At the fork in the road again, Bai Ying turned around, the familiar profile and slightly frowning expression made Lin Yan almost tremble.
"Xiao Yu!" He yelled out of control.
Bai Ying paused for a moment, wanted to turn his head, but controlled it again, and took another step.
"Don't go, I beg you..." Lin Yan shouted to the shadow in despair.
Xiao Yu turned around slowly, his face was exceptionally pale, like a water ghost haunting a rainy night, his black hair was wet against his cheeks, water dripped from the ends of his hair and the corners of his clothes, and the hem of his clothes was soaked in mud, haggard and embarrassed , lowered his head, raised his eyes to look at Lin Yan, his figure was like a white silk fluttering in the wind.
One person and one ghost confront each other in a dark alley.
"Go home, I'm looking for you every day." Suddenly his voice became hoarse, Lin Yan put Xiao Yu's hand on his chest and covered it, "It's cold outside."
Xiao Yu's eyes were empty and sad, and when he quietly raised his eyes, Lin Yan suddenly trembled, he felt that Xiao Yu was not looking at him, his unfocused gaze went straight through his body, as if he was a translucent The shadow, Lin Yan looked back, behind him there was only a small piece of light at the entrance of the alley in the distance, like a window, cars came and went.
"Xiao Yu?" He hesitated to test, "I apologize about the hospital, I shouldn't have doubted you in the first place, Weiwei woke up, she said that she saw the dead fairy that day, she didn't know why the little button was on her In the hands, we are too careless, but why don't you say it."
"Then let's think of a way for those who are yang and yin. Even if Ayan can't handle it, there are always experts. Let's go to Laoshan and southern Xinjiang." Lin Yan took a breath and said dejectedly: "Come back with me, I miss you."
Xiao Yu shook his head slowly, but still didn't speak, Lin Yan felt his face was burning hot, he lowered his head and didn't dare to look at him, he took out the emerald pendant from his pocket and wanted to fasten it on Xiao Yu, he was getting close, familiar The cold weather made people feel reassured, but the ghost took a step back as if disturbed, the silk tie was not fastened, and the pendant fell to the ground with a clatter, rolled twice in the sewage, and stopped moving. Xiao Yu sighed, picked up Huaigu and put it in Lin Yan's hand. There was a shallow crack on the jade bi, the white background was slightly flawed, which was particularly eye-catching.
"Don't look for me." The ghost finally spoke, stroking Lin Yan's face with cold hands, "Human ghosts have different paths."
Lin Yan stared at him stubbornly: "To be honest, you haven't left at all these days, right? You looked at me looking for you in the streets and alleys, and you were going crazy when you found it. If it wasn't for the movie theater today, would you plan to leave?" Never show up?"
Xiao Yu was noncommittal, after being silent for a while, he turned and walked towards the dark depths of the alley, the cold rain hit his shoulders, his tall and straight figure looked desolate and lonely. Lin Yan stared at his figure, his lips trembled like wax, unable to speak, he knew this ghost's temper too well, this is the last chance, how can we keep him? How to convince a proud ghost
After a moment's hesitation, Lin Yan hurriedly ran two steps to catch up with Xiao Yu, and hugged his waist tightly from behind.
Xiao Yu trembled, and stood still. Lin Yan heard him sigh faintly, and stood in a stalemate for a long time. A pair of cold hands clasped the back of his hand, stroked it along the knuckles, and finally grabbed his wrist and struggled hard. , Lin Yan stubbornly refused to let go, suddenly became angry, and hugged him even tighter, the emotions accumulated for many days were out of control, and even his voice was full of tears.
"You bastard, you fucking bastard, you insist on forcing me like this, scaring me like that, insisting on admitting it, insisting on showing you my heart, insisting on telling me with my own mouth, I am a big man, I think about it every day They are all a man, you can't leave him, you miss him every day you don't see him, and you feel uncomfortable if you don't get fucked by him every day?"
"What else do you want me to admit? I'm going all out. I'm just shameless. I'll say it!"
"Come back with me." Lin Yan leaned his face on Xiao Yu's back, his eyes blushed unknowingly, and whispered in that person's ear, "You don't know how I've been these few days, I miss you so much. is you… "
Xiao Yu turned around abruptly, staring straight at Lin Yan, as if he was enduring and suppressing something, without any hesitation, Lin Yan put his arms around his neck, kissed Xiao Yu's lips heavily, and stretched out his tongue actively and enthusiastically. Xiao Yu took a step back, and Lin Yan took the opportunity to push him even harder, pressing against the wall of the alley, biting a small piece of skin on the side of his neck and sucking it repeatedly, like a cat. Lick it, and finally pry his jaw open. The rainy night was cold and cold, and Xiao Yu's body was also cold. The two of them were completely soaked, and they each rubbed mud on the mossy wall, kissing until the sky was dark.
After the kiss was over, Lin Yan touched his lips and stared angrily at Xiao Yu: "Do you know what I want to do now?"
"I fucking want to hold you in here and beat you up and fuck you!"
"It's not a small skill." Xiao Yu burst out laughing.
After being separated for more than half a month, the empty passenger cab finally waited for his owner. The two kissed and hugged each other in the car, as eager as if they wanted to swallow each other in their stomachs. Facing two pairs of eyes in the upper green belt, one pair is old and cloudy, and the other pair has a cold smile, crouching in the dense bushes and watching them quietly.
Things are far from over.
In a quiet corridor, in a quiet home, Lin Yan and Xiao Yu walked out of the elevator. When they opened the door, the little yellow cat they adopted suddenly rushed out from behind the door, rubbed its furry head against Lin Yan's shoes, and acted like a baby. Noticing the abnormality, he uttered a shrill cat meow, arched his back and assumed a defensive posture, with a cold light in his eyes, staring at Lin Yan behind him warily.
"Let me introduce, this is Xiao Yu." Lin Yan smiled and lifted the little yellow cat to Xiao Yu's eyes, "I met an old man in the hospital while you were away. brought it back."
"I saw it." Xiao Yu's eyes were a little strange, as if deliberately avoiding the little yellow cat.
"Are you afraid of cats?"
"Cats ward off evil spirits."
Lin Yan put the cat back on the ground in embarrassment, and the little guy immediately moved towards Xiao Yu, the hair on his whole body stood on end, and he kept making warning purrs from his throat.
"Then you go in first, and I'll send it to Yin Zhou's foster care for a few days." Lin Yan took out the car keys from his trouser pocket, and Xiao Yu pressed his hand: "It's okay, if you like it, you can raise it."
Lin Yan tilted his head to look at Xiao Yu, and said softly, "You can carry me in, this will really be our home from now on." Xiao Yu remained silent, supporting Lin Yan's knee with one hand, and embracing him with the other. He carried him across the door with his shoulders, carefully placed him on the sofa, and then stood alone in front of the window. The living room was dark and dark. Lin Yan lit a cigarette and looked at Xiao Yu's back in a daze. The sparks were flickering. Mie, an eye full of thoughts.
The small red light on the phone indicated that there was a missed call. Ayan called, but he hadn’t heard from the little Taoist priest since he was separated from the hospital, but Yin Zhou met him a few times at school and said that besides working part-time, he was looking for The missing temple owner, Lin Yan called back, Ayan hesitated to speak several times, and finally hesitantly said that he had received news from the temple owner.
Lin Yan's nerves tensed all of a sudden.
"I, after much deliberation, I still feel that I should tell you, Master, Master said today that he is going to Shanxi for an important matter, and told me not to contact him in class. I remember you said that the tomb is also there, no Know if it's related... "
His scalp was slightly tingling, Lin Yan glanced at Xiao Yu, and thought to himself that one move failed and he made another one. The little Taoist listened to his silence and stammered, "Lin Yan, I know this request is a bit too much, if... if this is true It has something to do with Master, can you show mercy?"
"Master is my only relative now." Ayan begged.
Lin Yan was silent for a while, and said something reassuring.
"He's willing to let us go, we won't make it difficult for him." He heard the little Taoist heaving a sigh of relief, and then asked: "You, you? He's back?"
Lin Yan didn't deny it. The little Taoist's voice sank. After hesitating for a long time, he asked him, "What are you going to do? You will die if you continue to entangle with him."
Lin Yan felt a chill in his heart.
The little Taoist continued: "It's a good thing to go away, it's a relief for you all, and now you come back, just, even if he likes you, he has become such a thing, do you still expect to spend a lifetime with him?"
"Looking back, ghosts are just like cats and wolves. They are not cooked well by nature. If you keep them by your side, maybe one day they will be gnawed until there are no bones left." A Yan said: "I, I am for your own good. If he dares to To harm you, even if I try my best, I will... "
Lin Yan hung up the phone gently.
I don't know when he lost the habit of turning on the lights. Xiao Yu doesn't like light. When the two of them are idle at home, they always save electricity. The lights of the residential building opposite provide a ray of light for the house. The ghost sitting On the piano bench by the window, with broad shoulders and a straight back, his jade-like face reflected the dark blue of the night, while the cat huddled in a corner and watched him nervously, its almond-shaped green ghost eyes looked bright from a certain angle Like two light bulbs.
The Tongzi wood guqin he and Xiao Yu ordered in Shenjiayuan was delivered, and it was placed in front of the window together with the piano stand and wooden chair. Pulling the strings of the qin, a long sound of strings came through time and space, empty and silent, the man raised his sleeves, sat by the qin and pondered quietly, with "Youlan" on his fingertips like birdsong in the empty mountain, the wet white clothes Attached to the body, showing a good-looking back contour. Lin Yan stubbed out the cigarette in his hand, walked up to him and hugged him from behind: "Hey, come take a shower and change clothes first."
When he lowered his head, he put Xiao Yu's long wet hair on it. The sound of the piano stopped, and it broke on a half-stroked high note. There was no story to follow. Xiao Yu turned around and kissed Lin Yan's lips, and let him go after a long time. Putting his hand on the surface of the piano, he said softly, "Are you afraid of me?"
"Did you hear everything?"
Xiao Yu didn't deny it, Lin Yan sighed, touched the ghost's leg, let him make room for him, Lin Yan sat on Xiao Yu's lap and put his arms around his neck, and said wearily: "I'm afraid you don't want to I."
Xiao Yu wrapped his arms around his waist, and plucked the strings twice with the other hand. I don't know what the tune is. In the silent night, I just feel very sad. The rain stopped at some point, and a bright moon moved out from behind the dark clouds. Five hundred years The moon in front of me dripped a tear that gradually opened on the rice paper.
Lin Yan stared blankly at Xiao Yu. In the night, his face was like a sapphire sculpture. It was cold and stiff. No matter how gentle it was, it was a porcelain embryo wrapped in plastic. His heart felt cold. He was not an ordinary dead soul, he was a The life-suspecting ghost, returning to the human world for the first time, is full of hostility, and it takes blood on his hands to calm down the old anger. A soft meow came from the corner, Xiao Yu's fingertips trembled, Lin Yan raised his head to look at him, he suddenly found that Xiao Yu was actually terrifying, he was like a cat, agile, cold and untamable , Hiding in the dark and watching their prey, cats are willing to fall in people's arms never because of submission, who knows if they think that I can eat your body in one bite after you die
He has no ability to tame a ghost, and people are always weak in the face of darkness, but he refused to listen to persuasion and took a wrong step.
Lin Yan asked him tentatively: "Xiao Yu...how did you die?"
The ghost's eyes were filled with strange resentment for a moment, his eyebrows frowned, his fingers trembled slightly, and he breathed a sigh of relief after a while, shaking his head and said: "Killing with a gun, diving with a rope, there is always a way to die, I don't remember it very well." It is clear, it seems that I have only become sober since the last few days, and I have been walking in a daze before, and the things in my life have passed for too long."
A ghost who has been dead for a hundred years, returned to the world for the first time, unexamined, followed his instincts all the way forward, not knowing where he came from, not knowing where he was going, carrying the unwillingness and sadness of his previous life, and fled the world with a heavy burden on his back, and met a man out of thin air People, transfer the love and hatred in life to him, who knows what relationship he has with himself in life? Even if there is a relationship, after reincarnation, is the person still the same person
A bowl of soup from Granny Meng is God's most sincere sympathy for the weak as ants in the world. Knock on the wooden bowl to avoid loneliness in the next life. Who is like depression
Lin Yan curled up in Xiao Yu's arms, squinted his eyes and rubbed his neck, and said softly: "There is a kind of Japanese monster called Yu Nu, who stands alone in the rain, and meets a man who smiles at her and motions to share an umbrella." , she will follow him, and the man has been living in the damp ever since, and he will die in a short time."
"It's a very lonely monster." Lin Yan sighed.
"Wenu." Xiao Yu was not interested, and snorted through his nose.
Lin Yan kissed Xiao Yu's face, and suddenly became serious: "If we keep doing this, how long will I have?"
Xiao Yu stopped talking, Lin Yan was startled, and guessed, "One year?"
"Half a year?"
In the darkness, there was only an amplified heartbeat. Lin Yan grabbed Xiao Yu's hand and squeezed it tighter and tighter. The ghost hugged him, rubbed his cold fingers on his neck, shook his head and said, "Lin Yan, I shouldn't have come back with you, You still have relatives."
Lin Yan said in a daze, "I'm going to take a shower, slipped off Xiao Yu's lap, staggered towards the bathroom, turned on the shower without even taking off my clothes, the water was cold, and it was icy cold on my body, and there was a curtain of water in front of my eyes, What he wanted to see and what he didn't want to see were all blurred. Lin Yan sat on the ground leaning against the wall, cold water splashing down from the top of his head, he began to laugh wryly at himself, smiled and then covered his face and cried.
The door of the bathroom opened, Xiao Yu turned off the shower, pulled the dripping Lin Yan up from the ground, the two hugged each other, Lin Yan buried his face on Xiao Yu's shoulder, raised his head for a while, and said hoarsely: Aren't you fucking kidding me..."
"I have nothing to do with you. If you don't have anything to do with me, you have to pester me. It's all right now. I like you, but you don't want me anymore... Why are you in charge? Who are you?"
People have obsessions, ghosts have obsessions, who is more determined? Lin Yan quickly calmed down, touched the water on his face, and said in a deep voice: "Forget it, I admit it, I can't let you go anyway, let's start and end, I will help you realize your wish in life, be an unrestrained What a ghost to hang, jump off Huanyang Cliff and live a good life, don’t stay adrift, after decades or hundreds of years, finally the soul flies away, it’s too cruel.”
"Let's go back to Shanxi and go to the tomb. We can't find it in the books. There might be clues in the tomb." Lin Yan bit his lips, "The old man in the temple has already passed away. I'm afraid he will torment you again."
Xiao Yu shook his head and said, "Zheyangzhe with me."
Lin Yan smiled miserably: "I know, didn't you say that the 15th of July is the first time, we are limited to the Hungry Ghost Festival, if you have a clue, if you want to kill someone, repay a favor, or marry a wife, it's up to you. I don't care, if you can't find it , let’s act as if we didn’t know each other, okay?”
Warm steam was steaming in the bathroom. The two of them seemed to be very close, yet too far away to touch each other. They didn't even dare to look at each other. They each washed off their muddy bodies. A man behaves like a man, and a ghost behaves like a ghost. Lin Yan was cautious. The drenched clothes on Xiao Yu's body were completely taken off, and I just felt sad. The young master who thinks highly of himself can't even avoid a rainstorm in the city. The lonely soul downstairs, looking at the lights upstairs every day, can't wait for the person who opens the door.
Lin Yan buried his face in Xiao Yu's chest, and drew circles on his cold skin with his fingers: "Xiao Yu, if things can be done, will you remember me as a human being in your next life?"
"I will definitely come back."
Lin Yan smiled, and put his arms around his neck: "It will be almost twenty years, as long as you don't think I'm old by then, I will follow you."
Sometimes we open our eyes wide and think we see the world clearly, but in fact we don’t. The world is divided into black and white. No matter how hard we try, there will always be half hidden in the darkness.
There are some truths that only death can see.
Before going to bed, Lin Yan changed the time of his flight ticket online, and then called his parents. He only said that he was going to travel after the exam and that he was used to living alone. Lin Yan was sitting by the bed in a daze, when a cat meowed suddenly from behind, its fluffy body rubbed against his back like a baby, the little yellow cat occupied the other half of the double bed, staring at Xiao Yu vigilantly , the ghost's eyes were gloomy, one big and one small were angry at each other.
Lin Yan laughed so hard that he took the kitten out of the quilt and put it in the nest: "Good boy, you can only sleep here from now on."
Xiao Yu unceremoniously lay down on the vacated spot, Lin Yan came over to wrap him up, put his face on Xiao Yu's back, and murmured: "You are finally back."
"Turn around, I'll hug you to sleep." Xiao Yu broke Lin Yan's hand, Lin Yan shook his head, tightly wrapped his arms around his waist, and said softly, "I'm afraid that you will sneak away again as soon as I fall asleep."
The night is like a gentle blanket wrapping the two of them. Outside the window is a scorching moon after the rain, which is eerily bright. The two in the room embrace and sleep, unaware that they are stepping into a premeditated trap step by step. The person who collected the net was hundreds of kilometers away, nervously arranging something under the same moonlight.