Do you have a guilty conscience
Is it atonement
When did Pei Zheng ever have a conscience? When did he need to atone for his sins
There is no need to explain to anyone why you do all this.
At this time, some soldiers came to report military intelligence, and Zhao Litang had to leave temporarily.
I don’t know how much time passed, the time I spent standing outside waiting felt like an eternity.
The lights in the tent were not turned off until the sky began to turn slightly white.
The curtain was lifted, and Shen Huan walked out with a tired face, his cuffs covered in blood, which frightened people.
Wu Quan, under Zhao Litang's order, had also been guarding outside the tent. When he saw Shen Huan coming out, he hurried forward and asked, "Master Shen, how is His Highness? Is everything going well?"
Shen Huan turned his eyes to Pei Zheng who was not far away. When he answered Wu Quan's words, it seemed as if he was talking to Pei Zheng.
"It's going well. The situation has stabilized for now. We can't replace too much blood at once. We can only do it slowly. But there is hope after all. Don't worry too much."
Wu Quan nodded and quickly ordered someone to take Shen Huan downstairs to rest. She had been busy all night and her mind was extremely tense. Now that she had relaxed, she felt extremely exhausted.
Qi Yiru had some blood drained out, and although it did not cause any serious harm to her body, she still had to be well taken care of. She was also sent out of the tent and someone was specially arranged to take care of her.
The people outside the tent gradually dispersed.
Chengfeng stood beside the curtain and turned to ask, "Master, do you want to go in?"
Of course Pei Zheng wanted to go in and take a look. His mind had already flown in, but he stood there without moving.
Chengfeng thought Pei Zheng had no intention of going in, so he slowly withdrew his hand and prepared to turn around and leave.
Unexpectedly, the curtain was lifted from the inside at this moment, and a face appeared from outside the curtain.
"If you want to come in, come in. If you want to leave, leave. Why are you standing at someone's door all the time?"
Jiang Yubai looked at Chengfeng and then at Pei Zheng.
The master and servant are of the same character. They have things on their mind that they cannot express even if they want to.
"Not going in."
Chengfeng said, and then it seemed that he was really planning to leave.
"Where are you going?" Jiang Yubai grabbed his sleeve and said, "You can go, but you have to get in."
Jiang Yubai held Chengfeng with one hand and raised his chin towards Pei Zheng inside the tent.
Cheng Feng said, "The master doesn't want to."
"If you don't understand, just shut up."
Jiang Yubai glared at Chengfeng with disdain. It was a pity that he had followed Pei Zheng for so long, but he didn't even know that his master didn't know how to speak properly.
Jiang Yubai saw it very clearly. Pei Zheng was a person who would show his dislike and disgust without any concealment, but he always concealed his lingering emotions of love and longing very well.
I really don't know where these bad habits come from.
Jiang Yubai consciously stepped aside. He cleared away the outsiders for Pei Zheng. He was really considerate.
Pei Zheng glanced at the dim tent. Before he could step inside, he was pushed hard from behind by someone. Then a heavy curtain was lowered, separating the cold and chaotic outside from the warm and quiet inside.
Jiang Yubai's voice came in before the curtain fell.
"If you forget, let him remember. The good and the bad are just you."
The words "it's all because of you" made Pei Zheng stop in his tracks.
It's all about him, the little guy forgot, why are there only memories about him
Whether as Qi Changyi or as Shen Jiujiu, Pei Zheng remembered all of this alone, and the little man now remembered Qi Changyi's memories but forgot Shen Jiujiu's.
It seemed as if fate was playing a joke on Pei Zheng. Those who loved, cared for and protected him were all forgotten, and those who hurt, harmed and used him were now taken out and turned into a sharp blade to stab into his heart.
However, Shen Huan said that the little guy has now recovered some of his past memories. It may be because he remembered too many things at once, so it is inevitable that his memory is a little confused, resulting in the loss of some of his current memories, but it will not take long to recover.
Pei Zheng slowly walked to the bedside. The little man lying on the bed had his eyes closed and his face was pale. He looked like he was asleep. His collar was slightly messy, and the red lotus tattoo was exposed to the air, and it seemed to have turned redder.
She sat down on the edge of the bed, then reached out to help him straighten his collar. She accidentally touched the soft and delicate skin underneath, and her fingertips trembled.
Pei Zheng gently touched the red lotus with his fingers, and the slender petals were slanted under the robe, so lively and vivid that they seemed to be swaying in the wind.
"When I fell asleep, I was so obedient. Once I woke up, did you not let me touch you and wanted me to go away?"
Pei Zheng laughed at himself, "You are the only one who dares to order me like this. Only you made me know for the first time what it feels like to be too scared to face it."
**The little guy seemed to be dreaming. His brows suddenly furrowed tightly and he grabbed the quilt with both hands.
"Mother, mother, please don't, don't abandon Yi'er, don't go. Yi'er will be good, don't leave Yi'er, okay, mother.
"Princess"
The corners of the little guy's eyes began to become moist, and his murmurs became louder.
Pei Zheng knew that he was thinking about the bad memories from the past, so he lifted his fingers from the quilt, held his hand, and rubbed the back of his hand with his fingertips.
"Don't go, don't leave Yi'er, don't be afraid."
The little guy held Pei Zheng's hand, but his tears became even more violent.
"Brother Pei"
It was a very small sound, but Pei Zheng heard it clearly.
Did he dream about himself? What did he dream about
"Brother Pei, Brother Pei, Brother Pei"
The little guy didn't say anything, but just called out again and again, feeling extremely aggrieved and sad. Every time he called out, a tear as big as a bean would roll down, and Pei Zheng's heart ached as he cried.
Pei Zheng used his fingers to catch his tears and gently stroked his hair.
"I'm here. I'm here. Be good and don't cry."
But the little guy seemed to be made of water. Once he started crying, he couldn't stop. He even wet Pei Zheng's cuffs before he showed signs of stopping.
Pei Zheng leaned over, put his arms under his back, and then lifted them up slightly, almost lifting the little guy up in the air, with the little guy's entire body held in his chest.
Being held tightly in someone's arms, the little guy felt a little comforted, and slowly stopped crying and his tears stopped flowing.
"I will be good, Brother Pei, I will be good, please be nice to me."
Pei Zheng paused for a moment, then whispered in his ear, "I'll treat you well, I'll treat you very well, it doesn't matter if you're not obedient, I'll always treat you well, understand?"
The little man seemed to have lost consciousness again and did not respond.
Pei Zheng held the soft and warm ball in his arms, reluctant to let go. But after holding it for a while, he felt that his empty heart was filled a little, and then he slowly let go of the little person.
The curtain was lifted at this time, and Jiang Yubai came in.
"Okay, let him have a good rest. Lord Pei, you need to rest too. You must have been in the cold wind all night last night. Even the best body can't stand such abuse, not to mention your body, which is not much better."
Apart from Shen Huan, Jiang Yubai knew Pei Zheng's physical condition best. Pei Zheng was also in a state of flux, having suffered so many injuries that it was unknown whether his life would be shortened.
"I'm fine."
Pei Zheng had already put away his expression and looked as cold as ice.
"Yes, you are fine, it's me who is in trouble. I beg you to go and rest for a while, okay?"
Without waiting for Pei Zheng to rest, Chengfeng came to him with a serious expression.
The two went outside the tent to discuss things. Before Pei Zheng lowered the curtain, he took a deep look inside and then left.
It took most of the day to get there, and when we came back it was already afternoon.
There were a lot of people gathered outside the tent, and Zhao Litang and Yue Nu were also standing outside.
"Master Pei."
Some soldiers saw Pei Zheng and saluted him.
Hearing the noise here, Zhao Litang also looked over.
Before Pei Zheng came over, a fist was thrown at him. He quickly turned his head to avoid it, and Chengfeng put out his hand to block the fist.
Zhao Litang took back his hand. "How do you know you hid now? I heard that it was you who entered the tent this morning?"
"yes"
"So tell me, what did you do in there for so long?"
Pei Zheng was puzzled, "What can I do?"
Zhao Litang said angrily, "You have been selfish and self-centered for a long time. Who knows what kind of beastly things you will do! Let me tell you, Chang Yi's condition has worsened again. Who knows if it's your fault! He was clearly getting better last night. How come he is like this after you went in to check on him
With a "bang", Zhao Litang was knocked to the ground by a punch.
This punch was thrown with great force, much bigger than the one Zhao Litang had thrown before.
Pei Zheng's fists were stained with Zhao Litang's blood. His eyes were red and his hair was flying in the wind. He looked cold-blooded and violent again.
"What did you say?"
Yue Nu stood in front of Zhao Litang and wiped the blood off his face with her sleeve.
Zhao Litang also sneered, brushed Yue Nu aside, stood up, and looked at Pei Zheng.
The curtain was opened at this time, and Jiang Yubai walked out with a stern face.
"I want to say one thing now. We need to make a decision quickly."
He glanced at the two people in front of him.
"The condition suddenly worsened because we didn't notice a problem during the previous blood transfusion, which is that bad blood will assimilate good blood. In this case, no matter how much blood is transfused, it will be useless and will only make the condition worse. There is only one medicine that can stop this disease, and this medicine only grows in the oasis in the desert. So, we must enter the desert now to find this medicine."
Chengfeng Road, but entering the desert, it will take a long time to go back and forth, will it be in time for treatment?"
Jiang Yubai said, "That's why we have to take His Highness and the Princess into the desert. Master Shen and I will be with them. We will temporarily control the condition. Once we find the medicine, we will start treatment immediately."
"No!" Zhao Litang objected immediately. "You don't know how dangerous the desert is. If you go in and can't get out, you will die anyway. And so many of you will die in there together, without a single body left."
"go."
A somewhat gloomy voice came, and the tone did not allow for argument, "Leave immediately."