It has been a long time since then, every time Lin Yujing thinks of her high school career and Shen Juan, she will think of this day uncontrollably.
In winter, the coolness pours in through the window and the door, the air conditioner is not turned on, and the house is cold.
Shen Juan's fingers and lips were cold, touching the skin made people want to shiver, and the other hand pinched the back of her neck as if to comfort her.
Lin Yujing was surrounded by tenderness.
With her eyes closed, she quickly adjusted her emotions, feeling his fingers, his breath, his smell, mixed with disinfectant and tobacco, there was a sense of chaotic cleanliness.
She opened her eyes, Shen Juan was looking at her, she leaned back a little distance, moved her hands from the back of her neck, and rubbed her hair.
He was not in good condition, his eyes were slightly black and blue, his eyelids were slightly drooping, and he was a little tired.
She just didn't pay attention.
Lin Yu raised his hand in surprise, and wiped his eyes with the back of his hand. It only took a few minutes, and the bewildered, almost desperate state just now was under control.
She cleared her hoarse voice, hesitated for a moment, and asked, "Did you go to the hospital? Uncle still..."
She stopped in the middle of speaking.
Shen Juan raised his hand and touched the corners of her eyes that were still a little red: "It's not good, I didn't think it could be worse. He has been lying down for a long time, and his immunity is lower than normal. The body itself is not doing well, the lungs are infected and the heart is starting to fail."
Lin Yu sat there stiffly in shock, opened his mouth and couldn't speak, his lips turned white, he didn't know what to say.
Shen Juan continued: "I met Nie Xinghe."
The hairs on the back of Lin Yu's neck exploded in shock. The existence of Nie Xinghe completely exceeded the maximum range she could accept. Even hearing this name made her feel cold all over.
"Is he planning to do bad things again? Did he tell you anything?" She grabbed his hand nervously, "Don't listen to what he says, don't be affected."
"I won't be so easily influenced by anyone, don't worry about it," Shen Juan rubbed his forehead with one hand, his fingers slid down her soft hair, wrapped around the ends of her hair, pulled a strand over, and wrapped it around Wrapped around the fingertips, "I'm telling you this because I want you to know that I can tell you anything."
Lin Yu was stunned.
Shen Juan lowered his eyes, and his voice was a little tired and hoarse: "You too, as long as you tell me about things that make you happy or unhappy, I will listen."
Lin Yu was shocked and did not speak.
It was impossible for her to tell Shen Juan.
Lin Yujing has been like this since she was a child. She is not good at talking, and she has already gotten used to it.
And after Shen Juan told her these things, she couldn't speak anymore.
He also has a lot of things of his own. Uncle's and Nie Xinghe's things weighed down on him one by one. She didn't want him, plus her. Her own things had to be handled by herself, and there was no reason to leave them to him.
What's more, the conflicts and problems between her and Lin Zhi were not just because of Shen Yu.
He's got his stuff, and she's got it, like a little scaled table, each of which, at least so far, takes precedence over "their relationship."
No one can abandon life itself and live as he pleases.
At least not now.
Lin Yu took a deep breath and stood up, "I'm leaving."
Shen Juan didn't speak, just looked at her with dark eyes.
Lin Yu pursed his lips in surprise, and said in a low voice, "Go to bed early, you have to go to bed after I leave, don't stay up late."
Shen Juan still didn't speak, he found the cigarette case from the coffee table, knocked out one, and bit it in his mouth.
The black eyelashes were pressed down, unable to see clearly the emotion.
Lin Yu gasped in surprise, turned around and walked out.
Shen Juan raised his head, watched her walk to the door, opened the door, gritted his teeth, grinded the cigarette twice, took it out again, and threw it aside.
Shen Juan was so angry that he burst out laughing.
He felt that he had exhausted all his patience in this life, and penetrated into her world bit by bit, but he still couldn't crack her shell.
Every time, when he thought he had succeeded, she would shrink back.
"Lin Yu was startled." He raised his eyes, leaned back and leaned on the armrest of the sofa, "Are you going to just push me away for the rest of your life?"
Lin Yu paused in shock, turned around, looked at him, and suddenly called out to him, "Shen Juan."
"I might be going home."
Shen Juan narrowed his eyes.
"I'm going home." Lin Yujing repeated.
Shen Juan finally realized something, raised his fingers subconsciously, sat up straight, and stared at her deeply: "What do you mean?"
"It means that you may have to change your tablemate, talk about a long-distance relationship, talk about graduation," Lin Yujing tried to make her voice sound lighter, "Actually, it hasn't been long, at most a year... half ?”
Shen Juan understood.
Her abnormality at the school gate before, what happened today, and what she wanted to say.
In fact, he should have noticed it long ago.
Shen Juan closed his eyes: "I don't agree."
Lin Yujing said softly, "Boyfriend, there are some things that you can't decide, and I can't either, so just pretend that I used up the opportunity you gave me in advance."
"I'm not very brave. I often want to escape. I don't know if I will run away one day."
Lin Yu paused in shock, and continued, "But I remember what you said."
Shen Juan looked at her with muddy eyes and a hoarse voice: "What are you talking about?"
"You can allow me to leave for a while, but you will pull me back," she blinked, fighting back tears, "You can't abandon me, you won't let go."
No one was there when Lin Yujing went back, Meng Weiguo and Guan Xiangmei were not there, Fu Mingxiu went back to school in the afternoon, she went upstairs and sat on the bed, her eyes were empty.
From the moment she saw Shen Juan, all of Lin Yujing's lost sanity began to return, and she slowly calmed down.
She knows Lin Zhi's strength and stubbornness better than anyone else.
She can't be tougher than her.
Helping her with a transfer, custody, and taking her away, this kind of thing is easy for her.
What can a sixteen-year-old girl do? Hysterical resistance? Hunger strike? Play truant and run away from home
There is no way.
In fact, calm down and think about it, things are not so bad.
She is now a sophomore in high school and transferred to another school. She spent the second semester of her sophomore year and passed her third year of high school.
It will only take a year and a half at most.
Lin Yujing can't provoke Lin Zhi right now. Lin Zhi's objection now is only because she is young. What she asks is that she must have no distractions now. No matter what, as long as it is something that may delay her grades, she will Prevent.
But once the quarrel with Lin Zhi continues, not only will there be no results, will Lin Zhi start to oppose Shen Juan
Don't be impulsive.
Now she has to give in temporarily.
It's only been a year and a half, it's not a big deal, they have mobile phones, they can video, and they can also meet on weekends and winter and summer vacations.
These are not problems. The reason why Lin Yujing resisted so much was because she felt uneasy.
A year and a half, whether it is long or short, is simply too long for her.
She didn't have the confidence to maintain such a fragile connection across a distance. She didn't know if Shen Juan could persist, and she didn't even know what she would be like in a year and a half.
Lin Yujing closed his eyes and picked up the phone from the bed. After searching aimlessly for a long time, he found Lin Zhi's phone number.
She dialed, Lin Zhi answered quickly, her side was quiet, there was no sound.
"I've made up my mind," Lin Yujing said softly, "I don't want to live with my dad either, so I'll go back with you."
Lin Zhi sounded a little surprised: "I didn't expect you to figure it out so quickly."
"Do I have a choice?" Lin Yujing asked calmly.
Lin Zhi was silent for a while, and said in a low voice: "Xiaoyu, you may blame me or hate me now. I admit that as a mother these years, I have not fulfilled my due responsibilities, but I am your mother after all. , I can't sit idly by."
"I was young too, and many things will fade away. What you think is vigorous now, you will find out after a long time. There is nothing you can't forget. When you meet a better boy in the future, you will find that you are young. How naive is the insistence of time."
Lin Yu lay flat on the bed in shock, and was quiet for a moment.
"Well," she said, "I see."
Lin Yu was surprised that Lin Zhi's speed was so fast, as if she was afraid that she would go back on her word.
She quickly explained the purpose of her visit to Meng Weiguo. At first Meng Weiguo put on airs and had a big fight with her, but of course he didn't refuse in the end, so the matter was settled like this.
Lin Yujing was like a rubber ball being kicked over and over again.
When thinking of this metaphor, she even wanted to laugh a little, and she didn't even have the desire to be sad.
I can't even cry anymore.
The procedures for the custody rights did not come down so quickly. Lin Zhi first helped her go to the school to go through a series of procedures for transferring.
And during the whole process, Lin Yujing didn't show up.
Lin Zhi had a house in City A. Lin Zhi moved all her belongings there, the door was locked, her cell phone was confiscated, and she was locked at home for two days in isolation.
Lin Yu was shocked, and the next night, while Lin Zhi was taking a shower, she secretly found her cell phone from the closet in her bedroom.
There is no Internet at home, and the SIM card has been removed, but the contents of the phone are still there.
Lin Yujing first opened up the chat history with Shen Juan. The two of them actually didn't chat much. They usually stay together all day at school, and they each have things to do on weekends. They are not the kind of people who are too clingy to each other. Talk a few words before going to bed.
Lin Yujing quickly ran back into the room, took out the Polaroid, took pictures of their chat records one by one, and then opened the photo album.
There are not many photos of her, and the recent ones are all about eating.
Scrolling up, it was the day she and Shen Juan were called into the office by Liu Fujiang.
In the photo, the teenager is standing in the corridor, wearing a white school uniform jacket, the zipper has not been pulled, and he is a little sloppy, with a sky blue cartoon bear band-aid on his chin, his eyelids are lazily drooping, his expression is dazed and sleepy, and his head is tilted slightly looking at the screen.
The pupils are pitch black, the corners of the eyes are slightly raised, and even the drooping curve of the eyelashes is beautiful.
Lin Yu finally collapsed in shock when she saw this photo.
She was squatting on the ground with her mobile phone in her hand, her eye circles were little by little red.
On the third day, Lin Yujing convinced Lin Zhi that she could go to No. 8 Middle School to organize her things by herself.
Lin Zhi sent her to the school gate and got out of the car. Lin Yujing had no time to think about anything else. She rushed all the way from the school gate into the teaching building, and couldn't wait to run up to the fourth floor in three steps at a time, and ran to the end of the corridor. .
want to see him.
Got to see him one last time.
The door of the classroom was open, and there were few people talking and chatting inside, and a quiz on physics was in progress.
Lin Yu was startled standing by the doorway wall, suddenly a little afraid.
She took a deep breath, took two steps forward, walked into the classroom, and knocked on the door lightly.
Wang Dinosaur turned his head, looked at her, and nodded: "Go."
Lin Yu turned around in surprise, and looked towards his seat.
Shen Juan's place was empty, it was still the same as when he left on Friday, with two books and a pen on it.
Lin Yu was startled to think of him at that time, grabbed two papers, folded them casually and stuffed them into his schoolbag, looked at her with the corners of his lips curled up, smiled a little, and asked her in a low voice, "Go home together?"
It was obviously very recent, and it happened just a few days ago, why is it suddenly different.
Lin Yu sniffed in surprise, bit his lips, tried his best to control the desire to cry, walked to his seat, and slowly sorted out his books one by one.
She turned out the previous book, which he had sandwiched in the dormitory application receipt.
Lin Yu put the book on Shen Juan's desk in surprise, and then secretly took his copy.
She turned to the first page, and there were two big words on it - Shen Juan.
She still remembers how Shen Juan was when he wrote the name, sitting lazily and reclining against the wall, writing on the paper with a pen in his hand, the writing posture was not standard, the thumb's pulp would lightly clasp the index finger fingertip.
Lin Yujing stuffed his book into her schoolbag, and found a lollipop that she had forgotten was hidden in the corner at the back of the table.
In order to coax Xu Ruyi, she bought a lot and stuffed them all in. When she was free, she ate one by herself, thinking she had eaten it all.
In the end, I don't know why, but it turned out that one fell.
White sticks, sugar balls wrapped in cellophane, pink and tender in color.
Peach flavor.
She thought that there was no peach flavor.
She remembered that she only picked one of each, and she gave the peach-flavored one to Shen Juan.
Lin Yu blinked in surprise, tears suddenly followed, and "slapped" on the table.
She held the lollipop and placed it on Shen Juan's table.
The classroom was quiet. In the morning of early winter, the sunlight was thin and bright, and the temperature could hardly be felt when it shone on people.
It was September when she came.
Summer is long in the south, and Lin Yujing stepped on the tail of summer and came to this strange city. Amidst the restlessness and panic, he met a young man under the scorching sun.
A proud boy who is lazy, flamboyant and gentle.
When he sees a child running on the road, he will subconsciously bend slightly and raise his hand, and protect him naturally, gently and delicately.
He would also stand in the brightly lit basketball hall and say to her, "Jianye is omnipotent" with a smile, full of rebelliousness.
He is always shining, always invincible.
He has the most steadfast soul.
When Lin Zhi told Lin Yujing that she would meet someone better in the future, Lin Yujing didn't refute.
In fact, she knew what she was thinking, and so did Lin Zhi.
In just a few months, Shen Juan made her feel that she had encountered the best scenery in her life.
She will never meet such a person again.
There will be no better than him.