In Gao Ying's short life of less than twenty years, death has always been a very illusory concept in books and film and television dramas for him. After all, death is a very taboo concept, and adults rarely discuss death with minors.
However, after repeatedly seeing someone die in front of him so positively, Gao Ying truly experienced the horror of death. He finally understood why people said that war would destroy people's ethics and outlook on life and death. He has always firmly believed that life is extremely precious, as long as a person's life can be saved, no matter how high the price is, it is worth paying. But now, he only felt horrified. Is human life really precious
Just now, the person who was still alive and determined to live, died so easily. He couldn't even leave a last word, couldn't even do a little struggle, he just died like this. It turns out that death can come so easily and unreasonably. In reality, no matter how many people die in the news, it is not as shocking as seeing someone close to you die with your own eyes.
"So... I really have been longing for eternal life..." Gao Ying laughed at himself and said, "I don't want to die, I definitely don't want to die like an ant..."
Seeing that Gao Ying was speaking incoherently, Hou Mingbo also became worried. He suddenly thought, could this be the so-called PTSD? Hou Mingbo has seen some concepts about PTSD on the Internet, which translates into Chinese as post-traumatic stress disorder. This is a mental disorder that arises after a human being is threatened with death or witnesses another person die in front of him.
After all, the personalities of Gao Ying and Hou Mingbo are different. Unlike Hou Mingbo, Gao Ying rarely experienced setbacks since he was a child. His parents were both high-level intellectuals. His life has always been very smooth. Compared with Hou Mingbo, who was born in poverty and suffered a lot from his father suffering from cancer, death is actually placed in front of him from an illusory concept. He can persevere calmly until now because he can solve any difficulties he encountered in the past with his own ability, which has generated strong self-confidence. But this self-confidence has gradually been destroyed at this time.
"I can't die...I can't die...I absolutely can't die..." After Gao Ying repeated it three times, he took deep breaths and forced himself to calm down.
At this time, there was only one strong thought in his mind! He must live on, no matter what, he must obtain eternal life!
This will became the strongest motivation for him to persevere. Then, he looked at Hou Mingbo and said, "Let's go. No matter what, we must live."
To live... He finally realized how heavy these three words are. He actually regards himself as a savior, and even hopes that others can survive with his help. Whether he can survive himself, he can't guarantee it. It's the same now, he also has no confidence to let anyone around him live. This is an exam that must never be failed, and if he can survive today, he will continue to experience this... an exam that must never be failed!
"I finally understood... what was written on the test paper, 'How much are you willing to pay'. How ignorant am I to write 'I am willing to do whatever it takes'?"
When Gao Ying said these words, Hou Mingbo felt very uncomfortable. At home, watching his father who became bald and thinner due to chemotherapy, he always realized the impermanence of life. However, did they really realize the so-called "price" and long for the so-called eternal life? Eternal life means that it can last longer than the stars and the universe. Ordinary people, eager to have a life longer than the universe, have to pay the price, have they really realized it
They... don't understand the so-called life at all, and they don't understand the real death at all. That's why they so easily... made a contract with the devil.
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Contrary to Gao Ying, Zhu Sunling experienced death too early.
After experiencing the earthquake and losing her close relatives, Zhu Sunling knew that the god of death is never a rare visitor, and may come to visit anytime, anywhere. But people living in peaceful times are not aware of this, and they take healthy and safe living as a matter of course. Little did they know...they just happened to be lucky enough to be alive, that's all.
She still remembers that at the memorial service, lying in the coffin, after being remade, the father, mother, sister, brother who seemed to be just asleep... They looked the same as before, but they could no longer speak, could not Crying, unable to smile, let alone... impossible to love her anymore.
And at this moment, compared to mourning, the two stronger emotions are... rejoicing, and the fear that comes with it. Fortunately, it was because she was the only one who survived the earthquake disaster. When she saw her dead family members, she felt very strongly how lucky she was to be alive. If the rescue team hadn't found her in the end, Save her from the rubble, and she will lie in a coffin with her family, falling into a long sleep that will never wake up.
And the fear is... One day in the future, she will still lie in the coffin, and let others mourn her. If she is lucky, it will be more than ten years later, if she is unlucky, maybe she will encounter a sudden disaster in the next moment. Why do humans have to die? Is birth, old age, sickness and death a natural law? However, people can only live in this world for a few decades before dying. Compared with this universe that was born for more than 10 billion years, human life is too short and fragile.
She firmly believes that human life must face death, which is a defect in genetic evolution. Why do normal cells have to face death? Why is the tangible life bound to decay one day? Why do human beings take it for granted that they will die? The pursuit of eternal life has become her obsession since she was 6 years old, and it has been until today. Therefore, she is very clear that to obtain eternal life, she must pay a very high price. In her opinion, even if this is a contract with the devil, it is a very fair and reasonable thing to pass this horrible test in exchange for eternal life!
(end of this chapter)