Recent situation description
Who can believe that I have only written so few words since I sat down at 2 o'clock in the morning. The plot is obviously very clear, but it is difficult to concentrate. I recently started working on my second script, which is also not going well. Experienced friends suggested that I should not just go for a physical check-up, but see a professional psychiatrist. They think my sleepiness is a sign of anxiety, right
But in my heart, I really want to do everything well. I don’t want Dark Moon to leave the regrets of Shanhai. I once firmly and resolutely told myself to update well.
I told myself, I must be like this, like it!
Sometimes I feel that I am not a person who can look away, just like Shan Hai has not finished the book, and I have been avoiding it for almost three years.
However, I am definitely not a person who gives up on myself.
Faced with a stressful job, I told myself that I must think in a good direction and give myself a plan full of hope and vitality.
Yes, nothing.
As of Dark Moon, I owe 10,000 words, and I will pay it back in a few days.
I don’t read book reviews, and I don’t want to imagine the scoldings of book reviews.
The script and everything else are urgent. But I can also do it, or can I delay it for a while
If you feel that you can't completely relax, and you can't get rid of the dream every time, it is really a very annoying dream. One moment, the code is completed in the dream, and the next moment it is not completed.
Then I will really take a few days of rest and completely relax myself.
I leave myself a bright exit. During the Spring Festival, I will stop updating Dark Moon. From New Year's Eve to New Year's Day! I was not an author at that time, so I imagined that I was an unemployed vagrant.
Sometimes I get upset, why can other authors do it? Am I a scumbag? ! I made a lot of excuses, my book was more difficult, how was I, how was I. In fact, I was a little frustrated.
Because Dark Moon is a book that needs to be handed over to others, the pressure is even more like a mountain.
I am telling you this, not asking for sympathy, nor trying to be miserable.
I just feel that no matter what, everyone reading the book is worthy of my serious explanation, even if I expose my own vulnerability.
Yes, I have to face it.
I also want to explain to everyone that I am not trying to do what I can. But some things happen suddenly and are not planned. I never expected that the script job would suddenly come my way. Should I refuse it? That is impossible. Being able to create my own works by myself is what I have always wanted.
Because I don’t want it to become unrecognizable the day it appears. Even if I want to change it, I have to adapt it myself.
If I hadn't been so insistent, many film and television adaptations would have come out long ago.
I'm just explaining to you that some things have long gone beyond the limits of one's ability. These four words are the obsession in the heart.
Wait a minute, there is another chapter of 2000 words.
At least I am not in debt today. I don’t want the number of words I owe to accumulate more and more. I try my best to find the status.
I have to start exercising to get rid of this lethargy.
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(End of chapter)