This dark ocean is not filled with drops of liquid, but is made up of countless negative emotions, including pain, soreness, numbness, itching, and discomfort. In addition to these physical negative emotions, there are also Various negative emotions, such as fear, depression, anger, and even negativity, will accumulate in it.
Shinji Ikari is looking for that ray of light in this sea of negativity. Yes, there is not even a little bit of light in this darkness. The only light is his own light, that is, a person's consciousness in this negative sea. There is the only light in the ocean, because even the most vicious people still have a little bit of kindness and positivity in their hearts, and this is the light in this dark ocean, although it is very, very, very little, It was very dark, as if it would disappear completely in the next moment, but in this completely dark ocean of negativity without even a little bit of light, this light seemed to be the light coming from heaven.
Shinji Ikari relied on this little residual light to keep diving and searching in this dark ocean. These negative states kept eroding all his perceptions. The external manifestation was that his own light became increasingly dim, and even The entire surface was peeled off, revealing a body that glowed with internal energy but was as red as flesh and blood.
There Asuka, there you are
Shinji Ikari's eyes had never been so determined. Even though he was in so much pain that he just wanted to escape, the sudden burst of courage in his heart made him dive into deeper negativity.
In fact, Shinji Ikari has never heard of what this place is, but he vaguely remembers that Miss Misato seemed to have said that when a person drives an EVA and the synchronization rate is too high, he will sneak into this place. This is the deepest level of life. It is also the place where the at force field is generated, and it is also the so-called sea of life.
If you are knowledgeable, you will definitely know that this is where the light of the soul bursts out. It is the deepest and deepest place of the essence of life. It is a place that is deeper than the subconscious, the deepest consciousness, even instinct, and even the soul. Here There is great terror, there is an existence that is both a god and a demon to life, there is great power, and at the same time there is great destruction. This is an invisible and qualityless place in the darkness, but at the same time, it is also a place where life bursts out of the soul. Where the light is, in this darkness, the light of the most primitive essence of life bursts out, and this is the beginning of transcendence and the beginning of immortality. This is the light of the soul, the light of the soul.
At this moment, Shinji Ikari is bursting with such light, lighting up this dark ocean of negativity, whether he relies on EVA, whether it is the courage in his heart that lights up, or whether it is luck, in short , he relied on this light to dive into the very depths of this dark ocean, where he saw a tiny bit of light that was so weak that it was about to go out, that was Asuka.
Shinji Ikari immediately sneaked in next to Asuka, and saw Asuka hugging her legs and crying there. He immediately shouted while diving: Asuka, Asuka, can you hear my voice
Asuka seemed confused. She raised her head slightly and saw Shinji Ikari trying to sneak up from above. Her eyes slowly widened from the dazed state. Finally, she showed a surprised expression, and then she looked at Shinji Ikari. After sneaking in front of her and reaching out to her, Asuka slapped Shinji Ikari on the face.
Idiot Shinji, big idiot Shinji, why did you come in here? You don’t know where this place is. You won’t be able to change back to your human form.
Asuka slapped Shinji Ikari one after another, but her palms became lighter and lighter, and there were more and more tears on her face. In the end, she could only touch Shinji Ikari's face and cry silently, while she just said the words of idiot Shinji. .
Shinji Ikari was surprised at first, and then he became warm, and the courage in his heart became more and more surging. And inexplicably, he thought to himself that if he came to save Ling Boli, then Ling Boli would probably say that she was not I will leave because I have nowhere to go.
And in front of me is Asuka, Asuka's character, Asuka's words are so good, I found her.
Because of the courage in his heart, because of the sudden excitement, because of the slowly fermenting feelings, because of the unspeakable emotions, I don’t know why, at this moment, Shinji Ikari hugged Asuka, before Asuka could say anything. , he had already spoken: I said I would come to save you, and I will definitely come to save you. No matter what other people think or what other people's plans are, no one can stop me from coming to save you. We have agreed to wait in the future. Let's travel together in peace, I still remember this promise
Asuka was stiff when Shinji Ikari hugged her, and was about to resist, but after hearing Shinji Ikari's words, her heart was immediately filled with an indescribable softness, the kind that was covered in negative emotions, lonely and helpless, There was no light, no hope, and the pain of losing everything was melted away unconsciously, so she hugged Shinji Ikari softly, and for a moment just whispered: You finally came to save me, you finally came to save me. I'm scared, I'm so scared, I'm so scared to stay here alone
Yeah, I know, I'm coming
There are negative emotions everywhere here. It feels so uncomfortable and painful. I can’t feel life. I feel like I am slowly decaying. I don’t know anything anymore.
Yeah, I know, I'm coming
A lot of memories came up. I remembered my childhood, the time when I didn’t fly Unit 2, and many things I didn’t want to think of. They all came out by themselves, and I kept crying.
Yeah, I know, I'm coming
Idiot Shinji, help me, I'm so scared alone
Well, that's for sure
When Shinji Ikari listened to Asuka's unprecedented weak words, the courage in his heart became more and more surging, as if it was about to turn into reality. He roared loudly under this emotion and hugged her harder. He grabbed Asuka, and then began to float to the surface of the sea crazily. It was just that it was easy to dive but difficult to float. When he floated, the negative seawater around him seemed to come alive, squeezing him and entangled him. This was I want to keep both him and Asuka here.
The only thing that can fight against these black negative emotions is the light on two people. But at this moment, the light on them is very dim. Asuka's light is about to go out. The light on Ikari Shinji is slightly better, but it is also dim enough that it will disappear at any time. As if extinguished, the two embraced each other and struggled upward in this dark ocean, but the light was about to extinguish, and they became increasingly unable to break free from this negative ocean.
Idiot Shinji, you will always stay here, you idiot
I do not regret.
Shinji Ikari suddenly smiled, looked at Asuka and said seriously: "Uncle Roger taught me one thing, that is, courage. If you don't have the courage to face all this, the result will definitely be sad. I have never done it before." I understand, no, I understand, it’s just because I’m afraid of being hurt and don’t have the courage to bear all this, so I’m escaping every time, escaping from difficulties, escaping from you. But I want hope and a better tomorrow, whether it’s you or Okay, Miss Misato, Ling Boli, or my father, I want you all to be happy, and I also want to be happy, so I must have the courage, just like Uncle Roger told me, waiting for others. Giving alms and waiting for others to change, is the result really what I want
I tell my heart like this, I must have the courage to face everything, I must have the courage to overcome everything, I
Have courage no matter what you face
Just when Shinji Ikari said these words, from his gradually dimming body, a ball of light slowly rose up like a small flame, burning a little bit of light from his chest. This light was so It was weak, as if a negative wave could extinguish it, but just such a tiny bit of light blocked the countless negativity and surrounded the two people, with a warm, inner light. The fire from within, the courage from within, this is
In an instant, the light surged, violent and vast, as if it had turned into a star, turned into an infinite amount of light, illuminated this dark ocean, and steamed up this endless dark ocean. Ikari Shinji and Asuka rises in this light and gradually goes upwards.
This is the flame that bursts out from the deepest darkness of the heart. This is the light that bursts out from the most hidden place in the soul. This is courage, faith, and persistence. It is a person’s deepest understanding of his own nature. This is
light of soul