I looked at Zhou Yuan: "I don't think you have any"
"But I can't satisfy the people around me." Zhou Yuan's tone could not be heard, "I thought that I chose a path that would allow me to earn more income in a short period of time, but now I don't care. No matter how hard I try, I can't make myself better. I thought I could make myself better through Lan Ruo, but it turned out to be nothing. My mother is right, maybe I really am not a qualified son."
I heard him say more and more unreliable, it is obvious that he has completely denied himself now, "Don't think like this, we all think you are very nice, you are very nice, you work hard, and you are very popular, Otherwise, why would we come to see you? Even the director said he wanted to see you."
Zhou Yuan shook his head: "It's not what you think, I'll show you something"
Zhou Yuan started to take off his T-shirt while speaking.
"Hey, what are you doing, don't be a hooligan!" I saw his movements getting more and more weird, and was about to stop him, but suddenly saw a terrible scene:
There are wounds on Zhou Yuan's body, each wound is at least ten centimeters long, covering his chest, abdomen, sides of ribs, etc., each wound is at least two or three centimeters deep! In order to prevent these wounds from turning out, these wounds were stitched up with needles and threads, like stitching wounds after surgery, but ordinary needles and threads were used for stitching. The whole wound had scabbed over, but it looked horribly horrific. Zhou Yuan, who took off his clothes, is completely a walking dead, like a zombie in Resident Evil.
"My God! What's wrong with you!" The first word that comes to my mind is self-harm. Many people with great mental stress will do this kind of behavior, but the wound will only be superficial, because no matter how deep the pain will make them stop.
Liu Shuai looked at Zhou Yuan's half body, and didn't close his mouth in surprise. It took him a long time before he said, "Are you crazy? Call an ambulance!"
Zhou Yuan looked at us with a wry smile, and waved his hands. This action moved the wounds on his body, and some wounds pulled the sutures next to him: "I found one thing, as long as I don't want to, I won't suffer, not only mentally , including physical pain, I can’t feel it anymore. What my mother said to me just now, I used to feel very uncomfortable and wanted to die, but now I just answer conditioned reflexes, and I don’t feel any pain in my heart. After cutting so many knives, as long as I don't want to, I don't feel at all, even if I want to, I won't leave a drop of blood, don't believe me, look—"
Zhou Yuan picked up the knife from the coffee table and slashed at his stomach. I was terrified, and quickly snatched the knife over, "Letter, letter, letter!"
Zhou Yuan, who was robbed of the knife, did not resist, and continued to sit on the small stool. I felt pain when I looked at his half body, and quickly handed him the T-shirt: "Put it on, don't catch a cold"
Zhou Yuan dressed obediently, like a little rabbit: "Look, Sun Wukong has the ability of a king kong to indestruct his copper head and iron arm, and he is not afraid of being cut by a knife. Although I don't have this ability, it doesn't hurt me when I cut it."
"What's going on?" I recovered and asked Liu Shuai.
"There is nothing more sad than heart death." Liu Shuai sighed, "I used to think it was just empty talk, but now I understand that the so-called heart death is the death of the soul. Now his soul is gone, and his body is still alive, but he is not bound by the soul. Lian, the whole person is too rational, like a machine, all reactions are based on the experience and methods learned over the years, and as time goes by, he will learn to control his nerves and body, so now he has no pain When I heard that Buddha cut meat to feed eagles, I always thought it was nonsense and how painful it was, but seeing him understand it so well, if Buddha cultivated to the state of immortality, impurity and impurity, he would have already controlled the nerves of the body. Sending and receiving like heart, then there is no pain at all.”
"So, Zhou Yuan has become a Buddha?" I myself feel that this conclusion is strange.
"No, on the contrary, this situation is very dangerous. Soul, bondage, fear and other factors are necessary for a person to survive. Now that Zhou Yuan doesn't have these, it is dangerous at any time." Liu Shuai didn't understand, Zhou Yuan really wanted to listen to him again, or wished not to listen to him, so he continued to explain, "Just to make a call, let me ask you, is a computer afraid of shutting down?"
"Nope"
"A computer, will you be afraid of being replaced with a graphics card or opening the case?"
"Nope"
"Why?"
"Because he doesn't know pain. No, because he doesn't have sensors, and it's not right, because he, well, because he is a machine."
Liu Shuai looked at me with a smile, "Then tell me, what is the fundamental difference between a human and a machine?"
I looked at him, and I never thought about this philosophical question: "How do I know, you are R&D, and I am a product manager"
"Actually, you know, you told me, but you forgot." Liu Shuai looked at me and at Zhou Yuan, "Because computers don't have the concept of death, but humans do."
Well, I seem to have said this fallacy when spanking while eating, but I didn't expect him to think about it.
"Live to death." Liu Shuai lowered his head and thought for a while, "I didn't understand it before, but now I understand it. If there is no fear of death, there will be no attachment to life. If—" Liu Shuai continued to look up Zhou Yuan said, "If there is no resistance to pain, there will be no pursuit of happiness, if the body does not feel pain, which is a threat to life, then how can there be fear of death, resistance to pain, and thus, no There will be happiness, there will be no desire to live."
The more I listened, the more I felt like I had fallen into a deep pit, and I felt that Zhou Yuan would wipe his neck directly in the next second.
"Of course Zhou Yuan won't die now, right?" Liu Shuai looked at Zhou Yuan.
"No, because I will tell my body that I cannot die." Zhou Yuan replied seriously, "But I have been thinking about one thing recently, what is the meaning of living alone?"
"You can't figure it out." Liu Shuai patted him on the shoulder, "Don't worry, we will return your soul as soon as possible. After that, you will still be the happy, sad, and wide-hearted Zhou Yuan! There is no more Me and Yan, Yan is a person with great magic power." Liu Shuai winked at me and stopped me from speaking.
"Let's go and eat"
…
When I went back late, Liu Shuai's face was serious. When we got to the place where we left, Liu Shuai gritted his teeth, as if he had made a big decision, and said to me, "Haoning, go back and ask Yan if there is any way to find my master."
"Your master?" I felt strange, this kid was unwilling to tell me about him a few days ago, why did he mention it today, "Can your master save Zhou Yuan?"
"No, but he may be able to find someone who may save Zhou Yuan."
"Who? So powerful, Yan is still so powerful?" I feel better, it seems that this Liu Shuai has a lot of secrets
Liu Shuai looked at me with an uncertain expression. Finally, he highlighted three words:
"Watch yourself!"
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