Chatting with him now, Shu Nian felt like he was chatting with his psychiatrist Wang Yue. Talk to him, and he will give her some correct guidance and encouragement in a timely manner, so that her emotions will gradually calm down.
But it seems a little different.
Shu Nian had seen it on the Internet, and when she went to see a psychiatrist, such a situation often occurred.
Because I have no reservations about the psychiatrist, I feel that only he can understand me, and I feel very relaxed when staying with him, and then a special emotion will be fermented.
It's not the feeling between doctors and patients, it's more between men and women, and it will make your heart beat.
Shu Nian had never felt this way in Wang Yue, but at this moment, she felt as if she had found it in Xie Ruhe. It was an emotion that made her head go blank, and she didn't know how to react at all.
It was the first emotion she had tasted after living for so long.
Shu Nian hesitated and asked: "Looking for you...."
Xie Ruhe raised his hand, hesitantly paused for two seconds, then continued to raise it upwards, patted her head comfortingly, and repeated firmly: "Well, you can find me."
Once upon a time it was you who lit up my world.
Now that you have fallen into the abyss, even if I cannot protect myself, I am willing to save you from it.
I would also like to hold the light you gave me with both hands and give it back to you.
Xie Ruhe didn't let Shu Nian see him off, but asked Fang Wencheng to come up and help him down. He stood at the stairs and said goodbye to her: "Then let's set off fireworks together next time."
Shu Nian nodded slightly: "Okay, goodbye."
She looked at the backs of the two, lowered her eyes, and brought in the bucket at the door.
Shu Nian leaned against the door panel and squatted down, holding his legs with his hands, a little absent-minded. I don't know what to think. After a long time, she suddenly stood up and hopped back to the room with her bare feet.
Soon he remembered that it was too late now, so he calmed down all of a sudden.
She took the clothes to the bathroom and took a quick shower. There seemed to be a paste with pink bubbles in her head, and she no longer felt that kind of fear.
I just feel that I am filled with everything else, and my heart is full and full.
Shu Nian covered his face, hot water slid down from the top of his head, clear and clear, washed away all the negative emotions, and washed away the thoughts he had in a flash.
Inexplicably, she thought of Xie Ruhe's appearance again.
Short hair, black and bright peach blossom eyes, thick and long eyelashes covering them like crow feathers, straight nose bridge, lips like petals. When he speaks seriously, he will close his eyes, as if he is discharging electricity, and the corners of his lips will be slightly curved.
Thin and tall, with a noble and outstanding temperament.
Kind of nice.
Isn't it a little nice.
Shu Nian got dressed in a daze, wiped his head with a towel and returned to the room. Because I just took a shower, the water drops are still falling down the tail of my hair, my face is fair, and the sides are dyed with a light powder.
She sucked her nose and whispered, "It's pretty."
The soft voice dissipated in the quiet room and melted into the air.
Shu Nian came back to his senses in an instant, and after realizing what he said, he threw the towel aside. She raised her head dumbly, and hammered her forehead vigorously.
Did she have unreasonable thoughts about Xie Ruhe...
"Don't think about it." Shu Nian's tone was dull, and then he repeated it emphatically, "Don't think about it."
Shu Nian didn't want to let himself think about it, so he simply found something to do. She picked up the script on the bedside table, marked her lines with a highlighter, and recited it casually: "How could this man exude such a fatal attraction..."
"..." Shu Nian pursed his lips, turned a page, and continued to write, "Sissy, I like a friend of mine, what should I do?"
Shu Nian: "..."
She capped her pen and fell back, burying her face in the pillow, kicking the air hard with her feet. After a long time, Shu Nian calmed down, a little dazed and at a loss.
Shu Nian picked up his mobile phone and looked up "What should I do if I like my good friend" online, and saw a row of negative answers. She backed out immediately, recalling the scene just now.
She paused, hesitantly changed the word "good friend" into "psychiatrist".
Most of the answers come from empathy, finding support in times of vulnerability, relying on your therapist, and possibly misinterpreting such emotions as love.
Shu Nian digested these words ignorantly.
She let out a breath, didn't continue to read these contents, and clicked on WeChat. Only then did I realize that Xie Ruhe had sent her several WeChat messages—
[I'm going to find you now.]
[What’s wrong with you.]
[I'm at your door.]
Shu Nian licked his lips, not knowing what to reply.
Noticing a red dot in the address book, Shu Nian subconsciously clicked on it, it was a friend request. She glanced at the information, the person on the profile picture was Xu Zeyuan, and the note said: [Shu Nian, I am Xu Zeyuan, I want to talk to you.]
Her gaze paused for a second, then she backed away. Afterwards, he replied to Xie Ruhe: [Be careful on the road.]
It has been more than a month since I last saw Xu Zeyuan.
Shu Nian almost forgot about him. She felt that now that he was famous, he should be busy with a lot of things every day, so he shouldn't contact such a worthless person as her.
But he came to her again.
Shu Nian didn't quite understand him.
When he first entered school, Shu Nian's first impression of him was actually very bad. She felt that he was foolish, not serious and playful, always appearing beside her inexplicably, saying some inexplicable words.
Later, he confessed to her and said that he liked her very much the first time he saw her.
But he always maintains an attitude of neither far nor near with other girls, ambiguous as if he is merciful everywhere, and the rain and dew are even. Shu Nian didn't have a good impression of him, and always felt that he was not a serious person.
She always spoke directly, and she didn't know how to be tactful when she refused, which shocked Xu Zeyuan greatly, and because of this, she stopped for a while.
It has been a while since I saw Xu Zeyuan again.
That day when Shunian came out of the library, it was raining heavily outside. She was holding an umbrella and was about to leave, but she heard his voice calling her, telling her that he didn't bring an umbrella.
Shu Nian hesitated, but decided to send him back.
Along the way, Xu Zeyuan didn't speak much. Shu Nian had nothing to say, and planned to lend him the umbrella, the girls' dormitory is not far away, so she just ran back.
But the next moment, Xu Zeyuan immediately tilted the umbrella and put it all on top of her head.
His body was exposed to the rain again, and was washed by the rain.
It reminded her of Xie Ruhe back then.
I also remembered the self who didn't want to know anything clearly at the beginning, but only relied on some details to draw conclusions without authorization, a bit judging people by their appearance, and immediately put bad labels on good people.
Shu Nian felt that he had made this mistake again with Xu Zeyuan.
She reflected for a while gloomily.
After that, Shu Nian changed his attitude towards Xu Zeyuan, no longer resisting him like before, and gradually became friends with him. Through getting along, she found that she seemed to have misunderstood him before.
He is actually a big boy who loves to play.
For other girls, I will grasp the right amount, and I will take serious matters seriously.
At the end of the last semester of his junior year, Xu Zeyuan confessed to her again.
Shu Nian didn't know if he liked him or not, but the feeling of staying with him was really not annoying, and he felt quite comfortable. She thought about it for a long time, and finally agreed.
A boy insisted on chasing her for two and a half years.
There will always be moments of softness.
Shu Nian didn't know if her decision was correct, but at that time, she really took this relationship very seriously. She always thought that after falling in love, the relationship between the two would not change much from before.
But she forgot that there will be intimacy between lovers.
Shunian is not very used to it, and also feels awkward. Because of this matter, she took the initiative to talk to Xu Zeyuan once.
Xu Zeyuan said that he doesn't mind and is willing to proceed step by step.
In less than half a year, Xu Zeyuan broke up with her.
For Shu Nian at that time, this sudden breakup was just another handful of salt on the torn wound. For her, it was almost numb.
This short love also told her a truth.
Xu Zeyuan didn't like her as much as he had shown before. Otherwise, she wouldn't choose to retreat when she fell to the bottom.
So now he came to look for him, Shu Nian really couldn't figure out the reason.
But the appearance of this person also allowed her to suppress the little spark that had just appeared to Xie Ruhe.
Shu Nian looked at Xie Ruhe's reply and was stunned.
Xie Ruhe: [Alright, go to bed early.]
She didn't reply again.
Whether it is a misunderstanding or a fact, it is not what she should think about now. She shouldn't harm anyone until the disease is completely cured. What's more, it was Xie Ruhe.
is her best friend.
On the way back.
Xie Ruhe's appearance was not as gentle as in front of Shu Nian, there was a faint gloomy look in his brows and eyes, and he was looking out the window at the scene of running backwards. Exuding an extremely unbearable emotion.
Fang Wencheng drove the car in silence, not daring to speak.
After a while, Xie Ruhe whispered: "Go and check what happened to Shunian before."
Before Fang Wen agreed, Xie Ruhe suddenly remembered the conversation with Shu Nian just now.
- "What happened to you today."
— "Can I not say it?"
It's something she doesn't want others to know.
I don't want him to know either.
Xie Ruhe's masseter muscles tightened, and the curves of his facial features straightened. His appearance was buried in the darkness, and the light and shadow from the window were intertwined, his expression was gloomy and gloomy, and he seemed extremely sad.
Fang Wencheng nodded, and replied: "Okay."
Xie Ruhe closed his eyes, his voice was hoarse and frustrated: "Forget it."
Fang Wencheng nodded again, without further questioning: "Okay."
The car fell silent.
After a while, Fang Wencheng hesitated, and mentioned something: "Master, your grandfather called and said that your father is seriously ill now, I hope you can go to see him."
"..." Xie Ruhe's eyelids moved, as if he hadn't heard this character for a long time, he suddenly raised his eyes. He hooked the corners of his lips, his peach blossom eyes slightly raised: "My father?"
Fang Wencheng bit the bullet and said, "Yes."
Xie Ruhe put away his smile in an instant, his voice was as cold as an ice knife, sharp and merciless, it could easily cut a person's flesh, it was extremely cold.
"Is he not dead yet?"