Everyone's brother? It's really baffling.
Shi Jin felt a little annoyed. He seldom felt irritable or bored in his heart when he lived such an old age, but now he really feels a little annoyed. It's not in the troubled continent, but the brotherhood that seems to be entangled forever.
"It's still over... Hey, death, can I kill this guy with cream? Can I kill him?"
Xiao Death didn't reply, as if there hadn't been a general silence.
Shi Jin couldn't stand it anymore. He pressed Rong Zhouzhong's arm with his backhand, and pushed him rudely against the chair. He tugged something to erase the cream from his face, staring at his face, and said impatiently:" Rong Zhouzhong, don’t you have a lot of dissatisfaction with me? Don’t you hate me very much? Say it, say it all, I want you to say it all!"
Rong Zhouzhong was stupefied by his series of operations. He looked a little dumbfounded at his rare impatience and irritability. His lips moved, and he called out: "Xiao Jin..."
"Don't call me like that!'You fat man', you idiot who knows nothing.' You are really hateful and pitiful.' Are you going to die? You are finally going to die' Why do Shi's family have more of you? A child', these are what you want to say, you actually think of me this way, say it, you say it all, I want you to say it all, every word!"
Shijin said fiercely, his voice gradually rising, and those who allowed him to indulge in those unnecessary emotions, but were still unable to substitute into his own memory like last time, suddenly all rushed over violently.
The surrounding area is no longer the audio-visual room, but the gorgeous empty house, the pale and terrifying hospital, and the immobile hospital beds of Country M. He was sitting in an empty house, in the hospital’s unmanned garden, and lying on a bed without temperature. The people around him came and went, but no one listened to him, and no one reached out to him. He is a disfigured monster, a poor fat man waiting to die in despair.
Then the third brother he likes came, with a victor's posture, mocking eyes with condescending pity, and speaking those harsh words that pierced the heart.
[Shijin, I hate you, everyone hates you. Actually, you're not a child of Shi's family, look at you, you are so fat, so fat. 】
[You want to join Xu Tianhua against your eldest brother, are you stupid? Ah, no, I shouldn't ask like that, you are a stupid, you idiot who knows nothing. 】
[Want to know the truth? I can tell you everything... Is this crying? You are really hateful and pathetic. 】
[How can everyone really treat you as a younger brother? Don’t be naive, you are different from us... Why should there be an extra child like you in the Shi family? 】
[Are you going to die? You are finally going to die. In the next life, remember not to be reborn in Shi's family. No one wants you as a brother. 】
Memories rushed fiercely, despair, grievance, anger, sadness, etc. emotions rushed out together, those who did not respond to these words either because of shock, or sadness, or because of physical reasons, were even more roaring, screaming and tearing. everything. Shi Jin closed his eyes vigorously, and suddenly backhanded out a dagger from behind his waist, and the blade popped out beside Rong Zhouzhong's beautiful face.
Rong Zhouzhong's pupils shrank and said, "Shijin, what do you want to do!"
"I'll kill you." Shijin looked at him, moved the dagger to his lips, his eyes fell on it, and there was a faint madness of irrationality, "I was so uncomfortable... just because I did it again. It’s just because I changed everything... Then you all forgot, only I remembered, and I was the only one left! Why do you look like a good brother now? The ones I have experienced are just a few words of concern and a few words of sorry. Can you make up for the things that have happened? You don’t even know what happened, you forgot how cruel you were once, how can that kind of compensation be enough! How perfunctory are those sorry weights! Why don’t you remember? Come, think of it, think of it quickly, why don't you think of it!"
"Xiao Jin..." Rong Zhouzhong stared at him blankly, stretched out his hand to touch his face, "Don't cry, don't cry..."
"Don't move!" Shijin suddenly expressed his face, and pressed him to death on the backrest, and said coldly, "It doesn't matter if you remember, I will let you know what you did, and follow me, you die Fatty."
Knocking his shoulder on the back of the chair was a little painful. Rong Zhouzhong looked at Shi Jin's apparently wrong appearance, frowned and said, "Xiao Jin, you..."
"Say it!" Shijin cut off a strand of his hair with a dagger, and said Shen Shen, "If you don't say it, the next time you cut it will be your face."
Serious, Shijin's words are serious, he will really do it.
Rong Zhouzhong opened his mouth, but couldn't make a sound. I can't say it, my instinct tells him that I can't say those things, and everything is over after I say it.
Shi Jin stared at his lips, with a fever of expectation in his eyes, but he did not hear Rong Zhouzhong's voice.
"Why don't you say it!" The irritability grew stronger, and he raised his dagger with a sharp eyebrow.
Rong Zhouzhong closed his eyes and waited for the pain to come.
puff.
There was a muffled sound, and the pain did not come.
Rong Zhouzhong was stunned, opened his eyes tentatively, and found that the dagger in Shi Jin's hand was inserted into the back of the seat directly against his face, without hurting him at all.
"Why didn't you tell me." Shijin lowered his head, his expression was covered by shadows, and he couldn't see clearly. "You have repented in time in your life, and you didn't make a big mistake. How should I blame you? Only the concern over the past ten years is what I can do if I grew up spoiled by you... You don't even understand what I'm talking about... Third brother, are you trying to drive me crazy?"
Rong Zhouzhong was stunned by the deadly silence in his tone, and when he saw him closing his hand to leave, he hurriedly reached out to pull his arm.
Shijin broke free of his hand easily and turned around to leave.
Can't let him go, there will be nothing left.
"Xiao Jin!" Rong Zhouzhong got up and chased after him.
Shijin threw the dagger directly, forcing him to stop, and then reached out to touch the doorknob.
It's over, it's really over.
"You fat man!"
The voice broke free from reason and came out of his throat. Rong Zhouzhong realized what he had said after roaring, his expression changed, as if he had thrown a dagger in front of him, and even his fingertips began to tremble.
"No, it's not, Xiaojin, I'm sorry..."
"Say it again." Shijin stopped and looked over, his eyes lit up again, turned back and approached him, grabbed his arm, and said, "Say it again, with a bit more disdain and a bit colder tone, you Yes, you can, say it again."
For a moment, Rong Zhouzhong actually saw Shi Jin smile. It was a smile that was about to be liberated. He didn't understand. He felt like he was having a nightmare, like being stripped naked and thrown into the crowd, like … As if finally wanting to thoroughly see the despicable and dirty deepest part of my heart.
I don't want to say, but how can I not say, his brother is going crazy.
Sorry.
"You fat man." He condensed all his emotions, put on a high-handed appearance, and said this sentence in a disdainful and malicious tone.
Yes, he was like that. At the very beginning, he thought of Shijin this way. He is a monster with a poisonous needle hidden in his heart, and he wants to pull that clean and simple brother into the abyss in his dreams.
"You idiot who knows nothing."
The shorthand line ability trained as an actor is really damn good. He looked at Shi Jin's gradually bright eyes and vivid expression, keeping the mask on his face, and talking non-stop.
"You are really hateful and pathetic."
Without Shijin's efforts, he would definitely say these bloody words.
"Are you going to die, you are finally going to die."
He is such a terrible person. At some point in the past, he thought that if Shijin could die, it would be fine.
"Why does Shi's family have an extra child like you."
Sorry.
Sentence after sentence, he seemed to see that he was cutting Shijin's heart one by one, watching him desperately, watching him dripping with blood, watching him fall from hope to despair, from light to darkness.
He had thought about these, but never said it. Later, he pressed into his heart and pretended that they had never occupied his mind. It turned out that he would never know if he didn't say it, and he could pretend to be innocent. Some things, just thinking about it, will cause harm to the other party.
Shijin actually understood everything, but he didn't understand.
"I'm sorry, Xiao Jin, I'm sorry." He leaned against the wall and closed his eyes wearily.
This is the tone, this is the expression.
Shijin held his breath and looked at Rong Zhouzhong, his lips that kept opening and closing, and listening to his pleasant voice even when he uttered bad words, his memory and reality slowly overlapped, and his memory was unwilling to fight back. And anger slowly swelled.
Finally, the mouth stopped, and all the damage from the enemy was over... He, can fight back.
call.
It turned out that even if he did it again, he still had a chance to fight back for the injuries that had never happened in his life.
Holding his breath suddenly Panasonic, he raised his eyes to look at Rong Zhouzhong, suddenly raised his fist without warning, and slammed it towards the corner of his mouth: "Go to hell! You bastard!"
Rong Zhouzhong snorted when he was beaten, and fell to his side on the ground.
Shijin didn't look at him at all, his voice was raised high, moving his steps nervously around in circles, and from time to time he touched his face with his finger, and said quickly: "Cry? Yes, I shouldn't cry. Face your malicious intentions. , What's the use of crying? To deal with a bad guy like you, just curse it! Fatty? What's wrong with me? Personal attacks are what the worst talents do! Do your fans know that you are actually so bad? When you are talking about this, don't you think you are going too far!"
Memories and emotions are overwhelmed like a tide, and the surrounding scenes have changed again. It is a mansion, a hospital, and every time the door opens, which makes people palpitating.
"Yes, I'm fat, I'm stupid, but didn't you make me like this either intentionally or unintentionally? If I'm really smart, you should blame me for being smart again. Admit it, you are just jealous I, fear me, want to be close and afraid to be close to me, of course I am different from you, I am a human, you are the devil, how could we be the same! Ha, the most ridiculous thing is that you actually feel pitiful for me? I have lived more than ten Years, even if it’s an illusion, but I also grew up in an environment of love, and you, one by one, indulged yourself in interests and hatred. There is no warm memory in the decades of life, really The poor are you!"
Rong Zhouzhong tightened his palm and turned his head to avoid his sight.
"Are you going to die of anger? Seeing that I did not become a monster who only knows hatred as you wished, and a cold-blooded fellow like you, are you disappointed? Are you all dreaming of me? Take revenge on you, and then you can say, "Look, that simple guy who was carefully guarded by Shi Xingrui has finally become like us, and he is no longer the special one." I can almost hear the words To the trembling voice in your heart!"
"I am not." Rong Zhouzhong couldn't help refuting.
"No?" Shi Jin turned around to look at him as if he had heard some fantasy, bent over and grabbed his collar, looked into his eyes and said, "If not, why are you so eager to turn your face, can't wait Show malice to me? I hated a person unilaterally for more than ten years, and suddenly saw the possibility of letting the other person respond to this hatred. With your linear idiot thinking, how can you take care of so much? Cucumber pillow , Huh? You can't wait for the death of your father. You just know that he is dying, so you hurriedly send the declaration of war to me, and your thoughts are almost written on your face!"
The cautious thought in his heart that was the least willing to be snooped was pierced by the person involved, and Rong Zhouzhong became irritated and retorted: "I don't have any, you are an idiot!"
"No, I'm a idiot. You are an idiot. We are half a cat. You don't have any high capital!" Shijin threw him to the ground again, stood up straight and looked at him condescendingly, and said coldly." I will not die. I will live longer than all of you. You will never have the opportunity to say the phrase'You are finally dying' in your life. Only me can say this. Let me correct your misconception that Shi’s family does not have more of my child, but if it were not for my child, you and a few other people would never have been born! Thank you for me, if it weren’t for me After so many years of late reincarnation, you will all be shot on the wall, sissy!"
Empress—
These words were simply a crit. Rong Zhouzhong looked at him incredulously, got up from the ground, with an expression of anger that he didn't know what to say, and he turned his head frequently and took deep breaths, as if he wanted to suppress his anger.
"vase."
Shijin didn't stop, sentence after sentence, every word was spit out very hard, as if he was about to spit out all the hostility that had been suppressed in his heart for two lifetimes.
"People with poisonous mouths will have their tongues pulled out after death."
"You are the hateful and pathetic!"
"When you are dying, I will go to your bedside to set off firecrackers to celebrate."
"I am not a superfluous child, you are!"
Rong Zhouzhong opened his mouth slightly and looked at him, as if he couldn't believe that these words were actually spoken from his mouth. He should be angry in his heart, and his anger was indeed suppressed in his chest, but strangely, he couldn't get angry.
Shi Jin suddenly approached him again.
Rong Zhouzhong regained his senses, took a step back, concealed his sadness that his heart was sifted into a sieve, frowned and said, "What else do you want to scold? If you want to fight, I won't hold back this time. ."
Shijin suddenly raised his hand and patted the position of his heart, smiled wickedly at him, and said, "It's uncomfortable to be scolded by me like this."
Rong Zhouzhong's expression was tense, and there was only this point that he didn't want to admit.
"You deserve it." Shijin added softly, full of malice.
"You—" Rong Zhouzhong was really angry, and raised his hand to grab his wrist.
Shijin avoided his hand again, took a step back and said, "I'm sorry for what you said before. I don't accept it. Some hurts can be erased without an apology."
Rong Zhouzhong froze, his anger dissipated instantly, watching him gradually regain his sense of seriousness in his eyes, and gradually realized something, he twitched his mouth and said, "Is this..." So are you not ready to accept his nasty brother anymore
"But we are even." Shijin said, looking at Rong Zhouzhong's embarrassed appearance at this time, the appearance of him uttering bad words from high above gradually disappeared in his memory, and continued, "You scolded me, and I scolded you too. , You hurt me, and I hurt you, none of us owe anyone anymore. I am tired, and you are not worthy of making me so tired."
Rong Zhouzhong's sinking heart stopped abruptly, raised his eyes and looked at him, a faint hope appeared in his heart, almost incoherently said: "You, say so... What do you mean..."
"Also, I won't apologize, you never want to hear a sorry word from me." Shi Jin walked to the door, touched the doorknob, his voice suddenly lowered, and said, "Good night, third brother."
Click.
The door opened and closed.
Rong Zhouzhong stared at the door in a daze, and then his eyes widened little by little. For a long time, he suddenly squatted on the ground with his head buried in the ground, trying to curse something, his eyes blinked, but a few drops of crocodile tears flowed out of him, not handsome at all.
"Bunny boy..." He rubbed his face vigorously, and laughed angrily, "You hold more grudges than I do, and you won't apologize. Have I been beaten and scolded by you today? It hurts, OK..."
He slumped on the ground, looked up at the movie screen, and saw that the brother in the movie was venting his malice to his brother who already knew the truth without hesitation. His heart trembled and he gave a disgusting cry, moved to the small table and picked up the remote control. , Quickly fast forward the movie to the end.
On the edge of the cliff, the younger brother hugged his elder brother and wanted to fall down the cliff with him. The older brother dropped his weapon, hugged his younger brother backhand, and closed his eyes contentedly. The two fell back together and fell into the abyss.
He watched carefully, suddenly turned his head down and snorted bored, turned off the screen, looked at the missing two pieces of cake on the table, reached out and picked up the plastic knife for cutting the cake, dug a big piece, and stuffed it into his mouth.
At this moment, he finally understood what Shijin wanted to change. The child who is softer and kinder than everyone else, but stronger than everyone else, has worked so hard to the present, tortured himself almost crazy, and what he wants to change is only the future that may appear in the embrace of everyone. The end that hurts each other with hatred, and then ends up together.
Hatred and redemption, Shi’s six children and five seemingly powerful elder brothers all chose the simplest hatred, and only the child who was hurt the most chose the most difficult redemption.
"It's so stupid." He seemed to be choked by the cake, his voice slowly hoarse and choked, "Sure enough, he is an idiot."
He lowered his head, raised his hand and pressed his eyes.
…
The sky before dawn was the darkest, Shi Jin came out of his mind, walked down the second floor of the villa, took a look at the endless night outside the villa, suddenly speeded up his pace, and ran towards the master bedroom on the first floor. .
When the door was opened, the light inside was actually on. He was taken aback for a moment, then his heartbeat speeded up quickly, and he stepped into the door quickly.
A pair of arms suddenly stretched out, holding him firmly in his arms.
Shi Jin stopped and looked sideways at the person holding him.
"First take a bath and warm up." Lian Jun seemed to have known that he would rush back in this way. He didn't ask anything. After hugging him, he kissed his brows gently, and then held his hand, leading him. He walked towards the bathroom with the door open behind him.
The water vapor in the bathroom, the bath water has been put away, pajamas and all kinds of toiletries are all ready.
Shi Jin was a little stunned, and was passively pulled under the shower by Lian Jun.
"Take a shower and then take a bath." Lian Jun helped him take off all his clothes, then turned on the shower, and didn't care if his pajamas would get wet, standing next to him and carefully washing his body.
The skin was moistened with warm water, and then the hand dipped in the shower gel pressed against the body, gently wandering with a comfortable force. His body warmed up little by little, Shijin's fingers trembled, and looking at Lian Jun's serious look, he couldn't help but stretch his arms to hug him.
Lian Jun hugged him back very naturally and comfortably followed his back.
The heart suddenly felt at ease, Shijin tightened his arms, buried his face on his shoulder, and said in a low voice, "I'm sorry, I worried you."
Lian Jun kissed him comfortingly, comforting silently.
"It won't be anymore." Shijin rubbed his forehead against his shoulder, then stepped back a little, looked up at him, squeezed a smile at him, and said, "You are the most important thing, you are my most important thing. Baby baby."
"Used words again." Lian Jun also laughed, stretched out his hand and pulled his face, "It's a bad habit to stay up late, so I'll punish you to go to Gua Er for training, do you recognize it?"
"Acknowledge!" Shijin nodded vigorously, hugged him tightly again with the strength to embed him into his body, and repeated, "You are the most important thing. I will adjust myself well so that you won't worry about it anymore." Even if it was just for this person, he would never allow himself to be eroded by those messy and inexplicable emotions.
This time I really made a terrible attempt.
Thinking like this, he unconsciously looked at the progress bar in his head, only to find that his progress bar unexpectedly dropped to 60 at some point.
Down... He was slightly stunned, and then tightened his lips. So sure enough... Is that true
He tightened his palms, tilted his head against Lian Jun's body, and felt the temperature of his body. Some guesses in his heart that were only vague before slowly became clear.
"Small death." He whispered in his heart, regardless of whether the other party would answer this time, he said in a certain tone, "This last lethal factor comes from myself, no, to be precise, it comes from the original owner. Right? What a simple truth, what can kill a person is not only the external dangers and enemies, but also the inner self."
This time the little death finally ceased to be silent. It whispered and firmly said: "Go in, you will live, and then live a very happy life."
"Of course I will live." Shijin put all his body weight on Lian Jun, holding him so hard that he was about to break him, "With Lian Jun, no one wants to break me." Including me. Own.