"What." Shu Nian propped his hands on the counter behind him, met Xie Ruhe's eyes, then quickly lowered his gaze, like a puppy meeting its owner's gaze, "No, no, that's what my mother said..."
Xie Ruhe stared at her quietly without speaking.
His breath is close at hand, warm and hot, with the astringent taste of traditional Chinese medicine, and more of a clear mint flavor. Shu Nian swallowed, and explained in a low voice, "I really didn't think that way before."
Xie Ruhe stood up straight and hummed lightly.
The milk in the pot started to emit white mist, Xie Ruhe turned off the fire. Looking sideways, he noticed that Shu Nian's expression was still in a daze, and he was also dazed for a moment, then reached out and touched her head: "I know."
He can see it.
At that time, all her thoughts were very simple, she said what she said, she would never do anything that she thought was wrong, and she would not even have a single thought.
It is impossible to have any other thoughts about yourself.
Xie Ruhe picked up the pot, bypassed Shunian, and walked towards the restaurant.
Shu Nian consciously followed behind him like a little tail. She climbed to the chair next to her and sat down, watched Xie Ruhe pour milk into the cup, and said sullenly: "It used to be, I really just want you to grow taller."
"..."
Shu Nian definitely cares more about Xie Ruhe than the other classmates who have a normal relationship. She was worried that Xie Ruhe's height would be surpassed by other boys who were shorter than him, because he did not have enough nutrition and lost due to acquired conditions.
Shunian would feel it was unfair.
She didn't pay much attention to what Xie Ruhe would think at that time.
I just wanted to be nice to him involuntarily, and didn't consider whether he would feel uncomfortable because of this unworked thing, even though all I brought him were two boxes of inexpensive milk.
Thinking about it now, plus what I just said.
Shu Nian began to fidget.
Shu Nian thinks that words like "little boy" are not nice.
When Deng Qingyu said that before, Shu Nian also felt unhappy and argued with her several times. Shu Nian didn't dare to tell Xie Ruhe about this, fearing that he would be unhappy if he heard it.
After all, at that time, Xie Ruhe's family conditions were indeed not very good.
At that age who likes to compare and show off, Xie Ruhe wears the same shoes all year round, and he doesn't seem to have any other clothes except the school uniform. What I ate was only vegetarian rice.
The simplicity makes people feel distressed.
Just enough to pour out the last drop of milk in the pan.
Xie Ruhe glanced at her and asked casually, "Then do you think I'm tall enough now?"
Shu Nian said honestly, "It's very high."
Xie Ruhe raised his brows and eyes slightly, and seemed to be in a good mood. Afterwards, he moved the two cups of milk to a place farther away from Shunian, and said: "Don't drink it yet, don't drink milk on an empty stomach."
After speaking, he returned to the kitchen with the pot.
"Oh." Shu Nian immediately got off the chair and followed behind him again, "I really didn't feel that way... At that time, Chen Hanzheng kept telling you those bad things, so I just..."
Xie Ruhe took out a bag of toast from the cabinet and asked, "What are you talking about?"
Shu Nian was taken aback: "Don't you remember?"
Xie Ruhe rinsed the knife under running water, dried it with a paper towel, and said casually, "I didn't hear much."
Hearing this, Shunian thought about it seriously: "He said that your grades are poor and you are as thin as a bamboo pole. He also said... that you don't play with boys, and just stay with me all day long."
Shu Nian doesn't quite remember what Chen Hanzheng said, anyway, he must not be as gentle as she said. Chen Hanzheng was not very old at that time, with a young mind, he would speak with some ugly words, and she couldn't repeat them.
"My grades are poor." Xie Ruhe didn't care too much, "At that time, I was about 1.7 meters tall and weighed less than a hundred. And I really only stayed with you."
"..."
Xie Ruhe cut off the edge of the toast, and said solemnly: "It's the truth, not some bad words."
Shu Nian blinked and noticed that there was nothing wrong with his expression. She breathed a sigh of relief, feeling that she was thinking too much, so she didn't continue this topic anymore.
She stood beside Xie Ruhe, watching him spread butter on the toast, and then put it into the baking pan. After a while, Xie Ruhe suddenly asked: "You don't like tall people?"
Not knowing why he said this, Shu Nian shook his head: "No."
"Then your milk is not wasted."
"Uh-huh?"
"Give me a drink, and I'll grow taller."
Shu Nian nodded stupidly: "Yes."
Xie Ruhe's pupils were dyed bright colors, and his eyelashes were as thin as crow's feathers, making those eyes even deeper. He tilted his head and asked in a low voice: "And now I'm—"
Shu Nian didn't realize it: "Xie Ruhe?"
Xie Ruhe curled the corner of his lips: "There are more."
Shu Nian paused, and suddenly understood what he wanted to express. She licked her lower lip and said dully, "...my boyfriend."
"Yeah." Xie Ruhe looked away, stretched out his hand and rubbed his neck, "So there is no waste."
finish breakfast.
Shu Nian wanted to tidy up the dishes and take them to the kitchen to wash. The next moment, Xie Ruhe naturally took the plate in her hand and said, "Go and change."
Shu Nian said: "Do you want to go out?"
Xie Ruhe reminded her: "See a psychiatrist."
Hearing this, Shu Nian stood there silently, his expression seemed a little stiff, he didn't know what he was thinking.
Xie Ruhe bent down to look at her: "What's wrong?"
Shu Nian said softly, "I don't want to go."
"Then go tomorrow?"
"I don't want to go tomorrow either." Maybe it was because he had no confidence, Shu Nian didn't look up, he didn't dare to look at him with drooping eyelids, and his voice was low and inaudible, "I just don't want to go."
Xie Ruhe paused for a few seconds, then quickly compromised: "Okay, don't go if you don't want to go."
Shu Nian heaved a sigh of relief, and obediently cleaned up the dishes: "Then I'll go wash the dishes."
Xie Ruhe didn't stop her, and looked at her back with a frown. After a long while, he walked over to Shunian's side and helped her put the washed things back in their original place.
the following few days.
The two get along like this every day. Staying together almost twenty-four hours a day, Shu Nian became very clingy to him, wherever he went, she followed him. Talking no more than before, like extremely insecure.
Shunian never mentioned the idea of going out.
Occasionally, when Xie Ruhe mentioned it, she was vaguely perfunctory.
Except at a fixed time every day, Fang Wencheng will bring the things he bought according to the list given by Xie Ruhe. The rest of the time, their world is just each other and no one else.
Shunem has lost interest in most things.
She doesn't do anything else every day, except talking to him, most of the time she just sits beside him in a daze, looking dull and well-behaved, like a doll.
She was still hiding something on her mind, and didn't tell him at all.
Xie Ruhe didn't know what she was thinking, so he could only often say something to tease her.
Hope it makes her a little happier.
Only at this time, the expression on her face will change.
Xie Ruhe actually likes this kind of life very much.
After all, before Shunian came here, he also lived such a life. He stayed alone in the house every day, writing songs and doing rehabilitation, living alone and deserted. The arrival of Shu Nian made his life much more lively.
But this is only for him.
Shunian is different.
She has things she likes and wants to do, so she shouldn't be nestled in this house every day, carefully by his side. As if being deprived of the radiance of his body abruptly, he slowly curled up into his own shell.
Life is not happy at all.
Such books.
It was like a taut thread that would break at any moment.
Xie Ruhe checked some information on the Internet. Noticing the time, he got up and gently pushed open the door of the master bedroom. I don't know if he fell asleep, but at this moment Shu Nian is curled up under the quilt, not moving at all.
He walked over.
Probably because he heard his footsteps, Shu Nian immediately emerged from the bed, with a flash of defense in his eyes, and disappeared when he saw him. As if just waking up, she looked at him sleepily.
Xie Ruhe asked: "Did it wake you up?"
Shu Nian's voice was nasal: "No, I didn't intend to sleep for that long either."
Xie Ruhe sat next to her, and asked casually, "Do you want to go out and play?"
Shu Nian hesitated and asked, "Where are you going..."
Xie Ruhe suggested: "Go to a movie?"
There was a few seconds of silence.
"I want to sleep for a while longer." Shu Nian buried his face in the quilt again, and said sullenly, "I'll stay with you at home and see if you..."
Xie Ruhe's Adam's apple rolled, and he said in a hoarse voice, "Okay."
Hearing this answer, Shunian revealed two big round eyes from under the quilt, as if afraid that he would get angry, staring at him nervously: "Are you angry?"
"No." Xie Ruhe reached out to touch her eyes, "Nian Nian, I hope you are happy."
Shu Nian's gaze froze for a few seconds, and then he said, "I'm not unhappy."
Not unhappy, but it doesn't mean she is happy.
"That's good." Xie Ruhe forced the corners of his lips to comfort him, "Go to sleep."
After leaving the room, Xie Ruhe walked back to the living room and sat on the sofa. He looked at what he had just checked on the computer, scratched his hair, and then called Fang Wencheng: "Help me find a psychologist."
Fang Wencheng responded immediately: "Okay."
The communication between the two has always been simple.
Just when Xie Ruhe was about to hang up the phone, he suddenly remembered something: "If..."
Fang Wencheng said: "Master, you can speak directly if you have something to say."
"If I tell Shunian about getting married now..."
Xie Ruhe didn't know the reason for Shunian's emotions during this time, he was always worried that it would be his own problem. He exhaled slowly, looking tired, and didn't finish the next sentence.
Fang Wencheng on the other end was silent for a few seconds, and said seriously: "I think it's a bit fast."
"..."
"I remember that you and Shunian haven't been dating for long." Fang Wencheng said tactfully, "I haven't got to know each other deeply, and I haven't gone through the running-in period yet. If you just rashly propose marriage like this, maybe it will hurt you." scare each other."
Xie Ruhe's eyelashes moved: "Will you be scared?"
"Yes." Fang Wen admitted that he really thought about it, and gave a steady suggestion, "If it were me, I would have to date for at least three years before starting to think about marriage."
Hearing this, Xie Ruhe's lips straightened, and he said lazily, "What example can you give me?"
Fang Wencheng said, "Huh?"
Xie Ruhe slowly repeated his words: "If it were you, we would have dated for at least three years..."
Fang Wencheng didn't know what he said was wrong, so he said bravely, "Yes."
Speaking of this, Xie Ruhe's voice stopped, and he was too lazy to repeat. He chuckled lightly, but his tone didn't contain a hint of a smile, his expression was vague and unclear: "Am I going to marry you?"