Did Not Say Anything About My Feelings

Chapter 76: as you wish

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After the performance, Lin Ye knew that Cheng Chi and Qi Huan were here.

Although it has been a long time since the withdrawal, when the two appeared in the waiting hall, it was inevitable that some sights and whispers would be attracted.

Fortunately, they don't care much about other people's comments and opinions.

The two invited four roommates in the dormitory to have dinner, and it happened that the guests were leaving tomorrow morning. The program team also organized a small farewell party for the seven groups of trainees and guests in the cafeteria.

Xia Dongchan and the other two roommates all went to the farewell party of the guests, only Lin Ye's group had no guests, and Jiang Lian also went to the farewell party of Li Qingcheng's group, so his time was spared.

The three met Wen Fang again in the cafeteria. The other party was very happy to see Cheng Chi and Qi Suan, and after staying in the group to toast the guest teacher, he couldn't wait to find an excuse to get up and sit down by their side.

They said they were going to have dinner, but they were actually talking most of the time. Although they talked about the trivial daily life after their separation, the few people still listened with enthusiasm and enthusiasm.

Qi Huan and Cheng Chi could not stay overnight in the base, and left the base before midnight. Before leaving, he took Lin Ye and Wen Fang's single-person banners from his bag and gave them to them, "Lin Ye is from a fan, and Wen Fang is from Yan Changfei. He was supposed to come here, but he came here because of something else." No, so let us bring you the banner."

Wen Mian thanked him, patted Qi Huan on the shoulder and said, "When we leave the island, let's have dinner together."

Qi slowly responded with a smile.

Lin Ye and Wen Mian watched them leave by the gate. Although the two walked in the dark wearing masks and hats, they were still recognized by sharp-eyed fans outside the gate.

The voices of them talking with the fans drifted in in the night wind, Lin Ye and Wen Mian followed the voice and walked back.

After walking a short distance, Wen Fang said abruptly, "Actually, I knew about their relationship a long time ago. When we were in the same group, I saw them kissing in a place where no one was around."

Lin Yexin said that he had actually bumped into it before, but compared to the kissing scene that Wen Mian saw, it was really exciting. He didn't say anything, but showed a surprised look in cooperation.

A bit of helplessness appeared in Wen Mian's eyes, "The two of them are a bit too courageous."

Lin Ye paused, and asked the question that he had been confused for a long time: "Do you think the two of them are a couple, or just a bed partner?"

"Isn't it obvious?" Wen Mian gave him a surprised look, "Their relationship is a couple."

Lin Ye frowned and repeated his words: "Obviously?"

Only now did Wen Mian remember that the person in front of him was only less than twenty years old. He lazily drew the corners of his lips, nodded and said, "Haven't you been in love yet?"

Lin Ye didn't answer.

When he was acquiescing, Wen Mian put his shoulders on his shoulder and winked at him, "Although I haven't talked about it, I know it more or less. The two of them kissed in a place where no one was around, how could it not be Is it a couple relationship?"

"What do you mean?" Lin Ye thought about her own situation, but frowned more and more, "You mean, only couples can kiss?"

"I'll analyze it carefully with you. Listen carefully. Don't be fooled by those scumbags who pretend to be in love with you but only want to sleep with you." Wen Mianyu patted him on the shoulder earnestly, "The biggest difference between a couple and a bed partner is that the former has feelings, while the latter only has hope."

"Kissing is an act of intimacy based on feelings." He talked like an experienced love expert, as if he had completely forgotten that he had never practiced it himself. "There is only sex between bed partners. They often After finishing the work, they pat their asses and get out of bed and leave, and then make an appointment on the mobile phone for the next meeting. Apart from going to bed, they will not do any other unnecessary things, including kissing."

Wen Mian said seriously: "But couples are different. Apart from the matter of going to bed, they will also hold hands, hug and kiss under the bed, and do everything you don't do with other people, only with people you like intimacy."

Every word the other party said did not match his own experience. When he was in love with Shen Yuanjian, Shen Yuanjian only wanted to sleep with him. He and Jiang Lian only slept together and didn't talk about each other, yet they had so many intimate acts between lovers.

He did not refute Wen Mian, but fell into deep thought.

He didn't feel disgusted by Jiang Lian's kiss, and even later, he would take the initiative to kiss each other. Jiang Lian's close physical contact with him will make his heart beat faster, and what Jiang Lian said will easily change his mood. The way Jiang Lian looked at him could make him fall into it unconsciously.

Like a fish drowning in the deep sea.

Jiang Lian's eyes are the sea, and he is a fish wagging its tail and breathing in the sea.

Lin Ye didn't want to be his bed partner anymore.

They initially agreed that there was only a bed partner relationship, but Jiang Lian gave him far more than a bed partner. He also has the greedy nature that ordinary people would have.

He felt that he should like Shang Jiang Lian, or a little more than that. Those feelings grow like tree rings over time, gradually approaching the word that is always difficult to say, or even ashamed to say.

Love troubles may be late, but not late.

Wen Mian didn't know that Lin Ye had completely fallen into love troubles because of his words, and he was still instilling the correct concept of love into him.

Lin Ye was absent-minded.

He mistakenly thought that his words were too realistic and negative, which severely dampened his enthusiasm for love, so Wen Mian raised his elbow and bumped him, "There will always be love, and there will always be a partner."

Unsure whether Lin Ye is going to find a girlfriend or a boyfriend in the future, Wen Fang's words are vague and unified with the word "object".

Lin Ye didn't know the twists and turns in his heart, so he just nodded casually and said, "I would like to borrow your good words."

Wen Mian looked at him calmly, and quietly came to a conclusion in his heart, Lin Ye probably wants to fall in love.

When they went back, there were two groups of people left in the cafeteria, and the group with Wen Mian was among them. The "Tibetan Wind" group had already left, and neither Jiang Lian nor the other two in the dormitory were there.

Wen Mian stayed and continued to renew the share in his group, and Lin Ye went back to the dormitory alone.

The dormitory building was brightly lit, and most of the trainees had already returned to the dormitory. The stairwell was empty and silent, only the voice-activated lights continued to shine in the sound of Lin Ye's footsteps going upstairs.

He pushed open the door of the stairwell and entered the corridor. The dormitory doors on both sides were closed, and there was no sound coming from the door. He could only judge by the soft light leaking from under the door that someone had already returned from those dormitories.

He continued to walk deep into the corridor, and saw that the door of a dormitory in front of him was not closed tightly, and the light in the dormitory fell from the door, reflecting long light and shadows on the floor tiles in the middle of the corridor.

Lin Ye stopped in front of the light, and when she looked up, she found that it was their dormitory.

Although the door was not closed tightly, it was not wide open either, and the scene inside the door could not be seen from the outside. Lin Ye walked over and stretched out his hand to push the door, but before his fingertips touched the door, he heard Li Qingcheng's voice coming from the door.

The other party said: "You and your little boyfriend have a good stage atmosphere. When I saw the feature film aired, the popularity should surpass the "Dark Fire" group. It's just that the eyes are a little too explicit, so you don't have to worry about someone taking it." Use this stage to make a fuss about your sexuality?"

Lin Ye paused, put down his hands, and stood in the shadows outside the door without moving.

Jiang Lian said lightly, "No."

"What are you doing? The waiting room was full of straight men who didn't think about that at all." The voice was Ming Rang, "Qiu Yi was sitting next to me at the time, and asked with great interest, what were the roles of the two of them? Is it a mortal enemy who is fighting head-to-head?"

Li Qingcheng probably laughed, but didn't speak.

Ming Rang said again: "Don't always call him your little boyfriend, they are not in a romantic relationship."

"Isn't it?" Li Qingcheng's tone was a bit surprised, and then turned into a run on and teasing, "Since it's not a romantic relationship, he temporarily regretted not joining my group, and ran away with him without even saying hello? "

Ming Rang raised his lips and smiled, "I'm also very surprised."

"But it's okay to think about it." Li Qingcheng added, half sighing and half joking, "Jiang Lian has always been a person with his own ideas, and no one else can influence him. If he can make changes, there will only be two people. possibility."

Ming Rang asked enthusiastically, "Which two kinds?"

Li Qingcheng said: "One is that person is very important to him, and the other is that the other party is just an insignificant person to him. Even if he makes changes for him, it will not have any impact on his life."

"The very important person hasn't appeared yet. I guess it's the second type." Li Qingcheng roughly called out to Jiang Lian, "Am I right?"

After a brief silence, Jiang Lian hummed perfunctorily.

Li Qingcheng was a few years older than him and Ming Rang, and he was a friend who grew up with them for many years. To some extent, the other party does know him very well.

However, after Li Qingcheng asked, what Jiang Lian could not stop thinking about was not the "insignificant person" that the other party said, but "very important person".

Together with these words, Lin Ye's face appeared in front of his eyes.

Is it important? For the first time, Jiang Lian felt that he had encountered a difficult problem with no answer, and subconsciously thought that if he did not make any careful consideration on this problem, he would probably have deep regret later.

Many people have asked him this question, either in life or in interviews: "Do you have any regrets?"

Jiang Lian replied indifferently: "No."

The person who asks the question often has a look of shock on his face, "How can I make myself not regret it?"

Jiang Lian's answer is always the same: "Don't give yourself any chance to regret it."

He stretched out his two long legs in a slightly restless mood, put his hands on the back of his head and leaned against the head of the bed, and gave Li Qingcheng a brief answer in a very perfunctory manner, then lowered his eyes and fell into thought.

Probably seeing that he didn't want to participate in the next conversation, Li Qingcheng turned to chatting with Jiang Lian about other trivial matters in life.

Two minutes later, Lin Ye pushed the door open and walked in as usual, and turned to them as if nothing had happened, "Why don't you close the door?"

"Did you close the door?" Ming Rang kicked Li Qingcheng who was beside the bed, "You didn't close the door."

Li Qingcheng rubbed his chin with a little guilty conscience, "I closed it, maybe it wasn't closed tightly."

Lin Ye didn't say anything anymore, and walked across the dormitory to get the towels for bathing on the balcony. When passing by Jiang Lian's bed, the other party suddenly raised his eyelids to look at him.

Facing his dark and deep gaze, Lin Ye paused slightly, wanting to smile at him as usual. But soon, Lin Ye found that she couldn't smile at him.

He tilted his head slightly, looked away calmly, and walked straight to the balcony.

After Lin Ye went to take a bath, seeing that it was getting late, Li Qingcheng also left first. Not long after the other party left, Qiu Yi, who had been visiting the bedroom next door, came back.

Lin Ye came out of the shower, put the quilt on the bed and lay down. Qiu Yi, who was finally done, was in charge of locking the door and turning off the lights. Everything was so normal that it seemed that Li Qingcheng's conversation with Jiang Lian was just an illusion that Lin Ye had when he was standing outside the door.

That night, neither Lin Ye nor Jiang Lian fell asleep.

Still unsure of what to do next, Lin Ye lay on the upper bunk with her eyes open, thinking over and over again. In the early hours of the morning and night, he played back the memories in his mind that Jiang Lian participated in over the past two months.

Then, in those repeatedly scrolling replay scenes, gradually calm down and rationalize.

He likes Jiang Lian, or he is in love with Jiang Lian.

But Jiang Lian had already told him very clearly.

The first time I said that I would not talk about feelings with him.

The second time, he said that he didn't want him to be confused with others while the two were in bed partner relationship.

The third time is to say that he is just an irrelevant person.

He doesn't want to be the kind of person who doesn't know what's interesting, and he doesn't want to be the kind of person who stalks and makes people disgusted.

The other party has made it too clear, for him now, the best way is to withdraw and stop the loss in time before those feelings accumulate more.

It was dark and quiet in the dormitory at two o'clock in the morning, but Lin Ye's mind was awake like never before. He got up from the bed, feeling an unprecedented loss and emptiness in his chest.

It was as if a typhoon roared across the plain in the middle of the night, leaving only silence and desolation all over the place.

He climbed down the stairs to drink water, and unexpectedly met Jiang Lian's gaze in the dark.

Jiang Lian lay on the lower bunk with his eyes closed until two o'clock, and the thoughts in his head were connected into a thread, and when he opened his eyes again, he already had the answer to the question.

He sat up from the bed, looked at Lin Ye who was getting out of bed, and said in a low and slow voice, "You didn't sleep?"

Lin Ye was silent for a long time, and said softly in the dark: "Let's break up."

Jiang Lian's expression froze slightly, his dark pupils suddenly sank, "What do you mean?"

"It's not considered a breakup." Realizing her slip of the tongue, Lin Ye explained again, "I mean, let's break up."

He has never been so grateful that he can completely hide his face in the night, "If you feel that I owe you, I can make it up to you. But I don't want to continue this relationship anymore. "

Jiang Lian did not ask him to make compensation.

In the darkness, he suppressed the anger that surged up in his heart, closed his eyes and said coldly: "Since you want it, it's as you wish."

The author has something to say: It's going to be sour.