Feng Wan was waiting outside the door, feeling uneasy. She didn't know how Ning Bai thought of Lu Xiaodong, why should he care about Lu Xiaodong... Did he know Lu Xiaodong before? Otherwise, why should you blame her for what happened to Lu Xiaodong
No, no... What reason does Ning Bai have to blame her for Lu Xiaodong
The two of them have nothing to do with each other.
The reason why Ning Bai was so indifferent to himself must be because she was blaming her for losing him back then, and Lu Xiaodong was just an excuse.
At that time, she was still young, less than thirty years old. She regarded love as more important than everything else. She regarded Ning Bai as her sustenance, and she tried every means to restore her love and her family.
It's a pity that she used the wrong method, so she lost her child.
This is her punishment.
Lu Maofeng didn't dare to divorce her. In order to please her, he gave her a child to raise, but this was not what she wanted at all.
No one can replace her Xiaobai.
Xiaobai is her only child.
Lu Xiaodong was just carried by Lu Maofeng to coax her. Did that man think that he would forget his fault? She will never forget!
Feng Wan knew that she didn't care about Lu Xiaodong, but she didn't feel that she was sorry for the child.
She fed him, clothed him, gave him money, and gave him the best of everything.
And she doesn't have any requirements for him... This child is not as good-looking as Xiaobai, not as smart, as sensible as Xiaobai, and can't be observant. He can't even compare to a toe of Xiaobai.
But he didn't ask him how good he was, did he
Without them, perhaps the child is still in the orphanage, living a worse life.
She thinks that she is righteous to Lu Xiaodong.
There's nothing to say, it's that the child doesn't know what to do, and he doesn't learn well.
Feng Wan never took Lu Xiaodong to heart. She had missed her only son Ning Bai for more than 20 years. Now she finally found him.
But Ning Bo refused to forgive her.
Feng Wan looked anxious.
Just then, the door opened.
The man stood there indifferently, looking at her with pale amber eyes. His calm expression seemed to contain deep disappointment, and he didn't know whether he hated himself or her.
Feng Wan suddenly felt a little uneasy, and always felt that something was wrong. She hurriedly stepped forward and said with a smile, "Xiao Bai, are you staying at home tonight?"
Ning Bai didn't take anything but Lu Xiaodong's diary. He held the diary in his hand and looked down at Feng Wan, "I won't come back."
There is nothing here that he misses.
Feng Wan was instantly shocked. She looked at Ning Bo with a pale face and begged, "Why? Mom really loves you, can't you give Mom a chance?"
Ning Bai looked at her, his chest was cold, he didn't even want to say another word to her, but in the end he said slowly, "Do you really love me?"
Is it me that you love, or the child who can meet all your expectations and sustenance
But when I let go of your hand, I already gave up on you.
What you should really love is the child who still expects you and expects your love.
Ning Bai pursed his thin lips tightly, but he didn't say a word in the end.
Because for those who don't understand, it's pointless to say more.
I will make up for your mistakes, but not because I forgive you... just because I love him.
Ning Bai turned around and left.
Feng Wan was in a hurry, she choked after her and said, "Xiao Bai, mother really loves you, where are you going? Mother has always loved you..."
But Ning Bai's footsteps were steady and strong, and he never looked back.
Feng Wan looked at Ning Bai's back, his face was full of despair and helplessness. It was as if he had returned to twenty years ago. This child accidentally got separated from her and was drowned in the crowd. never responded.
He is getting farther and farther away...
It's been twenty years.
In the past 20 years, I have regretted all the time, regretted not holding the child's hand at that time, worried that he died, worried that he would suffer, worried that he would have a bad life without him, because no one will love him more than himself. he is...
But why is he reluctant to come back now that we finally meet again
Why
Feng Wan cried and said, "Xiaobai, mother didn't lose you on purpose, mother loves you very much, do you trust mother?"
Ning Bai finally looked back at her, the corners of his lips sneered, you don't know until now, you didn't lose me at all, but I left.
But he didn't say it.
Because he will never come back here again.
Ning Bai got into the car, closed the door in front of Feng Wan, started the car and left. He put the diary in the co-pilot's seat.
The black book lay there quietly.
Ning Bai glanced at the diary, his lips were white, and his face was cold. At this moment, there was a deep worry in his eyes.
He was afraid that Lu Xiaodong couldn't think about it.
Things were more serious than he imagined.
Ning Bai held the steering wheel tightly with his fingers, and called Xue Ze with the other hand, and said solemnly, "Check it out for me, where is Lu Xiaodong now?"
…
Lin Ziran ate a hot pot outside alone, and when he swiped his card, he saw the balance in the card, and finally showed a faint sad expression.
He's running out of money!
During this time, he was so happy, living in a luxury suite in a five-star hotel, eating all kinds of extravagant luxury meals... Spending too much in the game, he never thought about saving at all, so he was about to run out of money.
After all, it's money in the game, and it doesn't feel like spending it, like spending game gold...
One hundred thousand is almost gone in the blink of an eye.
Then he remembered the matter of spending hundreds of thousands on clothes in order to pursue Ning Bai. At that time, his mind was really flooded to buy so many clothes. If he knew that the task would not be accomplished, it would be better to keep the money and have a good time! Who's going to spend it on that goddamn picky ghost!
investment losses.
Lin Ziran wanted to sell the clothes back to Ning Bo, but thinking that he couldn't do such a shameless thing, he could be shameless, but he still wanted to save some face for Lu Xiaodong...
Lin Ziran system, I'm running out of money, what should I do? 5555
The system goes back to your cheap parents to ask for it
Lin Ziran, I will starve to death outside all my life, and I will never take a penny from them again!
System for this lifetime
Lin Ziran these days...
Lin Ziran touched his chin, the money was about to run out, and he estimated that he wouldn't be able to stay in this world for long.
After all, he is playing games, he is here to enjoy life, not to suffer.
Lin Ziran drove back to the hotel, thinking about the balance on the card, this five-star hotel can't stay...
Suddenly he had a flash of inspiration, in fact, he could live in the dormitory!
Lu Xiaodong used to hang out all day, so he didn't live in the dormitory, but there was still a place for the dormitory. Lin Ziran did what he thought of, and immediately checked out of the hotel suite and drove to Lu Xiaodong's school.
He is a student, and there is no grievance in living in the dormitory, but he feels very kind.
This is a good university in the city, and the environment is also very good. Although Lu Xiaodong is not as smart and capable as Ning Bai, he is not mentally retarded. On the contrary, he works very hard. You can live a good life, after all, the Lu family really didn't treat him badly when it comes to money.
He was just wrong, expecting someone who would never love him to love him.
Hurt yourself for someone who doesn't love him.
According to the information in the system, Lin Ziran came to Lu Xiaodong's dormitory. Because he had never lived there, he didn't even have the key to the dormitory, which made it very embarrassing to stand at the door. Fortunately, he waited for his roommate in the same dorm...
The roommate did not expect to meet him here, and said very curiously, "Xiaodong, why are you here? Is there something wrong?"
Lin Ziran scratched his head, "I think school is about to start, and I plan to live on campus this year."
The roommate was very surprised. He didn't know Lu Xiaodong very well. He felt like a very rebellious second-generation ancestor. However, college students are generally pure and enthusiastic. Ah, don't you have a key? I'll get one for you later, let's go in first."
The roommate is called Xia Hang, who is enthusiastic and cheerful, and is also the monitor of Lu Xiaodong. He worked and studied nearby during the summer vacation, so he stayed at the school and did not go back. It is still a while before the official start of school, and the other roommates have not come back. He was quite surprised to see Lu Xiaodong suddenly come to the school.
After all, Lu Xiaodong is the kind of person who won't come to the dormitory when school starts.
Lin Ziran followed Xia Hang into the dormitory, glanced around, and quickly found out where his bed was.
Xia Hang saw a rare flush on his face, and said embarrassedly, "I'll help you clean up."
Because Lu Xiaodong does not stay on campus all the year round, his bed is filled with debris by several other students, and he has everything from pots, pans, pans and quilts.
Lin Ziran doesn't mind at all, it's normal!
He had a very good impression of this monitor. He was still a cute and innocent college student. Lin Ziran got along very easily and happily. Compared with a boss like Jiang Xuan and a control freak like Ning Bai, how cute are college students of the same age!
Woohoo, he suddenly felt that the world was so kind!
Lu Xiaodong is a real child, he doesn't know how to grasp a good life, and he has to waste his life with his scum father and scum mother...
If there is such a person, Lin Ziran must beat him on the head to wake him up.
But when he turned his head and thought about Lin Ziran, he sighed again. He was also standing and talking without back pain. From Lu Xiaodong's point of view, how could he say let go and let go of the parents he loved so desperately? I am not qualified to blame Lu Xiaodong.
Everyone has their own life and their own adherence to things.
If you are not in it, how can you feel the pain of the other party
Others have no right to speak up.
The two made the bed together. In order to express their gratitude, Lin Ziran invited Xia Hang to go out to dinner. Xia Hang is a very enthusiastic and familiar person. Although he was not familiar with Lu Xiaodong before, the two of them had a meal together. very familiar.
Xia Hang looked at Lin Ziran and was a little puzzled. He thought that Lu was actually very cheerful and had a good personality. Why did he make himself such a non-mainstream person before? I started to think that he would be that kind of social person...
However, classmate Lu has changed his past, not only dressing up as normal, but also not mixing with the scumbags in the society, Xia Hang is still very happy for him, and they will be good friends in a dormitory in the future!
Lin Ziran lived for a few days and quickly got used to it.
He originally lived on campus in real life. Lu Xiaodong's school dormitory was in good condition, with air conditioners and everything. Lin Ziran didn't feel uncomfortable at all, but felt more cordial, so why did he bother to live there in the first place? at home...
Seeing the cold face of scum father and scum mother every day is angry.
He should have moved out as soon as the plot collapsed!
I was too incapable of letting go before, so I held myself back.
Lin Ziran was lying on the bed that day and suddenly had an idea.
He doesn't have much money, but in fact he still has an asset to bring out! money is not a problem!
Lin Ziran immediately got up from the bed and rushed out.
What's wrong with you system
Lin Ziran, I know how to get the money!
He ran to the downstairs of the dormitory and stared at the fluorescent green Lamborghini with disgust. Lu Xiaodong didn't know what kind of people had misled his aesthetics, but he liked a car of this color!
Bright enough to brighten the eyes of the blind.
In the past, he only got such a car to drive for attention, but now that he lives on campus, students have to look like students. What Lamborghini? Or a fluorescent green Lamborghini
It looks unlucky!
So it's green, right
Lin Ziran immediately called the second-hand car seller, because his asking price was not high, so the other party drove the car out for an evaluation, and the next day he quickly called Lin Ziran 200,000 yuan.
Looking at the 200,000 yuan, Lin Ziran's mood became more beautiful when he felt that the money came so easily.
He can still keep going.
What Lamborghini do you want, isn't he good for sharing bicycles? Enough for school too! Health and environmental protection can also exercise!
Under the school's boulevard, the air was fresh and the breeze was blowing. Just after dinner, Lin Ziran was riding a bicycle down the path. When he returned to the downstairs of his dormitory, he unexpectedly met Ning Bai's eyes.
Lin Ziran "… "
Is this guy trying to scare him to death? Why did he come to his school
The evil spirits are gone!
Lin Ziran locked the bicycle expressionlessly, and then walked up as if he couldn't see Ning Bai.
Ning Bai has been waiting here for a long time.
His eyes fell on the boy's face.
On the boy's clean and handsome face, there were small beads of sweat on his forehead, and he was wearing a simple white T-shirt, just like a very ordinary student. By the way, even the shiny earrings were gone.
It looked good, but Ning Bo knew it was just an appearance.
He looked at the yellow bicycle.
Pain in the eyes.
Has this child been reduced to this point, living in a dormitory, riding a bicycle, where is his original car... Was it sold
He has nothing, except for a little money, he has never received any care that belongs to him, any love he expects, but now even the only money left is gone
Ning Bai remembered what he had done in the past.
I didn't know this kid at all at the time. He didn't know anything, and he acted as an executioner, depriving the boy of what he didn't have, and asking him to spend money to buy clothes... He was asked to do things for himself, just because he chased after him. If you say you like it, you will trample on it as it should.
It never occurred to him that the child might just want someone to love him.
So pretend to be rebellious and want to gain attention and presence.
If he had been more attentive at the time, and had noticed earlier his rebellious appearance, the fragile heart that longed to be loved, he would have been more gentle, instead of allowing his indifference, which was already riddled with holes in his heart. , leaving more wounds.
He should have known sooner...
Ning Bai's heart seemed to be clenched tightly, his chest heaved slightly, and he followed Lin Ziran up.
As soon as Lin Ziran went upstairs, he found that Ning Bo was following, and suddenly felt a toothache.
He didn't understand why Ning Bai came here. When he left Lu's house, he was actually more worried about Jiang Xuan, not very worried about Ning Bai... Because Ning Bai has a cold nature and is not the kind of person who would stalk him. If you don't provoke him, he won't provoke you.
It was obvious that he refused last time, so Lin Ziran never thought that Ning Bo would come to him.
This is the school dormitory. Lin Ziran saw that there were classmates coming and going next to him. He still wanted to show his face.
Ning Bai looked at the boy's cold and alienated face, and there was a look of pain deep in his eyes, even the blood flowing through his heart was cold. In front of him, because he knows that this is the end, any of his actions will not be forgiven and understood.
But he couldn't stay any longer.
Thinking of the contents of that diary, unprecedented fear flooded his heart, he was afraid that if he didn't look at the other party in the blink of an eye, the other party would completely disappear from his world.
If something happened to this child because of his negligence, he would never be able to forgive himself.
Ning Bai spoke slowly, his eyes were complicated, and his voice was hoarse, "I'm worried about you."
Jiang Xuan also said this before, Lin Ziran is about to go numb, thinking that this is really a bloody script, no one cared about Lu Xiaodong before, now I won't lick you, you all run to worry about me...
It is an indestructible truth that you only know how to cherish what you have lost!
Lin Ziran was in a trance.
Lin Ziran, I think now, I'm afraid I didn't follow the script of the protagonist Gong, but I followed the script of the protagonist Shou!
Not to mention the system, it's a bit like...
Lin Ziran was terrifying.
Lin Ziran quickly regained his senses from the association. His own perception of Ning Bo was actually the same. Although this guy was picky about troublesome things and forced to always use him, it was because he was restricted by people before, and he was chasing after him. It's a bit unfair to blame Ning Bai for the people who came to the door to ask for it, and he also rescued himself from Jiang Xuan.
For example, it’s like he hates military training, school, and exams. Every morning he wakes up, he gets angry every day, he occasionally swears when he loses in games, and the boss who works part-time will secretly scold... He hates Ning Bai at the same level. He hates Ning Bai at this level. It would be funny if he had any deep hatred, not to mention that the other party was still a game nc... It's fine after spraying, it's not for himself Not happy to find
But after all, having let himself run errands for half a month, Lin Ziran didn't like him either.
So strictly speaking, he now feels like a passerby who doesn't like or hate Ning Bai... As long as you don't trouble me, I will treat you as non-existent.
But from Lu Xiaodong's point of view, he would not want to see Ning Bai.
Lin Zi then thought about it for a long time, and re-read the script again. He felt that Lu Xiaodong didn't really like Ning Bai that much. I'm afraid this kid's pursuit of Ning Bai was really on a whim! In the original plot, it was said that Lu Xiaodong stalked Ning Bai because he fell in love at first sight. Later, he tried to drug him when he failed to pursue it. He didn't know Ning Bai at all, and because of jealousy, it didn't look like true love. …
Lu Xiaodong doesn't know what love is. He has never been loved before, because his circle of friends is not good, so he naturally developed some bad habits... His life is actually twisted and sad.
If he meets a good-looking person, he will pursue it. If he can't catch up, he will hate it because of love. If he wants revenge, he will do that kind of thing. Maybe he just wants to destroy himself.
The consequences were as he wished.
Lu Xiaodong's liking is not a real liking, but an attempt at his rebellion. In the end, it is just a child's nonsense, and he can't end the trouble in the end.
Now that Ning Bai's life experience has been revealed, it is even more impossible for him to like Ning Bai.
On the contrary, he might hate Ning Bai.
Because this is the person he can't compare with anyway, the favorite child in his parents' hearts, and what is he? Nothing.
Ning Bai looked at the boy's changing face.
A moment of sadness, a moment of disappointment, a sigh for a moment, and finally the color of sadness.
All this made him very uncomfortable.
Sure enough, although you seem to be indifferent, how can it be indifferent? I'm sorry that my presence makes you suffer like this...
Ning Bai's voice was hoarse and painful. He looked at Lin Ziran seriously and said, "I want to tell you..."
You are fine, you don't need to live for anyone, you don't need to feel bad about not being able to live up to their expectations...
You didn't miss anything, it was their fault.
But when these words reached his throat, he suddenly couldn't speak, because he shouldn't have known these things. The boy used such an appearance to disguise himself, just because he didn't want to expose his vulnerability to others.
I don't want others to look at him with pity.
He wanted to protect his dignity.
Ning Bai's Adam's apple rolled, and finally he said slowly, "I won't go back home."
Lin Ziran "...?"
So you came to school specifically to tell me this? Do you have a dime relationship with me if you can't go back home? I also won't go back home, whoever likes to go to that kind of home should go!
Lin Ziran looked indifferent and said, "Oh, as you please."
Ning Bai looked at him sadly, "Don't you care?"
Lin Ziran "I don't care."
Ning Bai looked at his cold eyes, but his heart tightened again, do you really care... If you really don't care why you run away from home, why you don't want to go back when you have no money, why would you rather sell your car To live on campus…
Why run away from there
Lin Ziran became impatient. He couldn't do it all the time. He couldn't explain it when his classmates came back. Lin Ziran pushed Ning Bo and said coldly, "If you're fine, just leave."
Ning Bai looked at the alertness in the boy's eyes, the obvious unwelcome on his face, and his heart was bitter.
Once upon a time, he liked himself so much, he would always look forward to him, and would wait downstairs for him every day and every night. At that time, he didn't cherish it, but just regarded it as a little rascal's trick, wantonly squandering his enthusiasm. , and now he finally stopped chasing after him...
Ning Bai closed his eyes and said hoarsely, "Okay."
…
Lin Ziran thought he had sent Ning Bai away, but a few days later he found out that he was very wrong!
For example, when he went to the bedroom, he would find Ning Bai's car parked downstairs.
Go to bed at night, look down, Ning Bai's car is still below.
Even if Ning Bai takes a nap occasionally and goes out for dinner, Ning Bai's car is back!
Help! ! !
Although Ning Bai never appeared or bothered him, he was everywhere, and Lin Ziran was horrified when he thought about it, this terrifying feeling that no matter where he went, someone would follow him...
In other words, why did Ning Bo do this
Isn't he very busy? When I pursued him before, it was common for this picky ghost to work overtime until 12 o'clock. It is not an exaggeration to say that it is a daily schedule.
He doesn't really like him, does he? Lin Ziran shuddered.
But even if he really likes him, he doesn't have to do this, right
A dignified lawyer, doing all the stalker things.
Where did I offend you
Lin Ziran slept late this morning, looked down from the balcony, saw the familiar black car again, and suddenly felt a toothache, he finally couldn't bear it anymore! This guy is really annoying!
Lin Ziran ran downstairs and patted the car window hard!
The car window rolled down, revealing the man's handsome and delicate face, but compared to the calm and indifference of the past, it seemed to be a little more tired, and it seemed that he had not had a good rest during this time.
Ning Bai's eyes were gentle and his voice was hoarse, "Is there something wrong?"
Lin Ziran was so angry, why do you have the nerve to ask me? Don't you know what you are doing? His voice was cold and his face was displeased. "Why are you stalking me! Are you sick?"
Ning Bai pursed his lips, his eyes looked bitter.
He didn't dare to tell the boy, I'm afraid you can't think of doing something stupid, he can hardly close his eyes these days, as long as he closes his eyes, it's like returning to the dark past, this time there is a little boy with him Together. The words in the boy's diary seem to be few words, but they outline the hopelessness of a boy, so clear and vivid, he is working so hard to get the affirmation and love of his parents... But now he is even so The last bit of sustenance is gone.
Ning Bo didn't dare to close his eyes or leave. He was afraid that once he left, he would encounter something that he would regret.
Ning Bai pursed his lips slightly, and said gently, "I didn't follow you, I just happened to be here."
Lin Ziran laughed angrily, "You think I'm a fool?"
Ning Bai lowered his eyes, "Of course not."
The man's appearance made Lin Ziran feel like he was punching cotton. They didn't bother you or embarrass you. They just parked the car downstairs in your bedroom and appeared right where you appeared. You scold him and ask him He pretended not to speak.
It's just oily and salty!
Lin Ziran kicked Ning Bai's expensive car door fiercely, and threatened fiercely, "Listen to me, don't follow me, understand? I don't want to see you!"
The sad look in Ning Bai's eyes flashed, and he whispered, "You can pretend that you can't see me."
Is this not going to go
Lin Ziran took a deep breath and raised the corners of his mouth sarcastically, "You were the one who disliked me at the beginning, and it is you who is chasing me now and refuses to leave. Are you being kicked out of your head, and who would you show this look to? I guess, you're going to say you like me again, right?"
Ning Bo said, "No."
Lin Ziran was startled, did he finally stop pretending
Then he saw the man looking at him seriously, his amber eyes seemed to be full of deep pain and tenderness, and he said, "I love you."