After finishing speaking, Xie Ruhe hung up the phone without waiting for an answer from the other end. He exhaled irritably, and his reason came back a little bit, and he reluctantly believed that most of Fang Wencheng's words were correct.
Everything has to be done step by step.
Although he is eager to possess her, eager to give her in this way, or to give himself enough sense of security, eager to leave a mark on her, eager to understand her further, eager to reach the sky in one step.
But it was just his idea.
Xie Ruhe even thought that if Shu Nian didn't want to go out, he just wanted to stay in this house and resist the outside world. She can only see him, only him in her eyes, and will not think about other people.
Treat him like a pillar, you can't live without him.
That's fine too.
They will stay in this house forever.
Only each other.
It seems that in the cold and damp soil, in a place where the sun cannot be seen, there are two intertwined vines, relying on each other, so close that they cannot be separated.
But as long as Xie Ruhe sees Shunian, sees something related to her, or, as long as he thinks of her.
Such thoughts disappear in an instant.
From the first day I met her, to this moment today. In such a long time, all the time, every minute and every second, in Xie Ruhe's eyes, Shu Nian is shining.
He is the one who should live in the light.
The world she sees should also be bright, and those darkness should be far away from her.
Xie Ruhe sat on the sofa and thought for a while. Then, he sat up straight and touched the touchpad to turn on the computer. He licked his lips and typed eight characters on the keyboard hesitantly.
—The serial murder case in Shiyan Town.
Looking at the details clearly listed one by one on the webpage, Xie Ruhe's expression became paler and paler. He gritted his teeth, his eyes were dark, his whole body was tense, and he could clearly see the veins on his forehead.
After a long time, he closed the laptop and closed his eyes heavily.
Xie Ruhe never paid attention to this incident before.
Because if he pays attention, it is inevitable that he will see all kinds of materials about Ji Xiangning's victimization from the Internet again.
When Zeng Yuanxue was arrested, he had not yet returned to China. The court notified the family members that all procedures and processes were handled by Ji Xinghuai.
Until two months before the verdict of the first instance was pronounced, Xie Ruhe returned to the country.
He hesitated for a long time, feeling that he had to accompany his grandfather, and wanted to see the murderer brought to justice with his own eyes. But on the way home, he was in a car accident and fell into a coma for two months. When he woke up, the court had sentenced Zeng Yuanxue to death.
Zeng Yuanxue accepted the sentence in court and did not appeal.
He no longer paid attention to this incident, and entered a long period of recuperation and rehabilitation.
During that time, Xie Ruhe thought about whether to go to Shunian. As soon as he landed on this land, thinking that he was in the same city as her, he couldn't help having such thoughts.
But she had a boyfriend, and she was in this half-dead state.
He was inferior and embarrassed, and he didn't even have the courage to hide in the dark to see her.
He always thought.
Not in my eyes, not by my side, Shunian will definitely live better, and will live under another piece of sunshine.
Live a bright and beautiful life.
After reading those materials, Xie Ruhe felt depressed, stood up suddenly, and walked towards the room. He stood at the door with dark and gloomy eyes, raised his hand and knocked on the door: "Nian Nian?"
As soon as the words fell, the sound of something falling to the ground suddenly came from inside.
There was a bang, accompanied by the clatter of many small objects falling.
Then, Shu Nian's voice sounded anxious and uneasy: "Wait a minute..."
Because of her movement, Xie Ruhe stopped breathing, and subconsciously pushed the door open.
Shu Nian was wearing cotton short sleeves, his face was pale, and he knelt and sat on the edge of the bed. There were several medicine boxes on the ground, and a medicine bottle that rolled to the ground, with dozens of white medicine scattered.
At this time, she was picking up the medicines one by one in a panic.
Noticing the movement of the door, Shu Nian looked up. Seeing Xie Ruhe's face, she seemed to be extremely guilty, she lowered her head abruptly, and stopped picking up things.
Quietly, as if accepting Ling Chi.
Xie Ruhe stood there for a few seconds, then quickly walked over and carried Shunian back to the bed. Her body was stiff, she seemed to be sweating coldly, and she didn't say a word.
He glanced at her, then squatted down, calmly picking up things on the ground.
"what is this."
Shu Nian nervously tugged at the thread on his clothes: "Medicine..."
Xie Ruhe hummed, looked at the instructions on the medicine box, and read slowly: "Fluoxetine hydrochloride tablets, indications, depression, obsessive-compulsive disorder, bulimia nervosa. Sertraline hydrochloride tablets, used to treat depression Symptomatic…”
He didn't read any more, and asked softly, "Does this medicine have any side effects?"
Shu Nian didn't say a word, her lips were pursed into a line.
Xie Ruhe was silent for a while, and his voice became hoarse and low: "If you think you need to take medicine in your current state, let's ask the doctor first, and then make a decision after listening to the opinion?"
"..." Shu Nian shook his head and said seriously, "I don't want to go, it's useless."
Xie Ruhe reasoned with her patiently: "If you are sick, you have to go to see a doctor to get better."
"It won't get better." Shu Nian looked at him, probably feeling aggrieved, his eyes immediately turned red, "I used to be obedient and go to the doctor, but it hasn't recovered after more than a year..."
"Maybe it won't get better so quickly." Xie Ruhe whispered, "But if you don't go to the doctor, it will get serious."
"It can't be cured, and it costs money." Shunian couldn't listen to his words, sobbing, "I've been sick for almost two years, I know how to take medicine, I know how to take medicine, I won't take it randomly..."
Xie Ruhe wiped her tears: "It will be cured."
She shook her head stubbornly.
"I used to think that my legs would never get better." Xie Ruhe said, "It's fine now."
Hearing this, Shu Nian raised his eyes, another tear fell from his eyes. Her voice was nasal and soft: "I'm not as good as you."
He said hoarsely, "You are better than me."
Shu Nian still shook his head: "I don't want to go."
Xie Ruhe licked his lips: "Why don't you want to go?"
"See a psychiatrist..." Shu Nian lowered his head, seeming a little embarrassed, "It will cost a lot of money. I don't have any money, and I don't want to ask my mother. I've already told her before that I'm getting better soon."
Hearing this, Xie Ruhe took out the phone from his pocket and put it in front of her.
"I have money."
Shu Nian pushed his phone back and rubbed his eyes vigorously: "I can't spend your money."
He was taken aback for a moment, and asked again, "Why?"
"It's your money." Shu Nian's tone was blunt, "I can't use it."
Xie Ruhe suddenly remembered something, he got up and sat beside her. He frowned, and lowered his voice: "You don't want to go to the doctor, you can tell me, but why did you secretly take the medicine."
The tone sounded a bit fierce.
Shu Nian subconsciously glanced at him.
Xie Ruhe had no expression on his face, his eyes were dark and deep, staring straight at her with a bit of oppression, and he couldn't tell what his emotions were at the moment.
Shu Nian murmured dully, but didn't shed any more tears, and stared blankly at him.
With her like this, Xie Ruhe lost his temper, and just sighed: "You have to tell me something."
Shu Nian lowered his head and played with his fingers, and said sullenly, "I'm afraid you won't let me eat it if you know."
Xie Ruhe nodded: "There are more."
"I'm afraid it will have an attack." Maybe it's hard to say, Shunian's voice is getting lower and lower, almost inaudible, "It will be very uncomfortable, and then I feel anxious when I think about it, and I want to take medicine to suppress it. And I don't want you to see to me."
Xie Ruhe patiently said: "What kind of thing."
Hearing this, Shu Nian pursed his lips, tears fell down again, without saying a word.
Remembering that she had said similar things many times before, Xie Ruhe patted her head and asked, "Why are you so afraid of me seeing it?"
"I was sick at the beginning, when it was very serious." Shu Nian raised his hand to cover his eyes, his words were choked up, "My mother was with me...not only I was in pain, but she was also in pain."
"..."
"I wanted to commit suicide once, and she saw it. Later, she didn't dare to leave me alone, and she quit her job directly. During that time, she lost a lot of weight, and she couldn't sleep every day because she was afraid of what I would do. The thing... I later heard from my stepfather that my mother also needs to take medicine to fall asleep... "
Hearing the word "suicide", Xie Ruhe's eyes froze.
"But she's my mother, so she won't leave me alone." Shunian choked, "I'm afraid I'll make you like that too, and then you won't be able to stand it, and then..."
Xie Ruhe's Adam's apple slid: "Then what."
Shu Nian couldn't continue talking, shedding tears on his own.
Xie Ruhe understood what she wanted to express.
Probably, I couldn't stand it, and then proposed to break up.
Probably so.
He stared at her, then leaned over and hugged her, patted her on the back comfortingly, and said seriously: "I won't."
She muffled: "You will."
"I do not know."
"You can."
Xie Ruhe paused, feeling that the conversation between the two of them was like children. He inexplicably felt a little funny, raised her face, and wiped away her tears with his fingertips: "Why would I?"
Shu Nian didn't know where her stubbornness came from, she just felt that no one else could bear her like this except her parents.
She thought about it with red eyes, and reluctantly came up with a reason: "I dreamed about it."
I never thought that the answer would be this, Xie Ruhe's expression was obviously taken aback, and he suddenly laughed out loud. He kissed the corner of her eyes and said solemnly: "Then I apologize for the one in my dream."
"It's not what you said." Shu Nian raised his hand and touched the place where he kissed, still in a bad mood, "You don't need to apologize, and there is nothing wrong with that."
Hearing this, Xie Ruhe turned his head and thought for a while: "Then you apologize to me."
Shu Nian's eyes widened a bit, but he didn't quite react: "What."
"You spread rumors in your dreams."
"what?"
"Destroyed my image." Xie Ruhe raised his eyebrows, his peach blossom eyes were deep and bright, and he deliberately dragged out his voice, "My girlfriend misunderstood me."