"So... where do I start? Let's start from when I was a general. I was a very powerful general. I fought many battles and almost never lost. Although I killed many, many people, although A lot of people are afraid of me, but I know they also admire me and think I'm amazing - and I think so too."
"It's quite remarkable." Sui Xiong nodded and said seriously.
"But later I realized that all of this was actually an illusion. All my efforts, all my hard work, all the achievements I had made, all the injuries I had suffered, the support I received from the military and the people, the recognition given to me by my colleagues, and the trust placed in me by the king, All worthless! Facing the overwhelming advantage of the enemy, I can't resist it. If I didn't run fast, I wouldn't even be able to protect myself." The Lord of Glory sighed deeply, and the evil aura on his face disappeared. Weakened a bit, "When I was running for my life alone and being chased by a large number of soldiers, what I felt was not fear or nervousness, but... emptiness."
"Empty, complete emptiness. It turns out that everything is fake, and nothing can be relied on. The only thing I can rely on is myself, and the only sword in my hand!"
"Do you think your sword came out of thin air?" Sui Xiong sneered, "The miners mined the iron ore, the smelters cast it into iron ingots, the blacksmiths made it into weapons, and maybe a mage enchanted it - Without them, where would you get your sword?”
The Lord of Glory smiled again, not intending to argue.
Even if they have to fight sooner or later and decide whether to live or die, even if they all understand this, at least at this moment, they are still sitting here communicating peacefully.
In this case, why bother arguing? It is a good thing for each other to express what is in our hearts.
Especially for Himself.
By saying it, He could feel more at ease.
Next, the Lord of Radiance told a lot.
His life, his ideals, and his various pasts.
And all of this, in the final analysis, is nothing more than two words.
emptiness.
"Everything in this world will go from birth to death, and after death, it will be re-presented in other ways with the flow of the great cycle, and go through a new cycle... over and over again, never ending." The Lord of Glory His expression was melancholy and vicissitudes of life, "In such a cycle, whether it is love or hate, victory or defeat, it is no match for the power of time. Everything will eventually disappear under the wash of the great cycle, leaving no trace, only There is this cycle that never ends... In a world like this, wouldn't everything I did and experienced feel empty?"
Sui Xiong remained silent. As an artist, of course he could understand this feeling of emptiness.
So he said: "There is always emptiness, but we are all immortal gods that transcend time. As transcendents, we don't have to be empty."
"Transcendent? Even if you become a god and live forever, you have not truly transcended the great cycle. From ancient times to the present, I don't know how many gods have fallen. Have they truly gained eternity? Even those who have lived from ancient times to the present Gods, those gods who are even more ancient than the Great Cycle. They are just lingering!" the Lord of Glory said disdainfully, "or they are huddled in their own world fearfully, or they are hiding in places where no one can find them. Or become a slave of the big cycle, working hard to maintain the stability of the big cycle - isn't this empty? I can't see what value there is in such a life!"
Sui Xiong couldn't help but ask, "So in your opinion, isn't it also valuable for me to lead everyone forward, correct those wrong things and rules, and build a new and better era like me?"
"Your thoughts are very similar to mine. If you can't find the value, then let others affirm my value." The Lord of Glory said, "For a long time after becoming a god, I was addicted to In this kind of life, I led mankind to keep moving forward, achieving victory and success again and again, and finally became the most powerful race in the world. I found happiness in everyone's joy, and in everyone's trust and admiration. Find value in it to fill my void.”
Sui Xiong nodded: "You did a great job back then. Even I have to admire you."
The Lord of Glory showed a warm smile, but then restrained: "But the emptiness cannot be filled, it is always there, bothering me."
Sui Xiong looked at his slightly humane face and sighed secretly.
The Lord of Glory is undoubtedly an outstanding hero, but he can defeat all kinds of enemies, but he cannot defeat the emptiness in his own heart. This may be what is said in the fairy tale novels I read before traveling through time: "External demons are invincible, but inner demons are hard to guard against."
But then he thought about it, the reason why the Lord of Glory worked so hard and kept moving forward was precisely to fill the emptiness in His heart. If it were not for the existence of this "inner demon", then perhaps he would not have achieved such earth-shattering achievements, nor would he be able to reach the heights he is today.
Between success and failure, it is difficult to evaluate which is better or worse.
After sighing, the Lord of Glory added: "I talked to the teacher about the depression in my heart. The teacher said that he could not understand my pain, but he felt that the reason why I felt empty and painful was probably because I was not at a high level or standing high enough. You haven't looked far enough. The powerful divine power may be enough to make the whole world look at you, but above this, there is a higher realm."
"So, we began to study great divine power and how to reach that state."
Sui Xiong nodded slightly. Most of the powerful divine powers are studying how to reach the great divine power. Although the reasons are different, "wanting to see the scenery from high places" may be the same.
It has nothing to do with good or evil. Wanting to be higher, faster and stronger is the innate instinct of all living beings.
"We have consulted many paths and made many attempts. In the end, the teacher believes that no matter how strong a powerful divine power is, it cannot break through and become a great divine power. There is an essential difference between the two. So if we want If you want to make a breakthrough, the most reliable way is to adjust your own nature and make progress essentially. To do this, you must first find your own nature - eliminate all external interference and find the most fundamental, most basic Something. Find your true 'self'."
Sui Xiong narrowed his eyes, remembering the scene Morani showed him before the God of Knights fell.
At that time, the priesthood of the God of Knights was continuously weakened, and finally even the most basic priesthood was gone. However, his power became stronger and stronger, becoming more powerful than imagined.
"The teacher decided to try this path himself. He tried it and failed." The Lord of Glory sighed and said, "Even if he is strong enough to compete with several powerful gods, his essence is still not strong enough. , cannot support such an attempt. But judging from the glory of His last moments, I think that the path He found was the right one, but he did not have enough strength to go on this path and pass it."
Sui Xiong was stunned for a moment, and then he understood the truth, and couldn't help but feel a little sad.
Even if he became a great god before, he could not understand the situation of the God of Knights at that time. Only now, beyond attributes and laws, did he truly understand what happened at that time.
What the God of Knights found was not actually the path from powerful divine power to great divine power, but the first step from great divine power to the transcendent.
"Teacher, He is really amazing. When he was only powerful, he had already seen the direction leading to the 'Transcendent'." As a Transcendent, the Lord of Glory certainly also understood the truth about the God of Knights. As he spoke, he revealed He expressed admiration, "Although He is too partial to his youngest student, this does not damage His wisdom."
"... Are you talking about my eldest brother? The God of Knights didn't even tell Him his true identity. Is this called favoritism? That old man passed on the throne of the Lord God of mankind to you, and used his own life to find it for you. Aren't you satisfied with the way forward?" Sui Xiong frowned and couldn't help but refute.
"You won't understand. For a teacher, to really care about a person is not to interfere with him, not to restrain him, and let him develop freely. Only help him when he needs it most... This is how he treats him. Joel Gardman’s. And I am just the successor he found to take over his job after being seriously injured in the war with the ancestral beasts!”
Sui Xiong shook his head. He really couldn't understand the Lord of Glory's thoughts.
Now he couldn't help but wonder whether Uther, the Lord of Glory... had gone crazy