This time Xie Ruhe heard Shu Nian's words clearly, and the trace of sleepiness that was still left disappeared at this moment. His lips were parted, and some fluffy hairs were raised up, like a few dull hairs.
Before he could react, Shu Nian seemed to be having trouble adapting, and also seemed to slip in through the gap between Xie Ruhe and the door frame as if it was a matter of course.
The temperature of the air conditioner in this room is very low, it is like two worlds from the outside. Xie Ruhe didn't have the habit of turning on the lights when sleeping, it was cold and dark inside.
Shu Nian walked to Xie Ruhe's bedside with the light coming in from outside, and climbed up silently and consciously.
Xie Ruhe was still standing by the door.
In the middle of the night, she came unexpectedly.
Xie Ruhe couldn't think of how to react at all, and he still had the feeling that he was dreaming, and his mind went blank. The first thought that popped up in my mind was - Shunian is afraid of the dark.
The next moment, Xie Ruhe reached out and turned on the light switch.
The light is yellowish white, as bright as sunlight.
Shu Nian wore a cotton and linen beige nightdress, which was below her knees, she was afraid of losing it, so she deliberately tugged on the hem of the skirt. She climbed to a position against the wall and obediently covered herself with a quilt.
Xie Ruhe quietly closed the door and locked it.
The room wasn't too big, and the narrow space seemed to magnify the atmosphere at the moment, and also made some small, imperceptible movements clear.
There was a "ding" sound of the door lock, the sound of the wind outside gently hitting the window, and the breath of the two of them.
Afterwards, Xie Ruhe walked to the bedside table, picked up the remote control, and turned up the temperature of the air conditioner. He asked in a low voice, "Do you feel cold?"
Shu Nian hummed vaguely.
The room fell into endless silence again.
After turning down the temperature, Xie Ruhe still stood where he was, and did not lie down on the bed. He looked down and played with the remote control in his hand, not knowing what he was thinking.
Shu Nian buried half of his face in the quilt, secretly looking in his direction.
Only his side face can be seen, softly blurred by the light, wearing casual and clean clothes. There is nothing similar to the him in the dream.
If there are parallel time and space.
If Shunian in that parallel time and space had the same choice as in the dream.
So now, Xie Ruhe in that parallel time and space.
Is he still looking for the trace of Zeng Yuanxue, or is he already in that house, leaving this world silently with despair and destruction.
I always feel that death is the greatest relief for myself, including others.
I felt that I couldn't go on, so I chose to die, and I lost consciousness ever since. Whether she is happy or not, or whether he is sad or not, it has nothing to do with her anymore.
Don't know what will happen next.
I don't know, in fact, the living people suffer no less pain than the dead.
Shu Nian's nose was sore, he tore off the quilt, and asked in a low voice, "Why aren't you sleeping?"
Xie Ruhe licked his lips, raised his hand and scratched his head, his voice low.
"sleep."
After a few seconds, Xie Ruhe went to bed slowly.
He looked at the pillow Shunian leaned against, recalled the situation before, hesitantly and consciously put the pillow on his side between the two of them.
"Xie Ruhe." Shu Nian didn't pay much attention to his actions, and suddenly said, "I just had a dream."
Aware of her emotions, Xie Ruhe didn't ask her what she dreamed about, but just comforted her: "Dreams are all fake."
"When I woke up, I knew it was fake." Shu Nian stared at the ceiling, "I used to have bad dreams, and when I woke up I knew it was fake, but somehow I started to get scared, scared Will these things become a reality someday in the future?"
Xie Ruhe said seriously: "No."
"But after waking up this time, I only feel that luckily it's a dream, luckily it's fake, luckily... I can prevent this from happening." Shunian sniffed, "This is my first time. Have this feeling."
Hearing this, Xie Ruhe looked at her.
"I'm sorry." Shu Nian raised his eyes and sat up suddenly, "I told you that kind of thing today."
She was so unhappy.
The shame and inferiority complex brought about by other people's words entangled her like vines and eroded her sanity. It was so painful that I wanted to use this life to pay off this debt that didn't exist at all.
Think it's good for each other.
But he also forgot that Xie Ruhe's mother had suffered the same thing as her.
He lost his mother because of Zeng Yuanxue.
It will definitely be unbearable, the second time something like this happens.
Xie Ruhe reached out and touched her head, but did not speak.
"In the future, I will take good care of my illness." Shu Nian pursed his lips, and said seriously, "I will not refuse anything the doctor asks me to do or the treatment plan because of fear."
"..."
"I will try not to care about what other people say, and I will not avoid you like before." Shu Nian raised his head and met Xie Ruhe's eyes. She clenched her fists and said what she wanted to say:
"I want to be with you and live like a normal person."
want to be with you.
Live like a normal person.
Living in this, not particularly beautiful, but still beautiful world.
Xie Ruhe stared down at her face, then grabbed her hand, and slowly, slowly let go of her clenched fist. He curled the corners of his lips, his voice low and hoarse.
"it is good."
tonight.
Shu Nian told Xie Ruhe a lot about the past.
Tell him that when he went to court to see Zeng Yuanxue, he did not feel remorse for his actions. Even in front of lawyers and judges, he remained outspoken.
I feel so sorry that I haven't sent Shunian to die yet.
Because of what Zeng Yuanxue said.
After his death, recalling the expression on his face when he said this, Shu Nian always had the feeling that he would come back anytime, would jump out from a certain corner at any time, to fill up his regret.
Tell him that he can understand Xu Zeyuan's mention of breaking up, but he can't forgive him. Because of his behavior of choosing to be alone at the beginning, she had a shadow. Because of this, he worried that Xie Ruhe might choose to abandon her one day.
And his behavior this time only made her incomprehensible and inexcusable.
The boy who was born in a well-to-do family, because he was the only child, was loved endlessly by his parents. Since he was a child, he was also praised by the adults because of his grades and appearance.
He should be a little arrogant, but kind-hearted boy.
But it became what it is now.
Shu Nian didn't know why Xu Zeyuan did this.
It seems that after meeting again, he seems to have changed a lot.
He would pull her wrist angrily and impatiently, yelling at her, telling her to listen to herself; thinking that she was with Xie Ruhe for money, and calling Xie Ruhe a cripple; Difficult to listen to the ugly words.
Maybe it's because he chose a bad path.
When his body was splashed with mud that couldn't be washed off, he met Shu Nian again.
He thought that when something like that happened back then, he didn't choose to walk side by side with Shu Nian, and felt that her current life was probably very poor. But unexpectedly found that she was doing well, and there was someone much better than him by her side.
You will feel pain, low self-esteem and self-loathing to the extreme.
You will feel that you made the wrong choice in the first place.
So I want to regain my original choice and pull her into it.
Even if it is unscrupulous, I want to do it.
In the end, Shu Nian also told Xie Ruhe that he was actually a little unhappy. Because he had previously rejected her proposal to meet his grandfather.
I feel like he hasn't confirmed the relationship between the two.
But he didn't dare to take the initiative to mention this matter to him.
Hearing this, Xie Ruhe was a little stunned and at a loss, probably not noticing this at all. When he mentioned this, his tone was a little blunt: "It's not that I don't want to, it's that I'm still angry with my grandpa."
"..."
"So I don't want to take you back in this situation."
Shu Nian mumbled, "Why are you angry?"
"What happened to you back then." Xie Ruhe paused and said expressionlessly, "He didn't tell me."
Hearing this, Shu Nian groaned, and said softly, "Is it because you had a car accident at that time? But during that time, Grandpa Ji called me."
Xie Ruhe raised his eyes.
"He told me that he would help me deal with the information about me that was leaked online." Shunian recalled, "So at that time, it wouldn't be spread as widely as it is now."
"..."
"He also transferred the money to me." Shu Nian rubbed his eyes, "But I can't take his money, I transferred it back."
Xie Ruhe was suddenly speechless.
Shu Nian said seriously: "Grandpa Ji is fine, don't be angry with him."
Xie Ruhe was silent for a few seconds, then exhaled: "After a while, I will take you back to see him."
As soon as he finished speaking, Shu Nian raised his long eyelashes, blinked, suddenly raised his head, and kissed his lips happily. It's not the first time she's done this kind of thing, this time she's a lot more proficient, and her strength isn't too great.
No more knocking on his teeth.
After the sneak attack was over, Shunian's stamina picked up immediately.
She moved back a few inches, got under the quilt again, and the voice came from inside, which sounded muffled: "It's time to sleep."
Xie Ruhe still stayed where he was, without moving.
After a while, he licked his lips, Tao Hua's eyes became a little darker, and the corners of his eyes were a little red. He stretched out his hand, across the quilt, like a hunter lurking in the dark, and slowly pulled Shunian over.
Shu Nian's head was still hidden in the quilt: "What are you trying to do to me..."
Without saying a word, Xie Ruhe pulled her into his arms, and then tore off the quilt from her head. There was no time gap, no time for her to react, and she kissed him directly.
He let go of her ankle, pressed the back of Shunian's head with one hand, and bit her lip lightly.
Afterwards, Xie Ruhe backed away a little, his voice hoarse, his tone seemed to be ordering, but also seemed to be inducing.
"Open your mouth."
Shu Nian's hands were still pinching the quilt, his strength slowly tightened, he was at a loss and at a loss.
The next moment, Xie Ruhe pinched her chin, pressed it down, and kissed her lips again.
The breath of the two blended together, the bright yellow light shone on their bodies, and their shadows intertwined into a ball.
Very close distance, real feeling.
Shunian was a little out of breath, and a whining sound came out of his throat unconsciously.
Gradually, her hand was lifted up, touching his chest.
Shu Nian forgot to close his eyes, Xie Ruhe's appearance was reflected in his light brown pupils. His forehead was smooth and full, and his eyebrows were drooped, not meeting her gaze.
It's as close as it can get.
Afterwards, Xie Ruhe raised his eyes, as if he had noticed her gaze.
He raised his hand and covered her eyes with one hand.
Shu Nian immediately closed his eyes.
Charming and ambiguous interior.
Everything is like a fuse, this night, this lamp, this atmosphere, her sudden kiss.
Xie Ruhe's lips moved down, and the warm touch passed over her earlobe, and stopped on her neck, leaving shallow marks.
The exhaled breath seemed to have a shape, touching every corner of her body.
Gentle, distracted, and seemingly comforting.
His hand touched her, the fingertips were cold, and she couldn't help shrinking back. Shu Nian had never experienced such an intimate thing, and a misty watery light appeared in his eyes.
Because of this strange touch, Shu Nian's consciousness suddenly became clearer, and he grabbed his hand with a blushing face, but what he said was not a refusal, his voice was soft and trembling: "Turn off, turn off the light."
Xie Ruhe's Adam's apple slid up and down, his eyes were stained with scarlet, and his emotions swept over like waves.
"Nian Nian is afraid of the dark." He said hoarsely, "You can't turn off the lights."