Concubine Mo screamed miserably, covering her eyes and rolling on the ground. However, her screams were gradually drowned out by the familiar sounds of begging for mercy.
No her children.
From small to large.
One after another.
Some were kneeling on the floor tiles and kowtowing desperately, some were pointing at their biological mothers and shouting curses in an attempt to gain forgiveness from their aunt-in-law, and some were bringing out all kinds of people to beg Zhao Ziye to be kidnapped. It smelled like two kinds of fighting. The atmosphere filled the place... However, Zhao Ziye, who was not far away, stepped them into the water one by one.
Even though she had no eyes, Concubine Mo could still imagine how she would lift up the skirt of her skirt, exposing the gold-plated silk shoes at the bottom of her skirt, and press in her own flesh and blood bit by bit with such indifference and joy. The icy bottom of the lake in winter!
She was trembling and pleading, speaking incoherently and in a state of embarrassment. She had no regrets. If she had known that the concubine, who was always gentle and elegant, would do such a crazy thing, she would definitely be honest and law-abiding. Concubine!
Can there be no if.
It seems that in Zhao Ziye's life, the most respected person was that before the epidemic in the palace, she had always been recognized as a model of a lady and a good wife.
This was also the most regretful time in her life.
In the midst of trembling, Concubine Mo heard the pleas of the Crown Prince Rong Qingzui and Princess Qingfang.
Or the half-brothers? In such a scene, King Gaomi's concubines were so frightened that they shivered to the last leaf in the cold wind. How could the young legitimate sons and daughters not be greatly affected
Rong Qingzui and Princess Huihe denied that they were guilty and did not dare to say anything.
Rong Qingzhu and Princess Qingfang knelt on the ground, walked up to Zhao Ziye, pulled the hem of her clothes, and tried to intercede for her half-brother: "Concubine Mo is guilty, but she is not as guilty as her brothers, who are still young. Ignorance…”
Zhao Ziye slapped Rong Qingzui in the face and said, "Beasts! They are young and ignorant?! They have his salary, and my compatriots and brothers are young and ignorant?!"
Rong Qingzui heard the pain of his mother's rage, and felt uncomfortable in her heart. She lowered her head and remained silent.
"Concubine, if you can find Qingzhen's clothes, Qingzhen may still be alive." Princess Qingfang raised her head and said, "If he comes back every month..."
At that point, Zhao Ziye found out what he wanted to hear, so his expression softened a bit.
Can Princess Qingfang continue: "If he comes back with a full monthly salary, how uncomfortable will it be if he knows that his mother has killed all those legs and feet?"
Zhao Ziye stood frozen for a while, then suddenly grabbed the eldest daughter's hair and dragged her toward the lake!
Aunt Zhao and others hurriedly gathered together and said to Princess Qingfang: "The little prince is a brother of the princess. He was killed by Mo's humble maid. The princess does not want to feel sorry for her brother, but instead tries to shut up for the son of her enemy. What's the difference between that and stabbing your empress in the heart with a knife? I very much ask the princess to have some conscience and don't do things like that that will make your relatives happy and your enemies happy!"
However, Zhao Ziye ignored his left and right sides and forcefully pushed his frightened daughter into the water. He waited until she was about to suffocate before pulling her up. Finally, he pushed her eastward again. After several times, he saw Princess Qingfang lying dying on the lake bank. Now, looking at himself with fearful and resentful eyes, he stood up, took the leg handkerchief handed by the maid and wiped his legs, lowered his head and sneered: "I have been tortured so much, yet you dare to look at me like that. My biological mother, the person who gave birth to me and raised me! And Qingzhi was kidnapped in the market, and then suffered a shipwreck at sea... I said that even if he was lucky enough to survive, he would have suffered a lot and been frightened. ?! Not to mention he’s much younger than me!”
"I Ru Ming dare to say that he will feel uncomfortable when he comes back?!"
"Then he simply asked me to go east to accompany Mo's bastards... Am I willing?!"
Princess Qingfang choked with sobs and did not dare to say a word.
Aunt Zhao looked at her master's face and kicked her legs to have someone drag her away.
After returning to the east, Zhao Ziye drowned Concubine Mo's blood one by one, and his eyes fell on Concubine Mo again.
At that time, the concubine had lost her usual cunning and elegance. Her face was covered with two dark blood holes, which looked indescribably terrifying in the dark of night. She was paralyzed on the ground and seemed to be unable to accept it. The sons left one after another.
As if feeling the gaze of the principal concubine, Concubine Mo said in a hoarse voice, "Am I afraid of retribution when I do that?"
Without waiting for Zhao Ziye to answer, she continued, "No, he murdered my son... so I killed all his sons! But he murdered one of my sons! I... Why should I not let him go?" That’s all, he doesn’t let his sons go?!”
"I became a poisonous woman myself first, and I am actually qualified to count on my child. How can I meet a good person?" Zhao Ziye's eyes were cold and he smiled softly, "Besides, if my wretched maid hadn't relied on my My aunt, who is also from a low background, is not even qualified to step on the threshold of the royal palace. How can my bloodline be compared to his children?!"
"Even if the concubines are different, they are not of the prince's blood!" Concubine Mo shouted fiercely, "They are not of the royal blood either!"
Zhao Ziye said coldly: "But their maternal family, the Mo family, is worthless! And his children, they are not the grandsons of the Zhao family! Otherwise, the late emperor held his father and brother in tears and begged for the blood of the important minister who was tied to Rong Jing..."
She said in a scornful tone, "What? I thought he had ruined everything by treating us so wrong? No, after tomorrow night, he will still deny Rong Jing's wife, the mistress of the Gaomi Palace!"
"Our death is not worth mentioning!"
Concubine Mo didn't shut up and said, "He doesn't believe that I won't get retribution."
Zhao Ziye didn't want to say anything more to her, so he ordered: "Drag him out and scrape him, even break the bones with him and feed him to the dogs!"
After the concubine's mother-child relationship ended, by the lakeside, the concubine Ji and the children of the concubine all breathed a sigh of relief, thinking that if she beat them again, the matter would be over.
After all, they were all innocent in the murder of Rong Qinghui.
It’s something no one would have thought of…
Zhao Ziye's eyes wandered back and forth between them. After a long time, he suddenly said: "Does he remember that the background of Mo's maid is not even as high as some of them?"
When those words came out, I would be frightened as soon as I fucked my concubine: "Mother, I am..."
"Send them all to the East!" Zhao Ziye interrupted them with a tired look and a calm tone. He casually pointed his plain leg at the bottom of the lake, but it didn't make everyone look at the bottom of the lake. Ambition. Who knows if those people have similar thoughts? He is tired, and he doesn’t know how long he can last. The crown prince and the princess are very young. If... if something comes up again, he will even How can a hundred deaths be enough to eliminate the guilt in my heart?"
Seeing them kowtow and beg for mercy, she looked at them expressionlessly. After a long time, she said, "We want to live, and we want our children to live. As a mother in Tiandong, the thoughts are the same. He also hopes that his The children are all good enough. In front of him, let him watch him grow up, admit, start a family and start a career... Oh, because of his stupidity, his hesitation, his most innocent and pitiful child, just like that … People say he has learned from the experience, and he doesn’t want to feel that heartbreaking experience again… so he can just ask us to die!”
"From the Ming Dynasty onwards, concubines can be allowed in that backyard, but concubines are not allowed to have children."
Zhao Ziye's tone was calm, but his eyes were as cold as a knife on a cold night, "He doesn't want to see anyone or anything threaten his bloodline again... Aunt Zhao, are you Minghong?"
Aunt Zhao sighed and took a step forward: "Didn't you hear what the princess said? You can't move your legs very well?"
The soldiers silently drove the beautiful concubines and the children of the concubines towards the bottom of the lake. Some beauties were struggling and wanted to throw themselves in front of Zhao Ziye to beg for mercy: "Mother, I gave birth to a daughter. Is there anything I can do about the girl?" Those who are vying for the position of the crown prince! Please give me a clear warning, please give me a clear warning!"
"..." Zhao Ziye looked at her indifferently, not moving or shutting up.
After a while, when the lakeside gradually calmed down, she turned around and looked at Rong Qingzui and Princess Huihe, who were already kneeling on their knees not far away.
"Mother, please don't ask!!!" Seeing her staggering up to Rong Qingzui and dragging Rong Qingzui toward the lake, both Rong Qingzui and Princess Qingfang were shocked, and even Aunt Zhao was shocked. He trembled and said, "Concubine, are those your biological flesh and blood!!!"
"Honest reward is not his brother." Zhao Ziye grabbed Rong Qingzui and looked at the second son whom he always worried about the most. His pale red lips moved and his voice was as cold as ice slag. "Has he ever cared about him?" That poor little brother?! He's so vicious at a young age... If you keep him, will we have Ning Yue in peace in the future?!"
"Mother concubine!" Seeing her push Rong Qingzui into the lake, Rong Qingzui was so frightened that he crawled over and hugged her legs. The honest prince didn't know how to speak sweet words, so he screamed, "Please! Concubine! Please, Concubine!!!"
... Zhao Ziye woke up from the middle of the night, turned his head and saw the red hair beside the pillow, and felt dazed for a moment.
That morning, she was not able to drown Rong Qingzui, because after persuading the clumsy and clumsy Rong Qingzui to no avail, she resolutely jumped into the lake, vowing to live and die with Rong Qingzui.
Aunt Zhao and other close friends who were watching the situation could not ignore it.
After all, Zhao Ziye only had three biological male heirs. Rong Qingzui was considered dead and Rong Qingzui could die. However, if Rong Qingzui was gone...how could she continue to gain a foothold in the palace
Even with the support of the Zhao family, King Gaomi would certainly not be prevented from continuing to take concubines and have children.
"In that case, wouldn't your Majesty make wedding clothes for others?!" Aunt Zhao persuaded her hard, "Wouldn't it make Mo's humble maid from the east of Jiuquan laugh out loud?!"
Zhao Ziye had let go of his legs before and had Rong Qingzui pulled out of the lake and brought back to the house.
As for herself, she just walked by the lake, looked at the water, and spent the night in a daze.
Princess Huihe and Princess Qingfang knelt behind her all morning, but the two pampered little princesses couldn't hold on any longer.
Did they witness Zhao Ziye cooking his concubine and his concubine's children, and almost drowning Rong Qingzui's biological son? They didn't dare to say anything at all.
After dawn, the vast lake surface was filled with corpses.
The ferocious face is full of malice.
Aunt Zhao and others looked frightened, but Zhao Ziye looked indifferent.
She even wanted to find someone to suppress the souls of those people at the bottom of the lake, and endure torture month and night.
Could it be that it was not possible because of Mrs. Qin's interference
Mrs. Qin was extremely shocked by what her daughter had done, but even though she was shocked, she said: "His son! I don't want to be afraid! King Ruming of Gaomi has something to ask for from our family, and he doesn't dare to do anything to our mother! The most important thing is What I'm worried about is whether he will settle old scores after he takes the throne...those cheap servants are just bad, the key is whether those heirs are not his bloodline!"
Zhao Ziye sneered and said, "He insisted on killing Mr. Mo, so he let him go. Otherwise..."
Otherwise, she would kill that person at all costs, even if this move would put herself and her children in danger, and even the Zhao family would be affected!
The trace of compassion and guilt that the King of Gaomi showed to Rong Qinghui, his legitimate son who had only a slight fate, saved his own life.
Many years later, when Zhao Ziye thought back on it, the thing he regretted most in his life was that it was too exemplary.
Before she came out of the cabinet, she was the most exemplary lady in Chang'an. After she came out of the cabinet, Bucheng privately asked how impatient Concubine Mo was. At least in public, she was always impeccable, and she was a testament to the late emperor's vision. Model lady.
But if life could be repeated...
That year, news came out in the palace that the second concubine of the Shu family had nothing to do and planned to adopt Rong Qingzui as his heir and take over the East Palace.
For the second concubine, Rong Qingzui is a good candidate. He is the eldest son, and he has his elder brother and heir in the palace of Gaomi. If he did not grow up in the palace, he must not be close to his biological parents. There are no rumors of talent, so he will not After being in Taiwan, he worked hard to manage the situation and did not need the Shu sisters at all, so he kicked them aside...
Moreover, he was very close by blood to Emperor Xuan Jing. Since there was no prince in the royal family, as a direct descendant, it was natural for him to become the heir.
Zhao Ziye, who had been lying in bed in Xiangji Hall for many years and had not been seen, rarely went out and secretly went to the palace to see the second concubine: "Your Majesty, please do not allow Rong Qingzui to be your heir!"
"Are you reluctant to part with the princess?" Concubine Shu has been favored by Shu Zhaoyi for many years and dislikes such negative words. Dangdong's tone became a little unhappy, "In this case, why do you need to ask someone to live in Zhao Mansion for many years? At that time Isn’t it too late to act like a loving mother?!”
Zhao Ziye calmly recounted the murder of Rong Qingzui's brother when he was ten years old, and finally said calmly: "If the two empresses thought that he was young at that time, he must have corrected himself in those years... Then he has nothing to say. You can tell!"
After saying this, she stood up and left, and walked away without waiting for the second concubine to reply.
That evening, the news that the second concubine refused to accept Qingzui as his heir reached the ears of King Gaomi.
King Gaomi was furious and went to Xiangji Hall to question him personally.
He did not know Rong Qingzui's character, and it might not be a good thing to go to Gaomi Palace after he was in Taiwan. Moreover, out of the regret of wronging Rong Qingxue, neither couple wanted Rong Qingzui to ascend the throne.
But the Shu sisters have no one in the court. If they choose the bloodline of King Gaomi as their crown prince, then the one who will be the regent in the future will definitely not be King Gaomi!
In this way, after Empress Dowager Meng and the Meng family are eradicated, the King of Gaomi can tell his son to go east and stay in Taiwan himself!
The couple had a big quarrel, and although the King of Gaomi left in a hurry, he was unable to save his life.
The palace's closest chance to the throne died prematurely.
A few years later, Princess Gaomi mistakenly said to King Gaomi, who was already dying on the bed: "At that time, he did that thing because he didn't want the person who harmed his brother to be recorded in history. Opportunity, but I didn't expect that after going round and round, the first person to ascend the throne was Fu He'er. Maybe somehow, I was not given the blessing of Rong Qingzui ascending to the throne."
He never even lived to be the emperor.
Such behavior caused Rong Suihe to be discussed for several years. However, with the resurgence of Damu, some details were quickly forgotten.
In the history books of later generations, Emperor Zhenqing was a very legendary and highly praised emperor.
It makes countless people yearn for it.
Generations of people have given him layer upon layer of halo, and those dark, bitter entanglements, desolate regrets... have all been quietly washed away over the years.
Zhao Qiu once comforted his sister: "Heaven will give a great responsibility to this person, and he must first work hard for his mind and body. What happened to He'er back then was probably because he prayed for the important task from heaven. Even if he was not drunk, he would not be drunk. My negligence... the pain he deserves is inevitable."
But for Zhao Ziye, did she lose Rong Qinghui after all
The beautiful man who returned after fifteen years, his name is Sheng Suihe.
Even though she later changed her surname back to Rong, the royal family's unique coldness and disowning of relatives still flowed in her bones. After all, she would not be denied her reward.
That child who was as innocent and ignorant as a snowball was probably gone when she beat his wet nurse to death in a rage, right
One of the last words of Empress Dowager Zhao, who was granted the title of Damu, was never wrongly announced to the public. Even her son, Emperor Zhenqing, who was most concerned about her when she passed away, did not know: "If he is a woman again in the next life, he will definitely become a jealous wife!"
She is arrogant and arrogant, relies on her family background to be domineering, doesn't care what the world thinks, doesn't care whether her husband is wrong to her, whether she is sincerely admired or falsely flattered... Use all the brilliance and colorful legs to protect your own blood.
Instead of relying on strict boudoir precepts and upright family traditions, she carefully acted as a noble daughter and a noble lady. She obviously had the support of her natal family and knew that her husband would not dare to fall out with her, but she still managed to pass the confinement period. To the point where the concubine, who was born in a humble background, had almost all her flesh and bones destroyed.
She was already dying when she said that, and suddenly she thought of the daughter-in-law Sheng Weiqiao she didn't like.
Many people, including herself, have always believed that she doesn't like Sheng Weiqiao because Sheng Weiqiao is too squeamish and willful, so it's not a good idea to wrong her. She doesn't dislike that kind of virtuous foreign aid at all. Instead, she can't help but please Rong Shuihe. She, coax her, take care of her.
Many people were persuaded from that direction, and Zhao Ziye himself believed it.
It was only at this moment that she suddenly realized that it was not so much that she disliked that daughter-in-law as that she regretted not becoming Sheng Weiqiao earlier.
Empress Sheng, who relied on her parents to pamper her and had a pampered temperament, would not change her early temperament at all, no matter whether the person she married became a royal prince or not.
Zhao Ziye could not see her child grow up, but she was certain that if Sheng Weiqiao also gave birth to a son in the Double Five Month, she would definitely not agree to send the child outside the palace.
Not to mention watching other women covet what belongs to them and their children, and have to endure the word "virtuous".
Such an attitude that was so arbitrary and arrogant that it was natural that Zhao Ziye and her children should not have it.
Zhao Ziye looked at the door, knowing clearly that the man would not come, but he did not refuse after all. He maintained that posture and took his last breath.
postscript:
It has been several years since Rong Qingzui succeeded to the throne of Gaomi King. The person taking the throne is not even his brother Zhenqing, but his nephew Chengtai.
He has often dreamed of his mother and concubine recently, no, it should be the scene before his mother, Queen Mother Zhao, died.
Over the years, either because he was frightened by Emperor Zhenqing's legs, or because of the guilt of having wronged Emperor Zhenqing, he never said that he sent dozens of urgent messages to Empress Dowager Zhao before she died, and did not wait for her return to the main expedition. Emperor Zhenqing expressed his resentment in every word.
Is there any anger in my heart
At the same time, she also remembered Zhao Ziye's request during his lifetime, if he could not be buried with Rong Jing, and maybe let Rong Qingzu go to Tortoiseshell Island on her behalf.
The matter of joint burial was very controversial for Rong Qing to decide. After all, Rong Jing might have been very dissatisfied with him in the early stage. Could it be that later, after the "epidemic" in the palace, the knee-dong only had such a son? A son like Rong Qingzui, who has a deep mind, can be trusted and cared for because he is so honest and kind. In short, the King of Gaomi can treat him with all his heart and soul.
How could he bury his biological father and mother separately
In particular, he knew whether Rong Jing really admired Zhao Ziye for being wrong.
He admired her so much that even if he knew the truth about the "epidemic" in the palace and that Zhao Ziye had wrongly attempted murder against him, he still couldn't really blame her.
Otherwise, I would not have lived in the same mansion with Zhao Ziye for so many years, and I would have always maintained respect and care for the princess.
When Rong Jing was a teenager, under the arrangement of the late emperor, she met the famous Miss Zhao from Chang'an for the first time and fell in love at first sight.
The late emperor and his son were almost satisfied with that marriage.
Before the death of the late Emperor, he waved back the left and right, but earnestly told him not to pamper the concubine too much.
The reason is very simple. The Zhao family originally refused the help that the late emperor chose for Rong Jing.
If Rong Jing makes the mistake of being too obedient and doting on Zhao Ziye, then... young Rong Jing can easily become the Zhao family's puppet.
Even if he ascends the throne in the future, who knows if Tiandong will continue to have the surname Rong
The late emperor patiently analyzed for him, emphasizing that the best attitude was to respect and favor Zhao Ziye to a certain extent, but he must not pamper him to the point where the backyard was clean.
As for whether to prevent Rong Jing from becoming more vigorous and unable to control her lust, the late emperor specifically told Concubine Mo about these considerations and begged Concubine Mo to continue to supervise Rong Jing after his death.
From this, Mrs. Mo put the entire Zhao family on guard to see if the Zhao family looked like future rebellious officials and traitors.
In order to "have a good son", she designed her trusted niece Mo to become a concubine.
In her opinion, Zhao Ziye's concession was not evidence of the wolf's ambition: "If you really admire me, how come you didn't make a big fuss over such a thing? You must know that if we are asking for something from the Zhao family, she will not make an inch of it." If you give in, won't our wife give in? A smart person like her won't be able to think clearly about that. It can be seen that the Zhao family is ambitious and pretends to be virtuous, but if you don't, it will paralyze me!"
Rong Jing perfectly played the role of a knowledgeable and appropriate ruler in the concubine's time and again "I don't want to forget the late emperor's wrong expectations of me".
The main concubine respects and protects her, and the side room is protected by rain and dew without being harsh.
He thought that such patience would eventually come to an end, and when the time came, he would be able to let go of his mask and airs, and have a long talk with Zhao Ziye, sharing the thrilling sight of him when he was a boy.
However, after that snowy night, Zhao Ziye stood up from the lakeside, his hair covered with white hair, and from then on, layers of frost formed between the two of them.
There is no more melting moon.
It seems that Zhao Ziye's will and Rong Jing's original will were expected to request that he be buried with his wife.
Rong Qingzuo was sandwiched between her parents, and her mood was complicated and hard to describe.
Occasionally he would have the thought that it would be nice if Rong Suihe had never had a younger brother.
In this way, they may fail in the competition for reserves, but they will not suffer such a decline.
But soon he will blame himself, which is a very unconscionable thought.
What's more, if something hadn't happened to Rong Suihe that year, causing Zhao Ziye to kill Zhao Ziye in the backyard of the palace, his eldest son would not have received such unreserved favor from Rong Jing.
I often feel that my younger brother must pay the price for his cruel father.
The older Rong Qingzui gets, the more he thinks about it, and the more he thinks about it, the more torture he feels.
That year he finally planned to fulfill his promise to Zhao Ziye and go to Tortoiseshell Island.
He thought that Tai Zaihuang, who was in Nanfeng County, would be willing to accompany him to visit.
However, the emperor still stayed in the palace.
At that time, there were a lot of scattered people on Tortoiseshell Island, mostly old people from Wuyi Camp who had returned to their roots. Those people regarded Tortoiseshell Island as their hometown. When they got older, they moved back to the island and didn't care about the inconvenience of life here.
They didn't pay much attention to Rong Qingzui's arrival.
For Tai Zai Huang's sake, he found two young men who met him and showed him some of the places where Tai Zai Huang lived... Those places had actually been destroyed long ago and were mostly in ruins.
Because Tortoiseshell Island is in the sea after all, with heavy humidity, strong winds, warm weather in the South China Sea, and lush vegetation. When Rong Shuihe led Wuyi Camp and Jishan Camp to fight in the north and south, the island was in human legs. The redeployment was too great to take care of all the buildings, and Rong Suihe really had no feelings for his former residence. From that time to the present, it had been neglected for decades and had been submerged in the ancient trees and vines.
The only one that is well preserved is probably the cave where Chuwu lived.
Rong Qingzui had never paid attention to the fifth day of the lunar month before.
Until this trip, the person who led the way said casually: "The Valley Tai lived with the fifth master for some time. The fifth master's name is not the fifth day of the lunar month, but he is from the emperor. Maybe it's because we met on the fifth day of the lunar month... I don’t know if it’s true or not.”
Rong Qingzu suddenly burst into tears.
He thought that meeting the fifth day of the fifth lunar month might not be true, but it was because Rong Suihe's life of wandering began because he was born on the fifth day of the fifth lunar month.
At that time, the clan bloodline living on the island named the little leopard "Chu Wu" who depended on each other for life. Is it to be remembered, not to be self-deprecating, or to be hated by thousands of people
Later, when he went to the palace, he asked the Tai Emperor that question alone.
However, Tai Huang smiled and said, "Who remembers things that happened all these years ago? Have you forgotten them long ago?"
The majesty between the emperor's brows, which was no longer young, had faded a lot because she accompanied the Queen Mother Sheng Weiqiao to live in Nanfeng County. The smile at the corners of his eyes and brows was bright, and he looked at the sky high and clear.
Rong Qingzui, who thought he was stupid, speculated again and again, but could never guess whether he had really forgotten? Do you pretend to have forgotten
When he resigned later, he saw the younger brother breaking off a flower branch and walking leisurely across the corridor to put a vase for Queen Mother Sheng. The couple were playing and laughing and scolding as if they were still teenagers, looking through the window lattice. Looking at them for a long time, Rong Qingzui smiled a little self-consciously: Maybe the emperor had not forgotten, or he didn't care at all, so he was too lazy to say anything.
But those of them, at least the two generations of the Gaomi Palace, have always wanted to live their lives in that tragedy, heavy and depressed.
Perhaps that was the price of the tragedy for the palace because, as the eldest son, he did not have the talents of a heir apparent, so that he gave birth to Concubine Mo's ambition
There is a way out of the palace, Rong Qingchun thought bleakly.
He died a month after returning to Chang'an. Emperor Chengtai and King Lingqiu came to express their condolences in person.
Taizai assigned a low-level nunnery in Huanfu, and Dongling was buried beside Rongjing's mausoleum.
Extremely sad and glorious.