Qin Yao suddenly raised his eyes to look at Gu Yan, his eyes were full of disbelief, surprise, fear, doubt and other emotions mixed together, his eyes were as complicated as a deep pool. He was obviously happy, but he didn't dare to show it, for fear that if he spoke loudly or moved a little, everything in front of him would disappear in smoke, and finally he found that it was just an illusion.
He didn't want it to be an illusion, even if it was just another scam, he was willing.
"How could I love a human being? I have been refusing to admit this before." Gu Yan said slowly, "Human beings who can affect me should die. Why can't you die, why?"
"Why did you come to disturb my heart?" Gu Yan looked at Qin Yao deeply, his voice was cold.
Gu Yan couldn't stop his behavior, so he simply gave up his resistance, and wanted to see what he would say. He didn't expect that he would say that. It seems that the person controlling his existence is very clear about Qin Yao's weakness.
This is very bad.
Because he saw the moving expression in Qin Yao's eyes.
But it's not over yet.
"Although you are stronger than me in the world, if I really want to kill you, it's not that I have no chance at all, and even... there are many opportunities." Gu Yan showed a self-deprecating smile, "But I didn't do it. As a A monster can't bear to attack a human being."
"You always say you love me, but in my opinion, I am the one who loses completely." Gu Yan said coldly: "If I killed you earlier, or killed you completely at that time You, will you not have those things that happened later?"
"Perhaps I would have succeeded by now."
Qin Yao's lips trembled slightly, unable to speak.
Gu Yan raised the corners of his lips, and smiled without warmth, "You have been restraining me in the name of so-called love, and now you know my decision, but you still want to stop me. Even if you know that I will not be happy, you insist on doing so , so you are really selfish, and I — would be tempted by such a selfish human being, so I deserved the loss."
"No..." Qin Yao's Adam's apple twitched slightly, and a look of pleading appeared in his eyes.
"Don't say any inexplicable reasons, don't say anything is for me. You know what I want. I am a monster. Opening the channel is something I can never give up. If you stop me, I will not be happy. "Gu Yan sneered, "Being locked up by you, lingering in human society, what's the point of living like this, it's better to die."
"I may have lived worse than death in the past, and that was not your fault, but now it is your fault that my life is worse than death." Gu Yan's voice was like a sharp knife, and his words were mean and merciless!
After the last sentence was uttered, Gu Yan tried desperately to stop, but it was useless.
No, this is not what he wanted to say, he never blamed Qin Yao, how could he blame Qin Yao? Among the people who know all the reasons and the end, only Qin Yao has never changed his mind towards him. Perhaps Qin Yao has made mistakes, but since his last life, there is no doubt about his love for him.
Now these are not Qin Yao's fault.
He didn't blame anyone for getting into this situation, it was his own choice.
But that damned existence not only controls his body, but also fools his feelings like this, hurting the people he cares about.
How cruel.
Gu Yan felt so uncomfortable that he could hardly breathe, but he couldn't see it at all on the surface.
This is the devil's punishment for him, for his betrayal.
In fact, from the moment he was controlled, he probably thought of this reason. Apart from the Demon Lord, he couldn’t think of any other existence that could control him like this. You must know that he is a high-level monster, even in the Demon Realm, he is also at the top of the food chain. exist. But regardless of whether he is powerful or not, high-level or low-level monsters, all monsters... are nothing in the eyes of the demon master, if you want to control it, you can control it.
He didn't understand this before. No one knows what the devil is. In the eyes of these ignorant monsters, maybe the devil is just the most powerful monster, but in fact it is not. The devil may be something more terrifying , He exists in the heart of every monster. It is evil incarnate.
They—all are puppets of evil.
To fall means to give up oneself.
Gu Yan regrets his past choices so much that he has to face the current situation and push each other into a situation where there is no redemption.
Since you can't let go of your previous persistence, why do you want to give up for a while
It would be better to die quickly.
Qin Yao's pale face lacked a trace of blood, and he clenched his hands into fists without saying a word.
"Human beings have a saying that there is no love without love." Gu Yan said slowly, looking sideways at Qin Yao, his voice was cold, "I think I know what hate is now."
Qin Yao finally took a step back.
Falling from heaven to hell, that's about it.
Finally, Qin Yao walked out in a hurry. He walked very quickly, his back looked a little sad, and his footsteps lost his usual calmness.
Gu Yan looked at Qin Yao's leaving back, and sighed in his heart.
He knew that all of this was just the beginning, not the end yet, and it was impossible for the devil to give up his pawn before reaching his goal.
Gu Yan closed his eyes and tried to speak from the bottom of his heart, but there was no response at all.
Manipulating his existence seems to have no intention of communicating with him at all, probably in the eyes of the devil, he is really insignificant. If it weren't for the usefulness now, I'm afraid he would have been obliterated long ago.
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Ever since Qin Yao was forced to leave by Gu Yan that day, he never came back.
It seemed that there was no one else in this villa except Qin Yao. If Qin Yao didn't come, Gu Yan didn't even see him. He didn't need to eat or drink, so he didn't need someone to take care of him. When Qin Yao was away, his body was not under control, but because he was tied up with a rope, he couldn't even get out of bed, so there was almost no difference... Lying there every day, and he couldn't fall asleep heartlessly, and he couldn't sleep all day long. I can only think wildly.
This thought reminded me of many things from the past.
It seemed that ever since he had figured everything out and made a decision, the barriers in his mind had gradually disappeared.
Many memories are no longer plausible, and slowly become clear.
In the blink of an eye, it has been more than a thousand years. Back then, I gave almost everything to protect this world. Now he turned into a monster to destroy this world that he once cherished so much, what a twist of fate.
He also thought of many things about Qin Yao, and the boy he picked up casually back then.
When we met again, he had already grown into what he is now, and he felt a sense of relief.
Thinking of what he said a few days ago, Gu Yan's eyes darkened. He... actually said such words to Qin Yao. Apart from sadness, there was also unspeakable embarrassment, as if something hidden in his heart had been punctured.
Does he love Qin Yao
For him in his previous life, Qin Yao was just his youth. He protected him, cared for him and taught him, but he also enjoyed Qin Yao's company and admiration. Relationships are more intimate.
Speaking of which, Qin Yao insisted on calling him master at the beginning, but he didn't agree at first, because he thought that he had not fully fulfilled the responsibility of master.
But Qin Yao insisted, and Qin Yao also said that he would only call him master.
A smile appeared on the corner of Gu Yan's mouth unconsciously... but it was fleeting.
They also had a good time together, but it was only a few years... Later, when the monsters made trouble, he was afraid that he would not be able to protect Qin Yao, so he sent him to the fairy gate.
Who knew that would be farewell.
Later, he died. There were not so many accidents when he died, and the emperor's dissatisfaction with him became more and more obvious.
He doesn't care too much, anyway, he has already done what he should do, he is useless, he is no longer needed and welcomed by others, he is a frightening and disgusting monster in the capital, and he is blocking the way of others A stumbling block is a burden in the eyes of parents.
So it doesn't matter if you die.
When he died, he only had some apologies. He didn't want to hurt anyone, but he still hurt his parents and clan.
There is also a little regret, I didn't see Qin Yao until I died, Qin Yao didn't come back, I don't know if he is doing well on the mountain.
Gu Yan blinked, as if he had finally come out of the fog.
But in yet another fog.
He didn't expect that Qin Yao would have such deep and heavy feelings for him.
The former Qin Yao never showed it. In his eyes, Qin Yao was just a child. But this child is going to grow up after all, and when we meet again in a thousand years...he has indeed become stronger and grown up, and this feeling finally showed its clues.
Gu Yan was a little at a loss, but also a little happy, because no matter what kind of Qin Yao it was, he was the one who cared most about him.
When he realized this, he began to panic with his feelings. Since when did Qin Yao become different to him? It was important in the beginning, but it wasn't like that back then, was it
His youth has not changed from the beginning to the end, and he does not want to change.
His boy, it turned out that he liked him so much, and he didn't feel disgusted.
Is this a kind of liking
He has always known that no matter what angle he looks at, Qin Yao is unique and different to him. But he had never thought of the word 'love' until he was forced to say it.
Those words were not of his will, and most of them were false.
But some of the feelings seem to be forcing him to admit it, so that he can no longer escape and must face it.
To face the fact that he may also love Qin Yao.
That kind of feeling started a long, long time ago and gradually deteriorated. Under Qin Yao's insistence, it turned into something else as he wished.
implanted in his heart.
It's just that for him, there are always so many regrets in life.
For example, this time, he might feel sorry for Qin Yao again. He never dared to be too obsessed with Qin Yao's feelings before, because he was afraid of his own heart and did not dare to sink. Now that he finally understood his intentions, he still couldn't respond. Because he is the one who should be damned, not Qin Yao, and it is he who should disappear, not this beautiful world.
The result is already doomed, why say it, it will only add to the sadness. It's better to go on like this forever.
He always exists so superfluous... Gu Yan smiled lowly, he was used to this a long time ago.
But once again accepting the fact, even he was a little bit unwilling.
Suddenly footsteps sounded outside, Gu Yan was very familiar with this sound of footsteps, it was Qin Yao coming.
He finally dared to come again, he is really a child who doesn't remember pain, since he recognized him, he was dripping with blood every time, but he still didn't know how to give up.
Gu Yan was a little sad, he knew that he was going to lose control of his body again, the devil would not allow him to destroy everything, since he had already tried to see him, he would never give him a chance to come back.
I just don't know what this body will do later.
Qin Yao really shouldn't have come.
"Sorry, I haven't been able to accompany you these few days." Qin Yao came to Gu Yan and said softly.
Gu Yan found that he was really unable to speak again, he just looked at Qin Yao quietly, he was actually surprised in his heart, he thought Qin Yao was beaten away these few days, didn't he? But something to do
"I know that you are dissatisfied with me a lot, but this is also right, after all, I was wrong first." Qin Yao said, with a forced smile on his face, "I'm sorry, I've kept you bored here these days, let's go out for a walk .”
With a wave of his hand, the golden rope on Gu Yan's body instantly loosened, shrinking and falling into Qin Yao's hands.
Qin Yao put away the rope, reached out to support Gu Yan, and said, "I won't tie you up anymore."
Gu Yan was surprised in his heart, but he still didn't speak.
Could it be that Qin Yao really decided to let him go out under his provocation? Gu Yan couldn't help but sink in his heart. If he really regained his freedom, I'm afraid the devil will control his body immediately and try to open the passage again. Letting him go at this time is not a wise decision. But there was no way for him to say these words.
"The weather is good today." Qin Yao's tone seemed relaxed, but his slightly stiff movements revealed the restlessness in his heart.
Gu Yan finally walked out of the villa, and the weather outside was really nice.
He didn't act rashly, just walked quietly with Qin Yao. As if the two were really taking a walk, Qin Yao was a little silent, but he still talked to him from time to time, even if he had nothing to say, he always found something to say.
This situation is really embarrassing, Gu Yan sighed in his heart, even he thought those words were too much, let alone Qin Yao
The Demon Lord is indeed the best at manipulating people's hearts. When he knew that Qin Yao was most afraid and cared the most, he just stabbed him there. How dare Qin Yao continue to fight against him? How dare you continue to hurt him
The two of them paced like old couples. Qin Yao's manor was indeed very big, and they hadn't finished walking for a long time.
But no matter how big it is, where can it go
The two big men, even if they walk slowly with the steps of normal people, it will be over now. Gu Yan looked at the front door and became slightly nervous. Will Qin Yao take him out? Really let him go like this
When he was about to reach the iron gate, Qin Yao suddenly stopped, and he smiled awkwardly, "Let's go back, we haven't gone around there yet."
Gu Yan looked at Qin Yao fixedly, and then he heard himself say, "Why don't you go out? I want to go out and have a look."
Qin Yao remained silent and did not answer.
Gu Yan's face turned cold, and he shook off Qin Yao's hand and walked outside. Qin Yao couldn't stop him, so he saw Gu Yan stretching out his hand to push the iron gate. The moment Gu Yan's hand touched the iron door, it was as if he was suddenly shocked by electricity! A white light flashed on the iron gate, then disappeared without a trace, and turned into an ordinary iron gate again.
Gu Yan looked around with deep eyes, the railing beyond his sight looked ordinary, but he knew that he couldn't get out of here.
He finally knew what Qin Yao was busy with these days. He really took great pains to create such a big formation just to trap him.
Gu Yan laughed heartily. He didn't know whether to be happy or disappointed. The happy thing was that Qin Yao didn't intend to let him go, and the sad thing was that he was about to become a bird in a cage. But there was nothing he could do about it now. many.
This has turned into a contest between the devil and Qin Yao.
Gu Yanneng felt his body stiffen for a moment, as if he faintly sensed some kind of anger coming from a distant place, then he felt himself turning his head slowly, and heard himself say, "Actually, you don't have to be like this, I can't escape at all." Out of your palm."
"I..." Qin Yao pursed his lips, as if he wanted to say something.
Gu Yan interrupted him, "You have worked so hard, don't you just want me? Why do you have to be righteous and considerate and gentle, are you tired? In fact, I may not refuse what you say directly, although I don't like humans to offend me very much, but if it's you, it's okay. The strong in this world are respected, and you are stronger than me, so it's okay to make an exception for you. Although I hate you for preventing me from imprisoning me, I welcome you I love this kind of thing, as a monster that finally wants me, I don’t hate it. And monsters will only obey beings stronger than themselves, if you are not a human being, but my kind, maybe you have tamed me long ago.”
"What did you say—" Qin Yao raised his eyes in shock.
"I mean, you're too hypocritical. It's not necessary at all." Gu Yan smiled sarcastically, and suddenly stepped forward to kiss Qin Yao's lips.
He felt Qin Yao's suddenly stiff body, and the shock made him unable to react to Gu Yan's behavior for a moment. Gu Yan didn't care at all, kissed him harder, and tried to pry Qin Yao's teeth open, passionate and lingering.
Qin Yao's stiffness was only for a moment, and then he pushed Gu Yan away suddenly, his voice was rapid and low, "I didn't want you to be like this." His eyes were clearly stained with desire to move, but he restrained himself.
"So you don't want it?" Gu Yan gently licked his lips with the tip of his tongue, raised the corners of his eyes and brows, and smiled meaningfully.
Qin Yao looked at him deeply, with a tense face.
Gu Yan stepped forward, put his hand on Qin Yao's shoulder, slowly moved it down, and finally landed on his chest, looked sideways at Qin Yao, "But I want it, how boring it is to be locked here by you, If you don’t have some fun, wouldn’t you be bored to death? If you can’t resist, you have to learn to bear it and make yourself more comfortable. Why do you hold back like this? Anyway, you know that I am such a monster..." Gu Yan raised his head and leaned towards Qin Yao In the ear, the voice was long and deep, "You don't have to treat me as a human being, it won't make me happy. Since you have decided to lock me up to the end, why don't you let me be happy, and you didn't let me out... Are you going to refuse me even this? I remember, you didn't want it very much before?"
"Is this what you mean?" Qin Yao looked at Gu Yan, a desolate look flashed across his eyes, and he closed his eyes.
Gu Yan didn't answer, and kissed her again.