Hearing this, Xie Ruhe lowered his eyes, recalling Shu Nian's appearance again. He couldn't quite believe his guess, and murmured as if talking to himself: "Psychological..."
"But maybe it's her family's book." Fang Wencheng just reported it casually without thinking too much. "It's also possible that Shu Nian is interested in this aspect, or that the role he played before has something to do with psychology."
Xie Ruhe suddenly remembered his birthday.
After Shunian had said a lot of positive words to him, the words came out of nowhere.
She was still very positive at first, but her mood dropped in an instant, as if it was something that would make her feel very unhappy if she mentioned it.
——"Actually, I am also sick, and I am also working hard to cure it."
And after he asked, she hid her emotions again, as if she didn't want him to know. She said to him very calmly: "I have a cold."
Xie Ruhe believed it, and asked Fang Wencheng to buy her a big bag of cold medicine.
But it doesn't seem like that.
What really made her unhappy was something more serious. It was something that would make her feel embarrassed, she didn't want to tell anyone, and she never showed the slightest sign in front of him.
Xie Ruhe's Adam's apple rolled, and he suddenly said, "Turn around."
Back home, Shu Nian went straight into the room after checking the doors and windows as usual. She curled up in the innermost part of the bed expressionlessly, staring fixedly in a certain direction, as if in a daze.
Her mind was in a mess, hundreds of pictures flooded up.
After an unknown amount of time, Shu Nian softly said a word.
"I don't want to go out."
At the same time, the doorbell rang at the entrance.
Shu Nian raised his head bluntly, his eyes were empty, and there was no sign of opening the door.
But the doorbell continued to ring, every few seconds, and lasted for more than ten minutes. Shu Nian's eyelashes moved, her face was pale and bloodless, she sat up blankly.
The doorbell is still ringing.
Shunian came back to his senses, and his sanity gradually returned. Breathing calmly, she walked slowly to the door, looking vigilantly along the cat's eyes.
The lights in the corridor are very bright, and the warm yellow tone softens the man's face. He didn't seem to be impatient because of this long time of no response, but just a little more worried.
Shu Nian paused, and immediately opened the door: "Why are you here?"
The house where Shunam lives is a stairway room.
Even if he only needs to climb nine steps, Shu Nian knows that it is extremely difficult for Xie Ruhe. He was not in a wheelchair, he was holding crutches with both hands, and there was no figure of Fang Wencheng beside him.
Counting the time when the doorbell rang just now, Xie Ruhe had already stood here for more than ten minutes.
It was past twelve o'clock at this time, and the temperature in the night seemed to be freezing, turning into countless invisible blades, cutting the skin, bringing an extremely clear coolness.
Seeing her open the door, Xie Ruhe's brows and eyes widened, as if he was relieved. He stared at Shu Nian's face, and said softly, "I just don't think I can go back like that."
Shu Nian pursed his lips and reached out to support him: "You come in first."
Xie Ruhe leaned on crutches, walked in small steps, and slowly moved to the sofa.
After setting him down, Shu Nian took the kettle to the water dispenser to fill in water, and then sat next to him. She hugged the kettle and put it on the tea table to boil. The sound of the kettle running was loud, echoing in the quiet living room.
Neither of them spoke.
Soon, the kettle made a clicking sound.
Xie Ruhe held the handle of the pot first, lowered his eyes and poured water into the two cups in front of him.
Shu Nian was very quiet, staring blankly at the transparent water flowing out from the mouth of the pot, exuding white mist, dispersing in the air, and disappearing in an instant.
Xie Ruhe licked his lips and asked, "What's wrong with you today."
Shu Nian didn't look at him, but lowered his gaze, and said in a low voice, "Can I not talk about it?"
Xie Ruhe said: "Yes."
"..." Shu Nian played with the thread on the corner of his clothes, like a child who has done something wrong, he dared not look up, to avoid embarrassment and find something for himself to do.
"Are you ready to go to bed?" Xie Ruhe was not good at chatting, and said bluntly, "I don't think you are very happy, so I came up to see you, nothing happened."
Shu Nian's voice was muffled: "Yes."
Xie Ruhe asked in a low voice: "Aren't you happy?"
Shu Nian stopped the movement of his hands, raised his head suddenly, and asked softly, "Do you think I did something wrong just now?"
Xie Ruhe was stunned: "What?"
"I was just now." Shu Nian brought up what happened just now, his tone was a bit strained, with a shallow nasal voice, "I was downstairs, I pretended I didn't hear it. You saw it, I pretended I didn't hear it."
Xie Ruhe lowered his head and found that her eyes were red and she was crying. He opened his mouth and lost his words in an instant. He didn't know what to say, and he didn't know why this incident had such a big impact on her.
"you… "
"I used to always feel that." Shu Nian wiped his tears with the palm of his hand, unable to restrain his emotions. Treating him like a tree hole, she stumbled and said, "You must not do bad things in this life, and you must not stand idly by when you see others in trouble."
"..."
"Good and evil will be rewarded in the end, and the law of heaven is reincarnation. If you do bad things, no matter what, you will definitely get retribution on yourself in the end." Shunian held back his tears, "If you always treat yourself as a bystander, you will be able to find yourself when others are in danger. However, he is unwilling to lend a helping hand. In the future, if he encounters dangerous things, he will only be treated coldly by others."
Xie Ruhe didn't know what happened at all, he raised his hand and patted her on the back hesitantly.
"I've always thought this way, and I've always done this." Shu Nian whimpered, "I've helped so many people, and I've never done anything bad, why is it that no one is willing to help me..."
"..."
"My father was so good, he was such a good person, but he passed away so early. He saved so many people in his life, but he ended up like this." Shu Nian murmured, "No good man will be rewarded. Yes. Then why should I help others, why should I feel guilty."
Xie Ruhe took a deep breath and held her hand: "Shu Nian, what are you talking about?"
"If someone was really victimized there just now, and I pretended not to hear, she might be dead now." Shu Nian whispered, "But it has nothing to do with me. I might get hurt if I pass by. I can't let you past…”
Xie Ruhe seriously interrupted her: "But no one was injured, you were wrong."
"But what if."
"You feel scared, so you said that it seems that you heard it wrong." Xie Ruhe said seriously, "But after that, if you don't hear any movement over there, you won't just walk away like this."
"..."
"If you don't dare to go there, you will go to the security guard and ask the security guard to come and see." Xie Ruhe patiently reasoned with her, "Because of that voice and your own words, you imagined a situation that would not happen. You think you will treat it as if you didn’t see it, and take all the consequences that didn’t happen on yourself. This is wrong.”
Shu Nian didn't shed any more tears, as if he had listened to his words.
Xie Ruhe said: "Don't think about it anymore."
Shu Nian rubbed his eyes, and said in a low voice, "Did you think I was stupid before?"
Xie Ruhe paused: "No."
"I know that others think I'm stupid and think my words are weird." Shu Nian said, "My thoughts are weird, what I do is meaningless, and people think I'm meddling in my own business."
"..."
"I also occasionally think, as if it really doesn't make sense."
Xie Ruhe took out a tissue and put it in her hand: "Don't you have any?"
Shu Nian was silent and wiped away tears with a tissue.
He suddenly asked: "Then what about me?"
Shu Nian looked up at him, his eyes were still red: "What."
Xie Ruhe's eyes were dark but bright, as if there were stars twinkling in them: "Do you think the things you did to me before are meaningless?"
Shu Nian sniffed and whispered, "What did I do to you?"
"Many, very good things." Xie Ruhe stared at her, "Others think it is meaningless, but this is something that the person concerned will be grateful for and remember for a lifetime."
"..."
"I don't know what bad things have happened to you. But at least, what you did was not wrong. It's other people who are wrong. You don't need to feel guilty, and don't be unhappy because of it."
Shu Nian stared at him blankly, her breathing became shallower.
Thinking of what she said before, Xie Ruhe asked her: "Do you feel scared?"
"Yeah." Shu Nian lowered his eyes and said honestly, "Every day I think about going out, I feel a little scared."
"..." Xie Ruhe looked at her, his eyes darkened.
Shu Nian didn't notice. After a while, she asked sullenly, "What should I do if I encounter this kind of thing again in the future?"
"If you do meet." Xie Ruhe seemed to be educating a child, "In the past two months, you can ask the security guards and the police for help, as long as you ensure your own safety. It is natural to be afraid, but it does not mean that you will do nothing. Wrong thing."
Noticing that he said the time, Shu Nian didn't listen to what he said later, and looked confused.
"Two months? After that two months?"
"Two months later." Xie Ruhe's eyes narrowed slightly, tinged with tenderness. His voice paused, he stared at her, and his tone seemed to promise, "You can find me."