Lin Ziran ignored the lost Ning Bai and drove away.
Ning Bai watched the green sports car leave with a bang, and after a long while, he revealed a self-deprecating wry smile.
Yes, it's over between them.
It's just not what he expected.
The one who brought up the end.
Not him either.
…
Lin Ziran thought to himself, is he afraid that he has nowhere to go if he has money? Thanks to Lu Maofeng's 100,000 pocket money, he went directly to a five-star hotel and stayed happily.
How can you feel wronged by playing games? Of course you have to enjoy life!
Going out to eat and drink during the day, and come back to sleep and play games at night, it is also very happy.
It's just that Lin Ziran occasionally looked at the phone and sighed.
Lin Ziran's father and mother really didn't call me!
System you want them to call you? don't you like them
Lin Ziran, I don't like them, but Lu Xiaodong cares, why do you think a child ran away from home? Do you think you really don't want that home anymore? At the end of the day, I hope someone will come to coax it...
Lu Xiaodong is just a child. Whether he is flattering Jiang Xuan or pretending to be rebellious, he just wants to attract the attention of his parents. He still cares about that family very much in his heart. Lin Ziran ran away from home now, and it was only one of the reasons why he couldn't stay there. He probably also had a tentative mind to see if Lu Maofeng and Feng Wan cared about this child at all, but this result was really disappointing. now...
He had thought about how he should fight back if they came to keep him, but the two of them didn't even care about it!
Even he, a bystander, was so upset, one can imagine how sad it would be if it was Lu Xiaodong.
Even if he is gone, dead, no one cares at all.
The phone ding-dong.
Lin Ziran hurriedly looked down and sighed again.
It's not that no one cares, at least Ning Bo and Jiang Xuan still care, but he doesn't want to pay attention to these two people.
Because he doesn't care.
It's not what Lu Xiaodong wanted.
…
Xue Ze paced back and forth in front of Ning Bai's office, afraid to go in.
After Ning Bai came back the day before yesterday, something was wrong, and he asked to call up the surveillance camera. Only then did he realize that when he was talking to Ning Bai that day, Lu Xiaodong had come and brought coffee for Ning Bai, but he just happened to hear it. Ning Bo said he didn't love him, so the kid threw the coffee away.
Xue Ze thinks it's not a big deal. Anyway, aren't the two of them going to end
Just hear it.
Who knew that Ning Bo seemed very sad after seeing it, which was completely beyond Xue Ze's expectations, because Ning Bo has always been emotionally introverted, and it is rare for him to show his feelings like this, and he clearly said that he didn't like it before, why did he suddenly take a big attitude Has it changed
Although Ning Bai quickly regained his composure, Xue Ze could feel that he should be in a very bad mood now.
Xue Ze sighed deeply.
Should Ning Bo regret it again
I told him not to be stubborn a long time ago, did you shoot yourself in the foot this time
If Lu Xiaodong didn't hear those words, he would regret going after him now, but now it's hard! Now that Ning Bai met Jiang Xuan for Lu Xiaodong, and the people he liked misunderstood him and ran away, why bother? I really can't find happiness for myself...
What are you talking about
Xue Ze just wanted to scream in the sky!
He shook his head and was about to leave, when he suddenly saw a middle-aged woman approaching. The woman looked either rich or expensive, but her eyes were bloodshot and haggard, and her deep nasolabial lines made her look mean and old.
This kind of woman Xue Ze has seen many times. Is it possible that a middle-aged lady whose husband cheated on her is here to file a divorce lawsuit again
Business is coming!
Xue Ze immediately walked over and smiled politely, "Hello, what's the matter with you?"
Feng Wan looked at him hesitantly and said, "I'm looking for Ning Bai to find out which office he is in."
Xue Ze said enthusiastically, "Just tell me if you have anything. I am more professional than Ning Bai in this regard..."
Feng Wan said, "I am his mother."
Xue Ze "… "
Xue Ze led Feng Wan to Ning Bo's office in a trance, his eyes were strange, and he coughed softly, "Well, there is a lady here who claims to be your mother..."
Ning Bai raised his eyes and looked at Feng Wan. After a while, he said lightly, "I see, you go out first."
Xue Ze can't help but see, I'm really Ning Bo's mother! Could this be Ning Bai's biological mother? It's just that Ning Bai doesn't look very surprised...
Xue Ze was full of curiosity.
But when he met Ning Bai's Leng Rui gaze, he didn't dare to stay for long, so he quickly closed the door and went out.
Ning Bai looked at Feng Wan and said indifferently, "Please take a seat."
Feng Wan stared at Ning Bai in a daze, with tears in his eyes, hesitating and not daring to go there, he said cautiously, "I, I want to come and see where you work, I want to know more about you, I haven't seen you for so many years, I really miss you… "
Ning Bo was silent.
Feng Wan said tentatively again, "Are you going to go home with your mother? I packed a room for you..."
Ning Bai looked at the woman in front of her. Twenty years later, she seemed to care about her as always, and she begged her to go back so carefully, but Ning Bai only thought it was sarcastic.
She loves him.
There is no doubt about that.
It's a pity that this love is no longer what he needs.
Ning Bai's voice was cold and suddenly asked, "Where is Lu Xiaodong, do you know?"
Feng Wan was stunned, as if he didn't expect Ning Bo to ask Lu Xiaodong, he was caught off guard, "He, he's not at home these days..."
Ning Bai's eyes were covered with a coldness, and he said word by word, "Have you looked for it?"
Feng Wan concluded.
Every day she was thinking about how to come to see Ning Bai, how to persuade Ning Bai to go home, where would she have time to care about where Lu Xiaodong went
Ning Bai could guess everything just by looking at her.
Leng Liu wrapped the anger in his chest, making him almost unable to restrain himself, unable to maintain the calm expression on his face.
When such an accident happened, haven't you ever thought that there is another person who really needs you at this moment
Do you take it for granted that the child doesn't need caring just because he doesn't care
Some people may just use that appearance to disguise their inner fragility.
He has left home, but you are still indifferent.
Ning Bai spoke slowly, with a suppressed anger in his voice, "I think you should understand one thing, relationships are not only maintained by blood, but more of a long-term company... I am no longer your son, but he is Accompanying you for 20 years, you should know which one is more important."
Seeing that Ning Bo was unhappy, Feng Wan was afraid that he would feel cold-blooded and ruthless, so he quickly explained, "I care about him, but he has always been like this, nothing will happen, he will know that he will be back after a few days of running out of money. do not worry… "
Back out of money
Is that what he looks like to you
Even if it's a dog, after 20 years of raising it, you should know that it's not enough to give you some food, but in your eyes, does Lu Xiaodong only want money? Why have you never thought that what he wants is your love
You never know how to love someone.
Ning Bai seemed to suddenly understand why the boy became like this.
He just needs to be present.
So he behaves exaggerated, rogue, rebellious, dresses himself up like that, pursues himself desperately, pretends to be a bad boy even if he is not good at it, he actually just wants to get attention, to win attention, to want someone Love him because these are things he will never get at home...
Too bad I didn't know that at the time.
Ning Bai closed his eyes, and his voice was cold, "Go away, don't come here again."
Seeing his indifferent appearance, Feng Wan finally panicked and begged nervously, "Xiao Bo, my mother really misses you, can you forgive my mother..."
Ning Bai's eyes were indifferent, he suddenly curled his lips into a smile and stared into the other person's eyes, "You should say this to another person."
Another, someone who really cares about you.
instead of me.
Ning Bai turned around and opened the door. Sure enough, he saw Xue Ze who was eavesdropping at the door, and said coolly, "I'm here to help see off the guests."
Xue Ze smiled embarrassedly, but he immediately cleaned up his expression, turned to Feng Wan and said sternly, "We still have to work. If you have nothing else to do, please leave."
He already knew Ning Bai's attitude. Naturally, he wouldn't show much respect to Feng Wan.
Feng Wan didn't want to leave, Xue Ze looked at her with a polite smile, but his eyes were very firm, and finally he could only turn back three steps and leave.
Xue Ze personally took Feng Wan to the elevator, watched her go downstairs, and then rushed back to Ning Bo's office, with two big words of curiosity written on his face, "Is she really your biological mother?"
Xue Ze has known Ning Bo for a long time.
Ning Bai's current parents are adoptive parents, this is no secret, everyone knows it, and Ning Bai never hides it. Although Ning Bai was not the biological child of the Ning family, the Ning family was tolerant and gentle, and had a noble character. Ning Bai himself was smart and hardworking, so for so many years, it had been smooth sailing, and no one asked him about his biological parents.
Ning Bai himself never mentioned it, never looked for it... Everyone thought that Ning Bai's biological parents had long since died.
So when Feng Wan appeared, Xue Ze was really surprised.
Looking at Ning Bo's attitude towards Feng Wan today, Xue Ze felt that Ning Bo's childhood memories should not be very good, otherwise he wouldn't be so indifferent, right
It's blood relationship anyway.
There were various guesses in Xue Ze's heart, but he didn't dare to ask, and just stared at Ning Bai repeatedly.
"By the way, if she's really your biological mother, you've been apart for twenty years, right?! How did she find you suddenly when there was no news for so many years? It's amazing!" Xue Ze exclaimed.
Ning Bai finally spoke and said lightly, "It's not magical."
Xue Ze "?"
Ning Bai said slowly, "It seems that Jiang Xuan has not been idle during this time."
Xue Ze's expression finally became solemn, "You suspect that Jiang Xuan investigated you and brought this out."
Ning Bai lowered his eyes and said nothing.
When Jiang Xuan warned him last time, he was still careless. He didn't expect that Jiang Xuan would already have a plan at that time. In order to get Lu Xiaodong, he did not hesitate to expose such a fact, not only hitting himself but also giving him access to Lu Xiao East opportunity.
At this time, that child must be in need of comfort and company...
Ning Bai closed his eyes and opened them again, suddenly let out a low self-deprecating laugh, and said to Xue Ze, "Do you know whose mother the woman just now is?"
Xue Ze looked confused, isn't it yours
Ning Bai said word by word, "She is Lu Xiaodong's mother."
Xue Ze was really shocked this time. He almost fell off the chair, his face was white, and tremblingly said, "You, you, you put your brother to sleep..."
Ning Bai solemnly corrected, "Lu Xiaodong was adopted."
Xue Ze sighed and wiped the cold sweat from his forehead, "It's okay, it's okay, it's okay, it didn't make a big mistake..."
Ning Bai had a bitter smile on his lips.
Yeah
Even this is something to be thankful for now
But what you said is wrong, in fact, my fault has been made.
From the day we met, perhaps today's result was doomed.
Ning Bai said, "Go out, I want to be alone for a while."
Xue Ze nodded, and then said worriedly, "If you have something to tell me, I will help you find a way, don't keep it in your heart, okay?"
Ning Bo did not answer.
He sat in the chair for a long time, his eyes fell on the phone.
These days, he sent Lu Xiaodong a lot of messages, but Lu Xiaodong never replied once.
This did not surprise him.
But he couldn't control it, he always wanted to watch, what if the other party replied
When did he start to feel anxious, expecting and terrified over a person's words, walking on thin ice.
Ning Bai raised his hand to cover his eyes, and tugged at the corner of his mouth mockingly.
He couldn't fall asleep. He had been working for three consecutive days. He was obviously very tired, but he couldn't close his eyes.
Because just close your eyes.
Back to that nightmare again.
…
The woman scolded the man while fighting, "You like that kind of vixen, don't you? I've seen it long ago, he's just a secretary, dressed up all day, bare-chested and bare-legged, it's not a serious thing at first glance!"
While dodging, the man said guiltily and ingratiatingly, "I just lost my mind for a while, I'm sorry, I promise there will be no next time, I'll fire her now!"
The woman was even more angry, "You said the same thing last time! As a result, it didn't take a blink of an eye to get into another woman!"
The man laughed dryly "that..."
The woman cried hysterically, "How can you do this, are you worthy of our mother and son? I worked so hard to give you the money to start a business, I gave birth to you children, and took care of the housework for you. Is that how you repay me? Lu Maofeng, don't forget that the company also has my shares!"
When the man heard this, there was a trace of displeasure in his eyes, but he still coaxed patiently, "I understand, I understand, I'm sorry, I will make up for you in the future. Huh?"
The woman still cried "I love you so much, I love you so much, how can you betray me?"
Ning Bai stood silently watching, like a bystander.
Watching this scene again and again.
Watching the man cheat, was found out, the woman abused, and the two were entangled.
Watching absurd farce time and time again.
There is no end to the cycle.
Betrayal, quarrel, suspicion.
It became the deepest imprint in his childhood heart.
Do men love women
Maybe loved it.
But his love can't stand the test of time, can't stand the temptation of the outside world.
The once loving couple, after repeated betrayal and deception, eventually turned into grudges who hurt each other.
They hated each other so deeply.
but refused to separate.
After every quarrel, the woman will wash her face in tears. Maybe she knows that that person no longer loves her, but she can't leave him, she can't leave this family, she has paid too much and can't get out...
She gave all her love to the man, so she couldn't accept his betrayal and leave.
She always hugged him in the middle of the night, muttering sentence after sentence, "Xiao Bai, mother only has you, mother loves you, and you will always be with mother, right?"
He let the woman hold him.
Listening to her nervous voice, watching her crying again and again, getting hurt by men again and again, and finally hugging him in despair and sadness, saying, "Mom is only you..."
He thought he was really important.
Until the man cheated again.
Ning Bai couldn't remember how many times this was.
The farce escalated again and again.
Every time a woman is more hysterical and crazy than the last time, she can't come out of the pain of being betrayed, I don't know that some people's nature is hard to change, and I don't know that this will only make themselves more painful.
Don't know to let go.
This time, she was even more noisy, scratching the man's face. The man finally lost his patience and pushed the woman to the ground. "You have no end, I said I will break up."
The woman was crazy, she suddenly saw Ning Bai next to her, rushed over and grabbed the child, pointed the scissors at him, and shouted frantically, "I will kill him, and then die with him!"
The man was finally in a hurry, and immediately lowered his head and said, "Calm down, the child is innocent."
The woman laughed, "When you cheated, why didn't you think that the child was innocent?"
The man hurriedly said, "I'm doing something wrong, but those things have nothing to do with him! Why involve children in the affairs of adults! I promise, I won't do it again next time, this time I swear to you! It's all those women. Seduce me, in fact, I only have you in my heart, I love you."
The woman didn't believe it at all. As soon as her hand was hard, the sharp scissors cut Ning Bai's face, and blood flowed down immediately. She yelled at the man, "Don't come here, I'll kill him if you come here!"
The man didn't dare to approach, so he stepped back and said anxiously, "Let go of him first, we have something to say!"
Ning Bai was held by the woman and let the scissors run across his face without struggling. Instead, he was very calm. Although he was a little surprised and a little sad, it was nothing more than that.
Men's repeated promises, betrayals, and deceptions finally made women completely collapse, but since she hated men so much, why didn't she drag him to hell with him, but drag him? Just because he was born by her, and her blood was flowing on his body...
So his life should be hers too.
Is it right
He is the tool she uses to threaten men, and the bargaining chip she uses to threaten men...
Do you really love me so much
Or, you already love me so much that you want to die together
Is this love
This farce once again ended without success.
The man reassured himself not to.
But Ning Bo knew it wouldn't be the last time.
This time, the man was in peace for a long time. After nearly a year, he went home on time every day and never went out to fool around. The woman looked much better. She still chose to forgive. The man who loves her goes home.
But some things will happen sooner or later.
The man's unspoken female subordinate in the company's office was discovered.
That day, the woman took him to the company to find a man, and he ran into it by accident.
But Ning Bai felt that this was not a coincidence. If something seemed to be a coincidence, it could only be said that it had happened many times, but it was just one of them, and it seemed to be an unfortunate encounter.
The woman quarreled with the man again.
She was very disappointed and miserable.
He left home with Ning Bai on the same day.
They went to another city. The woman rented a small room and lived with him. She hugged him every day and washed her face with tears, sometimes crying and sometimes laughing.
She said, I love him so much, I paid so much for him, why did he treat me like this...
She said, your father will definitely come to us, he will definitely come...
She said, Xiaobai, you will always be with your mother, right? You are mother's only, you are mother's favorite person, mother is only you...
Women don't have much money.
She had to go out to find a job because the man didn't come over for a long time. She was afraid of losing her child, so she locked Ning Bai at home alone.
Ning Bai couldn't go anywhere, and stayed in that small room less than ten square meters every day, day after day, from day to night, waiting for the woman's return.
There is only her in his whole world.
Darkness and her.
She is gentle and kind to him, but she won't let him go to school, won't let him go out, won't let him out of her sight...
She was so afraid of losing him.
Afraid that he would disappear in the blink of an eye, she cared that he was sick.
She would say to him over and over again, Mommy loves you.
Ning Bai thought, I believe it, because you are the one who will drag me with you even if you die.
I believe you love me...
They live outside like this.
The men may be looking for them, or they may not, these Ning Bai are not clear, nor do they care, he is just very tired of all this.
The so-called love is just a knife used to hurt people.
What exactly is love
Betrayal, cheating, bickering, jealousy, hurting... all in the name of love.
He hates this morbid feeling, any relationship that binds both parties.
He hates that man.
If you don't love someone anymore, if you can't do it from the end, don't make promises to someone casually, don't say you love her again, even if you are a little ruthless, it's better than cheating again and again, let the person who loves you do it for you My feet were deep in the mud and I couldn't get out.
He hates this woman.
Why do you love someone who doesn't love you, why can't you just leave in time when the other party doesn't love you, you say you love him again and again, but you keep making noises, and finally torture each other under one roof, love Can't he just let go
But what use is disgust
All he can do is watch it all happen, keep repeating, and can't do anything... His world is nothing but betrayal and quarrels, and the little room he can't leave, and the woman holding him tightly and cutting him with scissors When his face was slapped, he was determined to take him to death with him.
Women really love him.
But Ning Bai thought, I'd rather you didn't love me so much.
It was a weekend.
holidays.
The woman is on vacation.
She came back from the outside and rarely took him out of the room. They went to the mall, where there were many people. Ning Bai hadn't seen anyone other than a woman for a long time.
At that moment, he suddenly did not want to go back.
I don't want to go back to that room again.
So when the woman wasn't paying attention, he abruptly released her hand and drowned in the crowd.
farther and farther away from her.
He heard the woman calling his name madly, and he heard the radio calling his name... But his heart didn't fluctuate, he just looked at the woman sitting on the ground crying from a distance.
Then, turn around and leave.
Ning Bo suddenly opened his eyes, his pupils contracted, he opened his mouth and breathed rapidly, his chest heaving slightly, that near-endless nightmare had tormented him for more than ten years.
He didn't think about it until later.
He has left that place.
left long ago.
No more watching men and women hurt each other, blame each other...
Marriage is like a cage.
In the end, the person in love becomes unrecognizable.
He raised his hand and touched his face lightly, where the wound had already healed and could no longer be seen.
But the wound in my heart has scabbed over, and it has always been there.
Even the word 'love' made him physically uncomfortable.
He doesn't like women, because women are a troublesome thing, and if he falls in love with you, he will want to drag you to death with him.
He doesn't believe in love, the so-called love will only become a bondage, making people ugly because of jealousy and suspicion.
If you can't love only one person, if you can't betray all your life, then don't love others.
He doesn't need anyone else to love him either.
Later, he knew a lot of people who never got emotional and would only look for the same kind. They get what they want, they don't talk about love, they don't make any promises to each other, because promises that can't be fulfilled will eventually turn into lies.
Become a knife that hurts those you love.
That's fine.
Being tempted can make a person passive, and love can make a person lose their senses.
No love doesn't hurt.
He doesn't make mistakes like they did.
He has also been doing well.
Keep all relationships within the right boundaries... Stay away from anyone who says you love him, and don't love anyone.
That way you won't get hurt.
Nor will it hurt others.
He always kept that in mind.
Don't go overboard.
Until that day in the bar, a boy dressed in fancy dress followed him, all the way he came to the downstairs of his house.
He was warm, well-behaved, and obedient, and he couldn't drive him away no matter how hard he tried... until he finally accepted him.
Accept this person he didn't like at first.
You take the initiative first, and you approach first.
All love at first sight is just an idea.
Even though I know you're just on a whim, I don't mind... Because I can't give you more, we each take what we need, and then separate before we're tempted.
Everything is as if it didn't happen.
He thought so.
But, are you really unmoved? If there is no temptation, why rush to withdraw? Why can't you admit it
Ning Bai closed his eyes, and a bitter low smile came out of his throat.
He thought that twenty years ago, when he let go of the woman's hand, he had left there forever, but who would have thought that he would come back after going around...
It turned out that after he left, another child appeared there, bearing everything that he should have suffered in his place.
Only at this moment did he understand.
It never really ended.
It turns out that this is really a nightmare that will never wake up...
And I was still moved.
in love with someone.
That person is you.