Su Yao looked at his hands, which had been relatively clean and soft until now, and said with a choked voice: "I don't understand. I didn't do anything wrong, but why do I have to face this?"
Nanny Huang pursed her lips. For some reason, she felt a little sad because of Su Yao's tone. She couldn't help but sigh in her heart.
"It's not that I haven't endured it. I have been trying very hard to endure it." Su Yao's tears fell on the back of her hand with a plop. There was despair and indignation in her tone: "I know that Nanny Sang is greedy and Zhenzhu is greedy for money and strong-willed. I have been enduring it. I know that they are people who came from my mother's side. I hope that they can say a few good words about me when they go back, so that my mother can have a better impression of me, a daughter she has never met, and even better..."
That's right, Nanny Huang nodded unconsciously in her heart. She saw all of Su Yao's efforts.
"But they are getting worse and worse, and I find that my tolerance and submission are useless..." Tears welled up in her eyes like a river bursting its banks: "But why? I don't ask for anything. Now the parents who raised me are not my parents anymore. Am I not even worthy of the parents who gave birth to me?"
Who can see her difficulties and hardships
In her previous life, Su Yao didn’t like to cry.
Mrs. Su San said that she hated people who cried the most.
Su An said that useless people only use tears as a weapon.
Su Yao really believed that. She thought tears were annoying.
But it turned out that they were just trying to distinguish who was the one crying, because when Su Xingxuan was crying, Mrs. Su San hugged her and called her her darling, and Su An wanted to kill her.
She was confused and at a loss at first, but eventually she really couldn't cry anymore. She didn't shed a tear even until the day she died.
I want to cry, but who cares
But this life is different.
Her tears are useful because there are still people who truly care about her.
Su Yao knelt on the ground, crawled a few steps on his knees and hugged Mrs. He's legs, as if he wanted to vent all the grievances of his past and present lives.
She cried until she was out of breath, but she still couldn't stop wanting to know clearly: "Grandma, is there something wrong with me? Shouldn't I have come back? Why doesn't my brother like me? Why did you let Aunt Sang treat me like this? What did I do wrong?"
In her previous life, she seldom troubled others, always feeling that favors were something that would become less if used a little, so no matter how difficult her life was in the capital, she didn't want to trouble Mrs. He to worry about her.
Until the news of Mrs. He's death came.
At that time, she had just given birth to Cheng Li and was completely tired of Cheng Dingan. Cheng Dingan detained her in the backyard. When she received the news, Mrs. Su San had already gone to Taiyuan to attend the funeral.
Mrs. He was the best person to her. Once she died, the world's love for her completely disappeared, leaving only endless suffering.
If we start over again, everyone's fate will be rewritten.
In her previous life, not long after she left, Mr. He returned to Taiyuan from the capital and was implicated in the grain transport case and was thrown into prison. Mrs. He fell ill due to anger and anxiety. Although Mr. He was later found not guilty, he had damaged his health in prison and died shortly after he was released. Mrs. He was also devastated by this.
Of course, these things cannot happen in this life.
So she wanted Mrs. He and Mr. He to go to Beijing together.
Mrs. He sighed, feeling that her heart was about to be softened by Su Yao.
She helped Su Yao stand up, held her in her arms, patted her back gently as if she were comforting a child, and whispered to her, "It will be fine. Grandmother will accompany you to Beijing. Your mother will see your good points and know what a good child you are."
She touched Su Yao's head and said solemnly, "Don't worry, grandma is here for everything."
Su Yao finally couldn't control her tears.
She didn't remember how long she cried, but she knew that when she woke up again, she was in Madam He's green gauze kitchen. Through a screen, she heard Madam Huang asking Madam He, "Madam, are you really going to the capital? It's a good thing that you want to go out, but the situation in the capital is... Even if you are worried about your cousin, you don't have to force yourself. Just tell the Second Master to be more attentive."
Su Yao clenched his fists, and heard Mrs. He say firmly: "No, I must go there in person."
"I gave birth to her. No one knows her temper better than me. If the child she raised was a failure and only caused trouble for her, she would still be annoyed. What's more, Yaoyao hasn't been home for nine years? Just like the Crown Prince... raised by the Emperor himself, held high and treated with great honor, but when he felt that the jade in his hand was not carved to his liking, he just smashed it to pieces?"
Madam Huang shouted anxiously, "Madam, please be careful with your words!"
Mrs. He said in a calm voice, "Children are not considered real people until they get married, start a family and travel far away on their own. If I can't protect her well-being, she will be a small grave. If I can't protect her growth, it will be a slightly larger grave. Did you see that? I'm still here, and that cuckoo in the magpie's nest dares to use her brother's hands to suppress and exclude Yaoyao. If I'm not here, she will go to the capital, and I will just have to send her off when she's young."
Su Yao pursed his lips tightly and clenched his teeth.
She never knew her grandmother was so insightful.
"Besides, I always thought that what Yaoyao has learned was enough, but now it seems that is not the case." Mrs. He said: "If she can't be taught how to distinguish right from wrong and know reason and conscience, if she falls into that place, I am afraid that in the end she will not even be able to find her body."
Su Yao didn't like to talk, and he didn't spend very much time with her, only three or four years at most.
However, this amount of time is enough to make a conclusion about a person's character and whether he or she has fate.
Su Yao is the only person who has only her in his heart and eyes since her husband's death. Even her granddaughter is not as filial and considerate as her.
People are kind-hearted, and she always hopes that Su Yao can avoid taking detours and live an easier life.
Su Yao was a little shocked.
What place is Mrs. He referring to
Calculating the time, Su An is about to get into trouble. Has the news already spread here
No... No, the timing doesn't match. Besides, if Mrs. He knew about this, she probably wouldn't let her go to the capital.
Is there any connection between that place and the marriage that Aunt He mentioned before
Su Xingxuan has been wishing her dead since early on, and has been instigating Su An to deal with her, hoping that she would lose the favor of Master Su San and Madam Su San. Is this also related to this incident
Ah, that's interesting... .
Su Yao raised the corner of his mouth and remembered something very interesting.