Shen Juan's obsession with his book was so deep that Lin Yujing never expected it.
But after thinking about it, it’s not incomprehensible. After all, this person is so lazy that he doesn’t even want to write two more characters on the big test papers, but he is willing to sign his name on every book of his. A kind of "belongs to me" thing, I will pay special attention to it.
But that didn't stop her from being angry.
Lin Yu was overwhelmed with shock, and didn't want to talk to him anymore, turned over and covered himself with the quilt to get ready to sleep.
She hasn't slept well in the past few days, the wound is bouncing and hurting without taking painkillers, she can't sleep, so Shen Juan just stays with her, squeezes her hands, pats her, and helps her to distract force.
Now the little girl was sleeping soundly, and the smile on Shen Juan's face faded.
He leaned back in the chair and looked at her quietly.
Thick eyelashes covered down, lips were pursed, and brows were slightly frowned.
Shen Juan raised his hand, and his fingertips landed on the center of her frowning brows, rubbing gently from top to bottom. He sighed lowly, lowered his head and kissed her fluffy eyes: "Fool."
Lin Yu was startled by this little girl, she usually looks very thoughtful, sometimes she is really stupid.
How could he not want to go to her.
Every day I go crazy trying to find her.
When Luo Qinghe left, after Shen Juan returned from abroad, for a long time, he didn't know what he was doing.
I've lived for almost twenty years, I haven't insisted on anything, I haven't been able to hold on to anything, I haven't succeeded in protecting anyone, and I finally met someone I like, but I was also lost by him.
I have never seen such a failure in life.
After being so dazed for an unknown amount of time, he went to Huaicheng.
It is not difficult to know where Lin Yujing went. Huaicheng No. 1 Middle School has a fully enclosed management model. Shen Juan leaned against the outer wall of No. 1 Middle School that day, squatting by the wall and smoking a pack of cigarettes.
The bell rang for the end of get out of class, and gradually there were voices of students talking behind the high wall.
Shen Juan was wondering if one of these voices belonged to her, among the thousands of voices, the voice was soft and unhurried.
Did she have a new deskmate, would they chat after class, would she coax others coquettishly when she wanted something from him, and impatiently turn her face cold without saying a word.
She has always been impatient, and she wonders if she can persist until after the college entrance examination.
Can you still remember him
Shen Juan felt like a psychopath, knowing that he would never see her, but still separated from her by a wall, thinking about every detail of her new life without him.
The class bell rang, and the noise on the other side of the wall returned to silence. Shen Juan took the last puff of his cigarette, extinguished it, and stood up.
Wait a little longer.
There is nothing to wait for, he has patience and time, she said she will come back, so he believed her.
She went to him by herself, and he tied her back, the meanings of the two are completely different.
Anyway, he couldn't run away, Chuang even broke in, wherever Lord Juan's territory is, he can leave whenever he wants.
He couldn't even tell Lin Yujing these words.
Shen Juan was somewhat machismo, he didn't want Lin Yujing to think that he was weak and hypocritical. He is a man, he can say some things, and some things must be kept in his heart.
The injury on Lin Yujing's leg was not serious enough to hurt the muscles and bones, and the stitches could be removed after more than ten days for skin trauma. It is impossible to leave no scars, but her skin is naturally closed, and the recovery is very good, and the doctor also said that it will not be obvious after being well nourished and combined with the anti-scar ointment.
It's just that the position is relatively difficult, and it is easy to pull when moving or walking.
But it was too late for her birthday, and in the end her eighteenth birthday was spent in the hospital.
On the day he was discharged from the hospital, Shen Juan saw Yan Heng again.
Gu Xia was inside helping Lin Yujing pack his things, Shen Juan stood outside the door of the ward, waited for a while, and Yan Heng came out.
Shen Juan straightened up and looked at him.
Yan Heng smiled: "I know you're waiting for me, want to chat?"
Shen Juan didn't speak.
Yan Heng tilted his head slightly. He is in his forties and is in excellent condition. There are almost no traces of age, and his temperament is mature and gentle.
He thought for a while and asked, "Has Lin Yujing told you about her previous situation?"
Shen Juan paused, his eyes darkened: "No."
"Then I also want to protect my patient's privacy," Yan Heng said patiently, "Since she didn't tell you, I'm afraid I can't tell you anything either."
Although there had been speculations before, Shen Juan was still a little stiff when he heard Yan Heng admit it himself and heard the words "my patient".
Yan Heng kept looking at him with gentle and sharp eyes, and after a while, he sighed.
"These are the answers I can give you as his psychiatrist, but I also have selfish intentions, I like that child very much," Yan Heng said gently, "As her elder and friend, there are some things I still want you to know .”
Shen Juan didn't speak.
After a long time, he said "hmm", his voice was a little hoarse: "Say."
"After Lin Yujing went to Huaicheng for a while, he started to experience mild depression."
Shen Juan retracted his fingers subconsciously, pinching his fingertips into his palm.
"Her mother took her to find me at that time, because she found out in a timely manner. She herself understood her situation very well and was more cooperative. She took the medicine for a period of time and adjusted for another year. Basically, it has no effect now."
"Actually, you should have discovered that sometimes she thinks about things from a negative perspective and habitually avoids them. This kind of problem is not caused by a day or two. Many of her previous thoughts, including love and family affection, were very negative. She is very stubborn, and you can't break her misunderstanding of many things she believes in."
Yan Heng looked at him: "So when I knew you existed and that she wanted to change for you, to correct some of my paranoid thoughts, I was very curious about what kind of person you are."
…
Yan Heng talked a lot, and he spoke at a moderate pace, as if he was telling a story.
Shen Juan leaned against the wall and listened carefully to the details and process of what he said, almost masochistically, every word was like a knife stabbed in his heart.
He suddenly remembered Lin Yujing's dazed reaction when he mentioned what Nie Xinghe said in the ward.
She never thought that Shen Juan would take the initiative to find her.
She has been carrying it alone for so many years, and she has long been used to not relying on anyone to do things. She will not ask for help, will not rely on, and will not pin her hopes on others. In Lin Yujing's world, there is no "who Will sacrifice something for her" This possibility.
So she didn't complain, doubt, or even consider whether Shen Juan would go to her.
Because no one treated her well, she couldn't imagine what it would be like if someone treated her wholeheartedly.
When he was abroad, Lin Yujing called him. When the call didn't go through, she must have felt so uneasy, so timid, and wanted to escape, give up and shrink back.
But she came anyway.
Take the initiative to find him, approach him, apologize to him, and coax him to reconcile.
At that time, she might not even be sure in her heart whether he still liked her.
When thinking of this, Shen Juan felt that the last bit of blood in his body had been drained.
He was angry with her at that time, he was pressed by a lot of things, he was aggrieved by waiting, he was angry, he was wronged, but he never thought what Lin Yujing had overcome in the past year to get here, this is because of him It seemed an extremely simple process, but how much determination did she need to make.
His little whale, so hard, swam back to him desperately.
After Yan Heng finished speaking, he glanced at him and said nothing more.
There are all VIP wards here, and there is no one in the corridor, so it is quiet.
In the silence, Shen Juan leaned against the wall, raised his head slightly, and closed his eyes.
Lin Yujing didn't go back to school after he was discharged from the hospital. In the dormitory, there were beds and tables, and it was not very convenient to get up and down. Shen Juan found an apartment complex near the school.
The location of University A is good, and there are no cheap apartment buildings. Boss Shen probably picked the best one. Shen Juan drove the car, and the car slid in. Lin Yujing saw that the greening design was no better than that of Fu's house. How much difference is there in the villa area, it is estimated that a light art festival can be held when the lights are turned on at night.
The car parked in the parking lot, and Shen Juan wanted to hug her, but Lin Yujing refused, and after just a few steps, she wasn't disabled anymore.
Lin Yu got out of the car slowly in shock, watching him take out things from the car, and the two of them got into the elevator, she couldn't help but glance at Shen Juan.
There was something wrong with this man's silence, Lin Yujing couldn't describe that feeling, it was something wrong anyway.
The elevator door opened, and there were two households on the first floor. The entrance door opened behind the elevator. It was designed with a strong sense of privacy. Lin Yujing followed Shen Juan to the household on the left, watched him swipe his fingerprints, and then pressed the password.
It's her birthday.
Lin Yu blinked in surprise, walked in, Shen Juan followed behind her, and closed the door behind her.
She is a person who pays great attention to her personal image, and she has to dress beautifully even when she is discharged from the hospital. She specially asked Gu Xia to take a pair of small leather boots from the D family that she bought recently from the dormitory. Undoing the laces helped her take off her shoes, and then put on her slippers.
So far, it's pretty normal.
Lin Yujing changed her shoes and entered the room, looked around, and before she could see what the layout of the house was, she just turned around when she felt Shen Juan pulling her back, bowing her head and kissing her.
Lin Yu was shocked and didn't even react.
His movement was sudden. She thought he would kiss fiercely, but it didn't. Shen Juan licked her tenderly, entangled little by little. It was clearly just a kiss, but the delicate and slow movements made Lin Yu inexplicably surprised. Some shame.
Lin Yu shrank back with his ears reddened in shock, pushed him away a little distance, and raised his head.
Looking into his eyes, Lin Yu was stunned, raised his hand and tugged at his sleeve: "What's wrong with you..."
Shen Juan covered her eyes and silently kissed her again.
In the darkness, Lin Yu was startled to hear their lips and tongues entangled, his breathing, his shaking, his fingertips and palms pressed against her eyelids, it felt cold to the touch.
"Shen Juan..." Lin Yu was a little uneasy, and tried to call him while kissing, but it was as if he didn't hear him, and the vague voice was completely suppressed.
She had no choice but to tug on his sleeve, panting and mumbled: "Brother, brother, my leg hurts..."
Shen Juan stopped abruptly.
The heart seemed to be tightly held together by a cold hand, throbbing and throbbing.
He picked her up carefully, walked into the bedroom, and put her on the bed.
Lin Yujing propped herself up and sat up, Shen Juan pulled the pillow and stood on the head of the bed, she sat on the bed and looked at him, licked her numb lips from the kiss, a little stunned: "What's wrong with you?"
Shen Juan sat by the bed, looked at her for a long time, and finally said: "I regret it..."
He leaned over and gently kissed her eyes, touching her eyes carefully and reverently, with an obscure and hoarse voice: "Lin Yujing, I'm not good to you."