of children. As long as minors sign up, they can get free pre-diagnosis. But..." The little nurse sighed, "Even if We're free, and there are very few kids who still sign up."
Lu Junchi expressed his understanding: "because parents don't want to bring their children?"
Most parents are taboo and avoid doctors. They are particularly afraid of these mental illnesses. In their eyes, it seems that bringing their children to see a psychiatrist is an admission of the failure of their family education.
"Those parents will say that those children are hypocritical, they are adolescence, they are children who have a temper, and at the same time they paralyze themselves, as if they don't admit it, the children are not sick. For children with mental illness, there are always people around them who think that He is not sick, he just thinks too much, which is also very unfavorable for treatment."
When the little nurse Jin Qiu said this, she suddenly remembered something, and hurriedly poured a glass of warm water for Lu Junchi, "Look at my brain, I forgot to pour water for Captain Lu..."
Lu Jun took the water late and replied, "Thank you"
Psychotherapy takes a total of one hour, Lu Junchi and Jin Qiu chatted a few more words, sat down and dealt with the work of the heavy case team.
At this time, Su Hui, who was lying in the consulting room, had already started this psychological consultation. His first impression of this Doctor An was quite good. He spoke politely and thoughtfully, which gave people a sense of security. Seems like a natural fit to be a psychologist.
An Yuci listened to Su Hui's recent psychological situation, asked some questions, and finally asked Su Hui: "I heard from Dr. Yang that you have been reinstated recently, do you think it will help you? It's the general development. Is the direction in the right direction?"
Su Hui hesitated for a moment, frowned slightly, and said slowly, "It's actually getting better..."
He could feel that the gloom and the sense of alienation were gradually fading away, and life seemed to be gradually normalizing from that black-and-white state.
Then Su Hui thought about it carefully, rather than saying that this feeling and change was brought to him by work and busyness, it was better to say that it was brought to him by Lu Junchi.
He used to be unable to eat and sleep on time. He often woke up in the middle of the night and had insomnia until dawn.
But now, that place is no longer the cold place where he slept and curled up.
Except for the cat, there was new life in the room.
Lu Junchi is a quiet, steady and reliable man. He will remember to cook, water every pot of plants on time, and make them flourish. Even the cat has gained a few pounds.
Su Hui no longer felt that the family was lonely and cold. He could hear Lu Junchi's footsteps and voices, saw his tall and handsome back, and felt the lights in the living room.
The whole room suddenly became warm and warm.
Seeing that his expression was relieved, Dr. An said with a sigh of relief: "That's good, it's still helpful to you to put in work in this way. You are now on a regular return visit, but the last time you made an appointment for a return visit was It was two months ago, and the time gap is a bit long."
Su Hui was a little apologetic: "It was the end of the semester a while ago, and I was a little busy. I will pay attention in the future."
"Although you are Dr. Yang's patient, I still think it is necessary to confirm the treatment plan with you." An Yuci said, "I think you should be more active in treatment. If it is an ordinary patient, I would suggest Use some small amount of reliever drugs, but drugs may affect thinking, and there will be dependence, so this plan may not be suitable for you. Are you insisting on mindfulness therapy?"
Su Hui nodded and said, "I've tried both the breathing method and the mindfulness method suggested by Dr. Yang before."
"Have you tried hypnotherapy before..." An Yuci asked him.
Su Hui shook his head: "Dr. Yang also suggested it, but I have never tried it."
"Do you want hypnotherapy?" An Yuci asked.
"I..." Su Hui hesitated for a while.
An Yuci turned his head and asked him: "Are you worried about the efficacy of hypnosis? Are you worried? Many of my patients were initially somewhat repulsive of hypnosis. Hypnotherapy."
Su Hui thought for a moment and said, "Thank you, Dr. An, but forget it."
Su Hui didn't make this decision because he didn't understand hypnosis. He didn't want to use hypnotherapy, precisely because he knew the principles and operation methods of hypnosis, and had some hypnosis experience.
It sounds mysterious, but in fact, hypnosis is just a method to induce people into a trance-like state of mind.
Many people think that hypnosis is just a metaphysics. They firmly believe that as long as the will is firm, the hypnotist will not be brought into a hypnotic state. They also believe that even if they enter that state, they can wake up from hypnosis at any time.
In fact, these are some misunderstandings caused by ignorance of hypnosis. The principle of hypnosis is more complicated than ordinary people imagine, but its implementation is simpler.
With objects with associative ability and fantasy ability, suitable environment, good hypnotist, reasonable suggestion, with these factors, hypnosis is not difficult to carry out.
Su Hui knew that hypnosis might have some effect on him, so he was a little hesitant just now.
He refused because he felt that hypnotherapy was like cutting open the body and frankly exposing people's inner secrets to the hypnotist.
A person in a hypnotic state is defenseless.
He didn't even know what he would see, hear, and feel during hypnosis, and how his mind would be impacted.
As someone who is often on the edge of darkness, this treatment has touched his bottom line and made him feel insecure.
An Yuci lowered his head and said: "Well, these are just my personal suggestions. If you refuse the treatment of foreign objects, you can only start with self-regulation and self-control. I think you need to stick to the return visit at least once a month. ."
An Yuci seemed to regret Su Hui's previous rejection, but still dutifully reminded him.
Su responded. He felt that An Yuci was different from Yang Yuqing, who was good at listening. He was a more active psychologist and wanted to help him more.
After thinking about it, Su explained to him, "Thank you, Dr. An, I am not rejecting the help of those external forces, but I believe in the concept of humanistic psychology." He paused, remembered a sentence and said, "Everyone his own saviour."
The end of An Yuci's record stopped: "I remember this sentence from Jung."
Su Hui explained: "I am conservative about Jung's 'synchronicity', and I just agree with the values that appear after this sentence."
An Yuci smiled and lowered his head. This is a problem that counselors often need to face when patients are also proficient in psychology. Differences in theories and concepts often affect the process of diagnosis and treatment and the final result.
"The next time you come here, Dr. Yang should be there. You should decide with her. I think your work is dangerous and involves the darkness. Maybe you will touch it anywhere. Your wounds in the past. After returning to work, you must pay more attention to your own psychological state, otherwise it may cause emotional changes and aggravate the disease. I suggest you not to compare the present with the past, those things that you can’t remember, those that make the disease worse. If you are uncomfortable, try not to think about it."
Time passed quickly without knowing it, and the last bit of blue sand flowed down from the hourglass of the timer. Today's treatment is here.
Su Hui walked to the table and lowered his head, picked up his mobile phone and watch on the table, then picked up the scepter next to the sand table and said, "Thank you."
His eyes suddenly fell on a photo on An Yu's resignation table. Su Hui was standing very close, so close that even with his eyesight, he could see blurryly. The photo was of a young girl smiling. The overall tone looks a bit age-like.
To be honest, Su Hui rarely sees these personal items in the counseling room. Most psychiatrists or counselors seem to take the initiative to completely isolate their work from their own lives.
Su Hui couldn't help but ask softly, "Is that your girlfriend?"
An Yuci's expression froze slightly, then lowered his head and said, "Oh, no, it's my sister. My sister was a mentally ill patient. She passed away many years ago. It was because of her that I studied psychology."
Only then did Su Hui realize that he seemed to have mentioned something that should not have been mentioned, and apologetically said: "I'm sorry, my condolences..."
An Yuci smiled lightly: "It's okay, it's been a long time, then Mr. Su, see you next time."
There are two ways to get out of the consultation room, one is to return through the original road, and the other is to take the elevator directly to go downstairs.
Su Hui kept thinking about what An Yuci said to him just now, and when he reacted, he was already standing on the elevator of the clinic.
In addition to him, there was another person on the elevator. Su Hui couldn't see who it was, but could only make out a vague color block, it was a man.
Su Hui felt a little self-blame. He was too familiar with this road. He made his own choice and forgot Lu Junchi who was with him. He pressed his eyebrows, took out his mobile phone and sent a message to Lu Junchi. There was no signal in it, so he clicked it again and sent it out.
At this moment, with a ding sound, the floor where the man pressed has arrived.
At the moment of going downstairs, the person in front walked out of the elevator, then turned around and looked at Su Hui who was behind him...
Su Hui also just raised his head and saw the man in front of him. His eyes were blurred, and he could only see the outline of the man.
For a moment, Su Hui felt as if a bullet had passed between his eyebrows and hit his brain.
He was stunned.
The mind is blank, but the pain seems to be boiling, as if something needs to be awakened from the memory. The severe pain drowned him like a tide, and cold sweat burst out from his forehead in an instant.
who's that person
He didn't remember him, it was a strange person with a strange face, but he felt an inexplicable sense of familiarity.
The elevator closed in front of him, Su Hui desperately pressed the elevator button to return to the place where the man went downstairs just now.
He wanted to stop him, to ask questions.
But the elevator had already descended. When Su Hui regained his consciousness, he realized that he was already in a cold sweat. He leaned against the guardrail of the elevator, gasping for breath.
Don't think about the past...
After psychotherapy, he was often the most rational and calm time. He never imagined that he would have a seizure just because he saw a stranger in the elevator.
Su Hui doubted for a moment that what An Yuci said to him before was correct, that he was too contemptuous of his own situation...
Don't think about the past...
Su Yuan closed his eyes and repeated it in his heart, as if hypnotizing himself to completely remove that person from his mind.
Forget that person, forget everything that happened in the elevator.
He seems to be using a knife to separate his present from his past.