The disappearance of the progress bar did not bring any changes to Shijin's life. The days passed the same way, and then slowly, Shijin found that he seemed to be... smarter
"Is my memory so good in the past?" He took the textbook with a face full of doubts, and turned to the unlearned chapter, chose an article with many words and read it, then closed his eyes and memorized it silently, and found that it was completely possible. I was shocked, "Small death, my mind seems to have changed!"
Little death: "..."
Shijin was full of horror. He took a mechanical book that once gave him the most headache and rummaged it. It was discovered that the content in the book that used to be like a heavenly book can barely be understood and scared through the simple explanations in the book. I almost doubted the world: "Small death, have you brushed me some strange buff? I can actually understand this kind of celestial book. Could it be that the soul of a high school tyrant got into my brain? I was taken away? "
Little Death couldn't help it anymore, raising his voice and calling out, "Go in!"
"It's really weird!" Shijin raised his voice, and raised his hand to smash his forehead. "I was so squeezed by Mr. Feng to study before, and my grades can only be regarded as middle and upper reaches. It shows that I'm not a student of reading. But What is going on now, I can't forget it? Isn't this a brain mutation?"
"Jin Jin, this is... This is a reward. You know, I can't directly brush your brain with a strong buff that affects your mind. You just become smarter." Xiao Di replied, his voice slowly lowered Come down, "Jin Jin, do you have anything to ask me? The baby's progress bar has disappeared for many days..."
Shijin's expression quickly tightened, put down the hand that hit his forehead, looked down at the mechanical book in his hand, and replied stiffly: "No."
Little death helplessly: "Jin Jin..."
"If you dare to say anything extra, I'll lock you into the little black room!" Shijin threatened, put down his book and stood up, "The training camp will begin in a week. I have to get my body into the state in advance and go for a run. Don't talk nonsense."
Xiao Death calmed down, and he probably understood why Shijin was doing this, and his heart was full of powerlessness.
After Lian Jun's progress bar disappeared, Shi Jin didn't ask or say anything, pretending that everything was as usual. Xiao Si understands that Shijin pretends to be so stupid to escape, because he is afraid to ask too clearly. After understanding everything, he must face the final parting. Those who are left behind are the poorest. Shijin has been left in place by too many people, and it can understand Shijin's current mood. But what should I do? The value of the progress bar has only that point.
When will the baby come back... It feels like crying and feels too useless. It doesn't want to leave Shijin alone, at least when it leaves, it hopes that Shijin will be accompanied by someone by his side.
…
The intensive training came soon, and then he was training. Shijin found that his physical fitness and five sense acuity were gradually improving. This is definitely not the effect that exercise can achieve. Obviously, the rewards in the small dead mouth are still coming. .
He didn't feel happy, and even felt anxious and depressed about it. These changes remind him of one thing every day-no matter how he avoids ignoring, the steps of parting are still steadily approaching. He passively accepted these rewards in exchange for the disappearance of the progress bar, and was slowly pushed closer to the future that was destined to be separated from the little death, with no way to recover.
When he was suffocated to the extreme, a crazy idea appeared in his mind. Isn’t it just a lethal factor? If you eliminate a little, can you just get a little more? Survival is not easy, but death is not difficult.
He began to want to trouble himself, such as deliberately increasing the intensity of training to toss his body, taking dangerous roads to hurt himself during training, teaching students to stab the head and trying to pull himself hatred... He was everywhere, high-profile, and then he found desperately , The scope of rewards is far wider than he thought.
The body was tossed for a long time, and I was tired, but after a sleep, he recovered again. There was nothing wrong with it, and he could not accumulate lethal factors. It is even more unrealistic to want to be injured. He rolled down the slope and only scratched. I was born with a little skin on my palm. I was born lucky. After teaching the stabbed student, the teacher who had nothing to do with him suddenly repented. He decided to train and study hard, determined to be a good policeman, and finally He not only reaped the gratitude of the students who had been bullied by the stabbing, but also received awards from the instructors and instructors... In this way, he finally realized that it was useless. He had become a real winner in life by those awards. I can't find any bitterness if I want to find myself. There is an invisible big hand pushing him towards happiness, but he can't hold him back.
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When Shi Jinzuo died, Xiao Si watched quietly all the way. When he finally stopped, he said, "Although the baby is not my host, he is also the owner of the progress bar. After the progress bar disappears, he will also Get some rewards, and then have a safe and smooth life, just like you in the future."
In other words, it is useless. The gift given after the progress bar disappears is mandatory, and the recipient is destined to live a safe life. Unless Shijin has a way to grow the progress bar back again, no matter how much he tossed, there will be no ups and downs in his life that has been enveloped by rewards.
"... I said no unnecessary words." Shijin sat in the corner of the playground, raised his arms to press his ears, trying to block Xiao Di's voice, realizing that it was useless, stood up again, and said stubbornly, "I I will find a way, definitely."
Xiaodie fell silent and stopped persuading. After so long, it has learned how to hold back the cry.
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After returning to school from the training camp, the weather turned cold completely. The school offers driving lessons for juniors and requires students to get their driver's license as soon as possible. Those who cannot get a driver's license are not allowed to graduate.
Liu Yong, the only one in the dormitory who didn’t take a driver’s license, was madly happy. Shijin looked at him sympathetically, and couldn’t bear to tell him a cruel truth. It’s better to go to the driving school outside for a driver’s license, the instructor in the military academy and police academy. , Under normal circumstances, will be twice to three times more brutal than the coaches outside the school.
Sure enough, after being ravaged by the police academy instructors for a few classes, driving lessons quickly became one of Liu Yong's least want to attend! Shijin and the others who got the driver's license were much more relaxed. Because they got the driver's license, the instructor was not too strict with them. The driving lesson is to learn skills and experience, and practice driving, which is very easy. Occasionally when the coach car is not enough, the instructor will directly give the students who have taken the driver's license a holiday, allowing them to move freely.
Because of this, Shijin took a lot of vacations. He was too idle to do anything, so he simply soaked up the library, looking for various books every day, trying to find the answer to the current predicament in the book. But he couldn't find it, no matter how he looked for it, he couldn't find it. The existence of the little death is too mysterious, there is no book in this world that can explain its existence.
If you want to leave a small death, you must have lethal factors, and lethal factors are subjective and objective. Subjectively, no one hates him and wants to kill him. Objectively, there is no danger around him. And he couldn't take the initiative to disturb the settled life of others just because he wanted to be a little unlucky.
Relying on external force was doomed to be impossible, and finally, he locked his sight on himself.
When a person wants to destroy himself from the heart, the whole world can't stop it, right? Isn't the 20-point progress bar left by him stemming from the unwillingness and self-destructive emotion deep in his soul? Maybe he can magnify these...
"Go in." Xiao Di finally said, and said softly, "Baby is thinking of you."
The thoughts of digging into the dead end instantly dissipated. Shi Jin put down the book in his hand, remembering Lian Jun's desperate effort in order to give everyone an ordinary and safe life, and his body was stuck on the library chair little by little.
No, he can't make himself miserable, everyone will be worried. He wants to spend a lifetime with Lian Jun.
"What to do." He raised his hand to cover his face, his eyes blushing like a sleepy beast, "I can't bear you, what should I do."
Xiao Di didn't speak, and parting is too difficult for anyone.
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The more you want to keep something, the faster time seems to pass. Before he knew it, Shijin's birthday was coming again.
A week before his birthday, Fei Yujing made a special time to pick him up and go home for the weekend. On the returning car, he suddenly said: "Big brother is sick, he won't let me tell you."
Shi Jin was stunned, and then tightened his fingers.
"Xiao Jin, isn't the punishment over yet?" Fei Yujing asked, not blaming him, but simply doubting, "Can you tell me if there are any obstacles in your heart?"
"... I'm sorry." Shijin bowed his head, was silent for a while, and asked, "What's wrong with Brother, is it serious?"
"It's nothing, just a little fever." Fei Yujing replied. Seeing that he didn't want to say more, he stopped asking deeply, and said instead, "The eldest brother, as the president of Ruixing, hasn't appeared outside for so long. There have been rumors from the outside world. Up."
Shijin still lowered his head and said again, "I'm sorry."
Fei Yujing was a little helpless, and said, "Xiao Jin, I'm not blaming you. I just think that if you really have a heart knot, I suggest you go and talk with your eldest brother in person. Such procrastination will be torture for you."
"I know." Shijin hated being like this, his voice became dry, "I know... I'm really sorry."
The little death couldn't help calling him: "Go in..."
"I'm sorry." Shi Jin bent over and covered his face, standing in a dilemma at the fork in the road. Shi Weichong shouldn't continue to be punished, but he also didn't want Xiao Di to leave. What should I do? Who will teach him what to do? He also knew that dragging like this would be torture for everyone, but what should be done? Little death is not like other people, and may come back after leaving, so that he can see and touch.
Fei Yujing was startled by his reaction, frowned, drove the car to the side of the road and stopped, leaned over his shoulders, patted him lightly, and asked, "What's wrong?"
Shi Jin shook his head, for a long time, suddenly sat upright, looked at him sideways, smiled ugly at him, and said: "It's okay...Wait a little longer, you let the eldest brother wait a little longer, I will pick him up. Go in person."
Fei Yujing frowned deeply looking at the reluctant smile on his face and the lacklustre eyes.
…
On his birthday, Shijin didn't let any elder brothers come over to celebrate him, nor did they allow them to send gifts. After an ordinary day of class, he asked a counselor for a vacation, and came to Wanpu Garden by car alone.
The front door of Wanpu Garden was still locked. He walked along the door to a blind spot on the side of the street, climbed over the wall neatly, and followed his memory to the villa that he had only visited once.
The garden is still bare, and the artificial lake dug out is still not filled with water, and there are desolate and desolate scenes everywhere. He looked at them one by one, and finally came to the villa, stood outside for a while, then stepped forward to unlock the door with his fingerprints and entered the house.
Because of the work stoppage, all the water and electricity in the villa area have been cut off. He stood at the entrance and looked at the dim sunlight in the evening, and found that a thick layer of dust had fallen in the villa, and there was no sign of restarting construction at all.
His eyes dimmed, he bent over to open the shoe cabinet, took out the slippers that were also stained with a layer of dust, shaken them twice, and replaced them, stepping on the slippers and walking straight to the master bedroom on the second floor.
The furniture in the master bedroom was covered with white cloth. He stood for a while at the door and pulled off the cover of the bed. He found that there was only one mattress left on it, put down the cover, and came to the cloakroom.
The cloakroom was also empty. He wanted to find some bedding in it, but found nothing. It is so clean here, there are no traces of the last time he came.
It’s okay to leave a pillow...
He sighed in his heart, walked to the floor-to-ceiling window, touched the curtain that was tied up, and gently untied and pulled it up. He didn't think the tables and chairs by the window were dirty, just sat down in the dust raised by the curtains. He lay down on the table in the darkness blocked by the curtains and closed his eyes.
Happy birthday and good night.
Tomorrow will be a new day.
…
Shijin opened his eyes when it was dark. He got up and moved his stiff body, stepped forward to tie the curtains back, stood by the window, looked at the bright light from the sky, and said, "Little death, am I too selfish."
Xiao Di immediately replied: "No, it's best to enter you."
"Nice." Shijin smiled, patted the dust on his body, squinted at the rising sun, finally died, or finally accepted the reality, and said seriously: "Little death, I have tied you for so long, capricious. It’s been so long, I’m sorry. Everyone should be free, you and Big Brother are no exception, I shouldn’t drag you like this."
Xiao Wang realized something, his voice tightened, and said, "No, you didn't get in."
"How could it not... I actually wanted to tie you longer, it's too despicable." Shijin bowed his head, turned his back to the Chaoyang, and stretched his waist. "Thank you for spending my birthday with me. I'm very happy." … I’m leaving, it’s time to do what I have to do. Before the winter vacation, those things that you didn’t want to tell me before, this time you can tell me all the things you can do."
After so long, he finally figured it out and accepted his fate. The little death should have been happy, but as soon as the voice uttered, he was already crying. It whimpered some vague words that no one could hear, and as it spoke, it started crying utterly.
Shijin listened carefully to its crying, and used his memory to become particularly good to memorize these tones. In the past, he always felt that Xiao Di's cries were too noisy, but now he feels that these cries are treasures worthy of his lifetime.
…
When he stepped out of the wall, Shi Jin vaguely heard a noise coming from the gate of the villa area. He was puzzled, wondering if someone was jumping over the wall just like him, frowned, and hurriedly turned out and followed the wall to the gate.
At the door, a gray-haired old man was holding a key and immersed his head in opening the lock hanging on the door. Behind him stood a few workers wearing hard hats and holding drawings.
Shi Jin was stunned, then realized something, his heartbeat speeded up uncontrollably, and asked: "Master, are you the person in charge of this villa area? Work here is going to start again?"
The uncle looked over when he heard the sound, and looked up and down Shijin, the original serious expression suddenly cut into an enthusiastic smiling face, and then he answered, "Yes, it was actually time to start construction here yesterday, but the drawings were slow to come down yesterday. , So it dragged on for another day, and there was a bad temper from above... Alas, don’t talk about this, boy, why did you stay here alone early in the morning, dirty, and lost?"
It will be opened yesterday, yesterday...
"No, no, I'm just..." Shijin answered reflexively, a little stunned, and a little bit happy. He looked at the big lock opened in his hands and the workers behind him. His eyes lit up and he suddenly rushed forward. He hugged the uncle hard, and said happily, "I'm so happy, I had my birthday yesterday, and he must have done it deliberately! Uncle thank you, thank you, uncle, I love you!"
The uncle was taken aback, and hurriedly raised his hand to push him away. Seeing that he was as happy as a fool, he laughed unconsciously, and slammed his face when he was half laughing. He raised his hand and patted the ashes on his body. Said: "What is going crazy, you young man, really... Don't be happy! You should go to school, go to work, and go to work! Look at you in ash, be careful that your family beats you when you get home!"
"Yes, go to school, I want to go to school." Shi Jin was so happy that he couldn't find Beibei. He turned around and walked towards the subway station after a few steps. The lock pushed open the door a little bit, with a few silly sounds, and suddenly the nose began to sore again.
"Don't don't, don't do this, it's a happy thing." He raised his hand and rubbed his face frantically, before looking at the door that would open completely, then turned around and ran towards the subway station quickly.
Although he didn't contact Lian Jun, he knew that this was a birthday present from Lian Jun-it's coming back, and his big baby is finally coming back!
"Wow..." Xiao Di's cry suddenly rose a degree.
Outside the gate of the villa, the uncle who had already entered came out again, looking thoughtful at the back of Shi Jin leaving.
…
Shi Jin has an extra hobby, and every weekend he goes to Wanpu Garden to check the progress of the project. The uncle who opened the locks that day knew him well, and chatted with him curiously, only to realize that he was the owner of this place, and he bought a new house in it, ready to be used for marriage.
The uncle suddenly realized, and joked: "I said why you are so active, but someone in your family is an employee of Wanpu. I heard that this villa area was built by Wanpu's owner to live in a welfare community and not for sale."
Shijin nibbled on the grilled corn he bought from the street, and replied vaguely, "Well, that's right, my target is Wanpu."
"High-level?" Uncle asked.
Shi Jin smiled without saying a word.
The uncle slapped him badly. Seeing that he was speechless, he simply gave up, lit a cigarette and took a sip, and said, "Actually, my grandson is also from Wanpu, but he is a new employee this year. Only when the domestic branch office is established can we officially start to work. Wanpu’s welfare is really good. I can get the work of watching the scene, and it is all thanks to my grandson."
"Branch?" Shijin wondered.
"You don't know?" The uncle shook the soot and explained, "My grandson said that Wanpu decided to invest in the country in the first half of this year, but the government did not know why, and it has been stuck with Wanpu not letting it pass. However, Wanpu is domineering. While talking with the government, he bought a building and recruited people to start preparing for the opening. It seemed that the government was going to let go. No, the government finally let it go, otherwise Wanpu will be in the country this year. All the money spent is wasted."
In the first half of the year, wasn't it just not long after Lian Jun had fled the country
Shi Jin swallowed the corn, the corners of his mouth were not lifted, and his heart felt a little sweet. It seemed that Lian Jun had been working hard while he was waiting to suffer.
The uncle suddenly recollected and looked at Shijin suspiciously, and said: "No, you are with Wanpu, why don't you even know these? Although Wanpu is not well-known in China, the internal staff makes no sense. I don’t know this. Are you really a family member of a Wanpu employee? You are not a lie to me, are you?"
Shijin shuddered and waved his hand hurriedly, "What am I lie to you for, and can't grow a piece of meat... Then what, my brother is still waiting for me to eat, next week I will come to you again, goodbye!" , Did not look back.
The uncle watched him leave, the doubt on his face slowly faded, and he snorted: "This is Master Jun... Well, when the boss looked at it... Well, that little boss, how can you look stupid..."
"Gong Zhang!" A worker suddenly ran over and shouted to the side, and said anxiously, "There is something wrong with the artificial lake, please come and see!"
The old man's face turned dark, he stood up angrily, frowned, and said, "The guys outside are really not as useful as they can be trained by themselves... Here comes! Don't shout! They all said don't call me Zhang Gong on the weekend!"
The phone ringing suddenly rang, he stopped, took out the phone and looked at it, saw that it was a call from an old friend, smiled, hurriedly connected the phone, and said, "Hey, Lao Feng, how is your scientific expedition team? … Me? I’m fine, I got a job after traveling... No, no, I didn’t go to the school I said before... Hahaha, I can’t hide from you, don’t you worry about it, after all, it’s a monk... It’s where the boss will live in the future. I don’t have to come back and take a look... OK, wait for you to come back and have a drink together."