The light in the recording studio was not particularly bright, and there were a few places with backlights, his appearance was vague and unrecognizable, but his eyes were bright. The halo-yellow light wove into a thin net, gently covering it.
Xie Ruhe opened the ring box and put his feet on the ground. Then slowly, he knelt down on one knee in front of her. He met Shang Shunian's eyes and said it again.
"will you marry me?"
Shu Nian's eyes moved down following his movements. Her throat was dry and she was a little speechless. Like a joint effect, the eyes and nose are sour.
Perhaps it was an idea that popped up on the spur of the moment, this marriage proposal seemed crude and hasty.
In addition to a ring, there are two people.
Nothing else.
Xie Ruhe looked up at her, his neck stretched into a straight line, his Adam's apple slid up and down. He has always been calm and indifferent, but at this moment he couldn't help showing his emotions, his lips were pursed tightly, and his jaw was stiff.
Shunian's brain seemed to be disconnected. She sat on the chair with her toes lightly tapping the ground, nervously trying to find something to support herself, and trying to calmly give him an answer.
I don't know why the situation became like this.
She just wanted to come in and find a reason for him to take a break, but inexplicably got one, which she was only willing to let him give, which was equivalent to the promise of being together forever.
Don't know what the future holds yet.
I don't know if the next road will be difficult.
He has already taken her whole life into his arms and regarded her as an indispensable existence in his life. There is no need to worry, and there is no need to hesitate.
As long as it's her.
Shu Nian pursed his lips hard, stretched out his hand, trying to respond as if it was a normal thing. Her lips moved, trembling but completely uncontrollable, with a nasal voice: "Okay, okay."
Hearing this answer, Xie Ruhe seemed to heave a sigh of relief, his eyebrows drooped. He took off the ring, put it on her ring finger devoutly, and slowly pushed it in.
Time seemed to slow down at this moment.
Occasionally he felt unsteady, but he seemed to settle down with this action.
Shu Nian's eyes were red, thinking of what he had just taught him, he said "yes" in French in a low voice and bluntly: "oui"
Xie Ruhe was taken aback for a moment, still half kneeling on the ground, smiling with his chin pressed. Afterwards, he lowered his head, kissed her finger, and said softly, "Stamp it."
The next second, Shu Nian called him: "Xie Ruhe."
Xie Ruhe raised his head upon hearing the sound: "Huh?"
"I used to, when I first met you. That is, when I was talking to you, but you ignored me." Shu Nian sniffed, "I didn't like you at all."
Hearing her words, Xie Ruhe raised his eyelids and remembered his attitude at that time. He opened his mouth, but this was what he really did, and he didn't know how to explain it.
"I think." Shu Nian said in a low voice, "As long as I apologize to you, we won't have any contact with you again. It will definitely feel good, and I won't have to keep looking for you and seeing your face."
Xie Ruhe rubbed her hand with his fingertips: "I won't do that in the future."
"That's right, I just suddenly remembered this idea at that time." Shu Nian also got off the chair and rubbed against his arms like a cat, "It feels amazing."
At that time, Shu Nian probably would not have thought of it.
Ten years later, she will be with the person she once hoped would not have any more contact with, forever.
That gloomy and silent boy.
It also changed from bleak and dull to the sun in her long life.
Before the holiday ended, Xie Ruhe took Shu Nian to meet Ji Xinghuai.
When seeing the parents, Shu Nian couldn't be as calm and stable as Xie Ruhe. Although she also had contact with Ji Xinghuai on the phone a few years ago, her status is different now.
The state of mind is also different.
Xie Ruhe helped Shunian prepare gifts.
But Shu Nian always felt bad, so he dragged her to the shopping mall one day in advance, and in the end, he just bought a box of tea and some health care products.
She also checked a lot of precautions about meeting parents on the Internet.
I feel that I am ready, and I can't sleep in bed at night.
Shu Nian tossed and turned for a while, but finally couldn't help but ran to Xie Ruhe's room, didn't wake him up, just stumbling and counting beside him.
"One cow, two cows, three cows..."
Before counting the tenth cow, Xie Ruhe opened his eyes and said in a hoarse voice, "Can't sleep?"
Shu Nian nodded: "I'm counting sheep."
Xie Ruhe thought that he had just woken up and his sanity was not clear yet, so he asked hesitantly, "Aren't you talking about a cow?"
"That's right." Shunian said solemnly, "I used to suffer from insomnia too, and I often counted sheep, but it was of no use. Later, I switched to cows, and it seemed easier to fall asleep."
Xie Ruhe: "..."
Seeing that he was no longer about to speak, Shu Nian withdrew his thoughts, recalled where he had just counted, and then continued counting: "Eight cows, nine cows, ten..."
In the next second, Xie Ruhe stretched out his arms to wrap around her waist and pulled her into his arms.
Shu Nian was lying down. Because of his actions, her posture changed a little, and she leaned into his arms with her back on her back. His chin rested on the top of her hair, and there was still a little sleepiness in his voice: "You count yours."
Hearing this, Shu Nian looked behind.
Xie Ruhe had already closed his eyes, and said again: "Forget it in normal times."
"..."
"Come and sleep, I have to hold you."
I don't know whether it was Xie Ruhe's embrace that brought strength, or Shunian's strategy of counting "bulls" played a role. Not long after, she, who had been energetic for half the night, suddenly felt sleepy.
As soon as he closed his eyes, Shu Nian fell asleep.
Woke up and it was dawn.
Shunian didn't stay in bed, she got up immediately to wash up.
After being fed breakfast by Xie Ruhe, she went back to her room, and changed into a plain warm-toned skirt according to the advice given on the Internet, just below her knees. After that, he lingered in front of the dressing table for a long time, reluctantly putting on makeup.
Xie Ruhe didn't rush her and waited in the living room.
After a while, Shu Nian came out of the room.
Xie Ruhe sat on the sofa with a computer in front of him, still working.
Shu Nian walked over and said, "Are you gone?"
Hearing her voice, Xie Ruhe immediately closed the computer, responded in a low voice, and then raised his eyes. He suddenly noticed Shu Nian's appearance and fixed his gaze.
Shu Nian was inexplicably stared at by him, and asked, "What's wrong?"
Xie Ruhe whispered, "Come here."
She paused on the spot hesitantly, and then walked over obediently.
As soon as he walked half a meter away from him, Xie Ruhe grabbed her wrist and brought her into his arms. His eyes were dark, filled with unknown emotions: "Very beautiful."
Shu Nian still hasn't reacted.
His kiss had already fallen, with an unclear sentence in it.
"Let me kiss you."
Ji Xinghuai's place is not far from Xie Ruhe's house, about half an hour's drive away.
Along the way, Xie Ruhe was driving the car, and Shunian was sitting in the passenger seat, like a student crouching before an exam, continuing to flip through his phone, looking at the notes for parents.
Xie Ruhe glanced in her direction occasionally, and couldn't help but curl the corners of his lips.
After a long time.
Shu Nian raised his eyes and looked out of the car window.
The scenery outside quickly moved back, and the vision was blurred. The sky is clear, there is no thick cloud in sight, the sun is falling, shining on the sea water, and there are unknown flocks of birds flying by.
There was music playing in the car, it was Xie Ruhe's song.
Shu Nian's mood suddenly calmed down a lot, and he put the phone back in his pocket.
Noticing her movement from the corner of the eye, Xie Ruhe asked, "Don't watch?"
"It's over." Shu Nian seemed to be hypnotizing himself, with a very soft voice and a very slow speed, uttering each word, "I will perform well, you don't have to worry."
Xie Ruhe couldn't help laughing: "Why are you so nervous?"
Shu Nian said honestly, "I'm afraid your grandpa won't like me."
Xie Ruhe said: "No."
Shu Nian muttered, "How do you know?"
"Before you came to record songs at home." Xie Ruhe said, "I told Fang Wencheng to find another music producer. But he listened to his grandfather and brought you home."
Shu Nian was at a loss: "Why?"
"He hopes." Xie Ruhe said calmly, "You can see me more."
"what?"
"So I won't dislike you."
Shu Nian looked at him nonchalantly.
Not long after, the car also drove to the place where Ji Xinghuai lived.
It is a rich mansion area in Ruchuan City.
Like a scene from a TV series, when Shu Nian got off the car, he was still a little at a loss, and immediately leaned over to hold Xie Ruhe's hand, very dependent.
Xie Ruhe took out the gift bag from the back seat of the car, and said softly, "Don't be nervous."
Shu Nian still couldn't help asking: "What if I don't behave well..."
Before she could speak, the door of the villa in front of her suddenly opened, and a middle-aged man walked out. Seeing the two of them, he waved and said with a smile, "Come here?"
Xie Ruhe nodded to him, and called out: "Second Uncle."
Shu Nian's palms were sweating nervously, and he subconsciously called out, "Second Uncle."
The man looked at Shu Nian and smiled, "Is it Nian Nian?"
Shu Nian nodded quickly: "That's right."
"come on in."
The decoration of the house is Chinese-style, with a lot of space, but it is not luxurious. It looks grand and bookish. At this time, there was no one in the living room, except for an aunt, only Ji Xinghuai was sitting on the sofa.
Xie Ruhe's second uncle yelled at Ji Xinghuai, "Dad, someone is here."
The old man is nearly seventy years old, his hair is already gray, but his eyes are bright, and he looks very healthy. He looked over, looked kindly, and beckoned to Shu Nian kindly: "Miss."
Shu Nian licked his lips, let go of Xie Ruhe's hand, and walked over.
"Grandpa Ji is good."
"We met before, do you remember?" Ji Xinghuai's face was covered with traces of the years, and his voice was calm and down-to-earth after precipitation, "In Shiyan Town."
"I remember." Shu Nian nodded immediately, "You helped me a lot later, but I haven't been able to thank you in person."
Xie Ruhe stood aside, didn't speak, and didn't take the initiative to call for anyone.
Ji Xinghuai also treated him as if he didn't exist.
"No need to thank you. Sit down." Noticing the gift bag in Xie Ruhe's hand, Ji Xinghuai said again, "Next time you come, just come here, you don't need to bring anything."
Shu Nian obediently said: "Okay."
In the spacious living room, four people sat on mahogany chairs.
Ji Xinghuai sat at the main seat, and Xie Ruhe's second uncle sat on the other side of him. Shu Nian and Xie Ruhe sat side by side.
Most likely it was Ji Xinghuai who was talking, asking about Shunian, but he wasn't tricky, just some very common household words. Ask her about her job, how her parents are, and what she's been doing lately.
Occasionally, Xie Ruhe's second uncle would also say a few words.
Xie Ruhe remained silent the whole time.
After an unknown amount of time, the topic suddenly came to Xie Ruhe's mother, Ji Xiangning.
"When you were still in Shiyan Town, you should have met Ah He's mother, right?" Ji Xinghuai took a sip of tea, and when he said this, he instantly aged a lot, "I remember you and Ah He's previous relationship good relationship."
Shu Nian hummed: "Yes, Auntie is very nice."
"I also heard the news recently that that kid Xie Ji passed away." Ji Xinghuai's brows became more angry, "If it wasn't for him! How could my daughter..."
The second uncle picked up the teapot, added some tea to Ji Xinghuai, and reminded: "Dad, don't talk about this."
Shu Nian didn't know what to say, so he glanced in Xie Ruhe's direction.
He lowered his eyes, not knowing what he was thinking.
Realizing that it was not good to say these things in front of Shu Nian, Ji Xinghuai calmed down and sighed: "Girl, it is thanks to you that I was able to catch that beast."
Xie Ruhe finally opened his mouth and frowned, "Grandpa."
"You let me finish my sentence." Ji Xinghuai said, "Girl, my grandson was always angry with me before because I didn't tell him about you. At that time, I was afraid of irritating him. After a long time, I just said no." Exported."
Shu Nian knew about this a long time ago, and shook his head: "It doesn't matter."
"I did something wrong with this matter." Ji Xinghuai took Shu Nian's hand and patted the back of her hand lightly, "I'm old and I think about too many things."
"..."
"It's because I care too much." Ji Xinghuai's old eyes were red, "I always do something wrong. If I hadn't stopped Aning in every possible way, it would have caused her to run to that small place..."
Hearing this, Xie Ruhe's second uncle stopped talking, and his mood obviously changed.
"She is in front of me, I can still watch and help, and I won't let her live like that." Ji Xinghuai said, "That will definitely not happen."
"Grandpa." Xie Ruhe said suddenly, "It's not your fault."
"..."
"If you think like this, then everyone is at fault. My mother never blamed you, she just blamed herself. She hasn't seen you for so many years. She will only regret that she didn't listen to you at the beginning. "
"..."
"When she was in the most difficult time, her first thought was to go back to you. She would often ask me whether she should let you pick me up and take me to a better life."
"You are what she counts on. She will always appreciate you, respect you, and love you."
"That's what she told me once."
After dinner at Ji's house.
After that, the two chatted with Ji Xinghuai for a while. Xie Ruhe was no longer angry with Ji Xinghuai, and his attitude towards him changed back to what it was before. Near eight o'clock, the two left Ji's house.
Shu Nian's stomach is still a little full.
Xie Ruhe was afraid that she would get motion sickness, so he simply parked the car here, intending to write a short walk before stopping the car to go home. He wasn't in a bad mood, and he didn't seem to be affected by Ji Xinghuai's words.
Shu Nian glanced at him secretly, and asked cautiously: "Do you still think of your father now?"
"Very few." Xie Ruhe said casually, "My grandfather never came over."
"Oh."
"My dad wasn't like that before." Xie Ruhe recalled, "But I can't remember what he was like before, I can only think of him as drunk as mud."
In a person's life, there are always a few people who cannot be forgiven.
When I think about it, the hatred is still there, but I don't want to waste my energy on him anymore.
Shu Nian helped Xie Ruhe in a low voice: "Anyway, it's not good."
Xie Ruhe laughed, and said again: "But now, I will often think of my mother."
"Huh?" Shu Nian blinked and said suddenly, "Let's go see your mother tomorrow."
"it is good."
"..."
"What about the day after tomorrow?"
"The day after tomorrow..." Shu Nian said, "to see my father?"
"it is good."
Xie Ruhe asked again: "What about the day after tomorrow?"
Shu Nian asked doubtfully, "The day after tomorrow? Is there any place you want to go?"
"Yes." Xie Ruhe paused, "Civil Affairs Bureau."
"..."
"..."
They walked under the bright street lights, and their shadows were stretched very long. At the intersection, two people, one tall and one short, clasped their palms, so close that others could no longer shake them.
After a long time, Shu Nian opened his mouth.
"OK."
Spring begins next year.
Since the Weibo post last summer, Ahe Weibo, which has become a zombie account again, finally posted another Weibo post after the release of the new album—
Ah He: I lost to you. @Shu Nian
This album is the first time in the past three years that Ah He, who has been hiding behind the scenes and concentrating on creating, has released an album that is completely his own.
From composing, arranging, writing lyrics, singing, to recording, mixing and post-production, everything is done by him alone. It is the album that fans have been waiting for for a long time and belongs to Ah He.
His voice hasn't changed much from a few years ago.
It feels warm and bright to the fans.
The title of the album is: "Losing to Love".
It is an album that expresses love to someone from the title of the album, to the title of the single, to every line of lyrics and every tune. Tell her all your thoughts.
From first love to eternal love.
All, tell her without reservation.
When he was young, he fell in love with a girl.
That girl has a straightforward temper and doesn't know much about the world. She always offends people because of some words. Good-hearted, can't see others doing bad things. He was the only person who entered his world during those dark and obscure days.
He likes her so much.
Later, they separated.
Xie Ruhe thought that his liking could only be buried in his heart for a lifetime. He once thought that in the days to come, although he would never fall in love with anyone again, maybe time could dilute such feelings.
But unexpectedly, there was a moment of reunion.
It was a reunion after so many years.
Xie Ruhe didn't realize it until the moment he saw her again.
After so many years, he has met so many people of all kinds, and he has never met someone more beautiful than her.
The love when I was young is hot and rich, once it burns, it can never be extinguished.
He thought that he would be alone in this life, spending the rest of his life alone, not entering other people's lives, nor letting anyone step into his world.
Can be final.
But it was lost to like.
lost to you.
At the end of last year, Shu Nian voiced a character in a popular game recently, and gradually became famous.
Two days after Xie Ruhe posted that Weibo, in order to promote the game, Shunian went to the gymnasium in the next city to participate in a live show of voice actors.
The people who participated were all the voice actors of that game character.
Xie Ruhe went with her and sat in the VIP seat in the front row.
Shu Nian had never tried dubbing under the eyes of so many people. His palms were sweating nervously, but he gradually got into the mood and successfully completed the live show.
After stepping off the stage, some of her fans ran up to her with pens and paper.
It's two little girls.
One of them had bright eyes and said excitedly: "Goddess Goddess! Can you sign me up! I like you so much!"
Shu Nian pursed his lips and smiled: "Okay."
After signing, hand the book to the two of them. Before another girl bid farewell to her, she suddenly said: "You are amazing, I will become a person like you in the future."
Hearing this, Shu Nian froze.
Some unknown emotions were fermenting in my heart, and then rose, almost overflowing.
In the past, she felt inferior and sensitive to self-loathing, and she didn't even have the courage to go out to face other people's eyes. She felt that "death" was relief and the only choice to start again.
But now, some people are talking about it.
— want to be like her.
Shu Nian suddenly raised his eyes and looked in Xie Ruhe's direction.
He was still at the original place, but he had already stood up, his eyes were on him, his demeanor was gentle and restrained. In her eyes, it was a light that could not be ignored.
next second.
Shu Nian suddenly ran towards him and threw herself into his arms.
Because of the force of the impact, Xie Ruhe subconsciously took two steps back, and then hugged her back.
They are embracing the sun in their own lives.
"When you are deep in the bottom of the valley, entangled by thorny vines, screaming with all your strength, but no one rescues you. There are thorns all around you, and you can't break free, you can't escape, and you spend long years in despair."
"Occasionally when you look up and see the world is full of darkness, have you ever thought about—"
"One day, you too will see the light of day again."
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