Angry back to anger, in the end Rong Zhouzhong still didn't force Shijin to leave Fei Yujing's sick name behind.
Shi Jin sat down by the hospital bed, looked at Fei Yujing's appearance, and asked, "How is the injury?"
"Small injury, the water in the lungs has been removed by a minor operation, and the recovery is good." Fei Yujing replied briefly, put down the files, and also looked at him. Seeing that his face was not very good, he asked, "Late night Came here? How was your final exam?"
Shijin didn't expect that he still had the energy to care about this, and he felt a little helpless in his heart, and replied: "It's okay in the exam... What does the doctor say, in your situation, will you have sequelae in the future?"
Fei Yujing replied: "No, the lung injury is just a small injury. After the water is removed, the wound will grow up automatically, and the ribs will be raised carefully without any problems."
"That's good." Shijin was relieved a little, leaned back in his chair, and was silent for a while, and said guiltily, "I'm sorry, I am the one who caused you."
"If you feel sorry for me, just answer one of my questions." Fei Yujing seemed to have known that he would say so, and immediately took the opportunity to make a request.
Shi Jin was taken aback, glanced at him, nodded, and replied: "Okay, you ask."
Fei Yujing looked at Rong Zhouzhong, who silently raised his ears, and said, "The third child, Xiaojin shouldn't have time to eat when he came over overnight. Go buy him a meal."
Rong Zhouzhong looked up at him incredulously, and raised his voice: "You really use me as a nurse?"
"I want to distract you." Fei Yujing is very honest, "This is a private conversation between me and Xiaojin. It is not suitable for a third person to hear. You will come back in a quarter of an hour."
Rong Zhouzhong, who has been tortured these days, was distorted by his honesty and anger. He couldn’t wait to step forward and end him with his own hands, but after a glance at Shijin, he finally stood up, frowned and said, “It’s just a quarter of an hour, so much. No." After speaking, he turned and strode away.
Finally, Shijin and Fei Yujing were the only ones left in the room.
Shi Jin looked at Fei Yujing and waited for him to ask questions. In fact, he had already guessed what Fei Yujing wanted to ask.
Fei Yujing turned back to look at him, and asked directly: "When I left the island that day, you said that you were not mad at what I used to take advantage of. What is angry."
It really is this.
Shi Jin asked, "Why do you suddenly want to know this? According to your personality, you shouldn't be obsessed with this kind of thing."
"This question is not attachment to me, it is a heart disease that will disturb my thoughts." Fei Yujing explained, still frighteningly frank, "I will think of this question from time to time when I come back, but I still can't think of a result. The more I cared when I couldn’t figure it out, I gradually made this problem my heart disease, and even made it affect my work efficiency. I want to know the answer, not because of you, because I want to be disturbed by this problem from time to time. Get out of the troublesome situation of your mind."
This kind of question can actually turn into a heart disease, and the sentence that I specifically emphasized is not because of you... Shijin was so sad, and said blankly: "This is really a selfish answer."
Fei Yujing accepted his evaluation calmly: "I thought you knew my nature a long time ago."
But knowing that Gui knows that when Zhen and the other party deal with this clearly should be an emotional matter, and use it to analyze and talk with each other as sensibly as in official affairs, he still can't accept it. There are so many thoughts on his side, but Fei Yujing's trouble is disturbing his thoughts. The emotional imbalance is the reason why the two can't get close.
"Second brother, this is what I am angry about." Shijin replied, and continued to be expressionless, trying to make himself appear as rational and cold as Fei Yujing, "I seek an emotional response, and what you give is Material and profit compensation, I cannot get what I want, so I am very angry."
Fei Yujing was taken aback for a rare moment, and asked, "Emotionally?"
"Right." Shijin nodded.
Fei Yujing looked at him, smiled suddenly, and said, "But Xiao Jin, what you want, I have already given you clearly."
Shi Jin was stunned, then frowned fiercely: "What?"
"I care about you, help you, I will follow you all your requirements, try to protect you, and even entrust my life to you, my mother is the first person in this world who can give me this, and you are the second. Xiaojin, you look at me with your prejudice, but blame me for not tearing your prejudice into your eyes. Is this too unfair to me? Of course, I am not accusing you, you have the right to see me like this, but I hope you can face your own thoughts, otherwise you will always guard against me like this self-contradictory."
Defensive? Face your own thoughts? All this is so messy, completely incomprehensible.
Shi Jin frowned even more, feeling that he was arguing and vague concepts, and said, "No, you obviously—obviously...obviously..." His voice suddenly hesitated.
"Obviously what?" Fei Yujing asked.
Shijin looked at him with eyes that seemed to be able to see everything, his frown loosened a little bit, and slowly he couldn't speak. Obviously... Obviously Fei Yujing was treating him as he said.
Care? Yes, Fei Yujing really cares about him. What are the daily greetings, birthday gifts that bother to give, and invitations to respond as much as possible? There is also help, setting up a fund, helping Lian Jun to get energy, and various subsequent cooperation, if it is not for his face, as shrewd as Fei Yujing, how could it be related to Lian Jun, who has a troubled background. The request was also true. When he had a reunion dinner last year, he said that he hoped that his brothers would cook it by himself, and everyone would really make it by themselves. People like Fei Yujing would actually take time out to learn to cook. Who would believe this kind of thing? To protect and entrust his life, Fei Yujing could not go to the muddy water for the April meeting.
There is also the current car accident. According to Fei Yujing’s external behavior style, just causing him to have a car accident is enough for Fei Yujing to scrape the culprit, or toss him out of life, but now However, Fei Yujing didn't intend to accuse him of such a disaster through this incident, and even conversely comforted him.
One by one, Fei Yujing's words and deeds now all resemble a real brother. The care and love behind his various actions are undoubtedly all emotional responses. From the day Fei Yujing took the initiative to hand out the olive branch to him, Fei Yujing did his best to do his best regardless of interest or emotion.
But... why didn't he feel Fei Yujing's emotional response at all? why
He was suddenly a little confused.
Snapped.
The forehead was suddenly bounced off, and he recovered and looked at Fei Yujing who had attacked him suddenly.
"Xiao Jin, what are you really angry about?" Fei Yujing suddenly turned the topic back, with a rare gentle tone, "I know you just didn't tell the truth. Tell me the answer to this question, I want to know."
Shijin looked at him, his mind still stuck on the previous topic, his mind was messed up, he hesitated, and finally chose to follow his heart, and replied: "I am angry... after my father died, you simply abandoned me. Why can you be so straightforward? For you, am I so eager to get rid of the existence of the relationship? Why is it so easy for you to get out?"
Fuzzy memories and emotions flooded from the bottom of my heart. The dazedness and grievances that he had felt once in his dreams once again invaded his thinking. He only felt that he was standing on the street with a stranger in front of him, and Fei Yujing stood there. A few meters away, it was obviously close at hand, but so far away.
Reason has the opportunity to pull back consciousness, but emotions slowly let go of the unwillingness that has been suppressed in the heart for too long. He suddenly had an intuition-Fei Yujing was inexplicably provoking this topic today, just to induce him to lose control of his emotions like this.
"Why?" He looked into Fei Yujing's eyes, and simply let himself go, and gradually didn't know which time he was in. "Why? Have you really paid no feelings for the past ten years?"
Fei Yujing also looked at him and replied honestly: "Yes."
Kazed, memories and turbulent emotions shattered in an instant, and finally got the answer to the question that he had been unwilling to ask for many years. Shi Jin suddenly returned to his senses, staring at Fei Yujing slightly, his expression and thoughts were briefly blank.
He seems to have heard the answer he least wants to hear.
Fei Yujing raised his hand and touched his eyes, and said, "It turns out that you are angry at this... Shijin, the truth is always hurtful, but I don't want to lie to you. I have known my position and what I really want since I was a child. What is it? You used to be just a symbol in my eyes. You are Shi Xingrui’s most beloved son. It is a channel to quickly and efficiently obtain benefits. I clearly know what I am doing to you. I understand that the final outcome of you and me is only possible. It’s a stranger, or your life-and-death enemy. Under such circumstances, I cannot bet on your true family affection."
Shijin looked at him without blinking, his ears clearly heard every word he said, but his brain resisted to understand the meaning of the sentence composed of these words.
"I didn't abandon you, I just sorted out my perfect nutritional intake network like cutting a nutrient delivery tube that can no longer provide me with nutrients, and may even be diseased. Everything I do is with you. It has nothing to do with me, just for myself. At the time, I didn't consider your feelings, didn't consider your position, I only considered myself. I'm sorry, I have treated you this way in the past."
"What's this?" Shijin tightened his fingers inch by inch, and turned his head away from his hand. "Do you have to say it like this."
How ridiculous. In the past, he thought, no, because the original owner thought that the reason why Fei Yujing ignored him and completely abandoned him was because he hated him and didn't like him. Anyway, he had some emotional care for him. Even if this care is negative. Did the original owner misunderstand it? The bastard Fei Yujing never cared about his younger brother. In Fei Yujing's eyes, his younger brother was not even a human being, but just a piece of rubbish that was thrown away after use.
Sure enough, you shouldn't ask these stupid questions, don't you already know what kind of answers you will hear
Faced with such a sober bastard, it is only strange that he can feel the emotional response of the other party. Who knows if those responses will be another game of the other party? Who dares to indulge himself to believe those responses
It turned out not to be impossible, but not to dare. His subconscious has long chosen the best posture for him to face Fei Yujing—ignore him, ignore him, don't care about him, because that is a devil who can smile and hurt people.
"Are you angry?" Fei Yujing withdrew his hand and asked.
Shijin frowned and stood up and said, "It's nothing to be angry. I already know what kind of person you are... You can rest. I will see you tomorrow."
"Xiao Jin." Fei Yujing grabbed his arm and said, "I told you once before, and now I tell you again. In this life, I rarely regret what I have done, but so much in the past. For you, I regret it, I'm sorry."
Shijin broke away from his hand, forced a smile at him, and said, "I see, I understand your apology. But in the future, you are still less apologetic for speaking up for yourself and not forcing the other party to respond. Come on, I don't feel happy when I hear it, anyway, no matter what my attitude is, you only do what you want to do, right?" After speaking, he turned and left quickly.
Fei Yujing didn’t stop him this time, but when he was about to go out, he said: “Xiao Jin, what you want from me is not an emotional response, but an emotional need. I will give it to you. You changed my view of family affection and showed me a lot of things that I had overlooked before, so as long as it is what you want, I will give it to you."
Shi Jin stopped for a while, then took a deep breath, stretched out his hand to open the door of the ward, and walked out without looking back.
Fei Yujing looked at the closed ward door, his calm expression slowly disappeared, and rubbed his forehead with his eyes down, showing some frustration and exhaustion on his face, muttering to himself: "Is it too urgent..."
Outside the ward, Rong Zhouzhong just came back with the meal he bought, and when he saw Shijin rushed out of the ward with a bad expression, he was taken aback for a moment, then frowned, and asked, "What's wrong with you? Did your second brother bully you?" He rolled up his sleeves as he said, looking like he was going to fight Fei Yujing.
Shi Jin pressed his emotions and shook his head, took his arm and said, "Third brother, I'm sleepy, where do you live, take me over."
…
Shi Jin opened a room at the hotel where he was staying in Rong Zhou Zhong, and deliberately chose the room next to Rong Zhou Zhong, and then went back to the room and took a casual shower and smashed himself onto the bed.
"Emotional needs..." He muttered these words, his eyes straightened, "Is it saying that I hope Fei Yujing can act like I need to care more about me... how is it possible."
He turned over, grabbed the quilt to cover himself, and for a long time, he smashed the pillow irritably.
What an inexplicable conversation, don't think about it, go to sleep!
When I woke up, it was the beginning of the light outside. Shi Jin was soft and hungry, got up and changed his clothes, went to the next door to find Rong Zhouzhong, and took him to search for food.
"It's really rare to have a good night's sleep." Rong Zhouzhong covered his mouth and yawned, and asked, "What do you want to eat?"
Shi Jin replied, "Rice... Third Brother, do you need me?"
Rong Zhouzhong was dumbfounded by his question, and asked in confusion, "What do you mean?"
Shijin realized that he had unconsciously remembered the conversation with Fei Yujing, frowned, and replied: "It's nothing, I just asked, but I don't know what it means."
Rong Zhouzhong became interested in this topic. After thinking about it, he wanted to ask: "Then do you need me?"
Shi Jin looked at him carefully and replied solemnly, "I need Lian Jun more than you."
Rong Zhouzhong was choked on his face, disappointed in his expectation, pressed his lower lip to suppress the urge to say bad things about Lian Jun, and said angrily: "Me too, I need air and water more than you."
Shi Jin was amused by his answer.
"What are you laughing at? Did I just say something funny." Rong Zhouzhong muttered dissatisfiedly. After seeing him a few times, the corners of his mouth couldn't help but cocked. He stretched out his hand and rubbed his head vigorously, "You said Why is your mind so heavy this day, did your second brother say something nasty to you? You ignore him, he is just like that, he clearly wants to express kindness, but he wants to pull everything in the interest of rationality. Do you think he is mature, rational and restrained like that? Wrong! He is a coward, he dare not get caught up in any emotions, dare not ask for a response, dare not let his emotions, bound himself in a frame, afraid that he will be affected as soon as he goes out Hurt, die. So you ignore him, his brain is faulty, let him hold his pile of dogma alone and die!"
Shi Jin was stunned by his rhetoric, staring at him with curious eyes.
Rong Zhou raised his chin and showed him the most handsome angle in front of him. He raised his hand and gracefully pushed the sunglasses on the bridge of his nose, and said: "The most important thing for an actor is to understand the role and show it perfectly. The heart of the character. It is as simple as drinking water for me to figure out the human heart. I have seen too many people with the second brother’s personality. It is easy for me to analyze his heart. You don’t need to admire it too much— "
"It's still in a brightly lit room at night, don't you think you look silly wearing sunglasses?" Shi Jin asked blankly.
Rong Zhouzhong’s boasting was interrupted by Shijin before he finished speaking. He stuck his head and looked at Shijin. His eyebrows twitched, and he forced himself to protect himself, saying: "I know you are deliberately now. I'm angry, want to fight with me, vent my emotions, but I won't let you succeed."
This is too familiar, and Fei Yujing once said it, but at the time Fei Yujing said that he wanted to act like a baby. Shi Jin's heart trembled, as if he was being pierced by the careful thoughts in his heart, he suddenly reached out and took off the sunglasses on the bridge of Rong Zhouzhong's nose, put them on his face, covering his eyes and expressions.
Rong Zhouzhong was taken aback for a moment, and he looked around and made sure that no one was paying attention, he reached out to grab the sunglasses and said, "Didn't you say that it is silly to wear sunglasses indoors? Give it back to me soon."
Shi Jin turned around and hid, and said, "I like these sunglasses, this one belongs to me. What you do so carefully, this is abroad, no one knows you."
"You don't know anything about my position in the fashion circle, so give it back to me soon." Rong Zhouzhong continued to grab it.
Shijin avoided it flexibly, but didn't pay it back.
The two brothers quarreled to the place where they were eating. Rong Zhouzhong finally took back his sunglasses, but he no longer had to wear them because Shijin made his hair look like a chicken coop. I don't want to believe that this man with messy hair will be that Rong Zhouzhong who always looks perfect to the outside world.
The two opened a box. After the dishes were ready, Rong Zhouzhong grabbed his hair, put his sunglasses on Shi Jin's face with a black face, and said, "Send you, childish fellow."
Shijin accepted it without any pressure, and pointed to the watch on Rong Zhouzhong's wrist, and said, "I like that too."
"... I don't believe you really like this." Rong Zhouzhong muttered, but he still took off the watch and didn't forget to say, "This strap needs to be adjusted in a special place. Here's the address, you can get it yourself."
Shijin took the watch and looked for it on his body, only to find a small clip in his pocket that he bought from the college supermarket to hold the draft paper, stretched out his hand into Rong Zhouzhong's hand, and said, "I don't take it for nothing. Yours, use this for you."
Rong Zhouzhong looked at the military-green simple little clip in his hand, smiled at him stingly, and rubbed his head with his hand out of reach.
Shi Jin leaned back, and then fought back.
There was another fight, Rong Zhouzhong pulled his hair, took a look at Shijin who was finally willing to eat, and asked, "Is my mood better?"
Shijin tore all the two drumsticks of the roast chicken to him, silently thanking him for his affectionate company.
"By this time I learned how to be generous, hum." Rong Zhouzhong deliberately hummed coldly, looking at the chicken drumsticks in his bowl with satisfaction, took out two photos with his mobile phone, then picked up his chopsticks, and gave a chicken drumstick back to Shijin.
Shijin looked at this chicken leg, opened his mouth and took a big bite, chewing hard.
"Would you like to drink?" Rong Zhouzhong asked.
Shi Jin shook his head, slowly swallowed the chicken, and suddenly asked, "Second Brother, is Second Brother really a coward?"
"Really." Rong Zhouzhong also took a bite of the chicken legs, squinted his pretty peachy eyes, and said vaguely, "When I am free, I occasionally think about why our brothers have become like this. , Later I figured it out, we are actually like our respective mothers. Xu Jie thinks deeply about feelings, so my elder brother also thinks deeply about feelings. My mother is influential, so I become mean and annoying. The fourth mother’s mother is calm. Introverted temperament and tough, thank goodness, the fourth child is very similar to her. The fifth child’s mother loves first, and his mental age has always stopped at the teenage years, so the fifth child will not grow up, and the second brother... you should really meet him. Mother, such a sober woman who hates her is rare in this world."
Shijin poked the white rice in the bowl without speaking.
"The second brother is like his mother, living sober. But they are not the same. After experiencing everything, the second brother's mother actively chose to be sober. But the second brother is not. He doesn't know what it is like not to be sober. "Rong Zhouzhong poured a glass of juice for Shijin, showing for the first time his mature and stable side as his brother. "Xiaojin, maybe your second brother will never be able to empathize with the pain you have suffered in the past, or something will happen to you for the rest of your life. A heavy heart, but it’s not that he doesn’t feel guilty or blames himself, he just won’t. He has drawn a clear line between himself and everyone, hurting others and trapping himself. Now he is trying Cross the boundaries to understand your thoughts, he loves you, Xiaojin."