Lin Yujing hasn't had much contact with Lin Zhi since school started.
After making several phone calls, the two of them became more and more speechless. Lin Zhi probably felt the embarrassment in the atmosphere, and she never called her again, but the money kept coming every month.
The phone rang for half a minute, but Lin Yujing didn't answer it until Lin Zhi hung up.
People came out of the examination room one after another. The final day of the final exam was over, and the winter vacation officially began. Occasionally, students who couldn't wait to go home dragged huge suitcases past.
Lin Yu was startled and didn't know what to do, but suddenly thought that Shen Juan was still the same.
His kind of gentleness that is completely inconsistent with other people's designs, and occasionally bursts out, no matter how many times, people will be caught off guard and almost want to drown in it.
Lin Yujing put the phone in his pocket, then raised his head solemnly and looked at him: "Shen Juan, thank you."
His tone was too solemn, and he almost bowed at ninety degrees.
Even called the full name.
Shen Juan raised an eyebrow.
Lin Yu raised his eyes in surprise, and continued, "I don't really want to do my winter vacation homework, can you do it for me?"
"..."
Shen Juan felt that this little girl still lacked education.
"Impossible." Lin Yu laughed in surprise and walked forward, "It's not the same reason. After all, it's my mother, and I can never talk to her for the rest of my life. Will you always be my manager? Boyfriend, no matter what happens in the future. I'd like to tell you anything."
She paused, and continued: "But I still have to do it myself, don't underestimate people, Teacher Xiao Lin is also omnipotent."
Shen Juan didn't speak.
Lin Yu didn't fully express his startling words, but the meaning was very clear.
I am willing to rely on you now, but I will not be attached to you.
Shen Juan lowered his head, the curve of his lips widened little by little, and finally he couldn't hold back, and let out a low laugh.
She keeps changing, and it seems like she never changes.
When Lin Yu returned to the dormitory in shock, she called Lin Zhi, but she was probably busy, so she didn't answer.
After the exam, the roommates are packing up their things and getting ready to go home. The two out-of-towners have already booked their tickets and air tickets. Gu Xia is like a flying bird after the exam, flapping her wings non-stop and carrying the suitcase. He flew away and gave her a gift before leaving.
Looking at the very high-grade wrapping paper, the soft cross ribbon, and taking it apart, there is a black box inside, a huge Arabic numeral 001, and a row of letters on the top—OKAMOTO.
There is also a rose-colored box, ergonomically designed, with hot-carved romantic rose patterns.
"..."
Return two boxes.
Gu Xia stood at the door of the dormitory holding the suitcase, and blew her a kiss: "I don't know what model your No. 1 scholar is, but I bought a regular black one. Happy winter vacation."
"..."
Lin Yujing was already used to it and became a little numb.
It doesn't matter what model, what kind of rose and lily pattern, this thing can't be used, their family's champion has a very high moral quality, it may not be sure that there is no harm to her body until she is thirty, and she is willing to be with her Go to bed.
Shen Juan was still training in the afternoon, and when the winter vacation came, he officially entered the state where he would spend every day in the training room except to go to the bathroom and maybe never leave the door. The two of them got bored for a long time. Lin Yujing didn't particularly like stickiness at first. He didn't intend to accompany him anymore, so he dragged his luggage back to the apartment.
At nearly six o'clock in the evening, Lin Zhi called again.
Lin Yujing was nestled on the sofa watching a variety show. She went out in the afternoon to buy a bunch of snacks and came back, holding a chicken foot through the packaging bag in her hand, her mouth full of collagen, and she didn't speak for a long time when she picked it up.
Lin Zhi's style remained the same, Wan Nian straight to the point and said in a calm tone, "I'm busy this afternoon, why didn't you answer the phone at noon."
Lin Yu swallowed the chicken feet in his mouth in shock, and said without changing his expression, "I haven't finished the exam."
Lin Zhi's side is quiet, occasionally there is a little sound, the car horn is far away, it should be driving: "When are you going home?"
Lin Yujing didn't speak, hesitating a little.
She felt that it didn't matter whether she went back or not. After a year, she would just take a look at the second elder, and it was gone.
She was silent for a moment, and Lin Zhi said, "You don't want to go back?"
"Years ago," Lin Yujing said casually, "Anyway, I will be alone when I go home now."
This time it was Lin Zhi's turn to be silent, and finally hung up the phone without saying anything.
There is still a variety show on TV. It is a marriage experience program. Several older celebrity couples have been married for more than ten years, under the banner of rediscovering the feeling of first love.
Lin Yujing really likes to watch this kind of variety show, and always feels that by watching these, she can be more convinced that there is still true love in the world.
She stared straight at the picture on the TV, a little distracted.
When she was young, what she wanted most was Lin Zhi's affirmation, so she couldn't help but refute Meng Weiguo occasionally, but she never contradicted Lin Zhi.
She does what she says, and she does what she tells her to do.
But after the period of adolescence when she most longed for family affection, Lin Yu was shocked to find that she didn't seem to have much feeling in her heart.
There is nothing I can't get used to, and even because I feel that I have never had it, it seems much easier to accept it.
Lin Qingzong said that Lin Zhi's fate was not good, she had never met someone who could lead her on the right road in her life, and suffered a lot of injuries.
Whether she is the only daughter or not, Lin Qingzong hopes that one day she can forgive Lin Zhi, forgive those things she did wrong, and walk the wrong path.
Lin Yujing didn't speak at that time.
Whether Lin Zhi needs it or not, she can support her in the future and will be responsible. This is her obligation as a child.
But how could she forgive.
Lin Yujing has never been a person who repays evil with kindness. Her creed in life is that whoever treats me well, I am willing to treat him a hundred times better, and whoever treats me badly will go to hell.
Lin Zhi went the wrong way and was injured, what does this have to do with her.
Before meeting Shen Juan, no one told her which way to go is right and which way is wrong, and no one took her along, no one told her that you can go forward with confidence and I will protect you.
Whose road is not groped by oneself, step by step, and slowly tested, whose road is not difficult and dangerous, and there are no ravines.
Whose injury is not an injury.
Why should she be that victim, why should she pay for Lin Zhi's failed marriage and her wrong path.
A few days before New Year's Eve, Lin Yujing booked a plane ticket back to the imperial capital.
Shen Juan asked for leave that day and sent her to the airport. Ever since he knew she was going to leave, this person's expression has never been so happy.
Lin Yujing coaxed him for the first two days, but he didn't bother to talk to him later, so you can do whatever you want.
She didn't carry much, and she didn't plan to stay there for too long. She came and went with that small suitcase, and it took three years from high school to university.
It was afternoon when he got home, Lin Yujing opened the door and looked up, and saw Lin Zhi in the living room who was on the phone.
Lin Yu was stunned.
She really did not expect that Lin Zhi would be at home.
The mother and daughter haven't seen each other for half a year. One of them is standing at the door, and the other is sitting on the sofa in the living room with a notebook on his lap. They stare at each other for a few seconds, but no one speaks.
Lin Yujing sometimes finds it funny that two people whose blood is thicker than water can do this.
The servant came to pick up the luggage. Lin Yu entered the room and changed his shoes: "Why are you back? Isn't the company busy?"
Lin Zhi put the phone on the coffee table: "Leave the day after tomorrow."
The day after tomorrow, New Year's Eve just passed.
Lin Yu nodded in surprise, said nothing, and was about to go upstairs.
Lin Zhi turned her head, and suddenly said coldly, "That boyfriend of yours is quite courageous."
Lin Yu paused in shock and turned his head: "What?"
"That boy came to talk to me," Lin Zhi glanced at her, "Didn't he tell you?"
Say shit.
Lin Yu's nerves were tense, and his tone was almost questioning: "What did you tell him?"
"What can I say, say that I don't agree with you being together, that you will not have any good results in the future, I have seen a lot of love in college, how many people can get together in the end, and they all broke up after graduation? Even if How many people can be happy when they get together in the end?" Lin Zhi lowered her eyes and looked at the screen, "As long as it doesn't affect your grades, I don't object to your falling in love. You can fall in love with someone you don't like. What I object to is What he objects to is that you fall into this relationship."
Lin Yu felt a little funny: "Am I sick? What is there to talk about with someone I don't like?"
Lin Zhi raised her eyes, her eyes were cold and calm: "You are in love now, do you think he can accompany you forever, can he love you forever?" She said softly, "No, it's impossible."
Lin Yu was startled and understood, "You have been bitten by a snake for ten years and are afraid of well ropes."
"You are still young, you don't know men at all," Lin Zhi said, "Men are all things that seek novelty, and if you have been together for a long time, he will find it boring."
The last bit of patience in Lin Yujing's mind was boiling. She closed her eyes and couldn't bear it anymore and said, "I think you don't know men, but males. Animals are also divided into males and females."
The voice fell, and the living room was silent.
Lin Zhi didn't even react, she was stunned, and looked at her in disbelief.
Lin Yu pursed his lips in surprise, let out a long breath, and looked at her calmly: "You can't use your own failures to measure all the feelings in the world, because you yourself feel that there is no good person in this world Now, can I never get married in this life?"
"Because the fact is like this, you can have marriage, but love is very fragile," Lin Zhi said in a calm and indifferent tone, "Let me tell you, you think you are true love now, but ten or twenty years from now? Are you still in love? Love him, but you are old, there are many beautiful girls around him, how can you guarantee that he will not change his mind?"
Lin Yu was shocked and did not speak.
Lin Zhi said patiently: "Xiaoyu, I am protecting you, because I have experienced it, so I don't want you to experience it again."
"There is no one like you who protects people, you just think you are protecting me," Lin Yujing interrupted her directly, "You comfort yourself by saying this because you are afraid that I will be hurt, but in fact you are just trying to satisfy your own desire to control .”
"You think you are the truth and everything you say is right. I have listened to you since I was a child, so I should listen to this matter, but I didn't. I resisted, so you can't stand it, you have to convince me, Let me admit that you are right."
Lin Zhi didn't speak, her eyes were a little cold, and she unconsciously touched the phone on the coffee table.
Lin Yujing suddenly felt a little sad.
She felt that the relationship between herself and Lin Zhi should have faded away, but at this moment, she still felt a little sad, a sense of grievance so suffocating that it made people's noses and eyes sore, rushed up without warning.
overwhelming.
Lin Yu lowered his eyes in surprise, and lowered his voice: "Mom, no one educates their children like this."
"Other mothers will tell their children, go ahead and come back if you get hurt, mothers are here."
"I never expected you to say that to me, but at least—"
"At least, can you not force me to be circled back every time I am about to believe that I am worthy of being cherished by others, telling me that no one will love me?"
Lin Zhi paused: "I'm not—"
"You don't love me, don't want me, you still have to tell me over and over again that no one in this world will always love me,"
Lin Yu stared at the ground in shock, opened his eyes wide open, raised his hand to press the corners of his eyes, and said softly, "How could you do this, you can't treat me like this."
Lin Zhi was stunned.
In City A, a thousand kilometers away, Shen Juan was standing in front of the window with his mobile phone in his hand, listening to the girl's voice on the phone, faintly and clearly.
In the end, she was aggrieved, choking with a little imperceptible force: "I just want to believe it once, and I am... not so unbearable. I am actually qualified to be loved..."