After finishing speaking, Shu Nian didn't care about his reaction. She lowered her head, walked around him, and walked in the direction of the cashier. Although he was venting his anger, his emotions were not at all comfortable.
He was no longer heard behind him.
Walked a long way.
Shu Nian suddenly thought of Xie Ruhe's legs, stopped in his footsteps, tightened his grip on the handle, and then let go. She felt that this kind of thought was very bad, and she was still angry because of his weird behavior, but when she thought of this—
You will feel that you are angry with him, which is really inappropriate.
It was because of such a desperate thing that he was picked up by his grandfather and left Shiyan Town. Did something happen later? Then it became what it is now.
Shu Nian really hoped that he had lived a good life.
If not as good, at least not as it is now.
You can see that you are not happy.
Shu Nian secretly glanced back.
Sure enough, he didn't keep up.
She felt a little melancholy for no reason, she stood in a stalemate with herself for a while, and walked back resignedly.
But Xie Ruhe is no longer in his original position.
Shu Nian stood there for half a minute, feeling a little bored, and left this area. She looked down at her phone, and when she looked up again, she happened to see Xie Ruhe coming from the snack area.
Shu Nian was stunned.
Unlike just now, besides the pack of sanitary napkins that Shu Nian threw to him just now, Xie Ruhe had five or six more packs in his arms. The size of a pack is not small, and it is piled up in his arms, which looks kind of contrasting and cute.
Shunian is very familiar with that packaging, it's the mango-flavored fudge she's been fond of for a long time.
Xie Ruhe moved the wheelchair with one hand, holding Tang with the other. One was unstable, and a bag fell to the ground.
With a snap, he rolled between the two of them.
Shu Nian walked up to him, picked up the candy before him, and handed it to him.
Xie Ruhe raised his thin eyelids, looked at her, and took it in silence.
Shu Nian stood up straight, but not much taller than he was sitting in the wheelchair. She lowered her head and apologized first: "I'm sorry, I was talking nonsense just now."
Xie Ruhe didn't keep silent any longer, his voice was hoarse and slightly heavy, unlike the youthful voice he had in the past.
"what."
Shu Nian didn't look at him, pointed to the pack of sanitary napkins in his hand, and emphasized in a low voice, "I didn't think you wanted to use that."
Xie Ruhe: "..."
Shu Nian was still standing in front of him, looking downcast, and didn't speak anymore. She remained motionless, as if she would not leave half a step without his forgiveness.
Xie Ruhe didn't go into a stalemate with her: "I know."
Shu Nian's expression was obviously relaxed, and he looked at him again: "Do you still want to buy something?"
Xie Ruhe said indifferently: "No need."
Shu Nian thought for a while, and suggested: "Then let's pay together?"
Xie Ruhe paused and nodded.
The two went to one of the lines at the cash register, one behind the other.
They are not talkative people, Shu Nian did not talk to him again, and Xie Ruhe did not take the initiative to speak. The two remained unspeakably awkward, as if they were real strangers.
Shu Nian stood in front, never looking back at him. She paid the money first, then stood aside and waited for him.
Noticed the cashier picked up the pack of sanitary napkins, ready to scan the barcode. Shu Nian suddenly came to his senses, helped him and said to the cashier: "Hello, I don't want this."
The cashier paused and looked at Xie Ruhe: "Don't you want it?"
Xie Ruhe hesitated for a while, but still said: "Yes."
"..."
"What did you buy it for?" Shu Nian turned to look at him with a puzzled expression, "Did you really buy it?"
Xie Ruhe avoided her gaze and hummed unnaturally.
After he took the bag from the cashier, the two walked towards the escalator. Shu Nian still felt a little strange, but quickly figured it out: "Oh, did you buy it for your girlfriend?"
Hearing this, Xie Ruhe stopped moving the hand of the wheelchair and stopped in place.
Noticing it from the corner of his eye, Shu Nian turned around: "What's wrong?"
Xie Ruhe's eyes were drooping, as if he was thinking about something, but there was no movement for a long time. Then, he suddenly lifted the bag in his hand and handed it to her: "Here you are."
Shu Nian was stunned: "Give it to me?"
Xie Ruhe nodded and repeated: "Here."
"Why did you give it to me?" Shu Nian was at a loss, but noticed that the bag was transparent, and it seemed awkward for him to hold it, so he could only say, "Then I'll take this out."
In addition to the pack of sanitary napkins, there are five packs of mango jelly in the bag.
Xie Ruhe shook his head: "It's all for you."
This time, he didn't wait for Shunian's response, and directly stuffed the bag into her hand. The fingertips touched her palm, trembled slightly, then retracted quickly, and then walked forward on their own.
Shu Nian stood there for a few seconds, his expression still dull.
When we were acquainted before, Shu Nian didn't understand what Xie Ruhe was thinking. Now after so many years, the relationship has become estranged, and she is even more puzzled by his actions.
Shu Nian didn't think any more, followed up and asked, "How do you want to go back?"
Xie Ruhe didn't answer, but instead asked, "Why did you answer?"
"I take the subway."
"it is good."
It didn't say what he said. Shu Nian glanced at him, but said nothing.
On the contrary, Xie Ruhe saw her hands full, and after a moment of silence, he took the initiative and said, "I'll get it for you."
Shu Nian shook his head: "No need."
Hearing this answer, Xie Ruhe's expression paused, his eyes deepened, and his mood became obviously worse. He clenched the bag in his hand, and said in a soft, cool voice, "Why."
Not knowing why he was suddenly unhappy, Shu Nian whispered, "Why?"
His expression was dark: "Do you think I can't help you?"
Shu Nian didn't hear clearly: "What?"
The two happened to leave the gate of the supermarket.
The strong wind blows, melts into the night, and shuttles among the crowd.
Xie Ruhe didn't mention what he said just now, his black eyes seemed to be mixed with ink, deep and sinking. He raised his head, showing an inferior posture for the first time.
"Shu Nian."
This was the first time he called her name after they met again.
Shu Nian stopped in his tracks, wondering, "What's wrong?"
Xie Ruhe turned his back to the light, his whole face was buried in the darkness, but his eyes were bright and clear. He raised his lips and said in a vague voice, "Why didn't you ask me why my legs became like this."
"I don't think you necessarily want to say it." Shu Nian tightened his grip on the bag, feeling a little overwhelmed, his heart seemed to be pinched, and he couldn't breathe, "Besides, that wouldn't be a good memory either. Could it be It's getting better and better."
If someone came to ask her, why did she become like this.
Shu Nian is also unwilling to say.
Those are very bad memories.
She wouldn't want to relive it all over again.
"Getting better..." Xie Ruhe's Adam's apple rolled, his eyes dimmed, as if he had recognized the reality, his voice became low and hoarse, "Shu Nian, I'm on a different path from you."
Shu Nian didn't mind either: "Is someone coming to pick you up?"
Xie Ruhe neither affirmed nor denied it. Then, he finally told the reason why he has been following her today: "The phone call you made yesterday was mine. If you need help in the future, you can call me."
"..."
He also said something, his voice was very low, Shu Nian couldn't hear clearly.
Shu Nian still wants to ask.
Xie Ruhe turned around and walked in another direction without even saying goodbye.
Shu Nian was carrying a big bag of things, borrowed a shared bicycle from the side, and rode all the way to the subway station. From this station to the subway station near her home, it takes about fifteen minutes.
It's only a ten-minute walk home.
It was still early, and the shops on the street were still open. The neon lights and street lights are brightly lit, and the laughter of couples and the shouts of vendors can be heard. The colorful night market is extremely lively.
Shu Nian bought a sauce pancake nearby, and then walked in the direction of his own community.
Along the way, she kept thinking about Xie Ruhe's words.
I feel a little inexplicable, and I feel a little depressed and unhappy because of this. Shu Nian didn't know where his unhappiness came from, it was clear that his words did not carry any malice.
Although he lied to her on the phone, he was still so confident.
She doesn't think about it anymore.
He began to recall what Xie Ruhe's last words were.
that lip shape...
I got used to lip-syncing the book and read, and my memory is not bad.
Thinking about it now, Xie Ruhe should have said seven words.
But what he said was really too vague, and the opening and closing of his lips and teeth were not obvious. Shu couldn't read lips, so he really didn't know what he was talking about.
Shu Nian was free and had nothing to do, and kept talking according to his mouth shape along the way.
When she got downstairs, Shu Nian looked around to make sure there was no one around, so she ran up to the second floor in one go, quickly opened the door and locked it behind her.
Panting for breath, the whisper she had been muttering came out at this moment: "Don't be bullied by others."
Shu Nian was stunned for a moment, and repeated it again, but still couldn't believe it. I just felt that Xie Ruhe would not say such words, but these words perfectly matched his mouth shape.
Shu Nian was stunned for a while.
Soon, I did things according to my usual habits, checking doors and windows, cooking quick-frozen dumplings, taking a shower, doing laundry, lip-synching to the TV, reading scripts... By the time Shunian was done, it was almost early morning the next day.
She turned on the bright lights and lay on the bed playing with her mobile phone.
Thinking of the name he heard in the toilet today, Shu Nian scratched his face and hesitated for a few seconds. She opened the browser and entered the word "Ahe" in the search bar.
Shunian doesn't pay much attention to this aspect, and rarely listens to songs.
Only after reading the information displayed on Baidu, did she know that Ah He is a very popular independent musician in recent years.
Since five years ago, he has published his works on online platforms.
The first album that was released was called "My Thoughts". Because there was no promotion channel, there were basically no fans in the early stage. But he doesn't seem to care about these, just indulge in his own world.
"Uncontrollable" in the second album was played by a popular game anchor during the live broadcast, and was gradually discovered by others and became a little famous.
With each album released, his fame grew.
In the past two years, I have basically stopped singing. Turn behind the scenes and concentrate on creating. Most of the names appear in other people's albums, and they are the composers, arrangers, and occasionally lyrics.
Shu Nian pursed her lips and played the song "Uncontrollable".
The prelude is not too long, the style is lyrical and depressing, and various murmurs can be heard, and I don't know what they are coming from. Soon, the hustle and bustle fell silent. In this silence, Ah He's voice sounded.
Shu Nian's eyelashes moved.
As she thought, it was Xie Ruhe.
His voice elongated along the rhythm, deep and ethereal, and every word and sentence brought dark and hopeless emotions. The breath is shallow, the song is like a person, neat and clean. When singing, the voice recognition is extremely high.
Surrounded by such depressing songs, Shu Nian's mood improved.
Shu Nian gradually became sleepy in his voice.
before falling into a deep sleep.
Inexplicably, Shu Nian remembered the words Xie Ruhe said.
— “I’m on a different path from you.”
…
Several days have passed since Li Hongjin's incident at the hospital.
Because of his subjective and reckless actions and words, Shu Nian reflected on it for many days. In the end, I reluctantly came to a conclusion. I felt that I was too young to consider many things thoroughly, which is worthy of forgiveness.
She was emphasizing this conclusion to herself dozens of times every day.
But before the brainwashing was successful, Chen Hanzheng, a classmate, broke the words.
Chen Hanzheng has a good relationship with Li Hong's son Li Chao, and then Chen Hanzheng comes to pester Shunian all day long. Just let Shunian understand one thing - before Li Hong entered the hospital, the brakes of that bicycle had already failed.
There were good times and bad times, Li Hong didn't repair it directly in order to save money.
When Chen Han said this, he was still holding a pen in his mouth, and sneered: "Fate is really kind to him. All the money he saves is spent in the hospital, and he has to pay it back. It's the first time for me. I saw someone who has this hobby and likes to spend money and suffer."
Shu Nian was silent.
Chen Hanzheng felt abnormal. Normally, she would frown and teach him not to swear. But at this moment, he didn't say a word.
Chen Hanzheng had a sense of crisis: "What's the matter with you?"
Shu Nian looked up: "?"
"Call me, boss!" Chen Hanzheng yelled, "Why don't you scold me anymore! Have you changed your mind! Have you stopped loving me! I don't fucking listen!!!"
"..."
Shu Nian was full of preoccupations, and was in no mood to talk to him. But she still seriously refuted his words: "I never scolded you, I was only educating you."
"..."
"Also, change your mind, don't talk about love and love again." Shu Nian frowned, "You're only so old, why are you stuffing your head with these irrelevant things?"
This time Chen Han was silent.
For a long time, because he was speechless, he twitched the corners of his mouth and laughed: "It really is what they said, a thirteen-year-old woman. I have really learned a lot."
Shu Nian ignored him, lying on the table, looking out the window.
I don't know what to think.
After a while, Shu Nian suddenly noticed a group of teenagers running on the playground, wearing blue and white striped school uniforms. She suddenly raised her eyes to look at Chen Hanzheng with a thoughtful expression.
Chen Hanzheng was inexplicably a little vain: "Okay, okay, I won't say anything, right? Don't look at me like that."
Shu Nian opened his round eyes, thinking about the appearance of the "most beautiful junior high school student", and asked him: "Do you know the name of the most handsome boy in our school? I don't know which grade it is."
Hearing this, Chen Hanzheng immediately moved his face closer to her, and rubbed the tip of his nose with his fingertips.
"Know."
Shu Nian cheered up instantly: "Who?"
Chen Han raised his lips and said carelessly, "It's me."
Shu Nian didn't join in, and frowned: "Did you not hear clearly?"
"Um?"
Shu Nian is very serious and doesn't mean to be joking at all.
"I said good-looking."
Chen Hanzheng: "..."