What is it like to hug someone of the opposite sex for the first time.
It's a little uncomfortable feeling.
Lin Yu squatted in front of Shen Juan, he raised his hand to grab her, she straightened forward, her whole body was leaning on him, she could barely keep her balance, to be honest, it was not particularly comfortable.
But this person still doesn't let her move.
Shen Juan didn't let her go until Lin Yu felt that her legs seemed to be cramping.
Lin Yujing hesitated for a moment, then said, "Shen Juan."
Shen Juan buried his head in her neck and shook it slightly.
Lin Yu went numb in shock.
Did you rub it just now
Did you rub it
Yes or no!
Lin Yu was startled and felt that he couldn't hold on any longer, so he cleared his throat, "Have you hugged me well?"
Shen Yu laughed sullenly: "I thought you didn't ask all this time."
"... Will I keep hugging you without asking?"
"Well," Shen Juan let go of her, raised his head, and leaned back, "You keep hugging me like this without asking." Shen Juan paused: "After all, there is only one chance."
Lin Yujing didn't know what to say, her feet were already numb, and she sat down on the floor.
Shen Juan raised his hand and pulled a pillow from the sofa and threw it over: "It's cold on the floor."
She took it, put it under her buttocks, bent her legs, and gently rubbed her ankles.
Shen Juan noticed her small movements: "What's wrong?"
"Your posture just now was really creative." Lin Yu rolled his eyes in shock, "My feet are numb."
Shen Juan froze for a moment, then collapsed there and laughed: "Shall I rub it for you?"
Lin Yu shrank his feet in shock, and quickly refused: "You rest, I will take it easy."
"Then take it easy," Shen Juan scratched his hair, his body smelled of alcohol and tobacco, which was not particularly pleasant, he bent his long legs and stood up with his hands on the floor, "I'm going to take a shower, wait I."
"..."
It may be because their relationship at the same table is not so pure anymore, which caused Lin Yujing to be dreamy for a moment with this line.
Shen Juan got up and went into the bedroom. A few minutes later, there was a faint sound of water splashing inside.
In the autumn night, the cold wind blows in, and the smoke in the room is about the same. Lin Yujing waited for a while, and the numbness in her feet subsided. The door, close the door.
After the garbage was thrown away, there was still a pile of things scattered on the sofa. She sighed and bent over to tidy up.
While tidying up, I couldn't help but start to praise myself.
Lin Yu was shocked, you are so virtuous.
Shen Juan must have saved the universe in his previous life, and unexpectedly met you as a nice... tablemate.
She piled up the undrinked wine, turned her head and saw a thin photo album spread beside her.
Lin Yu paused in shock, his gaze fell on the page he just opened.
Shen Juan doesn't look like the kind of person who likes to take pictures to recall the past, and this album probably doesn't belong to him either. There are two photos on the opened page, one is a group photo of a bunch of children, probably about an autumn outing, each The children all wore a small yellow straw hat on their heads, and the teacher in the last row held a sign—Class Two, Grade One.
Lin Yu was shocked to see the little Shen Juan back then, the cutest one, this little boy was standing at the far end of the first row with a small slingshot in his hand, unexpectedly short.
The photo below is a group photo of two people. Shen Juan is still wearing the same outfit as Qiu You, wearing a yellow hat. There is a man squatting next to him, looking handsome and gentle.
In the corner of the photo, there was a line written in the sky: Ah Juan's first autumn outing.
Six-year-old Xiao Shen Juan still had baby fat on his face, and his eyes were pitch black. The shape of his eyes was different from now, round and round, but the ends of his eyes were always protruding.
He pursed his red lips, his face was expressionless and world-weary, and "so boring" was written all over his immature face.
Lin Yu was stunned for a moment, and suddenly realized.
At this time, Shen Juan was in the first grade of elementary school and was six years old.
She calculated quickly in her head, and the photos had the date, month, and date. She just glanced at it casually, and calculated it naturally, and she didn't realize it much.
She still remembered that Shen Juan called her a little girl before, and told her that she was two years older than her.
Lin Yujing thought it was because he started elementary school at the age of seven, a year later than her, so he was just two years older, but it turned out not, he also started school at the age of six.
Then where did he go in the year he was vacant
Ten minutes later, Shen Juan came out of the bedroom. He changed into a suit of clothes, his hair was half dry, and a towel was still on his head.
The lights in the room were all on, and there was plenty of light. Lin Yujing sat cross-legged on the sofa, staring at him.
Shen Juan was a little hairy from being stared at, and the hand holding the towel and rubbing his head paused: "What's wrong?"
Lin Yu said in surprise, "You are really a mysterious classmate Shen."
Shen Juan: "..."
The mysterious classmate Shen was a little dazed, didn't speak, walked over and pulled a chair to sit down.
Lin Yujing had tidied up the house, the wine bottles were lined up by the wall, the ashtray was clean, and the sofa cushions were neatly placed on the sofa.
Shen Juan's gaze fell on the photo album on the coffee table, and he paused for a moment.
Lin Yujing originally brought wine here, but she was mainly afraid that she would not be able to ask questions, or that the atmosphere would be embarrassing, asking for other people's secrets, etc. thing.
But Shen Juan, Bai Yueguang, she really couldn't let go.
It's not because the person he likes can't wake up to speak, Lin Yujing doesn't care about it, it's mainly because of the last person he liked.
One of the two sat on the sofa and the other sat on a chair, and they were silent for a while without speaking.
Lin Yujing dragged the bag of snacks he bought over: "Have you had dinner yet?"
Shen Juan put the wet towel on the chair and fiddled with his half-dry hair: "Eat."
He didn't look abnormal, he had returned to his usual laid-back and indifferent Laozi Wudi, and he didn't even look like he was begging for a hug ten minutes ago. Lin Yujing didn't know if he was going to praise him for his recovery ability.
She looked up and glanced at the bright overhead light: "Then do you want to turn off the light? Let's turn on the floor light and make it darker."
Shen Juan fiddled with her hair for a while, inserted her fingers into her hair, raised her eyelids to look at her, and suddenly pursed her lips: "What are you doing with the lights off? I'm not drunk, and I'm not that kind of person."
Lin Yu was startled: "..."
"However, if you are very willing, I can also cooperate." Shen Juan said.
"Shen Juan, I'm reminding you for the hundredth time, be a human being," Lin Yujing said, "I just want to create a storytelling atmosphere."
Shen Juan lowered his head and smiled, stood up, walked to the door, and turned off the overhead light with a "snap".
The room fell into darkness for an instant, and Lin Yu was startled to see him walking in a dark figure, walking to the sofa, and then to her.
Then propping the back of the sofa with one hand, leaning over, bowing his head, and approaching.
Lin Yujing: ...
She was sitting on the sofa, and he was standing in front of her, with his arm passing through her ear and leaning against the sofa, the distance was very close, the half-wet hair was swept over, and his body smelled like he had just bathed.
Lin Yu panicked and asked a very embarrassing question: "What are you going to do?"
don't come here! !
Come here again and I will call you! !
After she finished speaking, she almost bit off her tongue, feeling that she was two hundred and five cents.
Shen Juan suppressed his voice, his breath wrapped in thin strands, he tilted his head, the tip of his nose brushed her face sideways: "I want..."
In the darkness, all senses of touch and hearing became more sensitive, and Lin Yu was startled to feel that his other hand stretched out from his waist, leaning down against the back of the sofa, making the soft sound of fabric rubbing against each other.
Under the influence of alcohol, he could feel the temperature of his palm slightly higher than usual.
I
day
Am I still underestimating how brutish you are...
Lin Yu was as startled as if struck by lightning, his whole body went stiff.
Just when Lin Yu felt that he was going to overthrow this person in the next second, Shen Juan pulled out his hand, brushed her knuckles and pulled something out from behind her. At the same time, the dim light of the ground lamp lights up.
Shen Juan straightened up, holding a small remote control in his hand, looked down at her, and raised his eyebrows: "Take a remote control."
Lin Yu was startled: "..."
"What do you think I'm going to do?" He sat back in his chair and laughed, "My ears are red again."
"..."
Lin Yujing didn't know if other hooligans also had his kind of skills, and she had to show off with a remote control, as if she wanted to do something, because she had never come into contact with this level of hooligans except The second other than him.
All kinds of shows were overshadowed by Shen Juan.
Xueba's skills are too comprehensive.
Shen Juan put it away when he was done, leaned back in the chair, stretched his long legs forward, and rested his arms on the armrest: "What do you want to hear."
He suddenly got to the point, and Lin Yu paused in shock: "Ah, I don't know where to start..."
She didn't know if it would be too sensitive to ask directly, but it seems that there are no indirect and sensitive questions in front of her.
Lin Yu was startled, and asked directly: "Your Bai Yueguang, no, the last person you liked was a man or a woman?"
"Man," Shen Juan looked at her with strange eyes, "it's not what you think."
Lin Yujing felt guilty for a moment: "What did I think...".
"It's my uncle." Shen Juan said.
Lin Yu was stunned for a moment, remembering Ning Yuan's words: "Because..." She couldn't speak.
"Well," Shen Juan knew what she wanted to ask, and was silent for a few seconds, "Because of me."
"When I was young, my parents were busy with work. When my uncle came back from Hong Kong when I was six years old, I was brought up by him. This studio," he tapped the armrest lightly with his fingertips, "is his."
"He taught me how to draw," he raised his eyes. "The first picture you asked me about was the first picture I drew when I was young."
"I actually think you draw pretty well, a bit like that, Doraemon." Lin Yujing said hastily.
Shen Juan smiled, and played with the remote control with his fingers: "My uncle is a good man. At that time, there was a child next door who was beaten by his father every day. He often came here. He helped him deal with his injuries and taught him tattoos and so on. , accepted him as an apprentice, the kid’s family has no money, so my uncle subsidized him to study.”
"That child's name is Nie Xinghe, the one you saw on the street before."
"I don't remember how old I was at that time. Anyway, since then, he will go to whichever school I go to. The two of us have always been in the same class, going to school together, and going back to the studio together after school."
"But at that time, I didn't like him very much. I was young and couldn't explain why, but I didn't hate him because my uncle liked him. Their names are very similar, they both have the word for river, and their pronunciation is also similar. "
"My uncle doesn't have a girlfriend. He doesn't plan to fall in love, marry and have children. He wants to hand over the studio to me in the future, but I... At that time, the shooting team of the sports school went to our junior high school to select candidates, so I agreed to go. .”
Shen Juan turned his head sideways, and his eyes fell on the black dart board hanging on the wall: "I have been interested in this kind of things since I was a child, and I have a little talent."
Lin Yujing remained silent, thinking that he was being modest in calling this a little talent.
"He shouldn't be very happy, but he didn't say anything. He said that I can do whatever I want. I have been in the sports school for a year, and I have to live in it. I don't come back very often. He just stays with Nie Xinghe every day."
"Then it became more and more wrong. Nie Xinghe is just a lunatic."
"He was abused by his father since he was a child, and his heart is not normal anymore. He hides it very well."
"But this kind of abnormality is contagious. He is abnormal himself, and he doesn't want to make others feel good. I left, he has no worries, he can have no scruples."
Lin Yu was startled and felt a little chilly, and suddenly she didn't want to listen anymore.
Don't want to, or dare not.
"When I came back, I realized that something was wrong with my uncle. He became anxious and world-weary. I found out later that when he was in Hong Kong, he had a history of depression and had seen a psychiatrist for a while."
At that time, Shen Juan hardly thought about it. For such a gentle and delicate person, his nerves are also delicate and fragile.
"What I don't know, but Nie Xinghe knows. He has drawn out all his extreme sides. I don't know anything. I thought he was... to accompany him instead of me."
"My mother later helped my uncle find a psychiatrist, and he went to see him several times."
"Later, I don't know what Nie Xinghe told him. He refused to go again unless I came back."
"He wanted me to come back and be here with him. He didn't want me to go back to the sports school, so I coaxed him to see a doctor while training. I persisted on and off for a year, and the provincial team coach came to me."
"I..." Shen Juan closed his eyes, "I can't refuse."
"We kept it from him all the time, but he still knew it. He didn't agree. He felt that I was lying to him before. I betrayed him. He probably regarded me as...a hope or a continuation of a dream."
"He came to me the day before I entered the provincial team and wanted to take me back, but I refused." Shen Juan lowered his eyes, "After he went back, he committed suicide."
Lin Yu's mind went blank for a few seconds, and the chill ran up his spine: "What...?"
"He committed suicide," Shen Juan repeated flatly, "In this way, I won't be able to leave. I have to stay here for the rest of my life."
"Shen Juan..." Lin Yu was shocked to hear his voice trembling, and he didn't know if it was because of what he said, or the calm to quiet tone when he said this.
"He didn't die, he's just lying like this now," Shen Juan continued, "I came back to study again and entered No. 8 Middle School. After a long time, I realized what kind of role Nie Xinghe played in this process." , He was very proud, he couldn't hide it anymore."
Nie Xinghe has all the qualities that make people believe him, he is weak and gentle, shy and harmless.
Shen Juan found him later and asked him why.
Nie Xinghe said he was jealous.
In order to satisfy Luo Qinghe, he tried his best to do everything well. He was born in a deformed family, and Luo Qinghe was the first person who made him feel warm.
He took care of Luo Qinghe's illness, he was happy and sad, and he was the first to notice it.
He poured all his love for his father and his family into Luo Qinghe. He even felt that Luo Qinghe was his father, and they should be the closest people in the world.
But what Luo Qinghe thought about was always Shen Juan, he left all he had for Shen Juan, even if Shen Juan didn't show up in the next few months, even if Shen Juan didn't want this studio at all, Luo Qinghe still wanted to leave it to him.
"Obviously I was standing next to him, he couldn't see me, he betrayed me, he was nice to me, and then he didn't want me."
"I also want him to taste what it's like to be betrayed by his most beloved nephew. It doesn't matter if he can't wake up now. I will always take care of him. He will finally lose sight of you."
In the dark and long alley, the thin young man was pushed against the wall by him, and said softly with a smile, "Shen Juan, you won't regret it later, all this is caused by you, and it's all because of you."
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