Dong Xie began to recall the past.
It was Disneyland in Florida, M country.
Florida is located at the southernmost tip of the east coast of country M. It is a prominent peninsula, and it is also the state with the second longest coastline in country M. Many years ago, Dong Xie always wanted to travel to Florida and take his lover to Disneyland.
That period of time was when Wilvin faked his death and Isabella finally agreed to her marriage.
At that time, as the adopted son of the Gominik family, he temporarily took over the family, but he knew very well that he was completely unpopular in the family, and he could not command any of the people below. As a Chinese, living in a white society is very difficult. It is not something you can integrate into by speaking English, and you even have to completely change your own thinking. But Dong Xie remembered his parents' admonition since he was a child. Even if he lives in country M, he is still a native of country Z (of course he now knows that he still has a quarter of country R blood).
That day, Dong Xie and Isabella played late at Disney. Originally, that night, he hoped that after returning to the hotel, he and Isabella could do some sports that could only be done by two people, but...
"Scorpion." Isabella will always call Dong Xie by her English name, "If you take charge of the Gominik family, I hope you can drive out all the demon messengers and leave none behind."
"What?"
Under the beautiful fairytale castle, Dong Xie wanted to take advantage of the beautiful atmosphere and kiss Isabella, but she said such creepy words.
He is different from Welvin, even if the matter of the priest came first, he did not intend to drive out all the demon messengers, leaving no one behind.
After all, those people are actually poor people, and they don't know that the price of the exam is to sell themselves to the devil. Exams again and again will be hunted down by evil spirits.
In the final analysis, he was only on the standpoint of the adopted son of the Gominik family, assisting Welfyn in hunting down the demon messenger.
"I hope you can inherit Welwin's will, so... I think his spirit in heaven..."
"Why do you have to kill all the demon messengers?"
It was Dong Xie who rarely asked Isabella this question.
"This is the word passed down from the ancestors. The devil messenger must die." When Isabella said this, she was very firm: "I was born for this, and even if I die, I will respect According to God's will, kill all the demons who blaspheme God, leaving no one behind. Since they have chosen the camp of demons, they can only be redeemed if they die."
…
"Is this the reason for killing all the candidates?"
Dong Xie only felt that his world view had collapsed.
In fact, before Dong Xie became a candidate, his attitude towards candidates was very contradictory. Those people were originally living people, and they had to go through this kind of test in order to pursue eternal life. He didn't think this should be the reason for them to be killed. But after a series of coquettish operations by Welvin, he developed a strong rebellious psychology, and would rather stand in the camp of the demon messenger and be an enemy of Welwin.
For Dong Xie, both love and hate can be extreme, and there is never a gray middle ground in his feelings.
Because he hated Welwin, he became the demon messenger that Welwin hated and feared the most.
Because he hated Isabella for breaking her promise, he was willing to do everything to protect Meng Qindong who kept her promise.
The more he marches towards eternal life as a candidate, the better he treats Meng Qindong, and the more he treats Werwin who has always despised him and even sent his uncle to prison with vengeance, and Isabella who betrayed her original promise. .
He deliberately uses the opposite extreme method to give back to others' love and hatred for him, or his own love and hatred for others. This kind of personality is destined to cause huge social barriers, and one who is careless can easily fall into the demon of the heart and become the devil. In the real society, people are more pursuing the golden mean, and love and hate often serve the pros and cons, rather than right or wrong.
Now both Welvin and Isabella are dead. The meaning of his becoming a demon messenger is only to obtain eternal life.
He glanced at the doll in his hand, Yunyu's words reminded him of an important thing. For the final exam, places are limited. This also means that in the near future, he may also compete with Gao Ying.
He is actually a seed... Candidate
This also means that as long as he can survive the final exam, he will have a higher probability of becoming a demon host and gaining immortality.
At this moment, Dong Xie had a lot of thoughts in his mind.
For Isabella, he has no value or meaning. But that alone was fine, even if Wilvin sent his uncle to prison, even if he sacrificed his time reward to save Wilvin, to her, she was nothing after all. Wilvin and her can become demon messengers in order to survive, but he is an unforgivable sin to become a demon messenger. There are completely two standards.
At the moment when he wanted to become a candidate, what was in his mind? Do they hope to gain immortality, or do they hope to defeat Welvin? In the future, when Werwin becomes an octogenarian, he can still be a youth in full bloom.
In fact...he didn't yearn for immortal life to such an extent. After all...the price was too high, and the possibility of premature death was even higher.
It wasn't until... when he killed Wilvin and Isabella with his own hands that he felt a huge emptiness. His hatred could no longer be released, so that he almost became a real demon under the guidance of the inner demon.
"Dong, Dong Xie, what are you thinking?" Meng Qindong looked at Dong Xie and asked, "Have you thought of anything?"
Dong Xie looked at Meng Qindong, and he suddenly understood.
He never really was himself.
All this time, he had no real desire for eternal life.
All he wants is to be loved.
This matter is far more important to him than eternal life.
It is precisely because of his desire to be loved that he did not take the road of comprehensive blackening. But while longing to be loved, he always loves himself more than others.
Life is really... so contradictory.
Suddenly, he initiated a "private chat" with Meng Qindong.
That's right, this is a kind of private chat in the brain that only he and Meng Qindong can communicate with each other.
"If you can survive this exam... Qindong, I'll take you to the Disney theme park in Florida."
Meng Qindong thought that he had something important to say, but he didn't expect it to be like this
Looking back carefully...
Dong Xie found that he never loved others more than himself.
But... To love someone, do you have to love the other person more than yourself
Is true love only through comparison? Is love something that can be quantified
Love can also love someone as you love yourself!
And now, he finally understood what the original sin of being a candidate was. But it was impossible for him to regret it.
He has always loved himself more than others. So even if he became a demon host, he wouldn't mind, as long as he could survive.
He has gone too far this way.
He can't go back.
So…
He just kept going.
Immediately afterwards, he picked up Gao Ying's doll that he was holding tightly in his hand.
"So, does Yunyu, the host of the devil seeds, have any advantages?"
Yunyu nodded: "There will definitely be an advantage. But the host demon primarch will never interfere with the exam."
"Even if this seed candidate is killed by other candidates, will he not take revenge?"
"No. Being killed means that you are not qualified to be a host."
At this time, looking at the doll in front of him, Dong Xie was struggling.
Gao Ying gradually felt something was wrong, what was Dong Xie doing looking at him like that
Dong Xie was thinking about a question.
Does he really want Gao Ying to live forever
Now that Gao Ying has become a doll, Dong Xie has at least a hundred ways to kill him.
It was impossible for Dong Xie to go back. The way ahead of him is either death or eternal life by becoming a demon host.
"Qindong, can you love me like you love yourself?"
Dong Xie's words suddenly appeared in Meng Qindong's mind.
She was stunned, why did she ask this at this time
"I want to win the final exam place with you and get eternal life. I hope to love you as I love myself."
"What's wrong with you? Dong..."
"You don't need to sacrifice anything of yours for me, and I won't sacrifice myself for you. But at least without sacrificing ourselves, can we trust each other and support each other until the end?"
Meng Qindong froze for a few seconds, then replied in his mind.
"I can!"
Dong Xie nodded.
Believe it or not, at least he did.
He no longer hesitated, and grabbed the hand of the doll Gao Ying...
Clenched tighter.
He wanted to be something completely different from Welwin.
The demon messengers that he spared no effort to exterminate are not damnable beings!
They don't need to die to gain salvation!
Just like himself!
(end of this chapter)