"Yes, I don't need your gift, and neither do Aunt Zhou and Uncle Li."
Ou Shaowen raised his eyebrows and looked at him puzzledly, “But you are not them, how do you know they don’t need it?”
Ou Renjin tried hard to suppress his emotions. He felt that his gentle and considerate mask was about to crack in front of him. "Why do you think they are so nice to you? Is it because you are you? No, because you are the one I brought back. They were hired by me, taking my salary, doing the work I arranged, and taking care of the people I asked them to take care of. That's all."
His expression was cold, and his words were filled with obvious malicious intent to destroy something.
Ou Shaowen was silent for a while, looking at Ou Renjin's slightly frowned brows, thinking that he seemed to have made him angry again. Recently, Ou Renjin seemed to be always angry with him. He could not bring him happiness, but could only destroy his originally peaceful mood again and again.
Thinking like this, he spoke directly: "You don't like me, right? You don't like anything I do. You don't like me talking to you a lot, you don't like me buying you gifts. I can't do anything for you, I can't make you happy, I can't make money for you, I have to accept your kindness unilaterally every day, accept the happiness you bring me. You let Aunt Zhou and Uncle Li take care of me so well, but I can only use your money to eat and drink, and occasionally cause you trouble, so... why did you keep me? If my existence can't bring you happiness, why do you let me exist?"
Some of Ou Shaowen's ideas changed rapidly due to the impact of the external environment, but some of them were deeply rooted in his consciousness after so many years of experience, becoming part of his personality. Among them, the most pervasive and unshakable view is that if you can't create value, there is no meaning in existence.
Just like the knowledge he had learned before, there was no point in continuing to learn it because it could not create value.
Every day, every morning when he woke up from the comfortable and soft bed, he would think about this question: why? Why did Ou Renjin keep him by his side? What could he do for him? What value did he have
He looked into Ou Renjin's eyes and suddenly wanted to have the surgery as soon as possible. This was the meaning of his existence and the only thing he could do for Ou Renjin. This person was so good to him that he began to feel that he was a person, not an object. Being a person means having desires, joys, sorrows, and anger. After meeting such a good person and experiencing such a happy and ordinary life, can he still persist day by day as usual when he returns to the unchanging days like an object
Ou Shaowen's tone was very calm, a tone that was just stating the facts rather than expressing grievances.
Ou Renjin looked at his eyes that were as bottomless as an ancient pond, and suddenly realized that something was wrong with him. He could tolerate many of his lover's strange little faults and tempers. In front of them, he always seemed gentle, easy to persuade, and very gentlemanly. He was very good to everyone except him.
He has the same last name as him, and his name was given by him. He is ignorant and can only be dragged by him to understand the world. He has no one to rely on, and can only be protected by him. Maybe because of this, in his heart, he subconsciously thinks that he is too easy to bully, right
It seems like it doesn't matter how you bully me.
"Who said I don't like you?" He calmed down and seemed to have become the man with a gentle smile and sweet words on his lips again, "I like you."
He recalled Ou Shaowen's long speech just now, and suddenly found it a little funny, and there was a kind of unprecedented pity. He thought he could understand the mood when he said this, "People who like you don't need you to buy gifts, they will also like you. Happiness is not the only emotion that makes people miss you. Emotions are very complicated." He was like a person guiding him across the bridge, with a meaningful tone, "Because I like you, I will be angry for you. Otherwise, you are just a stranger who can't affect my emotions. Besides, who said you can't bring me happiness? Many times, whenever I think of you, I can't help laughing, but you don't know."
Ou Renjin felt that he was not fully committed to this newly started game, and it was really his dereliction of duty to let the poor little thing ask questions like "You don't like me, do you?"
This was the first time Ou Shaowen had heard such words in his life. He didn't know what was wrong with him. He felt his brain go blank, his heart beat a little faster, and he could only stare at Ou Renjin without blinking. How could there be words in the world that could make people so happy? How could this person say such words so easily
He just couldn't say it.
When Ou Renjin held his hand and led him back to the villa, his head was still dizzy. Ou Renjin told Aunt Zhou about his cute and childish thoughts in front of him, "This kid won a prize of 100,000 yuan for participating in the program today. Other stars donated their money, but he refused to donate. When asked, he said he wanted to keep the money to buy jade and cars for you and Uncle Li!"
"Oh, this child, how can you be so stupid!" Aunt Zhou complained, but she was smiling from ear to ear. "It's your own money, you can just keep it for yourself, why do you always want to give it away? My daughter will buy my jade for me, and Uncle Li doesn't need your money, you just need to take care of yourself. You are so young and don't have much savings, how can you be so generous?"
"Did you hear that?" Ou Renjin turned around and patted his head. "I'm their boss. I will naturally be responsible for the welfare of my employees. You don't need to worry about it."
"Got it." He nodded a little slowly.
"Auntie Zhou, please help me clean up my room. I'm not going back today."
"Oh, OK!" Aunt Zhou was startled, then nodded quickly. Mr. Ou hadn't stayed here for a long time. Xiaowen was really a lovely child. How could he be so loved? No wonder Mr. Ou liked him. If she had such a son, she would probably wake up laughing in her dreams.
Ou Shaowen turned his head to look at him, then suddenly took two steps forward and hugged him.
"What's wrong?" Ou Renjin laughed.
He didn't say anything, just shook his head. After thinking for a long time, he finally spoke, "I like you too. I like you very much. Every time I think of you, I can't help but laugh."
He racked his brains, trying to add a few words that Ou Renjin hadn't said, "I want to be very good to you, do everything I can for you, give you everything you want, and..." He lowered his voice and whispered in his ear, "Dig out my heart and give it to you."
Ou Renjin's body suddenly stiffened for a moment, and Ou Shaowen's voice seemed to vibrate from his eardrums to his heart. He was stunned for a while, then lowered his eyes and said in a low voice: "You gave me your heart, but you don't have it anymore, so what should I do?"
"It's okay, it will grow back." Ou Shaowen said excitedly, with a hint of pride, "It will grow back soon, probably... more than two months? By then, it will be a complete heart again."
He is still a child after all, his love words are childish and sweet.
He didn't know what he was feeling, but he responded to the sweet words, "Okay, I'm waiting for you to dig out your heart and give it to me."
"Yeah." Ou Shaowen nodded heavily, feeling that he had already made an appointment with him. Now, he just had to wait for Ou Renjin to arrange the time.
After taking a shower, he was so excited that he couldn't sleep when he thought that Ou Renjin was in the room next to his. He sat there thinking until his hair dried naturally. Finally, he went to another door and knocked gently.
As soon as Ou Renjin opened the door, a figure suddenly rushed over. He took several steps back before steadying himself, breathing rapidly, "What happened again?"
"Can I sleep with you?" Ou Shaowen's eyes were sparkling, as if they contained the Milky Way in the sky.
"No." Ou Renjin pulled him off her. His sudden enthusiasm made him a little overwhelmed. "I'm a light sleeper. I'm not used to having people next to me. I'll wake up easily."
"Then can I go find Aunt Zhou and sleep with her?" Ou Shaowen didn't bother to argue and immediately changed his target. "I read a book today. The protagonist slept with someone else every day. I want to try it too. I've never slept with anyone before. Can I go find Aunt Zhou? Is she a light sleeper?"
Ou Renjin: “…”
"Forget it, go over and get your blanket."